"Matthew's Journal"
Hey everyone. This is the first story I've ever written for Nifty. I hope it is enjoyable. There is no sex in this part but I promise by part three there should be something sexual that happens. Anyway I hope you enjoy the story.
And the usual applies. No one under 18 should read this story and if you don't like love stories between two high school males then you should not be here.
Part 1- Love at First Sight
August 1999
August 25, 1999 Wednesday
Today I have decide to keep this journal so that years in the future I may look back on my senior year of high school and remember all the good and bad times. Tomorrow is the first day of school and I am not really looking forward to it.
Well I decided I might as well begin by writing about my life so far. My name is Matthew James Neumann. I am 17 years old and turn 18 in September. I have a younger brother Eric, who is 15, a younger sister Megan who is 12, and my little sister Holly who is 8. The four of us are very close but there is something that only Eric knows about me. I am gay and have known since I was 12, but I'll save that story for later. I am 6 feet tall and about 160 lbs. I have brown hair and blue eyes. I live in the city of Milwaukee in Wisconsin. I like it here but wish I lived somewhere else. I've lived here my entire life.
I go to school at Milwaukee Lutheran Academy with Eric. I hate it there because the Lutheran religion says that Homosexuality is a sin. I am in the band there, but that is the extent of my extra-curricular activities. I hate sports to no end but have watched every football game that my school's team has participated in because of band. (I can't say that I haven't enjoyed it.... Lot's of guys in uniforms. Sigh)
Well I think I'll call it quits here today. I have to be up for school in 5 hours, so I should probably get some sleep.
August 26, 1999 Thursday
Nothing much happened today. School was its normal boring thing. I met all my teachers. Checked out all the new freshman boys. It was a normal first day of school.
August 27, 1999 Friday
Today was awesome. My normal group of friends got together to throw our beginning of the year party. We all went to the park by my house. My best friend Hope and I talked most of the night. It's hard for me to talk to her sometimes because she doesn't know that I am gay. We talked about our classes for the year and how hard AP American History was going to be. It was our usual chat.
August 29, 1999 Sunday
I don't really want to go to school tomorrow. I hate school. The academy is so boring. Anyway I better get to bed before Eric throws something at me because my lamp is on.
August 30, 1999 Monday
Oh my GOD!!!!!! Today was awesome. Here was how my day went.
It started as a normal day. I got out of bed and shook Eric out of his sleep. I swear that that kid could sleep forever if allowed. I then went downstairs and took my usual morning shower. As usual I masturbated in the shower and shot my load all over the tub. Then when I finally got out of the bathroom Eric began to yell because I took so long in the shower. Or as he puts it: "Why do you take so fucking long in the shower?" I then went and woke my sisters up. See Mom and Dad both already leave for work by the time I get up. That puts me in charge of everyone.
When I was finally ready, I went back downstairs and made breakfast. We all sat at the kitchen table and talked about school. (That was the normal conversation every morning.) I then got them all out the door and to the car. I dropped the girls off first because there school is only 4 blocks away. I know they could walk but I'd rather drive them. Then I made my way to the Academy. After I dropped off the girls Eric began talking as usual.
"So has anyone asked you to homecoming yet?" Eric said.
"Of course not! You know that I will end up going with Hope. Plus it is 3 weeks away!"
"I know but I figured you'd have the girls swarming already."
"Now Eric you know that I could care less about what the girls think."
"Well you should. Hope is in love with you. I can see it in her eyes when she talks to you," Eric replied. "I think you should tell her."
"Well I thought about it but it isn't that easy," I quickly replied.
"Whatever."
We were quiet the last few blocks toward school. Could this be true? Is Hope in love with me? We've been friends since we were in Kindergarten.
When we arrived at school I went straight to the office because I had been told on Friday that I would be the one to lead the new family around the school. I arrived in the office and Mrs. Robinson greeted me. She told me to sit down and wait for the Fosters. It was the new pastor of my church's family. I had seen them moving in down the block but I hadn't seen them yesterday because I didn't go to church.
They walked into the room and my jaw dropped to the floor and I immediately started drawling. Before me stood the most beautiful man I had ever seen. He was 5'11", about 170 lbs, built like a football player; he had the most beautiful green eyes, and short black hair. He also had an excellent tan from the summer. I started to daydream about licking every inch of his body when Mrs. Robinson snapped me back to reality.
"Matthew, I would like you to meat the Fosters," Mrs. Robinson said. "This is Pastor Foster and his wife Emily. And this is their son James. James is a senior this year too."
"Hi, I am Matthew Neumann but everyone calls me Matt. Nice to meet all of you."
James just smiled at me and shook my hand. I haven't washed that hand all day. He was so adorable. I gave them a tour doing my usual routine of the history of the school and showing them all the usual important spots in the school: the cafeteria, the auditorium, and the library.
The tour finished in time for second hour and James' family left. He came up to me after the tour and thanked me.
"So Matt can u tell me where room 221 is? My next class is there," James inquired.
"Yeah that is the Physics room. That is where I have class too," I said almost screaming with delight.
"Cool. So how is Mr. Stein?"
"He's a dick but the class isn't that hard," I tried to say without laughing.
"I see. He is a limp dick," James said as we both started cracking up.
"Yeah I guess you could say that," I replied now laughing very hard.
We entered the room and I introduced James to the entire class. Everyone said hello and went back to their usual cliques. The only open lab chair in the room was the one next to me. So James would have to sit next to me. The class went along uneventful. I would have liked to just have jumped on James right there but I contained myself.
We had two more classes together that day: Band and American history. We also have the same lunch period so I invited him over to eat with our group. He sat with us and laughed at Scott's horrible jokes and seemed to have a great time. I sat there the whole time staring at him drewling, with Hope occasionally snapping me out of it. She knew something was up.
"Matt," Hope said, pulling me aside after lunch. "We need to talk. Could you meet me at the park after school, around 4ish?"
"Sure," I replied.
I wondered why she wanted me to go to the park but assumed it was a routine conversation between us. Boy would I be wrong.
The day ended and I walked out of school to wait for my brother. James walked by towards the bus so I called him over.
"Hey James, do you have to take the bus home?"
"Yeah, unfortunately."
"Well u live two blocks away. I can give you a ride home. We just have to wait for my bro."
"Cool, beats the bus any day!"
Just then Eric walked up and I introduced him to James and filled him in. The ride to drop of James was quiet and uneventful. After James got out my brother looked at me inquisitively.
"You have a crush on him don't you?" Eric asked.
"Why do you say that?"
"I can see it in your eyes," He said.
"Oh," I replied.
And with that the conversation ended. I wondered if I was making it that obvious. We pulled up at home and went in. The girls were home before us as usual. I told Eric I had to go out for a while. I told him that I was running up to the park to talk with Hope and asked him if he could watch the girls while I was out. He agreed and I began my walk to the park.
We lived just 2 blocks from a small park in our neighborhood. It had a playground, baseball diamond, and a children's pool. I went to our usual spot at the park. Hope wasn't there yet. I looked at my watch and it was only 3:50. So I pulled out my cigarettes and lit one up. Usually my brother and I smoke on the ride home but because we drove James home we decided not to.
Just then James came walking up. I almost shit my pants.
"Mind if I join you?" he asked.
"Not at all, but I thought that pastor's kids were suppose to behave," I replied.
He just laughed and said, "If you only knew."
We continued to talk for a few more minutes and Hope walked up to us. She gave us both this shocked look. And then asked me to take a walk with her. James said that we should all get together sometime and he'll show us how bad he can be, whatever that means.
"Matt," Hope began when we were about 20 feet away, "When are you going to admit to me that we could never be more than just friends?"
"What makes you think that?" I asked thinking, "Where is this conversation going?"
"What do you think that I am blind, we've been friends since we were 6. I already figured out that you are gay at least a year ago. I see it in your eyes. AND I also figured out that you have a crush on James."
I just looked at her baffled; I almost started to cry.
"It is okay Matt. I still hang out with you. I love you Matt."
"I love you too Hope."
"I just wanted to talk to you today to let you know that you can come to me to talk to me about anything."
"Ok."
"And I agree with you on James, he is quite the looker!" She said with a big grin on her face.
And with that she said she had to get going home for dinner. So we went our separate ways. I walked home in awe of how wonderful this day went. And now lying here in bed writing this I realize that I have the best friend in the world. Now if only James would be in love with me.
TO BE CONTINUED!
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