Hey guys, I'm back!
NEWSFLASH: Have all of you been watching: Newlyweds: Nick and Jessica?"
If you haven't, you really should tune in to it. It coms on MTV at 10:30 EST on Tuesdays as far as I know. The newest episode was last tuesday at 10:30p.m. It's a half hour series. I don't know what I think of it right now, but hey, any excuse to see Nick Lachey on tv is good enough for me, lol.
I'm writing again, but don't expect the chapters to be out soon. I've reached a very difficult area in the story and in order to keep it going, I need to make sure that it makes sense this time around.
Now on with the story.
First of all, let me just say that this is my first time writing any kind of fiction like this.
DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this story.
If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality offends you, then please don't continue any further and leave.
NEWSFLASH: To those of you who don't already know, Nick Lachey and Jessica Simpson, in real life, have reconciled and are now husband and wife. I wish them all the best with their marriage and hope they live a long and happy life together.
If you want details about their wedding, check out the 98 Degrees Official Website at www.98degrees.com.
Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are.
"Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche. "69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt "Nick Lachey" by Ken. "98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night "The Reunion" by RinSong. "Loving Nick Lachey" by Jordan "Playing Doctor with 98 Degrees" by Brian
and finally: "This Gift" by Sprout
Now, I"ll let you get on with the story.
Enjoy.
Previously on "My Everything".....
Jessica's eyes welled up with tears. She knew she was coming to the part which broke her heart.
"Nick said he was going to leave for a while and he said that he wasn't sure when he would be back. But I didn't know that he was planning to just up and leave town without a word." She continued. "And when he picked up Nicole and said goodbye to her, he looked like he was about to lose it. Then he pulled me in with them and hugged us both like it was for the last time."
"Did he say anything that might give us a clue about where he was headed?" Drew asked.
Jessica shook her head.
"All he said before he left is to take care of Nicole and that he loves us both. Then he got in his car and took off."
And I just stood there in shock. I'd never seen Nick so emotional like that before. Then when I realized that there was something wrong, it was already too late to go after him. I couldn't leave Nicole."
"Of course not." Drew said, then frowned. "By the way, where is that cute little niece of mine anyway?"
"She's with your mom." Jessica told him. "I took her over a while ago before you guys landed. I didn't want her to see me like this. Besides, I thought that we needed to talk without any interruptions. And I was right considering the way I yelled at you and slapped you a few moments ago."
"It's alright, Jessica." Drew said. "You're forgiven. But I do feel partially responsible for Nick's disappearing like that."
"Drew, don't blame yourself." Jessica said, her tone starting to sound angry again. "It's not your fault. It's Sean fault that my husband is gone. If Sean hadn't have thrown the details of something so private in my husband's face, I think he'd still be here right now. He wouldn't have taken off."
"Jessica, come on." Danny said, coming to Sean's defense. "Sean didn't know that Nick would take off. If he had, he probably wouldn't have did what he did."
"DON"T DEFEND HIM, DANNY!" Jessica shouted. "I KNOW YOU STILL CONSIDER YOURSELF HIS FRIEND, BUT TRUST ME, HE DOESN"T DESERVE YOU OR YOUR FRIENDSHIP! HE IS A SORRY EXCUSE FOR A HUMAN BEING! LOOK WHAT HE'S DONE TO ME AND NICK, HE'S TORN US APART!"
Jessica wiped at the tears that where streaming down her face. Her hands were trembling from anger.
"I SWEAR IF I EVER GET MY HANDS ON HIM, I WILL KILL HIS SORRY ASS!" She screamed.
"THE HELL YOU WILL!!" A familiar voice shouted out.
Jessica, Kandi, and the rest of the guys all whipped around to face the owner of that voice.
********** CHAPTER 54 **********
Everyone's eyes widened when they saw who the owner of the voice was.
Sean?! Drew stuttered in surprise.
"Yeah, Drew, it's me. I said, an angry frown on my face as I shut the door behind me, after entering the house. "You didn't expect to see me again, did you?"
Drew was at such a loss for words that he didn't know what to say. But Jessica did.
"You have a hell of alot of nerve showing your face here after what you've done to me and my family!" Jessica said, angrily.
My eyes traveled from Drew to Jessica and I saw just how angry she was. But I was in no mood to fight with her.
"That's why I'm here, Jessica." I told her. "I thought I'd fly back to Los Angeles to help you and the guys find Nick and bring him back home."
Jessica rolled her eyes and shook her head as she turned away.
"We don't need your help, Sean." She said, coldly. "We are all perfectly capable of finding Nick on our own. Besides, you're the one who caused Nick to leave."
Now, I was getting mad. I refused to take any blame for Nick's actions since I didn't force Nick to take off.
"Don't you even think of going there, Jessica!" I said, harshly. "I didn't force Nick to leave. He did that all on his own, unfortunately for you!"
"Alright, you two." Jeff said, coming to stand in between Jessica and me to make sure that there would be no blood shed any time soon. "Calm down. We don't need to get into a shouting match here."
"Who's shouting? I asked, sarcastically, then added. "I didn't raise my voice. Jessica's the one out of control as usual."
"Why-" Jessica, started, with her hand up in the air like she was going to go for my throat. But then she put her arms down and just glared at me.
"Sean, what are you doing here anyway?" Drew suddenly asked. "I get the feeling that you weren't expecting to come here."
I looked Drew in the eyes and nodded.
"I didn't come to Los Angeles to see you guys, originally. I came to hang out with Ben Affleck for the weekend and to make up for lost time and see if we could get our friendship back." I told Drew.
"Oh, I see." Drew said, then turned away. "So, Ben gets to be your first priority over us, huh?"
I gave Drew a disappointed look.
"Drew, please don't be like that." I said to him. "You know that's not true."
He turned around and looked me in the eyes.
"How can you say that?" He asked me, dryly. "You didn't exactly give me or the rest of us first priority when you turned down my offer for us all to try again at being friends and to get along."
I frowned, wondering just how dense Drew was at that moment.
"Damn it, Drew!" I said, running my hand through my hair, in frustration. "Don't you understand that it's not that easy for me? I can't just forgive and forget what you guys did to me, just like that. So forgive me if I can't trust you guys just yet after they way you all disowned me and threw me out on the street."
"Sean, don't be so dramatic, hon." Kandi said. "We're not proud of that, but we are willing to give you another chance. You're just too stubborn to let all of that hurt go and see that we never meant to hurt you."
I was shocked that Kandi could call me stubborn and not understand why.
"Kandi, do you know how hard it is for me just to stand here and look at you guys without feeling all that anger come back again?" I asker her. "You guys know that I've been in hell these last few years. It took me over a year to recover and to start living again. I'd lost my will to live and thank god, Jake, saved me from that suicide attempt or I'd really have been pathetic."
"You already are pathetic!" Jessica snarled.
"You'd better watch your mouth, girl!" I warned her. "It's gonna get you in trouble if you keep it up!"
"Fuck you!" Jessica sneered.
Everyone looked at her in total shock, including myself. Jessica never used the "F" word and she always would reprimand Nick when he would say it since she didn't like it when he said it. This just proved the she was beyond pissed off."
"NO THANKS, I'D RATHER FUCK YOUR HUSBAND!!!" I screamed at her.
That did it. I heard everyone gasp in shock at what I'd said and I saw Jessica's mouth open in shock, but as soon as it sunk in what'd I'd said, she lunged for me so fast she caught Jeff, who was still standing between us, off guard.
"THAT'S IT, SEAN!" Jessica bellowed, as she tried to grab me, just before Jeff got ahold of her. "YOU GET THE HELL OUT OF MY HOUSE! AND YOU STAY THE HELL AWAY FROM ME AND MY FAMILY! AND MOST ESPECIALLY, MY HUSBAND!!!"
"Whoa, Jessica, take it easy!" Jeff shouted, trying to calm her down, even as she struggled against his strong hold.
"SOMEONE GET HIS FUCKING ASS OUT OF HERE!" Jessica screamed.
At the same moment Jessica started screaming, I felt someone grab my arm. In a matter of seconds, I was outside. I turned around and jerked my arm away from the person who had grabbed it: Drew.
"What the hell were you thinking saying that, Sean?" Drew asked me, with an angry look on his face.
I shook my head, still in shock.
"Drew, I'm just as shocked as you are that it came out like that." I told him.
And it was the truth. that outburst had come out of my mouth before I'd even thought of it. But it shouldn't have surprised me all that much. When you get upset like that, anything can come out that you don't mean to say. I just hoped that Drew would buy it."
Drew looked at me a moment and saw the stunned look was still on my face, so he nodded.
"Ok, I guess I believe you." He said, quietly. "But whether you meant to say that or not, you said it. And it's made things worse for Jessica. I think it might be best if you left now. Let us deal with the situation."
I nodded in agreement.
"I guess you're right, Drew." I murmured, softly. "I guess I won't be too much help now, huh?"
Drew's eyes shifted down to the floor, giving me all the answers I needed, without the words.
"You don't have to say anything, Drew." I said to him. "I already know what the answer is."
And with those words said, I turned to leave. I started walking toward the car.
"Sean, wait!"
I turned around to see Danny come out of the house behind me, with Jeff and Justin right behind him.
"What is it, Danny?" I asked him, curiously.
Danny walked up to me and stood in front of me.
"What's happened to us, man?" He asked me. "We used to be so close. Now we don't even talk to each other anymore. "Where did we go wrong?"
I looked at him, coldly.
"You know how it happened and where it went wrong." I replied. "I don't need to go through it again."
Danny just stood there, looking at me, his face showing that there was alot of turmoil going on within him.
"Well, I think I should go." I said. "Good-bye."
As I turned away once again, I felt Danny's hand grab mine and hold it. Before I turned around, I heard him speak.
"I would give anything to have you back in my life again, Sean." I heard him say. "Whatever it is that I have to do, please just tell me and I'll do it. I just want you back."
I turned around and looked him in the eyes. I could see the pain and lonliness that was within them. But was it enough to win him any sympathy from me?
"I want my best friend back." Danny said again. He sounded like he was ready to cry. But I was not about to cry with him.
I stood there, looking at Danny for a moment. Then I spoke, with no emotion in my face.
"Your best friend is dead. He died two years ago."
Danny's face crumpled and as I watched, he bit his lip to keep from sobbing, but that didn't stop the tears I saw in his eyes from falling.
Besides, Jeff is your best friend now." I told him. "You're better off without me, anyway. I'm sorry, Danny."
"Are you really?" Jeff said from behind Danny. He wasn't smiling either. He just looked angry.
"Yes, I am." I told him. "I didn't want any of this. But you all brought this on yourselves."
"And now, it's official." Danny said, his voice cracking. "I've lost my best friend for good."
He turned away from me and walked over to the steps and sat down on them, near Jeff's feet.
"Oh god, Jeff." Danny said, as he buried his face in his hands. "How am I gonna go on without him? How am I gonna go on?"
Jeff knelt down beside Danny and pulled him close to comfort him. Jeff looked back at me, his expression full of confusion and hurt, and shook his head in defeat.
Seeing Danny in pain was too much for Drew to bear and he turned back to me, his facial expressions matching Jeff's."
"You know, I look at you right now and I don't even know who you are anymore." Drew said, a hint of sadness in his voice. "Whoever this is is not the man I fell in love with, Not the man I shared my soul with when I made love to him, which was a mistake that I will have to learn to live with. And is not a man that I want to know, either. Now, please leave and don't bother coming back. You're no longer welcome to the house. And the rest of us will have absolutely nothing to do with you from this day forward.
I stood there, taking in every word he said, my emotions closed off.
Drew continued.
"I just hope that one day you'll come to understand my love for my friends, your ex-best friend, and my family, because that's the only reason I'm doing this."
He turned and headed towards the house. When he got to the steps, where Danny and Jeff were sitting, he turned back and looked at me one last time.
"Good-bye Sean." He said, the tone in his voice, indicating that he had given up on me and was ready to commit to a future without me.
With those last words, he walked up the steps and into the house and never once looked back.
Jeff and Danny got up too and Jeff entered the house. Before Danny went in, he turned and looked back at me, his face all serious. I looked right back.
We stood there for what seemed like an eternity, but in reality it was only for a minute. Then he said his final words:
"I give up." He said, his voice monotone. "If you don't want to try, or are not interested in trying..........
My forehead crinkled, as my face started to show the first signs of emotion since I'd arrived there.
"Then maybe it's time I stop." Danny finished.
And with that said, he opened the door and walked into the house, leaving me standing there in the yard, alone.
I turned around and walked over to my car and got in it. As I started the ignition, I looked up one last time at the house where I'd once lived and shared alot of great memories with as well.
I drove away and headed for Ben's place.
******************************************************* BACK INSIDE THE LACHEY HOUSE..........
Is Sean gone?" Kandi asked, as Drew, Jeff, and Danny walked into the living room.
"Yes." Drew said. "And this time he's gone for good."
Justin didn't say anything, he just nodded.
"Well, you guys, I'm exhausted, so I'm going to turn in." Danny said, as he headed for the stairs.
"Are you alright, Danny?" Jessica asked him, concern showing in her face.
"I will be fine." Danny said. "In time. Goodnight."
"Goodnight, Danny." Drew said, quietly.
Danny started going up the stairs to one of the guest bedrooms. halfway up, he turned around.
"Jeff, are you coming?" He asked.
"I'll be up in a minute, baby." Jeff said, lovingly. "Until then, keep that bed warm for me."
Danny smiled widely for the first time that night.
"You bet I will, sexy."
He then went upstairs to the bedroom, leaving Jeff downstairs with everyone else.
"Keep an eye on him, Jeff." Justin said. "Sean's coldness really did him in this time."
"Justin's right, Jeff." Drew said. "He might go into a depression like you did after the way Danny treated you all those years ago."
Jeff could see that everyone was serious about this and that had him worried.
"Well, I'm going to go up and join Danny now." Jeff said.
Everyone else bid him goodnight and Jeff went upstairs to bed.
"Are you sure Danny really needs to be kept an eye on? Jessica asked Kandi and Justin and Drew, who were sitting nearby. "He seems to be strong enough to handle anything."
"Yes, but even he has his limits, honey." Kandi said. "He could be more vulnerable than any of us know right now."
"I just hope Danny realizes that he is better off without Sean in his life if Sean could treat him like that." Drew said.
"Well, I think we all need to get some shuteye now." Jessica suggested, as she stifled a yawn.
Everyone else agreed with Jessica and headed off to their bedrooms.
******************************************************* BEN'S HOUSE.............
I pulled into Ben's driveway and shut off the ignition. I climbed out of the car and locked it. Shutting the doors behind me, I walked up to his door and rang the doorbell.
The door opened and there was Ben, dressed in black cargo pants and a nice white dress shirt. When he saw me, he did a double take.
"Sean?!" He asked, his eyes wide.
"Yep, it's me. In the flesh." I said, as I greeted him. "Now, do I get a hug?"
Ben leaned forward and grabbed me up into a bone crushing hug.
"How have you been doing lately, Sean?" Ben asked me.
I was suddenly feeling very tired and I wasn't gonna stay awake much longer.
"Ben, would it be alright if we caught up tommorrow?" I asked him. I'm so exhausted right now, I just want to get some sleep."
"Sure." He said, stepping aside to let me in. He told me to go upstairs and get comfortable while he went to get sheets and blankets for the bed.
I walked into the little room and sat down on the bed, thinking about Drew's earlier conversation with me.
"Could Drew be right?" I asked myself. "Could I really not be who I used to be?"
I laid down on the bed as I waited for Ben to bring the blankets.
I must really have been exhausted, because I was asleep before my head even hit the pillow.
TBC.......?
Well that's it for this installment. I will work on the next one as soon as I can.
"What happens next?" Oh, if you only knew!"
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