This is a true story. I have decided to keep some of the names as they are. Some I have changed because they are truly innocent. The only thing to remember is that this is only my side of the story. Maybe the perspective of the others is quite different. Then again, I have a feeling they'll never talk about it.
I intend to write about other experiences that I have had, but only if I hear back from enough people. I am not going to say how many that will take, but enough to show that there is an interest.
The Mental Games People Play Series: ------------------------------------
Lee's Game: part 1 of 2
Chapter 1
Cindy and I decided to go to the Menagerie to play pool. She's my best friend, despite the fact that I dated her husband for a while. When it didn't work out, she and I stayed friends. Yeah, I know, it's weird that she didn't care that I was sleeping with him. She knew when she married him that he was into guys. He had taken me to a Gay Pride party in Long Beach to meet her. She and I talked for hours.
I told her that if my dating him was going to be a problem, I would back off. She told me that she really didn't have a problem with it. That just about floored me. We both figured out really quickly that we were both very much alike personality-wise. We also figured out that this is why her husband was so attracted to me. I was a male version of her. As far as her body, I was her opposite. I guess it turned him on. We also realized pretty quickly what his motives were for having us meet. He wanted to make her jealous. He thought that I matched her personal taste in men and that he could flaunt me under her nose. He hoped that we would end up hating each other and fighting over him. Take a guess at what really happened. We got along great. We had no interest in each other physically and his whole plan backfired in his face.
We dated for a few months and then I confronted him with the fact of how alike she and I were. He denied it emphatically and broke up with me to try and get me to shut up. The minute he did that, Cindy handed me a key to the house and said that I was welcome to come over any time. Right in front of him. She and I went to Disneyland for the weekend around Labor Day, if I remember right. We had a blast. Our friendship was really strong. He was just plain puzzled by the whole situation. We let him stay that way.
After a few more months, he got used to it. She and I started going to the only gay bar in the county to play pool. It's really the only reason I go to any bar. I play pool and discretely watch guys. I am not big on one-night stands or even dating for that matter. So, Cindy and I played pool for awhile, then sat at the bar and drank. She had beer, while I had a wine cooler. Our friend Rich came over to talk.
We had been going to this bar about every other weekend. Rich played pool and I got to know him. Nice guy. This particular night he wasn't playing pool. He was hanging around the dance floor with some friends of his. One of them caught my eye. Really cute. Blond hair neatly cut. Greenish blue eyes that twinkled. A short goatee framed his mouth. He was about 5'8" with broadish shoulders. Like I said, really hot looking. Apparently I was not discrete enough with my staring. Cindy had noticed who I was watching. So had Rich. They both began to egg me on, trying to get me to go over and talk with this guy. Rich told me his name was Lee. I flat out refused. Like I said before, I really wasn't interested in anything at this point.
Cindy got up and went over to talk with Lee. Rich went with her. I didn't pay much attention. I watched the couple playing pool while we were waiting our turn. They weren't bad players. Abruptly I realized that Lee was standing there in front of me. Those scoundrels had talked to Lee and sent him over. God, was I embarrassed. He asked me to dance and I was almost ready to refuse out right. I can't dance. I have no sense of balance and would only look like a fool. Lee ended up being every persuasive. His voice was as sexy as he was. I let him convince me that it would be OK.
So, we danced for a while. I nearly did fall on my butt, but that was OK too. Lee caught me and made sure I got my balance back. After that we just sat and talked. We stayed until the bar closed. Cindy and Rich both had a very smug satisfied look. Cindy drove the 4 of us from the bar to a Denny's. On the way over, Lee kissed me in the back seat. He's an amazing kisser by the way. Suddenly, Cindy laughed. She told us to knock it off already; we were fogging up the windows. We looked and sure enough, the windows were almost white with moisture. We all talked at Denny's till the sun finally came up. Lee and I exchanged phone numbers. With a final kiss good night (Morning), from Lee, Cindy stuffed me in the car to drive me home. I told her that I wasn't sure that I was going to forgive her for putting me on the spot like that. She just laughed. Go with the flow was her advice.
Lee actually did call me later that day. We talked for about 2 hours. I found myself really liking him. He wanted me to come over to place the following Friday to meet his roommate and best friend. I agreed reluctantly. Still felt wrong somehow.
Chapter 2
I went to Lee's apartment the next Friday. His roommate was there with his current boyfriend too. The boyfriend was drop dead gorgeous! Made my heart thump hard just looking at him. I think his name was Eric. I can't remember Lee's roommate's name. We did the small talk thing for a while. Then the roommate left with his boyfriend.
Lee and I stayed in the living room talking for what seemed like hours. He let me know that he had lost his job this week and wasn't sure what he was going to do about it yet. He had already started looking for another one, but it was looking pretty bleak. I told him that I really didn't care about that. We ended up having another heavy kissing bout. Finally I put my hands on his chest and pushed him away. I wasn't ready to go far yet. He seemed to be pretty disappointed but didn't push the issue.
I went home. Had some pretty hard-core dreams that night. They were full of highly erotic scenes centered around Lee. I woke up the next day all sweaty. I think that I might have been falling in love with him a little. I was not too happy about it. As much as I like him, I had misgivings. Nothing I could put a finger on though.
I called Cindy to see if I could talk it out. She was supportive but told me little. She absolutely refused to tell me what she had told Lee when she had gone over to talk with him at the bar. She advised me to enjoy the process of getting to know him and to go with the flow. I gave myself a mental shrug and accepted that advice. I told her that we had made plans to play in the pool tournament on Sunday and was she going? She told me that she and her husband were taking the kids down to see her parents for the weekend. They wouldn't make it back in tine for the tournament, so no, don't expect her. She wanted to be kept updated on the progress of the relationship though and to give her a call at work Monday night.
Cindy had been working nights for a while. We had gotten in the habit of me calling her at work around 11:00pm. It was slow then and she could talk pretty freely. We always had a blast. It helped her through the long nights and we stayed up to date with each other's lives. Many a secret was passed back and forth during those late night conversations. Since they are secrets, I won't give them away. Even though my friendship with her has ended a long time ago, it just wouldn't be right to give them to others. Sorry, but no can do.
I had Sunday off. I went over to Lee's to pick him up. He was just coming out of the shower and asked me to wait for him in his room. It was pretty bare. He had a bed and a dresser. That's it. There were no pictures up or anything. Just a lot of empty space. I sat on his bed and waited for him. The blank walls just screamed to be stared at. So, I did.
He came in while still toweling himself down. What a body! He let the towel fall and stood there. I was openly staring. Like I said before, he was pretty sexy. His stomach was flat and he had a barrel chest. Wide shoulders topped that chest. Not heavily muscled, but not flabby either. As I went down his body with my eyes, he laughed. Apparently, having me examine him like he was a commodity turned him on. He began aroused quickly. He was cut and about 6 inches. His ballsack was smooth. He was looking at my crotch while I was almost drooling over him. It gave him ideas.
He came and sat on the bed. Then I was kissed like I have never been kissed before. I thought my brain was gonna burst or something. While he kissed me, his fingers played with the waistband of my jeans. Pop went the top button. Down went the zipper. I wasn't wearing any underwear that day. He reached into my pants and set me free. I was already rock hard and very willing. He pulled my T-shirt off over my head. I have to say that I was breathing pretty hard by this point.
He pulled my pants down to my knees. My hands were wandering all across his back. At the same time, we both decided to go for it. Our heads started to bend at the same time and cracked together at the forehead. Ouch, that hurt bad. We laughed and changed position. He leaned over me while pushing me back onto the mattress. I took him into my mouth while he did the same to me. Sucking him in, I found that I was managing not to choke. A first for me. Usually I choke at some point during a blowjob that I am giving. This isn't the case nowadays, but it certainly was at that time. I wrapped my tongue around his shaft and licked. I am really glad I had my tonsils out when I was 4. I got him halfway down my throat before I hit his pubic hair with my nose. I can smell the soap he used during his shower. It was kinda like after-shave. One of those designer scented soaps, I guess. Loved it.
He was sucking at my erection like it was his only way to live. Seems he had no trouble going down on me, at all. He would give a slight twist to his head as he came up. His hand around the base of my shaft was firm but not painful. I gasped when he let up and began sucking on my balls. It must have felt weird for him. I still had him in my mouth when I did that. While he worked on my balls for a while, I began to lift and drop his hips with my arms. Lee really got into that. I could feel tremors running along his entire body. Mine wasn't exactly still either. He was sucking on me again with me thrusting my hips up into his face.
When I began to get too close to exploding in his mouth, I let him loose and warned him. He released me from his mouth and jacked me furiously. I did explode then. Managed to nail him right in his face. While I was in the throws of short-lived bliss, he came all over my chest. After we got our breath back, he reached down and got the towel off of the floor. He cleaned us both up.
We still had a few hours till the tournament, so he told me to rest. I guess I looked pretty wiped out at that point. I agreed and pulled up my jeans. He told me to take the bed and he would finish some stuff around the house. Must have drifted off to sleep. Suddenly, I was sitting up and feeling really groggy.
Lee was sitting on the very edge of the bed looking startled. He had shaken my shoulder to wake me. I had jumped clear off of the bed and landed sitting up. It has to do with some things in my past that I will not go into here. Let's just say that it is not a wise choice to touch me when I sleep. Fortunately I hadn't struck out at him in my sleep. I explained what had happened when my head cleared up a bit. He seemed to accept what I said and was sympathetic.
I got my shirt on and we left for the pool tournament. We didn't do too badly, but we didn't place either. I didn't care. I met a couple of his other friends, including one by the name of Marvin. He was a really nice guy. The evening passed pleasantly enough. When the bar closed, I drove Lee home. I kissed him good night and went home myself.
On Monday night, I called Cindy like I had promised. She asked about how things had gone. She wanted the gory details. So I gave them to her. God knows, she gave me details of her conquests. She and her husband were planning on a divorce. Anyways, she really grilled me on how I felt about Lee. I told her I wasn't quite sure yet, but that I really liked him. She got quiet and then moved onto other things. I finally hung up and went to bed myself.
Chapter 3
Toward the end of the following week, I took Lee to meet my Mom. I had told her that I was dating someone again. She wanted to meet him. I have taken a few of my boyfriends to meet her, but not many. She is very critical of my choices. I guess that comes from being an ex-marine Jewish mother. No one is quite good enough for her eldest. She had even played matchmaker once. After just a week, she changed her mind about the guy she had set me up with. Talk about fickle. It wasn't until I met my husband that she actually approved of anyone I dated. Not that this had much of am effect on my dating. I just got lucky that the man I ended up loving and staying with met her high standards! Met mine too!
She was nice enough to Lee. The usual polite conversation followed. We didn't really stay long. She did seem to frighten him though. Some of the questions she asked made him uncomfortable. They had to do with how he felt about me, in a subtle way. I grant this, Mom has eagle sight and doesn't miss much. While we walked to the car, she whispered to me. She wanted me to be careful with this one. She was troubled about something, but wouldn't say anything else.
While I drove us home, Lee startled me. He told me that my Mom creeped him out. When I asked what he meant, he refused to answer. I thought about it all the way to his house. I kept trying to figure out what was happening between those two. It was almost like a line in the sand had been drawn right in front of me while I wasn't looking. It just didn't make sense. Lee seemed to be deep in thought. I could practically feel the waves of confusion and doubt washing off of him. I tried to reassure him that everything was all right. It didn't work. The more I tried to draw out what was going on in his head, the more close lipped he got.
Finally we got to his house. We sat for a while in the car. I told him that I was beginning to care for him. I also said that I was concerned about how he was feeling. He asked me what I thought he was feeling. So I told him. I told him that he was falling in love, but that it was fast for him. That he was confused by that and was thinking that it might be a good idea to put the brakes on things for a while. He stared at me with his mouth hanging open. I had nailed it.
He sat without saying anything for a few minutes and then nodded. I smiled and then kissed him good night. He got out and went upstairs to his apartment. I sat in my truck watching him go. Once his door closed, I drove off. I took the long way home to give me time to think. Something was up. I just had no idea what it might be. In the past, I had never paid much attention to what my Mom said about my boyfriends. This time, it was different. The vibes were off. I just couldn't place where.
In the middle of the week, Lee called and asked me to come over. He sounded upset. I told him I would be over in about an hour. When I got there, his roommate left. Eric was also there. Lee gave Eric a strange look as he left. Now that we were alone, Lee sat us both on the couch to talk.
Lee started off by telling me that he still hadn't found a job. I shrugged. Not much I could say to that. He then told me that he had decided to move back to Lompoc with his parents. Lompoc is about fifty miles above Santa Barbara. Since we were in Riverside, it meant that he was moving over a hundred and fifty miles away. I felt like an ice pick was jabbing into my chest. I took a deep breath and asked if he needed any help with the move. I offered to drive him up to Lompoc. I could drop him off and then go visit some relatives I had in Santa Barbara on the way back.
He looked a little stunned at my offer. I smiled and explained. Hey, he had to do what he thought best for himself. Yeah, I was disappointed, but hey, that's life. I was filling to be content with the time I had left with him. He offered to pay for the gas on the trip. I accepted. We talked for a while longer, and then I went home. I started crying. It didn't last long though.
Chapter 4
The next weekend ended up a complete disaster. It started off innocently enough but went downhill. We had decided to go see a movie on Friday night. I can remember which one. "Point of no Return", with Bridgett Fonda. I took him to my favorite Chinese restaurant. My Mom knew the owner.
Mrs. Wang asked after my Mom. I told her how she was doing and that all was well. At the mention of my mother, Lee looked disturbed. I broke off the conversation with Mrs. Wang and we sat down. After that, dinner was OK. I couldn't really concentrate on the food. Kept thinking about the fact that Lee would be gone in less than three weeks. We didn't talk much as we ate. That was fine by me. We left to go to the movie.
On the drive over something really weird happened. We had gotten to talking about something totally inane. I had brought up that most people reminded me of different types of animals. I mentioned a past boyfriend that made me think of otters. All playful and such. Loved swimming too. I hadn't told Lee about my personal spirituality. We hadn't been dating long enough. I just told him that I was into shamanism and left it at that. He had never asked me anything about it.
Naturally, he wanted to know what he reminded me of from the animal kingdom. Duh! Should have known he'd ask. I thought about it for a while and then answered him. He reminded me of a cute little raccoon. A bushy ring-tailed, masked thief of hearts. Lee almost exploded when I said that. He was really pissed. I couldn't understand why he was upset. I asked him what the hell was wrong? He really objected to being called a thief of any kind. He was absolutely emphatic about it. Wow! Such a strong reaction. I just shut up and didn't say anything else until we got to the theater.
I liked the movie. A lot! He thought it was OK. Lee wanted to know why I liked it so much. I really didn't have much of an answer. I really identified with the choice she had to make at the end of the movie. The scene where she walks away from the man she loves to save him. It moved me deeply. Lee blew up again. What the hell?!? Now what? He would not say anything the rest of the way to his house. OK. I was puzzled but left it alone. I asked if he wanted me to go up with him. He said yes, so up we went.
Chapter 5
His roommate wasn't home, so we had the place to ourselves. Lee led me by the hand to his bedroom. He had rearranged the room so the bed was now in the exact center. It had been really hot that day and we both had been perspiring pretty heavily, even though it was now late. He asked if I wanted to take a shower with him. Sure, no problem.
The shower itself was actually uneventful. Lee was certainly not body shy. We took a shower together but didn't do much horseplay. It did give us an excuse to really look at each other to our hearts' content. Other than that, it was hands off by unspoken agreement. I finished and got out. He told me that he would be a while longer. Then I got quite a shock. He told me that when he finished shaving, he would meet me in his room. That wasn't the shock. It was where he said he was shaving. It never occurred to me that the smoothness of his scrotum wasn't natural. Wow! He has more cojones than I do. No way is a razor going anywhere near my nuts!
I went into his bedroom and laid down on his bed on my side facing the bathroom. I had left the door open when I left the bathroom and could see him in the shower from his bed. It was kind of erotic to watch him shave himself. He was so slow and careful. Not a nick or scratch, which only comes with long practice. When he was done, he rinsed his whole body again and turned off the water. Stepping out of the shower, he glanced my way with a smile. He looked really sexy. Dragging out the moment, he slowly toweled off. He was perfectly aware of me watching him from his bed.
When he finished drying off, he wandered into the bedroom. He just stood there and looked at me. I guess I was getting the same examination that I had given him. This was the first time he had seen me completely nude. He flipped the light switch in the bathroom and then the only light was from the streetlight outside his window. He walked around his bed and climbed up onto it with me. I turned toward him and just waited to see what would happen.
He reached out and stroked my chest with a fingertip. I shivered a little with the sensation it made. He then drew that finger along my side down my flank. Goosebumps rose in the wake of that tingling path. I let my own hand wander around his chest. I went downward with my hand and grasped him firmly around his erection. He moved in closer to me and began to kiss the base of my throat. Sucking hard, I ended up with a hickey there the next day. While he was doing it, I also went into spasms. It felt really good. I usually don't let people near my neck. I seem to be really sensitive in that region.
He whispered in my ear that he wanted me to fuck him. I was willing to oblige by now. He reached out to the floor next to his side of the bed and picked up a tube of lube. He squirted out some onto his hand and got himself ready. He then pumped my erection several times with his slick hand. Lee turned onto his stomach and then pulled his knees up under him. He made a truly tempting target in that position. I got up behind him and ran my hands over his back. His skin was so soft. I then dragged my hands down his back to his ass. The muscles there were taunt from kneeling. I leaned into him, sliding my tongue up his spine. He shivered. When I reached his neck, my erection was up against his nuts. Breathing a little more heavily now, I teased the target he presented. I let myself slide up and down the valley his muscles created. He did a combination of growl and whimper. He told me in a husky whisper to fuck him. Hey, who am I to say no?
I placed the tip against his hole and held it there. I told him to push back with his ass. He paused for a minute and then began to push back. I really wanted to see him impale himself on me of his own free will. When he had the head of my penis only half way in, he stopped for a second. After that pause, he shoved back hard. It popped right in then. He gasped and went still yet again. I held perfectly still and waited for him to relax those really tight ass muscles of his. After a while I could feel him loosen up slightly. I began to push forward into him now. It felt great. Once I reached his balls with mine he let his knees move further apart. This maneuver dropped us lower and lower. Once he was lying flat on the mattress, he wiggled, causing his erection to rub against the bed.
I began to move back out now. I picked up speed and rhythm. His ass was tight and hot around my impaling shaft. His internal muscles began to grip me on the in strokes. Nobody had ever done that to me before. What an amazing feeling it caused. He was moaning as I really began pounding into him. The force of my body slamming into him moved his torso upwards. Since he was lying flat now, his penis was probably getting friction burn from the sheet on the bed. Meanwhile, the pressure inside my nuts was building an unbearable point. I tired to hold back as long as I could. When it just wasn't possible any more, I let go and exploded into the furthest reaches of his ass. I kept slamming into him. He was gasping as this happened. I slowed down and then stopped, still buried deep in him. When I had gone down to semi-hard, I pulled out of him. That sensation was also pretty damn good. It almost hurt.
He had not shot his load when I did and I knew that I wanted him to fuck me. I told him to go for it. I too went down on my stomach and raised my ass slightly. Instead of immediately reaching for the lube, he buried his face in my upraised ass. His tongue licked circles around the opening. Then he gently and patiently began to probe inward. I released the muscles and let him in. It felt weird. He was the first person to do this and I was unsure what it entailed. The sensations began to build within me. He kept it going for minutes at a time before coming out for air and then his breath on that region of skin tingled.
When he finally tired of that game, he started the next. He put some lube on his hands and went to work on me. He placed one finger in me. Then he rocked it back and forth a small ways. Suddenly, he plunged into me until his thumb rested against my tailbone. I could feel his finger run along my prostate. I immediately got hard again. Then he slipped in a second finger. It felt tight now. Still made me jump though. After a time, a third finger joined the others. Now it hurt. I think I actually squeaked from the back of my throat. He let his fingers rest for a bit and then began moving them again. After a few minutes of this he pulled them all out. Something else replaced them. Something quite a bit larger than 3 fingers. He went slowly with me. As gently as he could, he pushed forward and down into my ass. Then he stopped when half of him was in me.
He just rested a moment. I think to give me time to adjust. With seconds, the pain was gone. I lifted my hips a bit and shoved hard back into him. I was astonished at how he felt inside of me. It was great! I could feel my entire body heating up, especially my face and neck. Waves tingled out from my insides as he began to furiously pound away at my ass. I braced myself on my elbows and kept pace with him. I quickly got the pattern down. With the motion I added to his, it was like getting fucked extra hard. I lost track of time from this point on. It went on forever. I wanted it to.
I reached up between my legs and cupped his balls in my hand as he impacted on my butt. It drove him wild. After a while, I stopped and began to stroke myself in time with his pounding. Within minutes, I was spraying all over his sheets, my stomach and chest too. My release had tightened me around his shaft and he blew his wad right after mine. He pumped in and out a few more times then collapsed onto my back. I was as tired as he was. Down I went, straight into my own cum. Heh heh, I flipped myself over and he fell on his side.
We just lay there for a while to catch our breath. I got up off of the bed to get cleaned up. I took another shower while he stayed on the bed and watched. I guess he was thinking about something. When I got out, he took one himself. I got dressed and waited for him to finish. When he finally came out, he pulled on a pair of pants and a shirt. We went back into the living room. The final set up for the game he was playing was about to come. I just didn't have all the pieces yet or even realize I was in a game.
To be continued... ------------------------------------------------------
I will finish this story in part 2. My plan is to write about the various mental games I have encountered with various people. Each story will have it's own sub-name under the Mental Games People Play title. If you think it is worth continuing with additional stories, email me at VanyelAshkev@aol.com