"Matthew's Journal"
Guten Tag!!! I thought that I would start by thanking all who replied! I am sorry that it took longer than my usual week. I try to post them on Sundays but I fell a little behind with having to work full time and with my attempt at having a social life! I should get the next part out on my previous schedule due to the fact that Mom is going out of town for the weekend and Dad is taking my sister so I should have peace and quiet all weekend. Anyway, I have had a lot of request for a bio of myself so I'll tell you a little about myself. Each time I'll add a little more for those of you who care!
My name is anonymous, though it is one of the names in the story but I cannot tell you which one. AND NO IT IS NOT MATT NOR IS IT JAMES!!!! I am 19 years old. I am a waiter at a local Italian restaurant here in good old Milwaukee, Wisconsin. That is all you really need to know about me for now!!!
I would also like to take this opportunity to thank someone for all the encouragement they have given me. I'd also like to thank him for helping me get myself back in one piece, especially when I needed it the most!!! You know who you are! You are a very special person in my life right now and I just really wanted to thank you! SO THANK YOU!!! If only we were closer together...
And the usual applies. No one under 18 should read this story and if you don't like love stories between two high school males then you should not be here.
Disclaimer: Any similarity to real people or events is sheer coincidence. All the characters are molded after real people in my life but the names, faces, and places have been changed to protect the innocent!
And now.
Part 3- "All Is Not as it Seemed"
Okay a little Recap of last chapter...
Matt just got home from work and was making his way to his room to change... AND NOW THE CONCLUSION!!! (Hey I said little!!! LOL!)
September 4, 1999 Saturday (Continued)
I opened the bedroom door and couldn't believe my eyes... All I could get to come out of my mouth was "OH MY GOD!" I just couldn't fucking believe my eyes. Joe and Eric were both lying on my bed. NO BIG DEAL RIGHT? WRONG!!! Here I had just walked in on my brother giving my best friend's brother a blowjob! They were both naked on my bed!!!!
After the door flung open and I stood there for a minute with my jaw dragging on the floor, Eric and Joe frantically covered each other up.
"I can explain," Eric said.
"I doubt it!" I replied.
"I didn't want you to find out this way."
"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked starting to cry. I don't know why but the tears began to flow.
"Get some clothes on, we need to talk," I calmly said trying to regain my composure.
They both began to throw their clothes back on. Joe was extremely quiet. Eric seemed to be okay, but Joe seemed scared out of his mind. I was definitely feeling very strangely right now. I don't know if it was the fact that I had just walked in on my brother having sex or if it was the fact that he was gay and didn't have the heart to tell me.
"I'm sorry Matt," Eric said when he finished putting his clothes on. "I wanted to tell you but I couldn't bring myself to do it."
"Why? It isn't like it is a big deal. I am gay too," I retorted.
"I guess I was just afraid. Afraid of what you'd think."
"But why? It isn't a big deal. I'm your brother for Christ's sake! You can talk to me about anything!"
"I know I am sorry..."
We spent the next few hours talking and discussing the situation. The bond between us grew a lot last night. When all was said and done Eric, Joe and I discussed who we thought was cute at school. We discussed hot actors and whatnot. We actually had a lot of fun. But all to soon it had gotten late and it was time to hit the hay.
Now Eric and I share bunk beds. On the bottom is a full size bed with the twin- sized bed above. I had the bottom bunk and he had the top. Well tonight Eric and Joe decided to sleep on the top bunk, together. Must be nice to have someone to sleep with I thought as I fell asleep. I awoke a few hours later to sounds above me. I could only assume what was going on above me. I almost wanted to get up and look at what was going on. I was starting to get hard. What the hell I was thinking, I do not know. It was my brother having sex above me! So instead of taking care of the raging hard on I had I attempted to go back to sleep. However, Eric and Joe would not allow that. They kept getting louder and louder. So I began coughing to let them know that I was awake. Eric hung his head over and said:
"Enjoying the show?"
All I could do was start laughing. They both busted out laughing above me. After another minute I fell asleep. I awoke only to see Joe my brother sitting at my pc looking at gay porn. I guess they didn't have to hide that kind of stuff from me anymore.
My how one day can change the life you thought you had...
September 5, 1999 Sunday
Well I just thought I'd write a short little entry tonight. I am getting tired. There is no school tomorrow but I don't have plans to do anything exciting. Tomorrow is our Labor Day picnic. This will be boring as usual. Okay I am going to bed now.
September 9, 1999 Thursday
It was just another normal day in my life. I went to school and did the whole normal routine. The only difference was that I had to deal with some making out and some "heavy" petting in my room. It is cool and all that my brother is gay but Joe and him need to get a fucking room. They don't need to rub it in my face. Joe, Eric, and I had a discussion about how to tell Hope about their relationship. We didn't really come up with a good plan. However, based on the fact that she knew about me, my guess is that she knows about Eric and Joe.
September 10, 1999 Friday
Only one more week till my 18th birthday. I cannot wait! Today was a normal day. I went to school and I did all the usual things. But tonight, TONIGHT was awesome!!! Hope, Scott, Eric, Joe, James (sigh), and I went to the park tonight. This was a Friday night tradition that Hope and I had begun sophomore year.
We usually just go there to drink. However tonight was a special night. James had decided to get us all some weed. Now I am not a pothead nor do I ever go looking for it, but if it is there I do it. So we all sat at the park in our special place drinking. When James pulled out not one but two joints!! So we all smoked.
Afterwards as the party started to break up and everyone was heading home James asked me to go for a walk with him. I tried not to seem to enthusiastic but Hope saw that I was. We started walking through the park. We walked slowly and quietly. I wondered why he had asked me to go for a walk.
"Matt," he said, "I want to know what that fight was all about last weekend at Hope's party."
"OH SHIT!" I thought. At this point I was pretty fucked up so I had a hard time fighting the urge to just tell him.
"Well," I began, "It is a really long story. It is a story that I don't really want to go into. I know that we've kind of become friends and all but this is a personal matter."
"That's okay," He replied, "I guess it isn't that important. I guess I just thought it was more that what it seemed."
"Oh," I said. That was all I could get to come out of my mouth. I was in shock. Was it that obvious that there was more there than what it seemed? I didn't think so. Even Hope said it didn't.
"Matt," James said.
"Yes?"
"How come you and Hope never hooked up?"
This guy is on a roll! He is asking all the big questions.
"We've always been friends. We decided long ago not to ruin that."
I lied thru my teeth on that one. I only did because I have yet to figure out if he is gay or not.
"I see," James replied.
We spent the next hour making small talk. We talked about school and our teachers. We just talked. Then we started a conversation on girls. Who we thought was pretty, who was ugly, so on and so on. At this point I am sure that he is straight. Oh well life goes on!
September 16, 1999 Thursday
This has been a rather uneventful week. There really hasn't been much to write about. I spent a lot of time this week with James. We've started becoming close friends. On Tuesday we went out for pizza with Eric and Joe. Eric didn't like this idea because he and Joe had to behave then.
I really got to know him this week. He told me all about his family and his old school. I learned that he had one brother that was living with his girlfriend here in Milwaukee. I found that odd because James and his family lived in Appleton (Appleton is a city about a 3 hour drive north of Milwaukee by Green Bay). I came to learn that his brother was here for college. His brother goes to the University of Wisconsin here in Milwaukee. He also informed me that his parents no longer talk to his brother because of it.
He told me all about his old house and his old high school. However, he never did mention anything about a girlfriend... That really has me thinking.
I better get to bed. They are having a surprise birthday party for me tomorrow at Hope's house. I know it is supposed to be a surprise but no one can keep secrets from me. Well I am going to go to sleep now.
TO BE CONTINUED!
So what do you think? It is my first crack at writing fiction so feedback is welcome. The next part should be an interesting one. Matt is going to have a birthday party... HMM, I wonder what will happen next!!! Oh and by the way... There will be a narration shift coming up in part 4... The Journal was only the opening... You'll see what I am getting at in part 4!!!!! As always you can email me at W8er1@yahoo.com. Please let me know what you thought.