Master and The Mate -- by Deepdiver
CHAPTER 23A -- Deep Reflections
[aka the Missing Link aka the Missing Chapter]
We'd like to start by thanking the people at Nifty for swiftly removing two chapters that should never have been posted -- the timeline was wrong. So, thanks guys! We would emphasize that it was OUR cock-up [pun intended, LOL]; and not Nifty's!
At this point, we -- my editor and I -- have to apologise to our loyal band of followers here on Nifty [we do know who you both are and we really love you!] The bottom line is that between us -- Dave and I -- managed to lose a couple of chapters and thus you may have seen some chapters post and then disappear. Well, we've found where we went wrong and fixed it. What follows is something that has NOT been posted before. It is, in fact, the chapter the author (read editor [grin] ) forgot -- Enjoy! _______________________________________
Ryan awoke early, with Kyle spooned comfortably against him. He didn't want to disturb his lover and as he was in a strangely reflective mood, he laid there, comforted by Kyle's presence and let his mind roam. It seemed to have a mind of its own, and he found himself going back over the events that had finally led him to his soul mate: yes, Ryan had come to accept that Kyle was meant to be his life partner: he had found a depth of happiness that he'd never experienced before -- even with Edwin.
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--Ryan could often be found on www.gay.com, admiring the young men and hoping to find someone who felt attracted to himself, a mature man. The chat room www.daddyhunt.com had not yet come on-line. One day he began chatting with a very nice young man of about 27 years of age. Ryan saw the young man's photo and thought that he had a very attractive face and while not a muscular body, the young man was very fit and had very lythe body fat. His name was Edwin and he worked as a research assistant in a laboratory. They had briefly chatted several times before and both had got good vibes when they did so.
--This one night they were chatting as usual when Edwin complained of being tired and feeling very tense from work. Ryan offered to come over to his place and massage his body. There were no sexual innuendos exchanged. Ryan copied down the directions to Edwin's apartment and was getting ready to head out when his brother showed up at the door. Normally Ryan, who enjoyed his brother's visits, would have sat into the wee hours chatting with him. Both were highly intelligent and enjoyed sharing ideas and political observations but neither ever allowed the conversation near any personal or intimate questions. Neither Ryan nor his brother had ever married; Ryan's brother was as successful in his business as he was himself.
--Ryan measured his success in the successful outcomes of counselling couples, the articles he published and his popularity as a teacher; while his brother James had been far more successful in the financial world and his yardstick of success was of a monetary nature.
--Each admired the other's different abilities. Ryan was the more intellectual of the two, James the more athletic. Tonight, however, was the rare occasion that Ryan hoped to meet someone with whom he could develop an intimate relationship. He chatted for a short time with James and then begged to be excused because of his previous engagement. James accepted his excuse; knowing that Ryan had little time for socializing and that his ethical principles would not allow him to develop a dual relationship with either client or student, so he didn't try to delay his brother. James did wonder who Ryan could be meeting and doubted that anything worthwhile could develop with an acquaintance made in a chat room, but he kept his thoughts to himself.
--As he drove toward Edwin, Ryan grew more and more excited; especially as he got closer to the other side of town where Edwin lived. Meeting someone new always brought mixed emotions. All too often it was just a prankster looking to set Ryan up as the fool. He wondered if these clowns ever came to realize just how wicked playing with someone else's emotions was. Yet he himself had gone to rendezvous' only to realize that the expected person had given a totally false description of themselves and he would sadly leave them without even greeting them. Later he would, however, apologize with an email before deleting them from his list of pals. His hopes were running high this evening because this was not a fast and hurried meeting of someone he had just met on- line, but the culmination of weeks of sharing and enjoying each others wit.
--When he arrived at the address, on a quiet secondary street he saw Edwin who was just going from his car back to his apartment. When Edwin saw Ryan get out of his car he knew at once who he was, even though they were meeting for the first time, and very unpretentiously greeted him as an old friend. Ryan was very pleased that Edwin looked pretty much the same as the photos that they had exchanged. They went into Edwin's apartment which was the third entrance on the first floor of a private home that had been renovated into separate apartments.
--Basically Edwin's apartment was 'L'-shaped with the longer room subdivided into an unused kitchen and living room and the short end serving as the bedroom. They went directly into Edwin's bedroom. Ryan told him to remove his clothes and lay on the floor because the bed would not give enough support for a vigorous massage which is what Ryan had promised the younger man. Ryan found it difficult to bend so low and wished he had a portable massage table. Well, maybe someday he would be giving and receiving enough massages to justify the expense.
--Ryan squirted skin cream into the palms of his hands and rubbed his hands together in order to warm the liquid. He then knelt over Edwin with their ass cheeks grazing he began to move his hands over him to spread the cream. The feel of his warm smooth skin was sensational. Ryan delighted in exploring this handsome man's white-skinned body. His nipples were the smallest he had ever seen on a grown man. There was a sprinkling of hair in the center of his chest, light in colour and very soft. Edwin sported a mustache which gave his handsome face a masculine appearance. His lips were full and very proportional. His teeth were perfectly aligned and when he smiled he exuded joy. Edwin's eyes were bright, his graying hair cut short. His body had very small almost invisible hairs which were only visible when they reflected sun light. His legs were more hairy but if you saw him in shorts at any distance you would think they were hairless. The more Ryan got to know Edwin's body, the more infatuated he became. After the full body massage, including the interior of Edwin's mouth, they got up on the bed and Ryan masturbated the 6 inch thick cock that Edwin displayed proudly. He later laid on top of Edwin's back and pumped his cock between Edwin's thighs imagining that he was raping an unwilling victim. It was only during later sexual encounters that Ryan discovered how much more Edwin enjoyed sex when Ryan would penetrate his anus.
--For several months their sexual intimacy grew slowly. Ryan would often make suggestions or criticisms about their 'love making,' but Edwin rarely ever broached or responded to the subject.
--Ryan eventually discovered that Edwin's last sexual partner had broken off their relationship abruptly, but Edwin never volunteered more details. Ryan was good enough as a psychologist to understand that Edwin's former relationship had left him with deep emotional scars. Often enough when they had sex, Edwin would be the only one to actually reach a manifest orgasm. At times, Ryan would only feel internal tremors which were quite prolonged and so much more satisfactory than the short-lived pleasure of an intense cum. After Edwin had shot his wad, he would turn off sexually, whereas Ryan couldn't keep his hands off of Edwin's smooth skin. Ryan worried that he might be irritating his lover who would be concentrating on a movie or TV show after sex. However Edwin assured Ryan that he liked the way Ryan would continue to caress him in spite of his passivity. Lacking for Ryan was Edwin's post-sex caresses of Ryan which never came.
--Foreplay with Edwin however was most satisfying. For all Ryan's years, he had never really learned how to enjoy kissing until he and Edwin dedicated more and more of the pre-sex to exploring each other's oral cavity. They kissed passionately as well as most gently but always prolonged kisses that truly made up for the lack of post-sex caresses.
--As the years went by, Edwin who had been more passive in their love-making would flip the roles and become more aggressive. Ryan's energies would be just about run out when Edwin would move into a top position kneeling over Ryan's body and bringing himself down on Ryan's cock. Ryan would then find a reserve of libido and begin thrusting his hips upward and Edwin would pump his cock with his fist and cum on Ryan's face or chest while Ryan would ram and cum in Edwin's rectum.
--When Edwin moved into a nicer apartment on the 14th floor their sex making became more classy as well and would normally end by showering together. Ryan loved touching Edwin's body as he applied soap suds and could enjoy imagining his fingers ice-skating around Edwin's perfectly proportioned body. It was in the shower one day that Edwin told Ryan that he had been offered a higher paying job in another state. Ryan, who had never declared his love for Edwin didn't feel he had any right to object, and just asked Edwin if he was thinking of accepting the position.
--For years Ryan had put his own studies and profession before his relationship with Edwin. He now felt it was Edwin's prerogative to opt for his own profession. Clearly Ryan wished for Edwin to stay close, but actually Ryan at about the time that Edwin had moved into his new apartment had also moved somewhat further away and they were in fact seeing less of each other than either would have preferred.
--The next time that Edwin communicated with Ryan was by email from his new apartment several states away. Ryan was devastated Edwin sought to connect with Ryan on-line and practice cyber- sex with cameras, but Ryan would suffer from not being able to touch his sex partner. It was now that the three letter 'luv' word began to appear more frequently in Ryan's communications. Earlier in their friendship, Edwin would teasingly call Ryan a liar. Later it became their secret word to be sure they were actually chatting with one another. Now it was the word that Edwin would use to let Ryan know that their feelings were mutual. Both lived for Edwin's family visits and occasionally they would be able to steal some time together which barely served to maintain their mutual affection palpitating.
--Over the years, neither asked the other for a commitment. They were both happy with an open- ended relationship. Ryan had sexual trysts but never felt for anyone as he felt for Edwin. Edwin too would fool around, but their feelings for one another in difficult situations never ebbed.
--When Ryan met Kyle, he never intended it to be more than fooling around. This was why it was so difficult for Ryan to say that he loved Kyle. He was learning to truly care for him and love him deeply, but that day when Kyle so unexpectedly declared his love for him, Ryan felt as if he were being asked to betray his love for Edwin. Ryan would never forget his love for Edwin. Edwin had been there for him for years and they would fall into each other's arms upon seeing one another. There was a real magnetism between them, but much deeper there was a wonderful history of unconditional mutual acceptance.
--Ryan reflected on these memories and wondered how he could share them with Kyle so that Kyle could understand him better. When Kyle had walked out on Ryan, Ryan knew that his love for the younger man was real, but it did not cancel his love for Edwin. It was, however, growing alongside that abiding love. Ryan thought perhaps his aggression with Kyle was in some way a reaction to his frustration with Edwin's departure. Perhaps Ryan enjoyed tying Kyle up because it created the illusion that Kyle would be his forever. This could be so, Ryan thought, but there was no doubt in his mind that it sure made the sex more exciting.
And he drifted softly back to sleep.
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Later that Saturday morning he got Kyle and Mark out of bed earlier than they had planned. They both protested vehemently. Kyle wanted to have some sex play before breakfast, and Mark just wanted to sleep in late as adolescents tend to do. Ryan hadn't told them but he'd arranged a surprise 'Almost Birthday Party' for Mark (as his birthday had occurred whilst he was being held hostage; they'd given him his presents, of course, but Ryan had felt he should have a party and had arranged with Dominic a surprise: but he needed them to be out so Dominic could get it set up).
Somehow Ryan got their asses in gear by inviting them to have breakfast at the IHP. When Mark heard those words, he needed no more inducement as he remembered a certain waitress that had caught his eye the last time that they were there.
"So what's the big deal, why did we have to get up so early?" Kyle asked.
"Well I'm going to take the boys and yourself to visit the New York Aquarium at Coney Island." Ryan answered.
"Boring!" Mark said; not only expressing what he thought, but also showing just how comfortable he was around Ryan and Kyle. He was no longer the grateful and polite orphan that they had taken in, but the typical rebellious teenager. But nevertheless the thought of a meal where he might be able to connect with the girl that occupied so much of his mental gymnastics was enough to persuade him to go along. When Mark saw his waitress friend he didn't hesitate to get up and go over to her.
After a great meal, they finally arrived at the Aquarium. Kyle and Mark were surprised at how interesting it was to be looking at life under the sea.
"So what do you guys think? Interested in taking a scuba course over the summer?" Ryan asked them teasingly.
"Are you serious?" Kyle was dumbstruck and so excited at the same time. Yet there was also some anxiety as he was so new to swimming.
Mark on the other hand was more than comfortable in the water and was already proficient with a snorkel. "Man, I can't wait for next summer!" he exclaimed.
They returned to the house, to find an assorted selection of familiar and strange vehicles parked around the lot. Kyle didn't say anything but he recognized some of them and knew Ryan had been up to something. He determined to himself that there would be some payback for Ryan fairly soon for this; but otherwise played along.
Entering the house, Mark was stunned to see a crowd of people as Ryan opened the door and ushered him and Kyle inside. He turned questioningly to his two dads and then swung round again as there was a chorus of "SURPRISE!" from the assembled crew.
"Happy 'Almost' Birthday, Mark!" Ryan said; "Dominic agreed to help me arrange a party for you to make up for missing your real one. We hope you enjoy it." Mark turned back to Ryan and Kyle and his eyes were starting to quiver; it had come as a complete surprise. Kyle reached out and drew him to him and hugged him; mentally amending how much pain Ryan would have to suffer as he saw the effect the surprise had on Mark.
For Mark's 'Almost Birthday Party' Dominic had pulled out all the stops and served a smorgasbord of Italian cuisine. The dining-room table was covered with different dishes to sample. This meant that the guests had to eat standing but allowed for less formality and more socializing. When Bill arrived he was looking for Dominic's nephew, Anthony, who had started to become his 'special friend' Bill was hoping he'd become much more than that! who was about the same age. After introductions had been completed, everyone was taken in small groups, to do the grand tour. So no one noticed when Bill offered to show Tony the house.
Bill showed him first the master bedroom and Mark's pad and then one of the guest rooms.
"This is my room when I come to stay." Bill said.
"You stay here too?" Tony asked.
"Not really, but Ryan has invited me to come whenever I feel like it." Bill said as he closed the door behind himself. Tony looked over the room and the view, and then turned to see Bill staring at him.
"You work out? Your body looks like it's in excellent shape," Bill said.
"Yeah, I hit the gym once in a while at the university where I study." Tony answered.
"Oh, so you're a student?" Bill questioned the hot guy that stood alone with him in the guest room.
"Yep, I am; do you work out?" Tony continued the line of thought.
"Yeah there are weights on the yacht where I work. I'm allowed to use them when the family's not aboard. Let's take off our shirts and compare." Bill suggested as he pulled his shirt up and over his head.
Tony followed Bill's lead and after they'd admired each others' torsos they fell into each others' arms and began kissing passionately.
Downstairs everyone was enjoying the food so much and complimenting Dominic on his achievement; no one noticed the absence of the two twenty-year-olds. Kyle made Ryan proud the way he hosted their guests making sure everyone's wine glass was full. Kyle's dad was sipping a Black Russian for the first time; foregoing having a brew directly from the bottle. Bill's parents felt so much at home again with Dominic who was insisting that they try everything. They found everything scrumptious even the bacalao: dried cod fish, made into a soup. The atmosphere was so relaxed everyone was feeling very much at home and Ryan counted the blessings for his family.
Mark had begun the surprise party feeling a little strange: but when Dominic brought out the cake, Mark was trembling with joy. His parents had stopped celebrating birthdays with parties and cake; preferring an intimate dinner out in a quiet restaurant. His mom often pointed out how many calories were in one slice of a birthday cake and smothered any pleasure that the cake was meant to evoke.
So, for Mark, seeing a beaming Dominic bringing in this super Birthday Cake with 16 candles burning on top and hearing the assembled guests break out into 'Happy Birthday' was too much and he started to cry tears of joy. Kyle saw how emotional Mark was from behind Dominic and eased past and went over and hugged Mark again, and bent and kissed his forehead gently and then just rocked him silently for a minute or so while Mark composed himself (Kyle was also emotionally moved by Mark's emotional outpouring and in his heart forgave Ryan for the surprise).
Hearing the singing, Bill came downstairs first. Only Ryan noticed that there was a strange glow about the boy. First he thought that maybe he had had too much to drink, then he thought it was that his parents were here and having such a good time. Then he saw Tony come out of the guest bathroom and all the pieces fell into place. Ryan smiled and hoped this might mean that Bill had finally met his counterpart. Now Ryan began to feel eager that the guests would leave early so that he and Kyle could celebrate their family in a more intimate way.
Dominic made a toast to Mark. He invoked the blessing of the almighty on the assembled at the party and hoped that their friendship would help keep Ryan, Kyle and Mark together as a united family. After dinner several gifts were presented while Dominic's wife, Teresa, served coffee and the cake that Mark was cutting.