Okay the usual stuff that nobody reads. This is a gay story with lots of gay sex. If you aren't supposed to be here, leave. The work is mine and unless you ask you can't post it anywhere else. I have no clue if any member of Westlife is gay, so this is all my fantasy. Email me at rye_encoke@hotmail.com to tell me what you like or hate.
The author wishes to acknowledge and thank the archivist for Nifty for allowing this story to be published here.
Authors Notes: Okay, I have changed my mind. I have just recently received two emails which can only be described as 'mean'. I was gonna just quit writing all together. Why spend the time to send a nasty email? So if you hate my story don't tell me, I don't want to hear. I have kept going mainly because I have up to chapter 21 already written. The same day I recieved those two nasty emails I also got an absolutely wonderful email from someone who encouraged me to keep writing because they like my story and the emotions I was expressing. So this chapter has a double dedication.
DEDICATION: As always to my boy David. Also to Larry, my real inspiration that day. His kind words lifted me out of a very deep funk and encouraged me to keep going. Thanks Larry for your words, they meant a lot.
- Cleansing the Soul -
Rye had finished setting up the table and was lining up his shot.
"Rye?" Shane asked.
"Don't worry boyo we're good, better than good," Rye said, knowing what Shane wanted to say.
"I know, but I still want to say it. Thank you for what you did back there. It hurt when you said it but then I realized what you were doing and what you were risking doing it, I just can't believe you would put everything at risk for me like that. So even though I know I don't have to I wanted to say thank you and that I love you very much," Shane said it quietly, obviously feeling it very deeply.
Rye went over and hugged Shane closely, not willing to break the embrace until Shane decided it was over.
"I would do anything for any of you. I was surprised by Bryan's reaction but I shouldn't have been. He loves you very much."
"I know he does and it is hard for me to come to terms with that. I went from feeling like nobody loved me and like I didn't deserve to be loved to finding out everyone loves me. It's hard to wrap my mind around, luckily my heart wants it badly enough that I am more or less just accepting it all." Shane was holding on to Rye tightly and had no intention of letting go.
"You know that I am gonna be sure you are ready before we even attempt any anal stuff right. I am not gonna let you do it if I don't think you are 100% ready. And you may have to accept that for right now you are not going to be able to do it," Rye said softly as he stroked Shanes hair gently.
Shane broke down. "I am so scared Rye but I don't want Bryan to know because he wants it so bad and I want to make him happy so he won't leave me but I am so scared."
Rye moved to a sofa, still holding onto Shane, and sat down, bringing Shane down to sit in his lap. He just held onto Shane and stroked his hair and comforted him, humming softly and resting his head on top of Shane's.
"Shane tell me about what happened. Let's put this behind us forever."
"I can't Rye I am so ashamed."
"It's okay Shane, you have nothing to be ashamed of, and once you tell me you will realize that," Rye encouraged.
Shane sobbed for awhile more, his arm around Rye's neck, holding on to him like a child.
Finally Shane started to speak. "I was 12, just turned actually. It was the day after my birthday and I had money to spend. My da told me I would have to wait to go into town because he had work to do. I was really impatient so I decided I would hitchhike into town. I had done it before. I got caught once and got whipped for it but I didn't care because I had money to spend."
Rye continued to gently comfort Shane as the story spilled out.
"So I headed to the back of our farm and hopped the wall. I had only been walking for a couple of minutes when a car came. I could still see our house. He stopped and asked where I was off to. He was young, like probably 20 or so, and he looked nice. I got in and told him to town cuz it had been my birthday and I had money to spend.
"He said okay, but first he had to stop real quick to take a piss. I pointed to one of our sheds nearby for the sheep during shearing. So he pulled in and got out. I wasn't paying attention and before I knew it he had pulled me out the door and had his hand over my mouth. He had this bandana or something that he put around my mouth so nobody would hear me scream then he tied my hands.
Shane was talking quickly now and trembling. Rye just let him go on, all the time gently comforting him.
"Then he led me over to a workbench near the door. He pushed me down face first and undid my pants. I didn't know what he was going to do. I heard him spit and then I felt him spit on my bum. Then suddenly I knew but it was too late. He pushed into me and I screamed and screamed and screamed. It hurt so bad and all the time he was talking to me. Telling me what a nice ass I had and that I liked it and I was a good fuck. The whole time I could see out the door and see my own house just across the field. I could feel something warm running down my leg. Then he pushed in really deep and I screamed again and I felt something hot inside me. Then he pulled me up so I was standing but he was still inside me and he reached around and pulled on my penis, he worked me until I got hard then told me he knew I liked it cuz I was hard.
Shane was trembling almost uncontrollably now.
"He told me thanks and put a 10 pound note in my shirt pocket then got in his car and left. I finally looked down and saw the blood running down my legs. I was so scared and hurt and humiliated. I thought that I had liked it because like he said I was hard, although I wasn't anymore. I tried to clean up and went back home. I bled for a long time but I was able to keep anyone from finding out. When I went to town I put the 10 pound note into the poor box at church and tried to pretend nothing had happened. But I knew it had. I never told anybody, I mean how could I, I had enjoyed it right?
Shane finally stopped. Rye's face was streaked with tears and his heart was aching.
"Oh boyo I am so sorry. But you did nothing wrong and you did not enjoy it. That animal took a sweet innocent child and did awful things to him. He hurt you and made you bleed and then tried to make you believe you liked it. Then he gave you money to keep you quiet. No my dear sweet boyo you did nothing wrong and are not to blame and you did not enjoy it. It was a nightmare and you have had to live with it for more than 10 years by yourself, but not any more. Never alone again my sweet sweet boyo."
Shane had calmed down a bit and was just leaning into Rye's chest, his arm still around Rye's neck and Rye's hand still stroking his hair.
"But now that nightmare is over. You have finally told someone. And I still love you and I don't blame you. I love you and I think you are the bravest person I have ever known. My heart aches for you Shane, I don't ever want to let you go, I just want to hold onto you and love you forever and take away all the hurt. And Bryan loves you and would never hurt you. Deep inside you know that. You have been so brave Shane telling me your secret, but it shouldn't stay a secret. These kinds of hurts need the light of day and the love of your friends to heal. You have to tell Bryan.
"No I can't. He will leave me he will think I am dirty," Shane wailed and started to tremble again.
"No my love he won't. Remember how he wanted to punch me for what I said?" Rye was talking very low and soothingly as he continued to comfort Shane.
Shane nodded.
"Do you think the man that wanted to do that to me is going to think any less of you or love you less. No in fact he will probably try to fly to Ireland and find the scum who hurt you. Shane you have to tell him so that you can go on. Not go on to anal sex, because honestly I don't know if that is ever going to be an option for you, but for you two to go on as a couple," Rye said it softly.
Shane lay there sobbing but finally got himself under control.
"Do you think he will still want me?" Shane asked softly, like someone who has been broken.
"I do, I know it Shane, on this you can trust me," Rye said it and knew it was the truth.
"Okay but will you be here when I tell him?" Shane asked.
"I could be, but I think that this is better if you tell him alone," Rye said.
Shane thought about it and nodded. "Can you get him, I don't think I could walk out to get him myself."
"Sure I will get him. Do you want me to stay and just hold you for a little longer?" Rye asked.
Shane broke down again and nodded. Rye continued to hold onto Shane for a half hour or so until Shane finally let him leave to get Bryan.
- Strength -
Bryan was having fun on the lake on the jet ski when he saw Rye waving them in. Rye looked exhausted and something was wrong. Everyone headed in and landed the jet skis on the beach. Rye walked over to the three men.
"What's wrong angel?" Mark asked coming up to him and taking one of his hands.
"Just stay with me please," Rye said as he walked to Bryan.
Bryan watched as Rye walked to him. He suddenly got scared, maybe Rye was mad after all.
"Bryan please listen very carefully to me okay. This is going to be the hardest thing you have probably ever had to do."
Bryan was really scared now. Rye reached out and took one of his hands and Mark took the other and Nicky came up behind to put a hand on Bryan's shoulder. Nobody but Rye knew what was going to happen but they took their cue from him and realized Bryan needed to be held and comforted like this.
"Shane confessed just how scared he really is of having anal sex. I pushed him a bit and he finally told the whole story of his rape. It's beyond brutal Bryan but he needs you to hear it, to understand. He is scared to death you will leave him. So you need to be stronger than you have ever been and go to him and listen to him and love him. Can you do that Bryan?" Rye asked quietly.
Bryan nodded. Then Rye pulled him in close and whispered in his ear, "This is where you can heal him forever Bryan, you can take all his hurt away by just loving him. He needs you Bryan. Be strong. When it's over we will be here for you, to hold you and heal you."
Bryan walked away from his friends and to the house. He walked in and saw Shane sitting on a chair, looking like he had been beaten, his eyes were swollen and puffy. Bryan walked over and sat down in front of him and took his hands in his own.
- Healing -
"Rye are you okay?" Mark asked.
"Not really. Shane is so hurt inside. But I think that he may be able to heal himself completely now. Once Bryan is finished with him he may be okay," Rye said as he sat on the beach.
Mark and Nicky sat beside him looking upset but knowing that for the moment there was nothing they could do.
"Was it really that bad? Can you tell us?" Nicky asked.
"It was horrific Nicky, he could actually see his house while it was happening. He was so close to safety and the animal did it to him right there and made him think he liked it," Rye said.
"Let's leave it at that then. We don't need to know any more unless Shane needs to tell us. How is Bryan going to be?" Mark asked.
"It is going to kill him. We are going to have to be there for both of them in a few minutes," Rye said as he turned to look at the house.
The three men sat there for another 40 minutes or so. Finally they turned as they heard the doors on the deck open and saw Bryan come out. Bryan was walking like a zombie. His head was down and he had obviously been crying. He came directly to the three men.
"I put him to bed, he is exhausted," Bryan said simply then broke down and fell to the ground curling into a ball. Everyone grabbed him instantly and held him.
"Oh God oh God, how can that happen," Bryan cried.
Everyone just continued to hold him gently and comfort him. He continued sobbing like this for a long time before calming down.
"You did a good job Bry boy. You were strong when he needed you and showed him you would not abandon him. You were so strong Bry," Mark comforted.
"You know what he said when he finished. He told me it was okay if I hated him now and that I could stay with Nicky if I didn't want to be in the same bed as him," Bryan sobbed. "I told him I still loved him and I was so proud of him and that if he made me go away I would die of a broken heart. I think he finally believed me because he let me hold him then and then he kissed me and told me he loved me and not to ever leave him."
Everyone was crying now as they held onto Bryan.
"You did it Bryan, you showed him he was worth loving and that everything will be okay. You finished healing him. I am so proud of you Bry boy, so proud," Rye said. Bryan threw his arms around Rye and hugged him tightly, leaving the other guys to circle behind him to hold him.
"I took him to bed and lay him down and told him to just relax and sleep that everything was going to be okay. He said he was sorry for being such a bother and I should go out and have fun. He wanted me to have fun after hearing all that. I wanted to throw up and go kill somebody and he wanted me to go back on the lake," Bryan shook his head in disbelief.
"That is probably what we should all do," Rye said.
"What?" Nicky asked in surprise.
"Shane has gone through an emotional nightmare, basically reliving that horrific event. What he needs and wants right now is for nobody to look at him strangely and for things to go back to normal. There are going to be times when he needs to be held, when he starts to cry for no reason. But for now he needs life to get back to normal. He needs to have fun and he needs for us to have fun and treat him like nothing happened," Rye said.
Amazingly it was Bryan who nodded, "It's true, he even said it, he doesn't want everyone to stare at him. He knows we all love him, he said that too, and he wants things to just be fun again. He wants to laugh again."
Everyone looked at each other and smiled at one another. At first it was forced but eventually it got easier and then Bryan laughed and everyone else laughed too. With a visible effort everyone shrugged off the last of the gloom and stood. Rye said he was going to go put on his swim trunks and the other three got back on the jet skis.
- Beach Blanket Fun -
Rye walked to his bedroom and changed into his trunks. He was walking out when he decided to get Shane instead. He knocked on the door.
"Come in," Shane said from the other side.
"Better boyo?" Rye asked as he entered.
"Amazingly enough yes. You were right of course. He still loves me and I know it's true. You all love me still," Shane said. He was changing into trunks of his own.
"So I take it you are going to continue our lazy day and join me for a tan," Rye smiled. Shane was recovered from his ordeal, and Rye could tell it was not an act. Byran had done his job well.
"Yep. I feel like shite and look it but I want to have fun again," Shane said.
"Well you know how we could really have fun?" Rye asked in a sexy voice.
Shane turned to Rye, catching the playful tone in his voice, "How?" he asked.
Without a word Rye reached down and undid the laces on his trunks, letting them slip to the floor. Shane smiled then threw his head back and laughed. It was a laugh of sheer evil pleasure.
"We are so bad," Shane said as he too dropped his trunks.
"You think this is bad, wait until we rub suntan lotion on each other," Rye giggled and took Shane's hand in his and led him to the beach. Nobody seemed to clue in, as they were spreading the blanket, that they were stark naked. Finally they both decided that nobody was paying any attention at all so gave up and spread out.
"Okay I will do you first then you do me," Rye said as he opened the suntan lotion.
"If I had a smutty mind I would be saying something really bad right now, but instead I will just let you touch me all over," Shane said sexily and Rye laughed sending goosebumps across Shane's body.
Shane lay down on his stomach and waited. Rye squeezed out a generous amount of lotion onto his hands and began working it into Shane's back. He moved slowly rubbing it in. Shane moaned with pleasure.
"That feels so good, I could just fall asleep right now," Shane moaned.
"You've had a rough day boyo, don't worry if you fall asleep. I will make sure I get you all protected from the sun," Rye said. "Umm Shane boyo I am gonna need to put some on your bum. I guess we didn't think this all the way through when we left our suits inside. Do you want me to go back and grab your suit?"
"No s'okay, go ahead Rye, I trust you and it doesn't matter anymore," Shane said sleepily. Rye's eyebrows raised at Shane's assertion that 'it didn't matter anymore'. Could he truly be healed so quickly?
Rye squeezed more lotion onto his hand and said, "Okay I am gonna touch your bum now. The word is stop Shane." Rye placed his hands on Shane's ass and began to massage the lotion into his cheeks. Rye realized suddenly that the three men on the jet skis had left the water and were now watching him. Rye looked at them and smiled. They watched as Rye massaged the lotion into Shane who seemed to actually be relaxing by the second, even moaning occasionally. Rye decided to push things a bit. He put more lotion on his hands and began to work Shanes ass, opening his cheeks a little and running his hands down the crack and across Shane's hole. Shane actually pushed back a bit. Shane was not reacting badly at all, in fact he was relaxing almost to the point of dozing off.
Rye turned with a wide grin to the men standing behind him. Everyone was obviously thinking the same thing. Shane trusted at least Rye enough to let him touch his ass. That was just a huge gigantic step. Rye moved down further and coated Shane's legs with lotion. When he finished he looked at Shane to see his soft and even breathing. Shane had fallen asleep. Fallen asleep naked with Rye actually touching and kneading his ass.
Rye got up and walked to Bryan and threw his arms around him.
"I think what you have here is a complete man Bryan. He feels safe with us and he is going to be okay," Rye said.
Bryan nodded happily.
"Now since my boyo has fallen asleep I need someone to put some lotion on me. Bry boy would you put the lotion on for me?" Rye asked.
Bryan looked at Mark who just smiled and kissed Bryan on the lips. "Go ahead Bry boy, I am gonna grab another blanket then you can do me as well, then I will do you okay?"
"Ooh me too please," Nicky said as he followed behind Mark to get another blanket so that all 5 guys could lay out.
"And another bottle of lotion," Rye shouted to Mark who waved that he had heard.
Rye lay down on the blanket and smiled at Bryan. "Go for it Bry boy, and I want you to enjoy it."
Bryan smiled and kneeled down then quickly stood up again and yanked off his trunks. Kneeling back down he squirted some lotion right onto Rye's back. Rye tensed a bit at the coldness but then let himself enjoy the feeling of Bryan's hands.
Bryan worked slowly, giving a massage more than rubbing in the lotion. He moved slowly down Rye's body, intent on what he was doing, so intent he did not notice Nicky and Mark arrive and strip down as they watched him. Bryan squeezed some lotion onto his palms and moved to Rye's ass. He kneaded the firm ass cheeks and then gently spread Rye's legs so that he could get a better look at Rye's ass. He caressed Rye's ass causing Rye to moan with pleasure. Bryan was aroused, almost painfully so, but paid no attention. He then moved down each leg and massaged them from top to bottom. When he finished Rye lay sleeping beside Shane.
"Fuck me that was hot," Nicky whispered, his own erection plain.
Mark nodded beside him. Bryan smiled at them both, then asked, "Who's next?"
"Me please," Nicky said as he threw himself onto the blanket then readjusted himself so his erection was not so uncomfortable. Bryan began and soon Nicky was moaning softly. As aroused as he was though, Nicky soon fell asleep under the intense massaging hands of Bryan.
"You're next," Bryan smiled at Mark.
"Yeah but not like the others okay, just throw the lotion on," Mark said.
"Why? We aren't really doing anything and I think we are still inside the rules," Bryan said as he lost his smile.
"That's not it. You have had a miserable day today too. So lather me up, then I will jerk you off and massage you to sleep," Mark smiled
"Really? You would do that for me?" Bryan asked.
Mark looked confused. "Of course, why wouldn't I. I love you Bry boy, even more so after what you did for Shane today."
Mark ran his fingers lightly across Bryan's jaw, kissed him tenderly on the lips then lay down. Bryan began to rub the lotion into Mark, going quicker than with the others but still making it last a long time. As he was massaging Mark's ass cheeks he whispered, "I wish you were going to be in on the ass play. I wanted to feel you inside me so much."
Mark turned his head to look at Bryan. "Really? You don't think it would have been weird?"
Bryan shrugged, "A little maybe, but no more than the rest of the stuff we do and as long as you were okay with it we could have all gotten over it. As much as I love Rye, I still wanted you inside me too. It's not just that I am horny, I wanted you both inside of me and I wanted to be inside both of you, to feel, I don't know connected I guess. But it's okay, I know you don't love us any less, it was just a little too weird for you. Done."
Mark got up and lay Bryan down on his back gently. He kissed him tenderly on the mouth and continued to kiss him this way as he began to stroke Bryan's cock. He took his time and it was gentle, it was not a jerk off it was a tender release. Bryan smiled at Mark as he was cleaned off then gently rolled onto his stomach. Mark paid loving attention to Bryan as he massaged the lotion into his body. Bryan was asleep before Mark had finished his legs. Mark smiled and lay down on the blankets, his mind thinking about the day and about Bryan. Soon he too drifted off to sleep as the sun warmed his body.
- Jill and Kian -
"This is wonderful Jill," Kian murmured up to her. His head was in her lap as they lay on a blanket overlooking the water. The horses were tethered nearby grazing happily on some grass.
"It is. I could lie here all day," Jill sighed.
"I hope everyone else is having fun." Kian looked across the lake and could see the guys playing on the jet skis. "Can you tell who all is out there?"
"Looks like Bry, Mark and Nicky on the skis. I think I see Shane and Rye coming out of the cabin but I can't be sure."
"We should have brought some binoculars," Kian laughed.
"Why, so we could spy on them?" Jill chuckled.
"Of course, you know they are gonna all end up having sex on the beach," Kian giggled.
"Let's just pray they don't have binoculars then," Jill said as she reached down and ran her fingers up Kian's naked torso. "Ready for another go sweets?"
"Oh well if I have to," Kian sighed dramatically then rolled over and giggled as he took Jill into his arms.
- Back on the Beach -
Rye woke up feeling relaxed and carefree. He raised his head to look at the sight before him. There on blankets were four of the most beautiful men he had ever known, and he didn't just mean their bodies. He loved everything about each of them. He loved Bry boy's innocence and naivete and his endless strength and love. He loved Shane's tenderness and vulnerability and the way he tried to look after everybody when he was so hurt inside himself. Nicky was so lonely and in need of loving but he had a huge heart and was almost like a puppy wanting to please. And Kian wherever he was right now was just so loving, also the most serious of the group and of course he was in love with Jill even if there was some initial discomfort with Rye over it. Then he turned to Mark and could not think of any single thing he loved about Mark, it was just the whole package. His body was perfect, his smile, his laugh, his voice. He was sweet and tender and caring. He loved his brothers so much that he would share their love with them. He was everything that Rye could ever ask for. He realized that Mark was now looking at him.
"Love you fella," Rye said quietly.
"Love you too angel," Mark sighed contentedly.
"Should we get these lazy asses up or just go and start getting something for supper and let them sleep a bit more?" Rye asked.
Mark looked at the other men and smiled. Rye saw the love and caring he had in that smile and his heart fluttered, just as it did every time Mark smiled.
"They aren't gonna burn, let's just let them rest and go figure out supper. We don't really wanta start till the other two get back anyway," Mark answered.
Rye sat up and scanned the lake. He saw movement and looked carefully and pointed.
"They will only be another hour, hour and a half." He stood and held out his hand to Mark to help him up. Mark reached for his shorts but Rye stopped him. "Neither Shane or I wore ours out, he will need a pair when he gets up."
Mark nodded and the two men walked hand in hand to the cabin. They went and grabbed some shorts first but decided no shirts or shoes. They grabbed some stuff to make a light salad, some corn and the stuff for hamburgers.
"Rye don't be mad but I want to change my mind about the anal stuff with the guys," Mark blurted out.
"You don't want me to be with them after all?" Rye questioned with no hint of anger in his voice.
"No, I have just decided that I will participate is all," Mark answered.
"Really? What brought about the change, not that I mind I am happy you will join in, but what made you change your mind?" Rye asked.
"Bryan actually. When he was massaging the lotion into me he just said he was sorry that I wouldn't be in on it. He would miss it because he wanted to feel me inside of him and wanted to be inside of me. And I realized that yes it would be a little weird at first but that I wanted it too. I mean the whole sharing thing is a little weird but we all got past it, even Nicky and Kian, and we all enjoy it. I love them and I am not gonna let embarrassment stop me from enjoying it all, and really that's all it amounted to, embarrassment." Mark stopped, a little flustered by his speech but glad he had gotten it all out.
Rye came up behind and kissed him between the shoulder blades. "I love you Mark, so much. I am so glad we will all be together. It will make teaching Shane so much easier."
Mark turned, "Teaching Shane? You think he will be able to go ahead with it?"
"Yeah I do. It will be slow but it will just be reflex now, not real fear, not with us. Just getting rid of those last little bits of his mind telling him he is dirty and that he shouldn't enjoy sex," Rye said as he popped a cherry tomato in his mouth and continued making the salad.
- Songs Around the Campfire -
"This is so fun, eating on the beach like this around a campfire," Jill said as she snuggled up to Kian.
"It is, thanks again for bringing us here Rye, I think I am gonna be saying that every day until we leave," Bryan said. He had engulfed Shane in his arms, his legs wrapped around him as well. Even to someone not in on what had happened that day would have been able to see that Bryan was acting as a protector for Shane.
"You guys," Rye laughed. "Listen guys, I know we sorta have skipped around the topic, and I don't want to ruin my surprise, but I want you all to know I plan on having you around me forever. Whatever is mine is yours. I mean that quite literally. There is nothing of mine that you can't have."
Nobody spoke for a minute. Really what could be said.
"We know angel, so we will try to stop saying thank you. How bout instead every time we are grateful we just say we love you," Mark giggled.
"Love you Rye," Shane said immediately, giggling himself.
"Love you Rye," Kian said quickly behind Shane.
Quickly everyone else said there 'love you's' as Rye rolled his eyes and chuckled. Everyone visibly shivered as Rye's voice sent goosebumps across their bodies.
"God I love when you do that," Nicky breathed
"Do what?" Rye asked.
"You know," Nicky said then realized Rye really didn't know. "God you don't know do you? Every time you do that laugh you just send goosebumps across my whole body. It's like........I don't know... orgasmic." Everyone else around the fire nodded.
"I knew I could do that to my fella but I didn't know I did it to you guys too. I will stop if it freaks you out," Rye said shyly.
"NO!" Nicky and Bryan both shouted, then looked embarrassed.
"I think they like it as much as I do angel, so don't stop. But how bout getting your guitar and playing something and we can all sing again," Mark suggested.
"Ummm, I already brought it down," Bryan said with embarrasment as he grabbed the case behind him.
Rye smiled and took his guitar.
"Play us something first angel?" Shane asked.
Rye nodded and closed his eyes as he began. The others listened and smiled, each couple leaning into their partner. Bryan smiled and reached out his arms to bring Nicky into him and Shane. Nicky smiled and lay his head on Shane's lap. The music was hauntingly beautiful as it drifted out across the lake. Everyone remained quiet as the music ended.
Finally Kian whispered, seemingly afraid to break the spell the music had placed on them all, "That was just beautiful, I thought I recognized it but I'm not sure."
Rye nodded. "It's called Spanish Eyes, you have probably heard it before just not like that. So what kind of music for the rest of the evening, romance, campfire, silly, or a combination?"
"I could just listen to you play and sing for us all night," Bryan said to himself but Rye heard him.
"Really, you would just like to listen to me?" Rye said in amazement, clearly not believing him.
"Yes, you play so beautifully, and when you sing I could just hold my breath forever. It's like you are magic. You just sing and the world around me stops, and nothing matters but your voice. I can actually feel your voice and its almost......spiritual," Bryan said. Everyone just looked at Bryan in amazement. He had been able to put into words what everyone felt and he had done it so eloquently.
"That was beautiful Bry boy, you're a poet," Jill said with a catch in her voice, her emotions very strong.
Shane placed his hands on Bryan's and Nicky reached up and brushed his fingers across Bryan's face.
Rye smiled at Bryan and nodded. "I would love to play for you and sing for you, thank you for asking me."
Rye played several more classical pieces, throwing in a couple spanish guitar pieces and some flamenco. Then he sang a couple of songs that he enjoyed. He sang 'Something To Talk About', 'How Do I Live Without You' (which made Mark cry). Then to lighten the mood he did 'Mustang Sally' followed by 'Friends in Low Places', then 'Fare Thee Well Love' and finished with 'I Knew I Loved You' (in which Mark again held onto Rye tightly but managed to not cry).
"Rye can we do something special like we did last night... you know when we sang 'The Lion Sleeps Tonight' out on the dock?" Kian asked.
"Sure, just me or everyone?"
"Just you?" Kian said tentatively.
Rye nodded and walked towards the water, looking out over the moonlit lake and thinking about what Bryan had said earlier, he closed his eyes and began to sing:
O Lord my God, When I in awesome wonder,
Consider all the works Thy Hand hath made;
I see the stars, I hear the mighty thunder,
Thy power throughout the universe displayed.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
And when I think, that God, His Son not sparing;
Sent Him to die, I scarce can take it in;
That on the Cross, my burden gladly bearing,
He bled and died to take away my sin.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
When Christ shall come, with shout of acclamation,
And take me home, what joy shall fill my heart.
Then shall I bow, in humble adoration,
And there proclaim: "My God, how great Thou art!"
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art.
Then sings my soul, My Saviour God, to Thee,
How great Thou art, How great Thou art!
The others had slowly gotten up and joined Rye at the water's edge as he sang. Sharing in the magic that was Rye's voice and the beauty he wove with it. The song took on life as he sang and the group looked out into the night sky as if seeing it for the first time. It was probably a half hour before anyone said anything after Rye had stopped.
"Don't ever leave us Rye, promise kay?" Nicky said in a voice thick with emotion.
"Never Nicky love, no matter what, I am always here for you," Rye said as he held Mark in his arms.
"Rye angel why don't we head in now, leave the rest out here and take Bry boy in," Mark suggested.
"What? No," Bryan said.
"You've changed your mind?" Rye asked.
"Well I mean Shane can't...so I mean I don't wanta..." Bryan stumbled.
"No my boy," Shane said as he turned to look at Bryan, "You will go in and share just like tomorrow I am gonna share with them, then we can all four be together so we can enjoy it together."
Everyone was quiet as they watched this interaction. Kian and Jill had been filled in on the days events and were waiting to see what happened here. Everyone was surprised but were waiting to see what happened.
"You can't though, so if you can't then I won't. It doesn't matter to me," Bryan tried again.
"Actually I can Bry boy. I've put it behind me now. Today when Rye was touching me, I wasn't scared, not even a little. In fact I was trying to call up those images purposely, which was pretty easy considering the day. But they all just disappeared, and I fell asleep thinking of Rye holding me in his arms and then later of you telling me you loved me and holding me in your arms, protecting me. I know I am safe with all of you. I am going to be with them tomorrow when it's my turn. So you better be with them tonight, I don't want you to miss out," Shane said it firmly, without anger and just a hint of teasing.
Rye took Mark's hand then reached and took Bryan's as well. He waited for Bryan to give in and allow himself to be led away.
"I love you Shane," Bryan whispered.
"I know you do and I love you," Shane said back softly.
"Come on Bry boy, come be with us tonight and share with us," Mark invited.
The three men left and went back to the cabin, leaving the rest on the beach. Jill and Kian held hands and walked down the beach together. Nicky and Shane curled up together beside the fire, holding on to each other, Nicky behind Shane unconciously taking the same position Bryan had earlier, protecting Shane in his arms.
"Shane?" Nicky got Shane's attention.
"Yeah Nicky?"
"Can I stay with you tonight?" Nicky asked.
Shane pulled Nicky's arms around him tighter, "Yes please, I was hoping you would stay. I just want to be held tonight."
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure Nicky love."
"You know you don't have to be jealous of Bryan being with them right?"
"I know. I am not jealous of anyone being with them. I am not jealous of anyone being with Bryan either, well not anyone here," Shane said.
"When we are on tour again, and after too, is it alright, I mean really alright if I be with you guys sometimes?" Nicky asked sounding very shy and a little scared.
"Of course. We said it was okay."
"I just thought maybe you guys said it in the emotion of the moment," Nicky confessed.
Shane unwrapped himself and turned to face Nicky. "We both love you very much Nicky. In fact we were sort of thinking that if you wanted to you could be like our boyfriend permanently, like the three of us together. We would all be equals, nobody less than the other. Or if you weren't into that then you could share with us like with the lovers, it would have to be me and Bry boy together but we could do it all, sucking and anal. We would have to figure out rules but we wanted to let you know. We both want very much for you to be with us, we both love you very much."
Nicky looked at Shane then bent down and kissed him on the lips. Shane responded back and soon they were kissing deeply. They broke apart breathless.
"Maybe I am gay," Nicky said, confusion obvious in his voice.
"Why worry about a label Nicky love, gay or straight, they are just words. What matters is love. You want and need so much to be loved and you can get it all from us, but we are guys so it is confusing you a bit. I doubt you could do this with anyone other than our little group here, but if you have to use the words then you probably are gay. Seriously though love, does it really make any difference? Please think about it Nicky love, please, we both want you to be with us," Shane whispered as he once again kissed Nicky.
"Will you just hold me tonight. I don't want to get off I just want to hold someone," Nicky said as a tear fell down his cheek to land on Shane.
Shane stood and pulled Nicky up to him. "I will Nicky. You are never alone. We are always here for you, to love you, remember that always okay."
The two men walked back to the cabin and helped each other strip down to their boxers, then after a brief moment staring into each other's eyes removing the boxers as well, before climbing into bed and falling asleep in each others arms.
- Lessons -
"Here ya go Bry boy. Use this then take a shower so you are all clean everywhere, feet too, we have fun with just about every body part now and you will love it. Then meet us back in our bedroom." Mark gave Bryan an enema. Bryan took it and went quickly to one of the bathrooms.
After about an hour and no Bryan, Rye and Mark were wondering what was going on until Bryan opened the door. He stood there and looked at them sadly.
"I'm sorry....I can't get it to work." He started to cry from embarrasment and frustration.
Mark was up in an instant, holding Bryan tightly, then leading him into the bathroom. "It's okay my boy, I will help you."
"No it's too embarrassing. I just wanta go to my room." Bryan was trembling.
"It will be fine. Here we will do this together then we can hop in the shower and relax a bit. It's alright there is nothing to be embarrassed about." Mark spent some time showing Bryan how to work the enema and making sure Bryan was clean then joined him in the shower to wash and wind down.
A few minutes they emerged, hair slightly damp and Byran still looking like he wanted to just run and hide.
"Okay my boy?" Rye asked.
Bryan just nodded and came to the bed, settling in between Rye and Mark. The two men moved him into the familiar position, Rye's chest and penis against Bryan's chest and penis, with Mark coming in closely behind Bryan, their legs entwining.
"You're still upset a little aren't you?" Rye whispered softly, his breath tickling the fine hairs on Bryan's neck.
Bryan just nodded again as a single tear streaked down his cheek.
"Let's just hold onto each other for a bit. Please don't be upset my boy, it's such a small thing and we want you to enjoy tonight so much. Just let it go okay." Rye whispered as Mark placed a gentle kiss between Bryan's shoulder blades.
Bryan nodded. "Thank you guys for helping me," he barely whispered.
They held onto each other for a long time, helping to get Bryan's confidence back.
"Better?" Mark asked finally.
"I'm so embarrassed, I just don't think I can do it now," Bryan dry sobbed.
"Oh Bry boy. Let me ask you this. Tomorrow, before bringing Shane to us, if he needs help cleaning himself, will you help him?" Rye asked.
"Of course."
"Why?"
"Cuz, he's my boyfriend and I love him."
They waited for him to process it and he got it almost right away. "Okay I get it, but it's still embarrassing."
"I know you think it is, but let's move past it Bry, we want to be with you. We want to help you enjoy something so wonderful," Mark breathed.
It was several more minutes before Bryan said anything but finally he spoke, "I love you guys and I am ready." Bryan smiled, the excitement and desire now showing in his voice and eyes.
"Okay we have all night so I figured we would each take turns with you Bry boy, and you can be with one of us in between to give you a rest," Rye said.
"What? I'm sorry I don't get it," Bryan sounded confused.
"Rye will do you first, then you do me, then I do you, then you do Rye," Mark made it clear.
Bryan turned to look at Mark, "I thought you weren't going to do it?"
"I changed my mind. I realized I wanted to do it but my own embarrassment was keeping me from being with you. When I found out how much you wanted it I got over my embarrassment so I could enjoy it with you," Mark explained.
"Bry boy, if you start to hurt inside or anything let us know. Sometimes when you cum too many times, especially when you are making love, it can start to hurt. If that happens we will slow it down," Rye said.
"What do we do first?" Bryan asked.
"We are gonna skip the sucking and stuff, and concentrate on the other, since we are gonna do it a lot. So first we need to get you ready. Now this is gonna be really enjoyable so just go with it and cum when you are ready," Rye said.
Rye moved down as Mark eased Bryan back onto his back, positioning pillows behind him so he was raised a bit and able to watch. Rye gently lifted Bryan's legs and Bryan instinctively held his legs up. Rye moved down and blew across Bryan's hole. Bryan's body reacted and he moaned a bit. Rye moved in and flicked his tongue across it. This time Bryan screamed.
"SHITE!"
"Okay Bry boy?" Rye asked with a smile.
"Oh god that's amazing, please do it again."
Rye smiled, a single tongue flick had almost made Bryan cum.
"Oh yeah," Rye thought to himself, "Bryan is a definite bottom and from the sound of it he is gonna be insatiable."
Rye moved once again and pressed his tongue into Bryan's ass eliciting moans of pleasure. Mark, realizing that Bryan was not going to last too long, gently got up and touched the back of Rye's head. Once he had Rye's attention he indicated he wanted to do it as well. Rye smiled and moved aside, letting Mark take over and took Bryan's foot in his hand. As Mark pressed his tongue into Bryan and another moan escaped Bryan's lips Rye traced his tongue up the arch of Bryan's foot.
Bryan's eyes shot open as Rye's tongue dragged again across his foot and he clutched the sheets and threw his head back.
"Oh fuck!" he shouted then tensed and released his load across his chest.
Rye moved and leaned down to begin licking the cum off of Bryan's chest, soon joined by Mark.
"How was that Bry boy?" Mark giggled after several minutes and Bryan's breathing had become a little more normal.
"That was mind numbing," Bryan gasped.
"And loud," Rye giggled. "Emma start white noise generator."
"Thank you Rye." The voice of the computer spoke.
Both Mark and Bryan looked at Rye.
"Creates a background noise that helps to cover sound. Don't need the whole place hearing us screaming in ecstasy do we." Rye leaned down to take Bryan's nipple in his mouth and chuckled deeply.
Byran's reaction was amazing. Bryan's whole body shivered and he tensed with excitement, his semi hard cock going hard instantly.
"Oh God Rye," he breathed and placed both of his hands onto Rye's head.
"Wow," Rye said then looked at Mark, "Do I do that to everyone?"
"Pretty much yeah, although not sure, never seen you actually be in contact with any of us when you've done it before, it's always just been you in the room with us. But if Bry boy is any indication, I want to feel you like that too. In fact I will get you to do it for us all from now on," Mark said.
"Ready to go on?" Rye asked Bryan.
"Oh yeah." There was definite desire in Bryan's voice now.
Rye took the lube from the table while Mark gently raised Bryan's legs again.
"Tell us if you feel pain or discomfort, we have all night and there doesn't have to be pain. We can go as slow as we need to make sure you enjoy this," Mark said softly.
Rye began to probe gently with a finger, finding Bryan's pleasure spot almost immediately. When he flicked his finger across it Bryan's body tensed and his hole closed tightly around Rye's finger.
"Oooooh!" Bryan moaned. Rye did not move until Bryan's body relaxed.
"That's the spot Bryan. That's what does it for us. You think a finger makes it good, wait until I am inside you," Rye said sexily.
Rye continued to relax Bryan, adding a second and finally a third finger. Mark basically lay beside Bryan, stroking his chest and nibbling on his shoulder or neck. Bryan was going to cum so many times that night that any extra stimulus might push him over and limit him from experiencing everything they wanted for him, so Mark was careful not to allow Bryan to get too excited.
Rye removed his fingers and lubed up his cock. Placing it at Bryan's opening he looked into Bryan's eyes.
"Love you Bry boy."
"Love you angel, love you too fella."
"Love you both. You ready Bryan?" Mark asked.
Bryan nodded.
"Good boy. You gotta help my man a bit here. Try pushing like you are trying to keep him out," Mark instructed.
Bryan nodded and as Rye's head began to push against him he started to push back. With a sudden gasp Rye's head slipped in.
"Okay Bry?" Mark asked.
"Yeah."
"Rye is gonna start slow, easing it in a little at a time so you can get comfortable. We can take all the time we need so there is no pain. Just nod when you are ready."
Bryan nodded right away. Rye began to move in watching Bryan's eyes for any indication of pain. Amazingly there never was, Rye managed to push all the way in without stopping or slowing. Bryan was in ecstasy.
Rye began to slowly build a rhythm until he was pulling all the way out except for the head of his cock before pushing all the way back in.
"Rye I'm gonna cum soon," Bryan breathed.
"Do it boy, I am gonna shoot soon too. I am gonna fill you up. Do you want to feel me cum inside you? Tell me you want to feel me cum inside you," Rye breathed.
"Yeah do it. Shoot inside me. Here I go Rye, do it now, do it at the same time. Uuuunnnnngggghhhhh." Bryan shot again sending thick streams of cum across his belly and chest. His ass grabbed onto Rye's cock sending Rye over the edge and releasing into Bryan.
The two men lay there panting, catching their breath. Mark gently cleaned them both off and lay his head on Bryan's chest as the two slowly regained their strength. After a half hour or so the two men seemed to have recovered.
"Ready for the next part Bry boy?" Mark whispered against Bryan's chest.
"Yeah but...." Bryan paused, concern in his voice.
"What's wrong?" Rye asked.
"I am just...well...I am bigger...I don't want to hurt anyone." Bryan sounded shy.
"It's okay, we do it the same way, go slow. Preparing each other is as enjoyable as the actual act. And Bryan you have to learn how to do it properly. You are really big and need to be able to monitor yourself so you don't hurt Shane," Mark said.
"Yeah I would die if I hurt him. I want you guys to teach me to do it right okay?" Bryan asked.
"We will. Just because we are teaching though doesn't mean you aren't going to enjoy it. It is all pleasure Bryan. Ready?" Mark asked again.
"Yeah, what do I do?"
"I will show you," Rye said. "Help position Mark so that you are both comfortable. Sometimes you can just tell but sometimes you have to ask. I think for now you should concentrate on asking before you do anything. Don't assume it's okay unless you ask. That will work best for Shane."
Bryan reached out to Mark's legs, his hands trembling violently.
"Stop," Mark said and everyone did. "Bry boy why are you shaking so badly?"
"I'm scared," Bryan said simply.
"Why are you scared?" Mark asked.
"I have never done this before, I want to do it right, I don't want to hurt you, I don't want to hurt Shane and probably another dozen reasons I am too scared to think of right now," Bryan laughed.
Mark turned to Rye, "Should we just stop for a bit longer, hold each other for a bit until Bryan can calm down?"
"No it's okay really. I mean you guys are here to watch me right, and I don't know that anything other than just doing it will make me be any less scared. Really it's okay. I trust you both and want to go on okay?" Bryan said.
Rye nodded and Bryan gently lifted up Mark's legs. Mark held onto his knees as Bryan asked, "Are you comfortable Mark?"
"Yes I am. Please get me ready Bry, I want you inside me," Mark encouraged.
Rye lay down and waited for Bryan to get beside him. He gently blew across Mark's hole, which contracted from the sensation. Bryan watched with a mixture of awe and desire. Looking to Rye for approval he then blew across Mark's hole himself, eliciting a moan from Mark. Bryan smiled.
"Show me more," Bryan said without taking his eyes from Mark's ass.
Rye leaned in and flicked his tongue around and across Mark's pucker then plunged his tongue into it. He did this for a minute or so then pulled back. He had barely moved aside before Bryan took his place.
"Keep going Bry boy, I want you to make my fella cum just using your tongue," Rye said. He wasn't sure if Bryan had heard him or not but Bryan kept it up, moaning himself every so often.
After several minutes Mark moaned, "Don't stop Bry boy, you are gonna make me cum." Almost before the words were out Mark released across his belly and chest.
Bryan stopped and looked at Mark, his eyes bright with desire. "Did I do good Mark?" he asked breathlessly.
"Oh yeah my boy you did great. Let's keep going I want you inside me." Mark sighed as Rye licked the cum from his belly.
"I liked that a lot," Bryan said with excitement as he took the lube from Rye.
"We can tell Bry boy," Rye laughed. He watched Bryan to see if he was paying attention or if his excitement had made him forget to ask. It was important for Shane that Bryan not get carried away.
"Mark fella, is it alright if I use my fingers now to get you ready?" Bryan asked. Rye beamed at Bryan, he hadn't forgotten.
"Yes, thank you for remembering to ask. Go ahead," Mark sighed.
Bryan spread the lube around Mark's hole and massaged it gently. "Okay I am going to use one finger, tell me to stop if I do it wrong or it's uncomfortable." Bryan knew that there would be no discomfort with his fingers, Mark had had Rye's cock in him, but he wanted to get used to asking, for Shane's sake.
Bryan gently pushed in with his finger, watching Mark the whole time for any sign of discomfort. It wasn't long before he found the pleasure spot and gasped as Mark's ass grabbed his finger.
"Are you ready for another finger?" Bryan asked after a few minutes and he felt Mark relaxing.
"Yeah do it boy," Mark moaned.
Bryan removed his finger and then pushed in again with two fingers. He continued this until he thought Mark was ready for more then asked, "Ready for another finger Mark fella?"
At Mark's nod he inserted a third and began a rhythmic thrusting with his fingers.
"That's so good Bry boy, let's move on," Mark moaned.
"Okay I am gonna lube you up a bit more and then I am gonna use my cock. You ready?" Bryan asked as he placed his cock at Mark's hole.
"Yeah but go slow, you are really big," Mark cautioned.
"Okay push against me and let me know if you want me to stop." Bryan said as he began to push forward. He felt the resistence give a bit and his head popped into Mark. Mark winced a bit and tensed. Bryan immediately stopped but did not pull out.
"You okay Mark, want me to pull out?" Bryan asked with concern.
"No you are doing great, you did just right, just stop a bit and let me get used to it."
After a few moments Bryan could feel Mark relax and then nod so he continued to push in. He stopped once again briefly as Mark tensed and gave a little yip of pain.
"Maybe we should stop, maybe I am just too big. I don't mind, I like being the one getting fucked. I don't mind if I don't do this," Bryan sounded upset and looked at Mark tearfully. Bryan was truly upset.
"No my boy. Shane may like getting it as much as you do, but even if you only do it every now and then you will still have to learn. You are doing great. You are watching Mark for signs of pain or discomfort and stopping long enough for him to relax. Don't worry my boy," Rye comforted him.
"Okay Bry boy, push the rest of the way in," Mark finally said.
Bryan obeyed and pushed the last little bit till he was all the way in. Mark reached up and drew his head down and kissed him.
"Now just start moving in and out a little bit. Once you feel me get used to it you can start pulling out more. Take your time. You want to be able to pull almost all the way out before pushing back in. At your own pace now. Remember to enjoy it but also pay attention to your partner and make sure they are getting pleasure too okay?" Mark whispered.
Mark was amazed at the difference in feeling. Bryan was very big and Mark felt stretched. It was not painful but it was a little uncomfortable at first. Slowly though the feelings changed and he just felt filled. As Bryan began his slow stroking he began to feel the pleasure. He looked at Rye who smiled back at him and leaned down to kiss him. Mark realized that he no longer felt embarrassed by the whole thing. He brought his hands up and pulled Rye onto his chest, kissing him.
Bryan watched the two lovers kissing as he lengthened his strokes. He was now pulling nearly all the way out before pushing back in. He could feel himself getting close.
"Guys I am almost ready. Rye do what you did to me. Suck his nipple while you laugh, it will send us both over," Bryan said anxiously as he approached orgasm.
Rye smiled and kissed down Mark's chest and took his nipple in his mouth and chuckled. The result was astounding. Mark's body tensed and he screamed in pleasure as Bryan released into him and he released across Rye's side and back.
- Background Noise -
Both Jill and Kian sat up.
"Did you hear that?" Jill asked.
"Yeah. Sounded like Mark. You think everything is okay?" Kian asked. "I mean it sounded like he was, you know, feeling really good, not pain or anything."
"Yeah that's what I think too," Jill laughed. "Emma activate white noise generator."
"Thank you Jill, white noise generator is already activated."
Jill raised her eyebrows then said, "Emma activate background music, classical, exclude master bedroom."
"Thank you Jill activating background music excluding master bedroom."
"Well they must really be enjoying themselves, they already had the noise generator on." Jill said as soft classical music filled the room.
Kian laughed and lay back down pulling Jill in close. After a few minutes he sat up a bit.
"Jill?"
"Yes sweets."
"Would you be mad if I don't do the anal stuff with them. I just am really not interested in that at all" Kian confessed.
"You do what you are comfortable with, but if you like the holding and the sucking then keep doing it," Jill said sleepily.
"Thanks Jill." Kian lay back down and pulled Jill back in close.
- Shane and Nicky -
Nicky stirred a little, something had disturbed him, but hearing nothing except the soft breathing of Shane beside him he pulled in closer to Shane and fell back to sleep with a softly whispered, "Love you Shane."
Nobody in the house was awoken again that night, although the screams of passion were amazing. By early morning the house was quiet except for the light classical music playing in the background.
...to be continued
The hymn "How Great Thou Art" has always been one of my favourites, and seemed to fit so well the mood I wanted to create. All kinds of people sing this song, my favourite though is Aled Jones. You have to be careful though, Aled Jones began singing very yound and although he sang it as a child, his soprano voice is not the version I thought of here. His voice hit a wonderful tenor as he grew up and this is the version that will send shivers across your body.