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"I know this will make me come off like a huge asshole; but you are the one that I want,"
'But you are the one I want.' Those words alone sent my world into a tailspin. Sent my mind into a thousand different directions. And ripped my heart straight in half. I might as well start at the beginning, in this straight out of a soap opera tale of love, and the shit that comes along with it.
I'm Tyler, but my friends call me Ty. And about two years ago, I realized I was in love with my best friend, Draven. Only one major problem with that, he was straight. And just happened to be dating my other best friend, Korin. Pretty shitty way for my newly accepted homosexuality to start out. But I managed to shove all those feelings deep down inside. Hey, If I could hide my homosexuality for 15 years, I could hide this too.
Eventually, however, I met Jamie. Jamie was this incredibly gorgeous man: 6'5, 200 lbs (Of solid muscle I may add.) The most beautiful red hair I had ever seen, complimented perfectly by his shimmering green eyes. I fell instantly head over heels. But always in the back of my mind stood Draven.
When I was with Jamie I managed to convince myself that my attraction to Draven was simply physical. I mean, who honestly would not be attracted to Draven? 6'2, 180, built like a Greek God. (Especially his arms.) But those were hardly his most beautiful characteristics. For me, it was the eyes. His eyes, were probably the lightest shade of brown I had ever seen in someone. They were mesmerizing. His hair, I'll say, is what gave him character. His dark brown hair had a slight cowlick right in the front, which always made his bangs stick straight up. We used to pick on him about it when we were kids. But as we became teenagers, that cowlick became much cuter. It was hard to believe that the man my brother had called the "Scrawny little pale white boy" growing up, blossomed into this incredibly sexy man.
I myself was going from ugly duckling to swan. I ditched the same boring hair cut I had had for years, and decided to spike my dark black hair. I dropped the few extra pounds I had kept on over the years. And lastly rounding out my changes, I decided to get a little sun. I was hispanic after all, so my skin should at least try to look the part.
Perhaps I never should've done that though. It was after my new look that I met Will. Who was Will you ask? I wish personally I didn't know. He was able to convince me that I didn't need Jamie, and that I should date around. So I broke up with Jamie. And dating around didn't go very far, as Will asked me out a couple days later.
I was stupid, and went out with Will. I put myself into this mind frame that Will was perfect, and would never hurt me. Ha! I found out about 4 months after we were going out that he had been cheating on me for pretty much the entire time. Needless to say I broke up with him, by giving him a black eye. But after that, it was simply heartbreak for me. I was now finally able to realize how hurt I was to not have Jamie. Heartbreak set in, and I locked myself in my bedroom. Then enter my comforting shoulder to cry on, Draven.
"You need to get out of the house Ty. Its not good to stay cooped up in here all the time," Draven spoke to me, sitting down next to me on my bed.
"Easy for you to say, you still have Korin. And a much easier STRAIGHT life might I add," I said, sniffling slightly at the finish of my statement.
"Oh come on Ty. Gimme a break. Being Gay has nothing to do with this, you heart probably would've gotten broken with a woman too,"
Ah, simple simple Draven. If he ever knew when to say the right thing, he sure had never showed it. But that's my best friend for you. His attempts at comforting turned into humor, which in turn cheers you up. So, I guess it was just the Draven System of Comforting.
"You'll never understand D. You and Korin are perfect," I said, sniffling again.
"Please Ty. You know what we're like together,"
"Yeah, but so what. When it all comes down to it, you and Kor will live happily ever after. With the white picket fence, a dog, and 2.3 children,"
With the last statement, I broke down into tears. Draven pulled me up and hugged me close to him. I collapsed into his arms and sobbed uncontrollably. It was stuff like this that made me love Draven even more. Not many straight guys would let their gay best friend cry against their chest. He held me close to him the entire time I was sobbing. As my tears began to cease, he hugged me tightly to him and let me lay back on my bed once more. I reached over and grabbed a tissue from my desk and wiped the snot away from my nose. Draven still sat on the edge of my bed, rubbing my knee slightly, in his attempt to comfort me more.
"You feel better now?" He asked
"No," I said, blowing my nose and tossing the tissue at the garbage. "This sucks D. I don't want to be Gay anymore,"
Draven took his hand from my knee and brought it to his chin. He scratched it lightly, as if to appear he was in deep thought. He looked me in the eye, and gave me one of the sternest looks I had ever seen come from those gorgeous brown eyes.
"Don't ever say that Ty. Being Gay is who you are. You can't change that. And besides, if you weren't Gay, I wouldn't be able to do this,"
If my mind were at all operating right at the time, I would've noticed Draven leaning in to kiss me. But I didn't notice until I felt his lips lightly grazed mine. I felt my heart leap up into my throat. But then my conscience hit me, and jammed it violently back into my chest. I pushed him away and gave him this best look of disdain my face could manage with bloodshot eyes and a runny nose.
"What the fuck are you doing?"
"I'm sorry," He said, sounding almost as if he was going to start crying. "Its just......Its just," He trailed off.
"Spit it out Draven," I said, unusually cold.
"Its just that I've wanted to do that for a long time,"
He spoke the words quickly, and dropped his eyes away from mine. I continued to stare at him, completely expecting to wake up from this confusing ass dream. But nothing came of that. I paused to reflect on what had just happened. Draven, the man of my dreams for these past two years had kissed me. And said that he had wanted to do it for a long time. But why would he pick now to tell me this? Where was he two fucking years ago? And how could he do this to Korin?
"What do you mean you've wanted to do that for a long time?" I asked, unsureness evident in my voice.
"Its hard to explain," He replied, still looking at the floor.
"Draven, look at me," I ordered, nudging him in the leg with my foot. "You can tell me, I'm your best friend. And I have a right to know, it does involve me," I said, in my best diva like attitude.
"Okay," He chuckled lightly. "Well.....When you came out to me, I got really excited inside. But I didn't know why. I thought maybe it was just the trust that you had shown me by telling me first. So I just forgot about it,"
He paused for a second, giving me the chance to absorb what was said. I was dangling on the edge of the confusion cliff before he started speaking, I had fallen off now. I had absolutely no idea where this could be going.
"But after you met Jamie, that feeling kinda came back. And I found myself incredibly jealous of him, because he occupied most of your time. I thought it was just because he had my best friend. But it was really because he HAD my best friend that gave me that feeling,"
"What does that mean?" I asked, still not grasping what exactly he was trying to say.
"It means that......That....."
"Draven, spit it out,"
"It means that I love you. In the boyfriend type way,"
As he finished speaking he looked up into my eyes. I saw tears forming in the corners of his beautiful brown eyes. I could not believe my ears. After years of silent hoping, Draven had finally said he loved me. But why had he said it now? And what about Korin?
"Draven," I started, but then stopped and took a deep breath. "I have waited for two years to hear you say that. But you should know, I would never, ever do that to Korin," I explained calmly.
"Oh God Ty, I know," Draven replied, silent tears running down his face. "But you have to understand that the love I feel for Korin is only a tenth of what I feel for you. I love you Tyler, and it frankly is scaring me out of my mind,"
He was sobbing quite uncontrollably by this time. So I did the same thing he had for me, I pulled him close to me and let him sob til he felt the need to stop. As he sobbed against my chest, my mind still tried to make sense of everything that had been said. I had waited for so long to hear him say the words. But I could never betray Korin. Especially take Draven away, because I knew how much she loved him. But I had thought the same thing about Draven. And now he had claimed he loved me even more. I had no idea what to think. As I sat there, holding Draven in my arms, the tears slowly crept back to me.
The two of us sat there, both of us crying like babies for at least a half hour. Eventually however, the tears ceased, and Draven and I stared at each other, silently. My mind had still not comprehended completely what had just occurred. Draven had said he loved me. But perhaps at the worst time he could've. I was so confused. I just wanted to dig a deep hole and bury myself in it. To stop me from having to think at all about what had happened to me these past days. But that was not possible. Draven was still here. And I'm not really sure where my dad kept the shovels.
Draven sat up and reached for the kleenex. He wiped the snot from his nose, then stared at me once more. I felt this incredible feeling take me over as his eyes met mine. In an instant the sadness that had ruled me for these past days was gone. And in place of that sadness, was this incredible feeling of warmth, and acceptance. I felt Draven's hand lightly grab mine, and noticed the usual fire return to his eyes. The feeling once again overtook me. But this time I realized what that feeling was; happiness.
Draven took a deep breath and squeezed my hand lightly. I squeezed in return, and then he spoke. "I love you Tyler,"
At that point, I needed to be picked up from the floor. Well not actually, but thats the way I felt. Those words had instantly melted every part of me. I had dreamed about this day for the past 2 years. But still in the corner of my mind stood my conscience, and the feeling of betrayl towards Korin.
"I love you too Draven. I have for the past two years. But how can we do this? What about Korin?" I asked, feeling the tears slowly creep back.
"Don't worry about Korin. I'll tell her everything. I love you Tyler, and I'll do anything to be with you,"
That was all the convincing I needed. I reached slowly across the bed and pulled his lips to mine. I felt like I had never felt before as our kiss continued. I knew I had loved Jamie, but it felt nothing like this. Draven's kiss awoke feelings I never knew existed. I loved this man so much. I never wanted that kiss to end.
But all good things come to an end of course. We parted our kiss, and sat silently once more, just staring at one another. My mind still couldn't grasp fully what had happened today. All I knew is that my dreams had come true. My feelings for Draven had finally been returned. As shitty as my life had been leading up to that; I don't think I had ever been happier.
But I knew tough times were ahead. Before I allowed anything to happen between Draven and I, I made it known in no uncertain terms that he must tell Korin. Just the thought of that conversation made me incredibly nervous. Korin had been my best friend for the better part of 12 years. I don't think I have a memory from childhood that didn't involve Korin in some way. And now I was risking the chance of losing her. But I knew, as much as I felt like I was betraying my best friend, I would be betraying myself more if I didn't let it be known what I felt for Draven.
But Draven insisted he would tell her on his own. And that he planned on doing it as soon as possible. Which meant the next morning. I could hardly sleep at all that night, with the nervousness of this situation eating at me all night long.
Somehow, though, I managed to drift off to sleep. I was awoken at about 7:30 by the telephone. I rolled lazily over to the phone, and took a glance at the caller ID. As I expected, it was Draven. He was the only person brave enough to call me this early.
He explained to me he was leaving for Korin's right then. He only called to tell me, in case he wasn't heard from again. Korin had been known to pack a rather leathal left hand. Product of two older brothers, and constant torture growing up from Draven and I.
I was a bundle of nerves while waiting for Draven to arrive. I paced nervously around my bedroom, constantly checking the clock. I tried anything possible to get my mind off of the situation. But alas, nothing worked. I was much more content to sit there and stare at the clock.
Eventually, Draven arrived. He walked in and instantly threw his arms around my neck, and pulled me in for one of the most passionate kisses we had shared. From the feel of that kiss, I took it things went well!
"So what happened?" I asked excitedly as we reached my bedroom.
"She wasn't really upset. She just said that if you were who I wanted to be with, then I should be with you," He replied, tossing his jacket on the back of my computer chair.
"God Draven, that is so great," I said, grasping his hand in mine.
"I know,"
The thought had been wandering my mind for the past day. I had heard enough stories from Korin to know this was REALLY something I wanted. I had to make my move.
"I think we should celebrate," I said, in a flirtatious tone.
"Okay," He said, completely missing any flirting I had done. "What'd you have in mind?"
I caught myself saying "Simple Simple Draven" in my head. This boy definently didn't understand subtleties. Well, I guess that just meant I had to get right to the point.
"This,"
With the finish of my statement, I pulled him to me and kissed him with all the passion I could muster up. Our kisses continued as I lay back on the bed. My kisses began to travel down to his neck, nibbling lightly at his collar bone. He let out a soft noise which sounded somewhat like "Mmm." I just took that as a good sign, and continued my work. I continued my attack of his collar bone, as my hands began to graze the buttons of his shirt. He brought his hands to mine, and grasped them lightly. I brought myself from his collar bone, and looked deep into his light brown eyes. It was hard to believe he was real.
"Are you sure?" He asked, heartfelt concern evident in his voice.
"More sure than anything I've ever done before," I spoke in return.
"Okay," He said lightly, then began to kiss me again.
He released my hands and I quickly began to resume my removal of his shirt. As I undid the last button, he quickly shucked it to the floor. Draven was very proud of his body, so it was often that he walked around with his shirt off. Which made me drool he was so beautiful. And now that beautiful torso was above me. I felt him shudder as my fingers connected with his skin. I was in heaven. His kisses began to drift slowly down my jawline. His fingers meanwhile fumbled nervously with the buttons on my shirt. I took pity on him and undid the buttons for him. He slowly pushed back the fabric, and his kisses began to drift down my chest.
He paused at my nipples and began to lick lightly at them, coaxing a contented moan from me. I began to graze my hands slowly across his back, savoring the feeling of his skin beneath my fingertips. A feeling I had longed for for so long, finally becoming a reality.
His kisses then drifted down my stomach. His tongue lightly traced the outline of my abs. His hands quickly found their way to my jeans. The nervousness he had shown while unbuttoning my shirt had ceased as he undid my jeans with one hand. He yanked both jeans and boxers down in one motion. I kicked them to the floor as Draven began to lick further down my stomach.
I was now trembling with anticipation as Draven's hand began to graze up my leg. I let out a low moan as I felt his hand grasp my balls. He began to squeeze them softly as his tongue found my cock head. He licked cautiously at the dripping pre cum. He then did the unexpected, and took my cock into his mouth. I could feel him attempting to deep throat my hefty 6 inches, but each time being met with a gag. I began to run my fingers through his silky brown hair and then spoke.
"Don't force it, you're doing great," I moaned, tightening my grip in his hair as I felt my cock slip further down his throat.
He did not respond, but increased his suction. For a first time cock sucker, Draven was doing a wonderful job. He began to run his hand up my chest, massaging my nipples lightly. I let out a moan, and tightened my grip on his hair again. I could feel one of his hands drifting beyond my balls, towards my anus. I moaned out slightly, giving him the go ahead.
He drug his finger lightly across the opening, then drove it in quickly. I moaned out loudly, and thrust up into his mouth. I could hear him moan over my cock. He seemed to be enjoying himself just as much as I. He continued his massage of my anus, tapping my prostate lightly each time. He must've sensed my nearing orgasm, as he increased his suction on my cock. I could feel him sliding in a second finger. That pushed me over the edge.
"I'm cumming," I moaned out loudly, burying my hands into the sheets.
I completely expected him to remove his mouth from my cock as I started to shoot. But much to my surprise, he stayed on for the entire load. As I felt the last drip of cum leak from my cock, he removed his mouth. He licked up what cum was left, then crawled up and kissed me.
"That was amazing," I said out of breath.
"I know," He said, collapsing onto my chest.
He started to kiss lightly at my chest once more. I could feel my cock rapidly starting to stir. I pushed Draven onto his back and started sucking at his neck. He began to run his hands slowly down my back, stopping at my ass and running a finger slowly down the crack. I shuddered, and felt a million sensations go through me at once. I knew exactly what I wanted.
"Make love to me Draven," I begged, looking deep into his gorgeous eyes.
"Are you sure?" He asked, making my heart melt from the look in his eyes.
"Absolutely,"
"Okay," He said, looking suddenly excited.
He pushed me onto my back and reached down to the floor. He grabbed his jeans and ripped a condom from the pocket. (I loved men who came prepared) He slipped it on quickly then positioned himself at my opening. He leaned down and kissed me softly, lovingly. I know I've over-used this statement, but I melted. He just had that affect on me. Those of you who have been in love know exactly what I'm talking about.
He brought his kissing down to my neck, as he started to slowly push himself into me. I wanted to scream out in pain as his throbbing hard 8 incher pushed slowly in. He must've noticed the look in my eyes, because he brought his kissing once more to my lips. I relaxed slightly, enough for him to bury the remaining inches into my anus. I put my hand on his stomach, signaling for him to stop and let me get used to him being in me. Once I became accustomed to his penis, I gave him the go ahead, and he started to slide slowly in and out of me.
The feeling of his cock slowly pounding me was beyond description. With each thrust in, his cock pressed against my prostate, sending jolts of pleasure all through me. My own cock was painfully hard, leaking pre-cum against Draven's stomach as he continued pounding me slowly. He leaned down and began to lick my nipples, making my cock ache even more. With the feelings being generated from his cock, and his tongue on my nipples, I knew I was only minutes away from cumming once more. But Draven, too was nearing orgasm as his pumping speed began to increase. His long, slow strokes turned into quick thrusts. And his tongue travelled from my chest to my mouth once more. His tongue darted quickly in and out of my mouth, as his pumping speed increased even faster. Seconds later he was screaming out his impending orgasm.
I felt his cock throb with each shot of cum he deposited into the condom. That pushed me over the edge for the second time that day, and I came against his stomach. As I felt the last throb from his dick, he collapsed against my chest. I began to run my hands slowly through his hair as he nuzzled his face against my neck.
"I love you Tyler," He murmured
"I love you too," I said, yawning slightly.
I was completely spent from the escapades we had just experienced. This was the most amazing day of my entire life. I had never been happier. I hugged Draven to me, as my eyes started closing almost involuntarily. I heard Draven murmur "I love you" again. That was the last thing I heard before I drifted off to sleep.
I had never been happier. I was living in this perfect little life. And it seemed to me that it couldn't possibly get any better. I could've lost everything, but as long as I still had Draven, I would've been happy. My dream had come true.
But come Monday, my dream didn't seem quite the way I had imagined it. Draven was still walking with Korin from class to class, as if they hadn't broken up. That was when it hit me, he hadn't really told her about us. I was instantly heartbroken. Instead of waiting for Draven at my locker when school let out, like I usually did, I exited the building quickly and went to my car. I couldn't believe all this. This was the last day of school. I had envisioned this whole huge fairy tale of Draven telling everyone he and Korin were over, and that he was now with me. But none of that had happened. So much for the whole "Dreams really do come true" theory.
I sat in my car and waited for him to walk out. He eventually did, with no site of Korin, which was a first for that day. He walked right up to my car and got in the passenger side. I turned and looked at him, and as hurt as I was, couldn't help but smile as my eyes connected with his. But I still had to know what was going on.
"D, what's the deal?" I asked, switching off the car radio.
"What do you mean?"
"The whole thing with Korin today? You guys sure didn't look broke up to me,"
"Oh that. I can explain that. Kor and I are broken up. But when I told her all this that day, I also asked her something,"
"And that would be?"
"I asked her to keep pretending to be my girlfriend, for my the sake of my image,"
"Your image?" I said, in an utterly pissed off tone. "Coming out did absolutely nothing to my image. I'm just as popular now as I was then,"
"Yeah....But,"
"But nothing Draven. If you really wanted to be with me, you would want everyone to know about it,"
"Its not that easy for me Ty, you know that. My parents would fucking flip out,"
"I knew something like this was going to happen. It just seemed to perfect,"
"So what are you saying?"
"I'm saying I don't know how you can expect me to just fade away in the public eye. For the sake of your 'image'."
"I'm sorry Ty. I know I shouldn't do this, but I just couldn't deal with coming out right now,"
"I understand that D. But expecting me to live with this charade is something I can't do. You really have some thinking to do. So I think we should just not hang out for awhile," I said, starting my car.
"Your breaking up with me?" He said, sounding almost as if he were going to cry.
"No. You just need to think about what exactly you want out of this. And until then, it wouldn't be smart to see each other,"
The look in his eyes almost crushed me. But I knew I had to be strong. I know it made me the jerk. But there was no way I could pretend this was okay. I wanted what Draven and I had to be real. Not just something we kept behind closed doors.
He exited the car and shut the door behind him. He stuck his head back in the window, and looked at me with hurt, puppydog eyes. I could see the glisten of tears building up in his eyes. I felt as if my heart had been ripped to pieces. But I knew I couldn't just let this go.
"Tyler. I do love you, you know that right?"
"After today Draven, I'm not quite sure,"
With that, I put my car into reverse and left the parking lot. Those words hurt me to say. But my heart had been broken. And underneath that heartbreak, was obviously anger. I loved this man. More than anything in my life. But there was no way I could allow myself to be pushed back into the closet, after I had fought so long to get out.
On the drive home, I started to think that maybe I was a little hard on him. But then another part of me would spring up and say "No, you did what was necessary," All I knew was that I was hurting. And that I really wanted to escape all this for a few days. So I gave my aunt who lived a few towns over a call, and asked if I could stay with her for a few days. She said yes, and that she would clear the stuff out of my usual room. I hung up the phone and started packing a bag.
My mind continued to mull over the happenings with Draven throughout the entire time I was packing. I kept thinking to myself 'Maybe I was too hard on him.' But always popped up the little voice saying 'No, you did what you had to,' I didn't know what to think. All I knew was that I wanted to get out of here, and not think about this for at least a few days.
After I had finished packing my bag, I walked over to my answering machine. I switched it onto automatic pick up, then pressed the record button.
"Hey y'all, its me. I'm going to stay with my Aunt Betty for awhile. If ya wanna get ahold of me, the number is 555-7890. Or email me, whatever. Later,"
I released the record button and allowed the message to play back. It sounded to my liking, so I left it. I grabbed my bags then locked up my bedroom. I thought about leaving a message for my parents, but just decided I'd call them when I got to Aunt Betty's. I picked up my car keys from the kitchen table, and exited my house. Where hopefully my problems would stay, while the rest of me could get some time away.
My problems did stay there. For three months. I had went to Aunt Betty's with the intention of only staying for a few days. But a few days quickly turned into a few months, as I wound up staying the whole summer. I went down there, and things seemed so much easier. I didn't have to deal with the whole Draven/Me/Korin sitiuation, or even anything closely resembling that. I was able to just go down there and spend the summer with my cousins, and the friends that I had there. And I got to enjoy a much less complicated life. But every single day, Draven crossed my mind. But it wasn't really heartbreak, it was just kind of missing the friendship, I suppose. I had heard it through the grapevine, that he had gotten Korin pregnant. Guess he'd made his decision on what he wanted, and I wasn't it.
I too, though, had moved on. As the summer neared an end, I met an incredibly handsome guy named Vince. We hit it off immediately, and started officially dating the day after our first date. And, as luck may have it, he was from the same town as I. He too was just down in Brickwood (Where my aunt lived) visiting family. So when I returned home at the end of summer, I wasn't leaving behind a boyfriend.
I was rather excited to return home. I really had begun to miss my friends. And I was starting my senior year in High School. And my boyfriend lived just a few miles away. So needless to say, I was happy to return home.
I had really fallen quite hard for Vince in just the short month we'd dated. He made me feel so wanted, so needed. None of my exes had ever made me feel like that. Especially Draven. That was the only thing I was nervous about returning home; seeing Draven. I hadn't seen, nor even spoke to him since that day in the parking lot at school. I was seriously hoping what we had had did not affect our friendship. Because even more than being with him, I missed the friendship we'd had. I didn't see it having too much of an effect. We had both moved on. He had gotten back with Korin, and I had Vince, so we were both happy. Even though I thought that, I was still too nervous to call him the day I returned home. I waited for the following Tuesday, when we returned to school.
Much to my suprise, that Tuesday morning I was awoke by a phone call. And you guessed it, it was Draven. We said the things expected to be said from friends who hadn't spoke to each other in three months. "I missed you, how you been, etc." We were starting to chat when he said we could continue this conversation when he came over. I became instantly nervous. The last time Draven and I had been alone at my house, it had ended in amazing sex. 'No way' I told myself. 'He has Kor, you have Vince. Nothing's gonna happen' I seriously hoped that would be true. I didn't need all that confusion my second day home.
Luckily, nothing happened. We just talked like we used to, before anything had ever happened. Draven was, is, and always will be the best friend I've ever had. He's always been a person I can depend on when something goes bad in my life. And I love him for that.
We wound up driving to school together that day. We filled each other in on our summers. I even told him about Vince. He seemed genuinely happy for me. We continued chatting the entire way to school. But there was one subject he never spoke of. No, not he and I, though there was no mention of that. I'm talking about him having Korin pregnant.
"So what's the deal with you and Kor?" I asked as we pulled into school.
"Not much to explain really. We're stupid, and didn't use protection," "Not much to explain really." I had heard that a billion and a half times from him. Thats his nice way of saying "I don't want talk about it" without having to say it. Since it was only our first day speaking again, I decided to drop the subject. If I wanted any more information, I would just ask Korin.
Once I stopped to think about it, I was hardly interested in hearing about Korin and Draven's miraculous reconciliation. Don't get me wrong, I was extremely happy for my friends. And extremely happy that I'd get to be an uncle. But I really didn't want to hear about how happy they were together, or anything like that. I had him, but I blew it. I almost felt as if I had pushed him back to her. Maybe that's what I meant to do in the first place? Who knows? 'Oh well' I told myself. 'If you can't have him, at least he's with someone who treats him good. And at least he's happy'
I constantly told myself that, but I knew deep down I didn't believe it. I still wanted him. Even at night when I would curl up in Vince's arms, I still thought about Draven. And as much as I was starting to love Vince, I still thought about Draven. As hard as I tried, I just couldn't vanish him from my mind.
But what I could do, was shove the feelings back down inside me again. I had done it for 2 years, I could keep on doing it. And if I had lived with him and Korin the first time, I was sure I could handle them this time around. And besides that, I had Vince. So everything was basically the same as it had been before Draven and I. Or at least, I could pretend it was.
And pretend I did. Draven and I went on just like the boyhood friends we were. Never even a mention of what had occurred between us. To this day only three people knew about us; Myself, Draven, and Korin. With no one around asking "What happened with you and Draven?" I could pretend nothing had ever happened much more easily. I had perfected the pretending. I hardly ever thought about Draven in a sexual way any more (Except of course when he took his shirt off.) I was perfectly content with my life now. I'd had no confusion at all. Everything was perfect for me. Until February rolled around.
I'd have never thought when this month had started that by the end of it my entire life would be turned upside down. And it all started with what I thought was an innocent phone call.
"Hello?" I said, not even thinking to look at the caller ID.
"Hey Ty. You wanna come over, I kinda need to talk to you,"
It was Draven. And he sounded upset about something. My first guess was that he and Korin were fighting again. I usually got a call like this anytime they had an arguement.
"What's wrong?" I asked
"I'd rather not say over the phone," (Typical Draven, avoiding the subject)
"Okay, I'll be over in 10,"
"K. Later,"
"Bye,"
I switched off the phone and deposited it back on the base. I grabbed my coat and tossed it on, then dug in the pockets for my car keys. After I found them I quickly exited my house. On the entire drive to Draven's house, I was expecting to console him after another fight with Korin. Their arguements had increased by like 150% since she'd become pregnant. So I was getting used to dealing with this.
When I walked in, I walked straight back to Draven's room, where I knew he'd be. As usual for Draven bad moods, he lay on his bedroom floor with Mariah Carey blasting through his stereo. He didn't look like he'd accomplished too much that day, as he was still in his boxer shorts. I was seriously hoping my hormones could control themselves. I didn't really think it appropriate to be comforting him if I couldn't stop staring at his crotch.
"So D," I said, plopping down onto the floor beside him. "What's wrong?"
"Oh God," He said, sounding incredibly depressed. "Where to begin?"
"Start from the beginning,"
"Okay," He said, sitting up and taking a deep breath. "You remember that day in the parking lot? Before summer?"
I was shocked at first. It had been over 9 months, and not even a mention of that day in the parking lot. And now, after all those months, he was bringing it up. I was absolutely bewildered on where this could be going.
"Yeah....What about it?"
"Well you know how you told me that I needed to think about stuff?"
"Yeah...."
I was still completely lost at this point. I don't think for even a second my mind could've believed what was about to happen.
"Well, I've been thinking this entire time. And I know this is going to make me come off like a huge asshole, but you are the one I want,"
At that exact moment in time, my entire world froze. I couldn't believe what my ears had heard. After 9 months, of not even a mention of "us", Draven just comes out of no where and tells me I'm the one he wants. What was he on? Did he really expect me to just drop Vince and just go running back to him? I didn't know if I loved Vince, but I might have. And what about Korin, again?
But then it struck me like a bat to the head. This is what I wanted to happen 9 months ago. I wanted to just take the originally planned 3 days in Brickwood, and come back to Draven, with him having realized I was the one he wanted. But that didn't happen. He waited 9 months. After I had already met a new boyfriend, who was absolutely wonderful. And he had Korin pregnant! And now he decided he wanted to be with me. If I didn't know it was Robert, I would've sworn Draven's middle name was Confusion.
"What?" I stammered out, sounding as confused as I felt.
"You are the one I want. Not Korin, not anyone else. You Tyler,"
When I looked into his gorgeous brown eyes, I could feel myself breaking down. Even after the 9 months apart, I still loved this man so much. But in the corner of my mind was Vince. I cared for Vince so much. He made me feel like no man had ever made me feel, not even Draven. I had absolutely no idea what to do.
"Draven," I started, but then paused to take a deep breath. "If you had said this to me 9 months ago, I would've been the happiest person alive. But now....I....,"
I couldn't finish. Probably because I had no idea what I even wanted to say. I was more confused now, at this exact moment in my life that I had ever been before. I was torn. And I had no idea what to do.
"I'm not saying this to you to get you to dump Vince. If he's what makes you happy, than I'm happy for you. But I had to tell you this, for my own sake. Seeing you with Vince, just tore me up inside,"
I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. I was so utterly confused. Here was Draven. The love of my life. The man who I loved for 2 years. But I could think about nothing but Vince. I felt as if my chest had been opened up, and both Vince and Draven had taken half of my heart. And the only way I could keep on living, is if I made the decision. But to make that decision, I had to know what I wanted. And I didn't, not in the least.
"Draven. I could say right now no, no way there'd ever be a chance for us again. But that would be betraying myself. Because I don't know what I want. I don't know if I want you or Vince. You've given me alot to think about,"
"I'm so sorry Ty. But I just had to tell you, it was eating me up inside,"
"I understand D. But now I'm the one who needs to do some thinking. I'll see ya later,"
I stood up from the floor and quickly exited his bedroom. When I reached my car I sat there for minutes, replaying in my mind what had happened. 'How could one little statement turn my entire life upside down?' I asked myself. Why couldn't he have said this 9 months ago? Why did he have to wait until now?
The tears were silently flowing now. I wiped my eyes on my coat sleeve and started the car. The song on the radio was just beginning, so I upped the volume more to hear it. When I finally recognized the song being played, it made me cry even more. My Everything by 98 Degrees, a song that had become my and Vince's song, made me think more of Draven. I shut the radio off and started my drive home. I was becoming quickly depressed. I could hear the Mint Chocolate Chip calling my name.
As soon as I got home, I grabbed the pint of Ice Cream and retreated to my bedroom. I too, like Draven felt the need for Mariah Carey when I was in a less than great mood. I put on her Butterfly CD, and plopped down onto my waterbed with my ice cream. Just looking around my bedroom, I was torn between the two of them. On one side of my room, there were pictures of Draven. On the other side, were pictures of Vince, albeit not as many as the Draven side. Could that tell me right there what I wanted? 'No way in hell things will be that easy' I told myself.
"This sucks," I said aloud, spooning down a bite of ice cream.
I continued to mull over my choices, all the while eating my ice cream. At the finish of the pint, I was no closer to deciding what I wanted than when I had left Draven's house. I was torn straight down the middle. Anytime I would think of something good about Vince, I would think of something good about Draven. Same way for the bad things. The whole pro/con idea was getting me no where. I had absolutely no idea what I wanted. Maybe if I hid in my room long enough, people would forget I existed.
But that of course didn't work. As I got up to throw the empty ice cream container away, the phone rang. I walked slowly over to it, and glanced quickly at the caller ID. As I dreaded, it was Vince.
"Hey," I said, trying to disquise my somberness.
"Hey. We need to talk," He said, sounding much like me.
"What about?" I asked, not thinking for a million years we could be upset about the same thing.
"Korin told me about Draven,"
In an instant my entire body iced over. I was planning on telling Vince myself, but after I had made the decision. But Korin had beat me to it. Things had went from bad to worse.
"Oh," Was all I could manage to say.
"And I've made a decision. I want you to go with Draven,"
Those words stunned me they were so unexpected. My mind tried desperately to decipher what had just been said. Vince had decided HE wanted ME to go with DRAVEN. How could he decide that? I wasn't even sure that was what I wanted.
"What?" I asked, still quite dumbfounded from his statement.
"I want you to pick Draven. I mean, come on Ty, you know deep down that is what you want,"
"No, I don't," I replied, swiping the tears from my eyes.
"Well you should. I've seen the way you look at him. The way you talk about him. Answer me one question Ty. Has there been a day since you two broke up that you haven't thought about him?"
That was the question right there. Thats not something I really wanted to tell my boyfriend. But I'm sure already he knew the answer.
"No, I guess not," I replied
"Well then you know what you want. You and I had a great thing together. But you and Draven, thats love Ty,"
I paused for a second to process the goings on. Vince had just basically broken up with me, and told me to go back to my ex boyfriend. All because that was what made me happy. I was so touched that he could care about me so much. The decision I had dreaded having to make, was made for me. I realized at that moment what a great friend Vince really was.
"Ty? Are you okay?" Vince asked after I had been silent for close to 5 minutes.
"Sorry. This is all a little much for me to process quickly. Are you sure Vince?"
"I'm sure. I know that he is really what you want. And if I were to try to keep you for myself, it would be depriving you of true happiness,"
"You are so amazing Vince,"
"I know. Now stop yaking with me, and go see Draven. And then call me with details," He chuckled.
"Okay,"I laughed back. "Talk to you later. And Vince,"
"Yeah?"
"Thank you more than you'll ever know,"
"Don't mention it. Bye Bye,"
"Bye,"
I switched off the phone and then just stared at it. I found it all hard to believe. Vince was a truly beautiful human being. He cared about nothing but seeing me happy. I felt as if my heart were whole again. And even though I didn't realize, that whole belonged to Draven. I was just glad Vince had made me see that. Vince spoke very true of our relationship. We had had great fun together. But once I stopped to think about it, it really was more like a close friendship than that of a relationship. I was truly blessed to have a friend like him. And whatever man Vince wound up with was truly lucky to have such an amazing man.
I fought with my mind on whether to call Draven, or to just go over there. I won the battle, and decided on going over there. But I would wait until the next morning. I was too nervous to do it tonight. Hopefully some sleep would help me get the guts. But all I could think about that night was Draven. Finally, my dream had actually come true. It took quite a different road to get there. But in the end, everything turned out the way I wanted it to. I could not stop smiling as the sleep began to slowly take me over.
When I awoke the next morning, I was still incredibly nervous. But I knew that it had to be done. I hopped quickly into the shower and got ready for the day ahead. After I looked to my standards, I exited to house to brave the Icy winter weather. After I had warmed up my car, I put it in reverse, but held my foot on the brake.
"Here goes nothing," I said aloud.
With that I released my foot from the brake and started my drive to Draven's. I kept taking deep breaths the entire ride there, attempting to tell myself everything would be okay. I just hoped I wasn't lying to myself.
When I arrived at Draven's house, his mother told me he was at the pool. So I took the stairs down to their pool room, and noticed him sitting in a chair with his arm over his face. 'Perfect' I thought. 'I can sneak up and he'll never notice,'
And I did just that. I walked up to him as quietly as I could. He was either asleep, or just completely zoned out, because he didn't even budge as my footsteps approached. I took a deep breath, and then spoke.
"Is this seat taken?" I asked, being as sappily romantic as I could at the moment.
He removed his arm from his eyes then sat up and looked at me. There was a look of question in his gorgeous brown eyes. Almost as if they were asking me my decision without him actually uttering a word. I wanted this to turn out like my dream. So instead of speaking, I kissed him lightly on the lips. As our kiss parted, I looked deep into his eyes. I couldn't help but smile when I saw the happiness emblazed in them. He leaned in and kissed me once more, but this time with incredible passion. My heart was on fire, but in the good way.
"I Love You Tyler," He spoke, grabbing my hand in his.
"I love you too Draven," I spoke in return, squeezing his hand.
We kissed one final time and then he pulled me next to him. It was so amazing to be wrapped up in his arms, to be cuddling with the man of my dreams. I knew that there were rough waters ahead for us. But I was sure it wasn't nothing we couldn't handle, together. My dream really had come true. It took almost 3 years, but I could not complain. I had him now, and I would not let go this time. I guess that old saying really is true, Love Takes Time.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: At the time I wrote this, I did not know if an "update" on the characters would be necessary. This is a one shot story, which means there will be no sequel. But from the comments I have recieved already today, only being the first full day it was posted, I see that an update, so to speak is necessary.
I by no means wanted to reader to think that an arbortion occured with Korin and Draven's baby because of the ending point of the story. As I have stated on my site, the events in this story acctually happened to me. And in real life, the best friend in which Korin was based on had the baby back in April. And she and the best friend which Draven was based are raising the child together, they are just not together. The person which Draven is based on and I are still very much together. And we are both a very big part of the baby's life. Today, (7-08-01) in fact the baby is celebrating his 3rd month birthday. I did not for even a second anticipate the reader would think an abortion ocurred. I just thought I should tag this little note on to let the readers know that everything really did turn out okay, "Korin" gave birth to the baby (Which she named Xander) on April 8th. He weighed in at about 7 lbs 2 oz. if my memory serves correctly. The frienship between myself and "Korin" remains just as solid today as it did before anything occured between "Draven" and I. I am sorry if I offended anyone before this note was tacked on, but I did not anticipate the reader thinking to the degree that an abortion occured. And thank you to those of you who emailed me your comments/concerns about the ending of this story.
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