Marine Squad Sierra Foxtrot

Marine Squad Sierra Foxtrot 10

Marine Squad Sierra Foxtrot

Chapter 10:

Matt and I walk over to our dorm to see if Josh is there and how interested he might be in playing with us. When we walk in the door we find him in our room with Mark and Drew, just having a bull session. Matt stays in the doorway and I walk over to Josh, slipping my arms around him. I whisper in his ear.

"Hey sexy man, if I can pull you away for a second I need to ask you something in private."

"OK, let's go outside; we'll leave these three to themselves."

We walk outside, Matt coming along with us. We get about ten feet from the building and I turn Josh around and look him in the eyes, smiling at him.

"I know you said you would be okay with Matt and me doing something together, but we would like to propose that all three of us do something. Would you be interested?" I grin. "Can Josh come out and play?"

He giggles. "Yeah, Josh can come out and play. So, ah, what'd you have in mind?"

"Well this was actually Matt's idea, and since he's the new guy, and straight I thought we could kinda let him lead; tell us and show us what he's comfortable with."

Josh grins and looks over at Matt. "So you've decided to try the good side, huh?"

Matt grins. "I don't know about the good side, but yeah I've been thinkin' about it for a little while. Watching you two together is fuckin' hot, I wanted to see what it'd be like to be inside."

Josh giggles. "You just wanna be inside my man's ass, huh?"

"Well, I wouldn't turn it down, that's for damn sure. I'd love to be inside yours too; you have a really cute ass, Josh."

Josh blushes a little and grins. "Thanks. Yeah, I'm good with this. I don't know for sure about giving up my ass to ya, but I'll play it by ear. We have two problems we need to work out first; one, where the hell do we find condoms and where do we do this?"

Matt looks at him. "What do we need condoms for?"

"Well Joe and I have only ever fucked each other; we know where we've been. No offense, but if you're the man whore you say are I'd rather we were safe if there's gonna be any fucking."

"OK, I see your point. I have condoms; I never leave home without `em." He grins. "Why not just do this in your room; that's where you guys always do it?"

"Are you willing to take the chance of gettin' busted by someone here? They all know about us, but you're the straight boy; do you really want someone seein' you with two guys?"

Matt groans. "Part of me says fuck `em, but I know what they're like and I'm not sure I'm ready for all the shit that would come my way."

"We could do it in the weapon's room."

Matt shakes his head. "No, I don't wanna fuck in the weapon's room; what if we get locked in?"

"Well, we could have Mark keep look out; he was going to when Joe and I were going to have our first time in there."

Matt considered for a moment. "Nah... Not that I care if Mark knows, but I'd still be a little worried someone would either walk in or lock us in. And what if Gunny wanted in? It's not like Mark could tell him to get lost."

I have another one of my maybe not so brilliant ideas. "I have an idea. I know it means we wouldn't be able to do this now, but what if we asked Gunny to send the three of us, along with Mark out on patrol tomorrow? We could take the Humvee and find some secluded spot. It would also give me the chance to finally have sex in a fuckin' car." I grin at them.

They both laugh; Matt looking at me. "You've never had sex in a car?"

"No. Josh is only the second person I've ever had sex with; it's not like we take long drives in the country."

"Yeah, OK, that'd work. Sex in a car is fun; and with one as big as that there's plenty of room to move around. What about Mark; is he gonna wanna join in?"

I grin. "Most likely."

"I thought he and junior were together now?"

Josh and I look at him, surprised. "You know about them?"

He laughs and rolls his eyes. "Everybody here knows about `em. Was it supposed to be a secret?"

I laugh. "They think it is. But yeah, I'm pretty sure he'd wanna join in; do you have a problem with that?"

"Is he any good?"

I smirk again. "He's damn good. We taught him everything he knows."

Matt laughs. "Fuckin' perv. OK, let's go ask Gunny about goin' out together tomorrow."

We walk over to the office to check with Gunny, finding him in his room getting dressed. Must have been a good shower; he's been at it for quite a while. I knock on the door frame and smile at him.

"Scott must've gotten them really clean if you're just getting back from the shower."

He laughs loudly. "Fucker... No, smartass, I had to wait in line. And Scott was in there, but he wouldn't even look at me." He laughs again.

Matt and I laugh; poor Josh not yet knowing what we're talking about. "Good, maybe he'll stop talkin' shit. We have a favor to ask."

"No, I'm not gonna let you clean my balls." He laughs again. "What's up?"

"We'd like to know if the three of us, plus Mark can go out on patrol together tomorrow?"

He grins at me. "So let me get this straight, no pun intended. The three gay boys wanna take the always horny straight boy out on patrol?" I blush crimson and he laughs. "Fuck... Damn, I was just jokin', but I see I hit the nail on the head." He looks at Matt, grinning from ear to ear. "You greedy fucker; when you jump the fence you really jump. Not just one, but three of `em workin' you over."

Matt blushes. "I... I... Uh... Who would turn this down?"

Gunny laughs again, shaking his head. "The only name that comes to mind is Pete, but we'll leave that alone for now. You guys do realize you go out on patrol to work, right; not suck cock and fuck?"

Matt grins at him. "Lunch break."

Gunny laughs again. "Fucker... Why can't you just do it here?"

"I don't want the entire camp knowin'. Can you imagine the kind of shit I'd get if word got out that I did this?"

"Payback's a bitch, Matt. You give everyone here shit for every little thing; isn't it about time they got something on you?"

"Yeah, but not this, Gunny; please. We'll still do our jobs, but we'll just take a longer lunch break." He grins at me and then at Gunny. "Besides, Joe here has never fucked in a car before; he wants to try it."

"So you think I'm gonna let you take a Humvee too?" He looks at me. "You've never fucked in a car?"

"Well gee, Dad, I keep askin' for the keys but you never give `em to me. No, I've never had sex in a car. I've never even made out in one."

He grins and shakes his head. "I don't know... This would turn into one giant shit sandwich if anyone ever found out I let you guys do this knowin' what you have planned."

I grin at him. "You don't know what we have planned; you just assumed. You have deniability. We'll do our jobs, but what we do on our lunch break is nobody's business, is it?"

"If an officer flyin' overhead in a Blackhawk looks out the window and sees the four of you fuckin' he'll make it his business."

"I'm pretty sure we'd hear a helo coming at us, Gunny. Will you at least think about it; let us know before you hit the sack tonight? Please?" I smile and try my best puppy dog look.

He laughs. "I ain't marryed to ya; those puppy dog looks won't get you anywhere." He groans. "I'll think about it and let ya know." He looks at Matt, grinning again. "You're really gonna do this, huh? I knew you were the horniest fucker I've ever met, but I didn't think you'd jump the fence to get a nut."

Matt blushes again. "Like I said, who would turn this down, other than Pete? And it's not about just gettin' a nut. Joe and Josh are my best friends and they wanna do something with me. It's something I think I might like, so why not do it?"

Gunny shakes his head again. "Gee, I don't know, maybe because you're straight? You young guys are sure open-minded about sex, I know that."

Matt grins. "Have you ever seen these two together? It's fuckin' hot; I mean really, really fuckin' hot. I'm not gay and I've never even thought about a dude before, but seein' these two go at it is better than any porno I've ever watched. Why wouldn't I wanna try it?"

"No, I have no desire to see these two havin' sex; it's not my gig. Like I said, you young guys are just way more open-minded about sex than guys my age or older. I can't imagine any of my friends wanting to have sex with three guys just to experience it. And where's the other gay boy; he with his new boy toy?"

I laugh. "Yeah, he's in our room with his new boy. Fuck, everyone does know about them; it's gonna blow their mind. Actually we haven't even asked Mark about this yet; think maybe we should?"

Gunny laughs. "You think?"

"Hey, I know that boy; he'd never turn this down. I don't know what he's gonna do about Drew, but I know he'd jump on this in a heartbeat."

Gunny grins at Matt. "Well I guess you can have four of `em workin' you over." He shakes his head again. "Fuck..."

I look at Gunny. "Well, Drew plays for your team, he just wanted to try it before he get's his head blown off; at least that's what he said."

"What the fuck? That's a fucked up way to look at things."

"He's not quite as freaked as he was, but he's still kinda convinced he won't be goin' home alive."

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me he was thinking that? We need to get this worked out; I can't have one of my Marines convinced he's gonna die over here. You guys are supposed to tell me shit like this." He turns to Josh. "Go get him."

"Yes Gunny."

Josh turns and walks out, heading over to our room to get Drew. Gunny turns to me. "How long have you known about this?"

"A few days. He told me right after I came in here to tell you we were done cleanin' the room that day. I thought something was up with him and wanted to have a heart to heart with him. He's just nervous; I don't know that he's convinced he's gonna die."

"He's eighteen, he's away from home for the first time in his life and he's getting shot at; he's convinced."

"Even so, when he gets in here you have to be kinda gentle with him; he's just a bit afraid of you."

"Why?"

"The day you chewed us all out; that's his first memory and impression of you."

"Fuck... Fine, you two are stayin' here while I talk to him."

Matt looks at Gunny. "I'm not sure he's all that crazy about me either; I made him change rooms and told him he couldn't have any of Aaron's stuff."

"Jesus. No wonder the poor kid's freaked out; he thinks he landed in hell." He looks back at me. "Has Mark talked to him about any of this; about thinkin' he's dead meat?"

"I don't know. I didn't tell Mark what Drew told me and I don't know if Drew told him."

"You need to start tellin' people what's goin' on when someone tells you they think they're gonna end up dead. There's a hell of lot more goin' on around here than you and Josh; get with the program."

"I'm sorry, Gunny, but I didn't put that much into what he said. I just figured he was scared and nervous landin' in the middle of a war zone. I didn't really believe he thought he was gonna die over here."

"You can't take that chance though, Joe; he could end up psychin' himself out or freeze up when he has a bullet comin' at him." He turns back to Matt. "If Mark doesn't come with them, go get him and bring him here. If he doesn't really like you that much then maybe you should just tell Mark to get over here; go hang out in the rec-room and if we need ya I'll call over there."

"Yes Gunny."

Matt turns and leaves, Gunny turning his attention back to me. "Have you seen Tiff?"

"No."

"She's better at this shit than I am; we need her here."

"I'll go look for her."

"OK. Actually, let's do this in the rec-room; it's less intimidating and more comfortable for him. Find Tiff and bring her over there."

"Yes Gunny."

I turn and leave, walking over to the other bunk room in the hopes she's over there talking to Pete or Scott. As I'm walking in the door to the bunk room, Josh and Drew are walking into the office. Drew looks nervously at Gunny.

"You wanted to see me, Gunny?"

"Yes, but let's go over to the rec-room; I just wanna have a chat. We'll grab a couple of Gatorades and bullshit for a while."

"Yes Gunny."

Josh looks at Gunny. "Do you need me for anything, Gunny?"

"Yeah, join the party."

They walk over to the rec-room, finding Tiff, Scott and Pete in there watching television. Gunny turns to Tiff.

"I need your assistance with something." He turns to Pete and Scott. "Can you guys give us some time?"

They both jump up and leave the building. I'm on my way back to the rec-room when I run into Matt and Mark heading to the office. I stop them.

"The meeting's been moved to the rec-room."

Mark looks at me. "What meeting; what's going on?"

"I'm sorry I didn't say anything earlier, but Gunny needs to talk to Drew about something he talked to me about. Have you seen Tiff?"

"No. What are you talking about?"

"Drew told me the same day we found Matt that he thinks he's gonna die over here; get his head blown off."

"What!? Why didn't you tell me he said that?"

"I just thought he was nervous about bein' here; I didn't think he really believed it. Gunny wants to make sure though. And just to prepare you a little, they know about you and Drew bein' together."

"You told them!? What the fuck, Joe; I thought we were friends?"

Matt jumps in. "He didn't tell anyone shit, dude; we all know because we know the signs now. Don't jump Joe's ass for something that has nothing to do with him. Just be glad he brought this to Gunny's attention; he's tryin' to help your boy."

"I'm sorry, Joe; I didn't mean it that way. This is all a lot to take in. Let's get in there and see if we can help Drew."

He turns and walks toward the rec-room. I turn to Matt.

"Are you coming?"

"No, Gunny said to hang loose until he calls me. He said to hang in the rec-room, but I guess I'll hang in the office so he can call me on the box."

"I kinda think you should be there; you have a better understanding of what really happens around here than we do; other than Gunny."

"I just do what I'm told, Joe. I'll come if he calls me. Good luck in there."

"Thanks. And thank you for defending me. I love you too." I grin at him.

He grins. "Yeah yeah, I know... I'm just your knight in shining Humvee."

We both laugh. "Yeah you are; you always come to my defense and aid."

"Yeah, well... You're awful special to me too. Now get in there and help junior like you help everyone else around here."

"Yes Sir." I grin and walk away, heading to the rec-room.

I'm thinking about a lot of things on the short walk, but mostly about Matt. I could so easily fall in love with him; I'm pretty sure I've been in love with him from the day on the helo pad, but my love for Josh is more powerful. I can't live without Josh, but I'm starting to wonder if I could live without Matt in my life too. I shake my head, trying to clear the thoughts out of it and open the door and walk in, standing next to Josh. Everyone in the room looks a little nervous. I turn to Drew.

"This is all kinda my fault, Drew; I'm sorry. I just happened to mention in passing about what you said about thinking you were gonna die over here; they kinda freaked out over that."

Tiff looks at Drew. "Is that true, Andrew? Do you think you're not going to make it home again?"

"I don't know... I thought that the first few days I was here. I don't know what I think about it anymore."

"It's OK to be nervous and scared, Andrew, but you can't go into this thinking you're not gonna make it out alive. Have you talked to Mark about this?"

"No Ma'am; Joe is the only one I've ever mentioned it to. And I'm not really convinced I'm gonna die, but I am scared a lot of the time. This is like real life, and it's hard to deal with at times."

Mark jumps in. "Drew, you know you can talk to me about anything. And I'll do whatever I can to help you feel less scared. I know this place is live, but you can't think you're gonna die over here. You have eleven other people here that watch your back for ya, we'll do anything we can to keep you safe, brother."

"I know, Mark, but I still think about it; I still wonder about that bullet that has my name on it."

"You can't think like that, Drew. You have to rely on your training and your sixth sense, you can't just think about the bullet that's coming at you."

Gunny looks at Drew. "I'm not sayin' you shouldn't be a little scared, but you have to believe that you're gonna make it back home. Just outta curiosity, why did you join the Corps? You had to know that you'd be getting shot at at some point during your tour."

"I joined because I've always wanted to be a Marine. And yeah, I knew the risks but I didn't really expect it to be like this. I'll be alright, I'm just still trying to get used to everything around here. Having it drilled into your head during basic and actually bein' here are two different things."

"I need to know that you're not goin' to freeze up at a critical moment. Do you really think you'll be able to return fire if you're bein' shot at?"

"Yeah, I really do, Gunny. I'm not gonna let anyone down, but I have to tell ya, I do think about it. Maybe it's just a combination of bein' the new guy, bein' in the middle of nowhere and bein' a little freaked out by all of it, but I know I have what it takes to be a good Marine. I won't freeze and let my brother Marines get hurt."

"Do you think it would help ya if I took you off patrols for a few days, to give you some time to get used to bein' here?"

"No, please don't do that, Gunny. I want to carry my weight around here. Bein' at camp isn't really gonna help me get used to bein' shot at."

"OK, I hear ya; I won't pull you off patrols. How about bein' assigned to Matt; are you OK with him? He says you might not like him because he had you moved out of Aaron's room."

"No, that's not true, Gunny. I completely understand why he did that; Aaron's his friend and I'm the new guy. I knew where he was comin' from. Besides, he's kinda fun to hang out with; he keeps me relaxed because he keeps me laughin'. He just needs to quit callin' me junior all the time."

Gunny smiles at him. "I'd take junior if I were you, Drew; it's better than other things he could come up with. OK, I'll leave you with Matt. You need to keep me informed about what's goin' on in your head though. I wanna know if you just can't get adjusted to all of this. And I'm not sayin' you'd be discharged if you can't, but you would be re-assigned to a base or something out of the zone."

"I'd rather be kicked out than be put behind a desk, Gunny. I joined to be a Marine, not a desk jockey."

"That's the kind of attitude I like to hear. I'm not sayin' it ever becomes less scary, but you will get used it; give it some time. And spend some time with everyone here; not just Mark. You need to get to know everyone; let them know you exist and you're here for them. They'll return the attention ten-fold."

"Yes Gunny. I have gotten to know a couple of the guys when we've been out on patrol, but yeah, I need to make the rounds, I guess."

"It'll help ya; it'll let you see that we're all here for ya. I can't promise they'll do for ya what Mark does, but they will watch out for ya." Gunny grins at him and he blushes.

"You know?"

"We all know. It doesn't matter to us; don't worry about it. I always heard it was submariners that went in as sailors and came back as couples, but I'm starting to see it works for Marines too. Don't sweat it."

Drew and Mark blush again. "I don't know that we're a couple, but I hear what you're sayin'. I never thought of myself as gay, but I guess I've decided to not rule anything out."

Gunny smirks. "That seems to be happenin' a lot around here lately. So, can I count on you to tell me how you're doin' with everything? And no, I don't mean what you do with Mark. I don't really want details about that."

"I'll keep you informed, Gunny. I never really wanted anyone here to know I was scared; I thought they'd think I was just a big pussy, but it's nice to know everyone cares."

"We do care, Drew; we want you to go home alive just as much as your family does. When you put that uniform on you joined a brotherhood, and we always take care of our own."

Drew blushes again. "Thanks, Gunny. I can't imagine any other brotherhood I'd rather be a part of. I won't let you down."

"That's good to know, Drew. I'll let you guys talk; I have things I need to take care of." He holds his hand out to Drew. "I'm sorry I jumped your shit the first day you were here; it was just really bad timing."

Drew takes his hand and shakes it. "You were right to do it; it was stupid of all of us to do that."

"Yes it was." He breaks the handshake and turns to Tiff. "I need your advice about something; join me in the office, please."

"Of course, Gunny." Tiff turns to Drew. "I'll tell you the same thing I tell the other guys around here. If you ever need to talk or a shoulder to cry on you know where to find me."

Drew smiles at her. "Thanks Sergeant."

Tiff smiles at him. "I go by Tiff to my friends and brother Marines."

He blushes. "Thanks Tiff."

Tiff and Gunny leave the rec-room and I turn to Drew.

"Like I said, Drew, I'm sorry I spilled; I didn't know they'd call a formal meeting."

"It's OK, Joe; I'm actually kinda relieved to see that everyone's lookin' out for me."

"We do, brother. Like he said, we always take care of our own. Are you really gonna be alright; you gonna quit thinkin' about getting shot?"

He sighs. "I'm gettin' better. Like I said, it actually helps bein' out with Matt; he keeps me focused on the task and he keeps me relaxed by makin' me laugh. He's a crazy fucker, but he's a great guy."

I smirk and grin. "That he is. You can trust him with your life, Drew; he'll do anything he can for you."

Mark looks over at me. "Can I talk to Drew alone for minute, Joe? I don't mean to sound like I'm tryin' to kick you and Josh out, but I kind of am." He grins at me.

I smile at him. "Sure, sexy boy, he's all yours." I turn to Josh. "Come on, sexy boy, we have things to do."

"We do?"

I laugh. "I love you, babe, but sometimes you're a little slow on the uptake. Start walkin'."

He smirks and turns towards the door. I smile at Mark and Drew and follow him out. When we get outside we find Matt standing there, waiting for us. He looks at me.

"Is he gonna be OK?"

"I think he will. He's still just tryin' to adjust to bein' here. I mean, come on, weren't you a little freaked out when you first got here?"

"Kinda, yeah. I never thought I was gonna die, but yeah, I was kinda freaked."

"I think that's mostly what this is. And just to clear something up, he does like you; he thinks you're funny and he likes bein' on patrol with ya because you keep him relaxed and focused."

Matt grins. "What can I say; they all love me. They say I'm a pain in the ass but they love me anyway."

I smile at him. "Yeah we do. So, do you think Gunny's going for this? Our plan?"

"I don't know... He might be more worried about junior now."

I smirk. "That is one thing he said; he wishes you'd quit callin' him junior. Gunny told him it's better than other things you could call him."

"I didn't think it bothered him. I'm not bein' disrespectful, it's just a nickname."

"Well then tell him that; he might just appreciate knowin' you like him enough to give him a nickname that doesn't start with fuckin' or end with cocksucker."

He laughs. "Junior cocksucker? That's fuckin' funny. He's too big to be a junior cocksucker. Besides, I've seen Mark hard; there's nothin' junior about him either. Speakin' of, do you think he'll really go for this?"

"In a fuckin' heartbeat; he's every bit as cock hungry as junior."

"Or you and Josh?" He grins at us.

"Yeah, as much as me and Josh, smart-ass."

"You said you liked my ass."

"I do. Are you gonna let me try it?"

"I don't know, Joe; that's something I've never considered before."

I grin at him. "I'm just fuckin' with ya. I'm not gonna try to take your ass."

"You ain't takin' nothin', but if I offer it, that's something else."

""Are you offerein' it?"

"Like I said, I don't know if I'm ready for that. Let me think about it."

I smile at him. "I know, Matt, I'm just teasin'. I only want you to do what you're comfortable with. I wouldn't ever pressure someone into something they don't wanna do."

Matt grins at me and then looks at Josh. "What about you; you want my ass too?"

Josh smirks and grins. "I sure as hell wouldn't turn it down. I'm not in love with ya like Joey is, but I still think you're fuckin' hot."

I turn to Josh. "I'm not in love with Matt. Why would you say that?"

Josh smiles at me. "Yes you are, babe; you have been for a long time."

"No I'm not. I love him but I'm not in love with him."

"I'm not blind, Joey; I know what I see. It doesn't bother me; I'm not jealous, so don't worry about it. You can't help who you fall in love with."

"I'm tellin' you I'm not in love with him. First you think Mark's in love with me and now you think I'm in love with Matt; what's up with that?"

He laughs. "I know what I see, Joey. And yes, Mark's in love with you and you with Matt. Don't worry about it."

"What do you mean you know what you see? What have you seen me do that makes you think I'm in love with Matt?"

"The way you look at him. The way you stare into his eyes when he's talkin' to ya; it's the same way you look at me, Joey. Don't stress over this; I'm not jealous."

I blush a little and he smiles big. I try to cover. "Just because I think he has sexy eyes doesn't mean I'm in love with him."

Matt smirks. "Dude, I think it's time you gave up the battle; you ain't gonna win the war. I told you earlier not to fall in love with me, but I knew you already had. I knew it when you found me with Aaron's rifle; the way you were fighting to bring me back from the edge."

Josh chuckles. "I'm glad I'm not the only one who saw that. I mean I didn't want you doin' that shit either, but I wasn't nearly as scared as Joey." He turns to me and smiles. "It's really OK, babe, I don't mind. I've known since we were in ITB and I've gotten used to the idea."

I shake my head. "You both seem pretty sure about my feelings; maybe you'd like to tell me what else I feel."

Josh smirks. "Don't do that. I'm just sayin' I know you're in love with him. What you do about it is up to you; and, well him too, I guess. I'm not tryin' to get in your head; I'm just tellin' you what I see. If you are then just admit it and we all move on. If you're not then tell us and we move on with that too."

Matt grins at me. "Be honest with yourself, and with me and Josh. Are you in love with me?"

I look back and forth between Matt and Josh knowing I've been busted. I settle on Matt. "Yes." I sigh. "I knew I was when we were in ITB but I thought I'd snapped myself out of it. I knew nothing could come of it and I was desperately in love with Josh. I'm still desperately in love with Josh; he's my world. But yeah, I'm in love with you, too. I'm sorry."

"Don't you dare be sorry about that. I told you earlier I'd be the luckiest guy on the planet if I could find a girl who loves me like you do. I'm not upset, Joe, I'm honored you feel that way about me."

Josh smiles at me. "It's OK, Joey. I know you love me and I'm not scared I'm gonna lose you to Matt; let yourself feel what you feel. Don't be embarrassed or ashamed of it."

I turn to Josh. "I am ashamed of it; I feel like I'm betraying you. I'm sorry."

"You're not betraying me, Joey; and don't be sorry. You've been in love with him almost as long as you've been in love with me, and it hasn't changed anything between us; why would admitting it change anything?"

"I don't know... It just seems like I'm not giving you all my love; that you're somehow sharing it with Matt and I feel like that's a betrayel. I've never admitted it even to myself, and now that I've admitted it to both of you I feel like I'm betraying both of you. You're not supposed to be in love with two people at the same time." I sigh in frustration.

"There's no betrayel, Joey; either with me or Matt. There are no rules about who you fall in love with; there's no control. I've never once felt like you were taking anything from me to give to him. Maybe it's because you guys aren't in any kind of relationship, but I think even if you were I wouldn't feel like I was being cheated out of something. You show me a thousand times a day how much you love me, and even if you showed Matt the same things I wouldn't feel like I was being betrayed. Don't stress about this, please."

Matt grabs both of my shoulders, looking directly in my eyes. "Josh is right; don't stress about this. Nothing is going to change between the three of us. You two are my best friends and I love you both. I might not have felt so confident about saying that before what happened with Aaron, but I've grown up a little since that day and I don't want to ever miss the chance to tell the people I love how I feel about them. I'm not in love you, Joey, and I'm sorry I can't return your feelings, but know that I'm very honored that you feel that way about me."

Since I have him staring in my eyes I decide to go for broke; I need to know. "If you were gay or bi could you see yourself falling in love with me?"

"In a fuckin' heartbeat." He smiles at me.

I blush and smile at him. "Thank you for saying that."

"I mean it. If I was into dudes you'd be the first guy I could fall in love with. You're an amazing person, Joe, and anyone would be honored to have you in their life. Now how about we do some work or get something to eat before this gets more mushy than it already is." He grins at me.

I nod my head. "OK." He releases my shoulders and I turn to Josh. "I need to know that we're OK, Joshua. I feel like I've crossed a line and I need to know that you're there with me."

He walks up to me and pulls me into a tight hug. "I love you like I've loved no other; we're just fine, baby. You haven't crossed any lines, you just allowed yourself to admit your feelings; don't ever think I'm not right here with you."

"I love you."

"I know, Joey; I love you too."

Josh and I break our hug and look at Matt, grinning. He smirks and shakes his head. "Don't grin at me; I ain't huggin' you both out in the middle of camp. Let's go see what the other two love birds are up to."

I laugh. "You'll kiss me but not hug me, huh?"

He grins. "Yep. Come on, lover boy."

Josh laughs. "You've been kissin' my man again, huh?"

"He kissed me, but yeah." He grins. "We were sittin' on the bench holdin' hands and he leaned over and kissed me."

"We were not holding hands! We were just talkin'."

Josh laughs. "Gee, romantic moments on Tiff's bench; maybe I should be worried."

I groan. "We were just talkin'; it wasn't a romantic moment."

Matt laughs. "I thought it was pretty romantic; why else would I let you kiss me?"

Josh laughs again. I look at Matt, grinning. "You said you liked you my kisses, that's why."

"Shut up, boy; let's go give the other two shit."

Josh smirks and grins at Matt. "He is a great kisser, huh?"

Matt blushes a little. "Yeah, he is."

Josh laughs. "Yeah, you're straight..."

"Shut up, boy; I got your straight hangin'."

He turns and walks towards the rec-room, Josh and I chuckling and tagging along behind him. We're both checking out his ass and turn to each other and grin. When we get in the rec-room we find Mark and Drew sitting on the couch, watching T.V. Matt walks up to them, looking down at Drew.

"Are you gonna be OK?"

"Yeah, Matt, I'm gonna be OK."

"Good. Like Joe told me that day, you gotta tell us what's goin' on, brother; you can't keep shit like that to yourself. I know we didn't really start out in a good way, but know that I'm watchin' your back. I'm sorry about what I did to you about Aaron's room and stuff."

"Don't worry about it, Matt; I know why you did it and I understand. And thanks for watchin' out for me."

"Good. And if it bugs you that I call you junior you need to tell me about it. I don't call you that to disrespect you; it's just a nickname `cause you're so young. I'll stop doin' that if you want me to."

Drew smiles at him. "I've almost gotten used to it. Since you don't mean it in a bad way, then feel free to keep callin' me junior. Actually, I am a junior; my dad's name is Andrew too."

Matt smiles. "Junior it is." He looks at Mark and grins. "So you really thought you two could be doin' something and not have the rest of us know? You're not that good."

Mark blushes and grins. "I thought we were bein' low key."

Matt laughs. "You are, but we all know the signs now. So let me ask ya, are you guy's boyfriends or just fuck buddies?"

"We haven't decided. Drew is straight, and I'm not so sure I wanna let myself fall in love with someone who's gonna dump me for a girl."

"Well look at it this way; there aren't any girls here he's gonna dump ya for. He's just starting his tour and you've got about five months left on yours. Why not just make the most of the time you have and not worry about the rest? Not to sound like a dick about it, but you'll be split up in five months anyway."

Mark looks at him, surprised. "That's probably the least fucked up thing you've ever said to me. What brought about this sudden change?"

Matt grins. "Several things. Watching someone I care about getting shot and losing a leg. Just being told one of my best friends is in love with me. Being within minutes of putting a bullet through my own head; I guess I had a wake up call."

"Fuck... Yeah, I guess I can see how that would change a person." He grins. "So, which one; Joe or Josh?"

Matt grins. "Joe. Josh probably is too, he just won't admit it."

Josh laughs. "I am not! You're not that good. And the southern boy charm might work on Joey but it's lost on me, straight boy."

Matt laughs and turns to Josh. "You'll come to your senses one day." He turns back to Mark. "Something else came up during our little chat. You need to be honest with all of us about this, too. Are you in love with Joe?" Mark blushes, making Matt grin bigger at him. "You just answered my question."

"I didn't say anything!"

"You just turned red, dude; you didn't have to say anything. Like I just told these two; you can't not tell the people you love how you feel about `em; you might not get the chance again. Tell the boy you're in love with him and we all move on." He smiles big at Mark and stands aside so I have a direct view of Mark.

Mark blushes again. "I know you asked me that day in the shower and I said no, but I was lying. Josh was right; I'm in love with you. I knew even before that night behind the building. I have to tell ya; I was fighting like hell not to get hard just having you standing next to me that night."

I smile at him. "Thanks for telling me, Mark. Like I told you that day in the shower, I'm very flattered and honored you feel that way. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not in love with you too. It's not that I couldn't be, I just never considered it." I shake my head. "What a group we make. I'm in love with two men; two men are in love with me. I guess if we were all in love with the same four men it could get really weird. This has definitely been the strangest day of my life."

Matt laughs. "No doubt. You may need therapy soon."

I laugh. "You ain't lyin', brother. Maybe we could get group therapy."

Matt laughs again. "I have a solution for that too." He turns back to Mark. "We were thinkin' about doin' something and you're involved with this." He turns to Drew. "You too, young `un'. This could turn into a fuckin' orgy. Anyway, me, Josh and Joe were thinking about makin' Joe's fantasies about me come true. We asked Gunny if we could all get sent out on patrol together tomorrow. Would you two be interested?"

Mark grins. "Fuck yeah! So, we're talkin' five-man orgy here?"

"Fuck yeah, dude. And since Drew and I are the token straight boys, we expect you three to take really good care of us; don't we, Junior?"

Drew laughs. "Fuck yeah! I've never even considered gettin' with four dudes before, but it sounds fuckin' hot."

Matt grins at him. "I hear ya, brother. I never have either, but it's makin' my fuckin' dick hard just thinkin' about it."

Mark laughs. "The wind blowin' makes your fuckin' dick hard. So what'd Gunny say about all of us goin' on patrol?"

"He hasn't decided yet. He said he'd let us know tonight."

"Why don't we just do it here?"

"Because I'm not ready to have the whole camp knowin' I'm fuckin' around with dudes. Besides, Joe has a Humvee fantasy we need to make come true for him."

Mark laughs and looks at me. "You have a thing for Humvee's?"

"No! I've never had sex in a vehicle and I'd like to."

"You'll fuckin' love it; it's hot." He smiles at Matt. "Fuck yeah, let's do this; you're not the only one gettin' a fuckin' hard-on."

Matt grins at him. "Stand up; pull that fucker out."

"You think I won't?"

"I know you will, fuckin' perv."

Mark laughs and stand's up, popping buttons on his cammos. He gets the buttons undone and his hard cock pops out through the fly in his boxers. He strokes it a couple of times, grinning at Matt.

"Jealous yet?"

"Fuck you. Maybe just a little. Damn, boy, that fucker's big."

"Drew likes it. Grab it."

"Fuck you; grab mine."

"Come on, just grab it; it's not gonna bite ya. You need to get used to cock if you're gonna be fuckin' around with four dudes."

Matt smirks and grins at him. He reaches out and grabs Mark's cock, stroking it a couple of times.

"Feel's like cock; what's the big deal?"

Mark laughs. "It is cock. And it's big, so that's the big deal."

"Fucker... It doesn't feel any different than mine; just bigger."

"That's what I'm sayin'. Now taste it."

"Fuck you. I ain't goin' down on you."

Mark grins. "Come on, you know you want to. Is it because we're in the rec-room or because you ain't gonna return the favors tomorrow?"

"Rec-room, dipshit. I'm not havin' anybody walk in here and find me with a cock in my mouth."

Mark grins. "OK, I'll give ya that one. So, pull that fucker out, let's see it."

"You gonna go down on me?"

"Sure, if you want me to. You're not worried about someone walkin' in and seein' you gettin' your cock sucked by a dude?"

"Well, yeah, that too. Put that thing away; we'll do this shit tomorrow."

Mark laughs and shoves his cock back in his pants, buttoning up. He grins at Matt.

"I knew you were a fuckin' perv, but I never expected you to grab my cock and stroke it."

"Like I told Josh, don't ever challenge or dare me to do something." He grins.

"So if I dare you to let me fuck you, you're gonna let me?"

"Nope. If and when I decide to ever let a man fuck me, it'll be Joe."

Mark grins. "So I'm not the only one in love with Joey."

"I never said I was in love with him; I'm not. But if any man's gonna fuck me it'll be him. He's the only one I trust that much; the only one that I could ever see myself giving up my ass for. It's about trust, not love; get over it."

Mark grins. "I hear ya. So where do you guys wanna go on patrol to do this?"

"It doesn't matter. We don't have much choice in it anyway; it's up to Gunny."

"True. This is gonna be so fuckin' hot. I'm not gonna be able to sleep tonight, thinkin' about this." He turns to Drew. "We're gonna rock your fuckin' world, boy."

Drew smiles at him. "You'd better. Just think, you might get this fresh, young, virgin eighteen year old ass you've been droolin' over."

Mark grins from ear to ear. "Yeah? Fuckin' A, boy; I can't wait. Let's go practice."

Drew laughs. "Nope. You have to wait until tomorrow. And remember; I said might. Who knows, maybe I'll let Joe have it first; he seems to be the one to give your ass up to." He laughs.

Josh laughs hard. "Fuckin' Drew... I knew you had good taste. I get sloppy seconds, right?"

Drew grins. "Fuck yeah."

Mark smirks. "Hey!! I'm the one who sucks your fuckin' cock and let's you fuck me; when do I get it?"

Drew looks at Matt, grinning. "You want before or after the big cock?"

Matt howls with laughter. "Before, dammit; I wanna feel how tight you are."

Mark looks at Drew, grinning. "Fuck you; suck your own cock from now on."

"Ahhhh, I'm just jokin', sexy boy. You know I'd let you go first."

"First? I was hopin' to be the only one."

"We're gonna be in a five-man orgy; you really think you're gonna be the only one that's fuckin' some ass?"

"The only one fuckin' your ass, boy."

Drew grins at him. "Probably. I guess if I'm gonna give up my ass it might as well be to the guy with the biggest cock."

"Gee thanks. It's nice to know I'm nothing more than the guy with the big cock."

"Shut up; you know I don't think that way. You mean a hell of lot more to me than the guy with the big cock. Hey, what Matt was sayin' about just taking the time available to us? Let's do that; let's just make the most of the time we have. I'm not sayin' I'm gonna go gay and be your life partner, but I am sayin' I'll be your boyfriend while we're here together; if you want."

Mark smiles at him. "I want. I'd like that a lot, Drew."

"Me too."

Thanks,

Jeff raudiv8q@aim.com