This is the story of myself and it is true in every part and if any one found it too offensive, please leave!
My name is Jimmy which is my real given nickname, my folks called me Mii! Most of people were talking about me that why I have not been married yet. There are lots of reasons but one of the main is that am gay! Just to let everyone know that I am seems to be difficult as the whole world has to go for it! Pity but there is nothing for me that I can do! I didn't know when it began but since I remember this is what I am! I have been living like this for nearly 32 years by this July. At the end of the day, I have nothing to say but just to state that am here on my own! Just a bit hard but this is what I am and I can't change it though! In my life I had fallen in love with too many friends who don't know that am gay! They are all straight but I did try once or more with their private parts when we slept together or near each other, I meant in the same compartment! But one of the most remembering friends that I really fell in love with him, his name is Matt and this is how the story began.
I was hanging around in one of the tourists' street in Thailand where all the backpackers are and there is one pub, more likely to every English pub where there is pretty quiet music, most of guests talk and play pool! So I had been hanging out that pub for sometimes and I am the one who wouldn't start talking to others before they do! So most of the time I was enjoying myself and didn't expect to have anyone beside me or would like to be proposed or approached! But there was one night, I was looking for a place to sit and there was a seat available, there was one white guy on that table earlier before I started to sit. Then I did sit there and started to have a bottle of beer and listened to the music, checking out people around me! Didn't talk to anyone though!
Then he started talking to me, surprised but we kept talking, he was saying that he just arrived and on his way home and didn't know where he should be headed? I was kind of lying to him that I was waiting for my friends to join me in but I haven't got anyone that came! So, I suggested him to go to another place close by, we drank couple of drinks and he suddenly started to flirt with the Israeli girl who just arrived at the pub, and then I was really disappointed and thought that he liked me, that's why he started talking to me! They kissed and they were trying to get together! The Israeli girl is gorgeous and she got her hip like big melons in her pants! I was not wondered how Matt liked her! Unfortunately they didn't work out! I was surprised myself as well that Matt was not able to convince her to his room! Matt is gorgeous himself, with 6 feet tall, white with goatee, long hair with great face and smile! I have never thought that I would like the long haired guys but here he is the most gorgeous man I have every seen! Well, the night went over and we were parted! But before we did, I gave him my mobile number there and tell him that if he is interested to go to hard rock cafe, please call me! When I came home that night, not sure how many times I was imagine of him when I was sleeping! The next day, I almost gave up before he gave me a call, and we went out to HRC together. The night went really well as normal straight guys would hang out! Then we were parted again as he would have to make a trip to the island near by and I had to work during that week. But he said to give me a call before his return to BKK and we shall go out again. I said why not? He called up and we made it up to meet at one of the best hotels in Thailand for a meal on the top floor of the hotel where you could see the whole view of BKK from up there! The night also went really well, nothing happened! We ll, time when he has to fly to Australia where he came from and I was still working in Thailand that time.
Time flies, it has been nearly a year since we met, here I am now in Belgium, close to where he has been working-Holland! Well, I called him up and saying that am now in Europe to work and he just hopped up to see me the weekend after I arrived! Nothing still happens but he stayed in my house which was not really completed that time, we still had the twin bedroom, the master bedroom was not finished when I moved in, so basically we shared in the same room. We went out on Friday night when he arrived and we came home nearly three on Sat. I was too tired as I didn't do anything and I was thinking that it would be too hard as I don't want to lose a friendship I have with him. On Sat's morning, I cooked for breakfast and we had it, the day went really easy and fell into the night again, we went out to the local discotheque close to my house. We didn't plan to drink that much, especially me who was driving! But th e place he liked it very much and we just kept drinking and drinking! Till 4 AM and we came back, Matt was actually drunk and so was I! Well, we both didn't take shower or so, just went straight to sleep! I couldn't sleep, just thinking a lot what to do! But I guessed the orgy inside me just made the decision to proceed in what I really wanted! So I went over to him, as quiet as I possibly could! Trying to put the blanket away, Matt and I both were on boxers but I had my shirt on, he didn't! So I opened up the blanket and was trying to find my way to his private part! Until I found it and trying to open his boxer which I finally did! My word, he is cut, I never seen the cut guy before but I couldn't see it as the room was too dark but I could feel it with my hand! I decided to move my face down to his public hair and finally my mount to his dick! I was so afraid that he would wake up! He didn't at that time, guessed the alcohol has made him to sleep still! Lucky me! So my mouth was on his dick and trying to suck him as slowly as possible and I was feeling that his dick was growing! It kept growing and he suddenly moved and felt like he was awake and saw me! Oh my god! I have broken our friendship! I said quietly sorry to him, not sure he heard that and I came back to my bed and continued my sleep!
I woke up middle of the next morning feeling like someone was trying to push me aside and I thought to myself what the shit! I woke up and I couldn't see clearly as I was drunk as well. It was Matt, sleeping beside me! Oh my god! I didn't know what to do, I just stayed still for a while but felt like hours! I decided that if he woke up and saw me sucked his dick, he moved and now I guessed he would like me to proceed in what I had not done! I was wrong, I was trying to touch his barely chest and tits but he pushed my hand away, I thought what that was? I finally gave up and slept on the floor instead! And that was it!
The night went on, we both woke up in the morning and didn't say anything, and he finally said that what went wrong with me last night as I was sleeping on the floor! I lied to him that he was too drunk and crawled up to my bed and tried to push me away and he bought it! So I can still keep friendship with him from now on! I don't want that to happen again, I guessed that friendship is what I want the most and I still keep this with me for as long as I remember! Matt, I love you mate!
Jimmy