Warning: this work contains sexual material involving two young men. If this offends you in any way or it is illegal to read this content in your area, LEAVE NOW!!
Also, this is a love story. It's not about getting straight to the sex. There is sex, but not for a couple more chapters. By the time there is sex involved, it's not going to be raunchy like you've read in some stories. I might plug a raunchy scene in just for the heck of it but like I said, this story isn't all about sex. It's about the relationship the two characters share and the struggles they face...
Here is chapter 5!! I hope you like it.
- I would just like to thank me friends Tula, Jessica, Damian, and Olivia for being my inspiration for the characters. I love you all.
Now, enjoy this chapter...
Lost Without Love
Chapter 5
The next day, thank God, was Saturday and we were able to sleep in. I was still a bit shocked about the events of the previous night. All of that melted as soon as I turned over to find Jason snuggled up against me. God, he looks so cute when he's sleeping. He stirred a bit when I moved but then he continued off into dreamland. I smiled as I laid my head on his chest. When I did, I felt his arms wrap around me.
"Morning baby" He said looking down at me, smiling.
"Morning to you too" I looked up at him. I then leaned in and gave him a sweet kiss. "How did you sleep?" I asked him as I broke our kiss.
"Very well, actually"
"Me too, especially being in your arms"
He smiled at me as I said that.
We just laid there for a while in silence. He finally broke it,
. "So, what do you want to do today?" He asked.
"I was thinking we could go to the park. It's a beautiful day. Find a private spot, lounge and just talk."
"I love that idea" He said as he leaned in for another kiss. "I'm going to get a shower. Wanna join me?"
"Wouldn't your parents know?" I asked nervously.
"No, they aren't home. They work seven days a week. Usually 15 hours a day. I hardly see them. Sometimes they go out on long business trips."
"That's just like my parents." I was surprised that his parents were the same way.
"So, you gonna join me or not?"
Before he knew it, I grabbed his hand pulled him to the bathroom.
"I take that as a yes" He chuckled.
While I was getting the water turned on, Jason was turned away taking a piss. I just stood there amazed at how nice his butt looked. It looked so soft like I could lay my head on it and just fall asleep. I didn't realize I was staring at him until I saw him turn around.
"Like what you see, huh?" He said with a laugh.
"Eh, it's nice." I tried to play it off.
"Pshhh, you know you like it"
"True"
Once he was finished at the toilet we both hopped in the shower. There was nothing to raunchy about it. We did kiss a few times but that was it. When we were finished, we went back to his room. Since I didn't have anything to wear he let me borrow a pair of his jeans and a t-shirt. Once we were dressed, we made our way to his car. It wasn't that long of a drive to Couch park. We live in Stillwater Oklahoma. It's not the nicest or biggest city there is but it's manageable. Once we got to the park, we left the car and decided to take the walking trails. Surprisingly, for a Saturday, no one was out and about. As we were walking, we made small talk. Talked about music, movies, school, the usual. Eventually as we were walking, I grabbed his hand and held it in mine.
Once we got tired of walking, we decided to find a private spot behind some bushes and just sat down to lounge. We started talking about our families and how our parents were usually too busy to care about what's going on with us. I was pretty close with all of my aunts, uncles and cousins. My grandpa died when I was ten. It hit me pretty hard. My grandmother and I are like two peas in a pod. I tell her everything.
Once we got on the subject of grandparents, my mood changed drastically. Jason noticed.
"Johnny, you okay babe?"
"Yeah, I'm fine. It's just that it's hard for me to talk about my family. Especially my grandparents."
He grabbed my hand,
"Hey, you don't have to talk about it if you don't want to."
"No, it's fine...it's just that my grandpa passed away when I was ten. It hit me really hard. Til this day, I still cry because I miss him so much. My grandmother is still alive. But, I'm afraid not much longer though. She was diagnosed with cancer a few years ago. And she keeps getting worse. She and I are really close. She knows everything about me."
"Even you being gay?" He cut in.
"Yep, her and my two closest friends are the only ones who know, well besides you now, of course. Anyway, I know that she won't be around much longer. That hurts. My parents probably won't be around when she passes on. Which sucks even more. I don't know what I'm going to do without her."
When I finished my sentence, a few tears trickled down my cheek. Jason reach over to wipe them away.
"Johnny, I know it's hard. Don't think about the future. Enjoy the time you have left with her. That's the best you can do. When she's gone, you can always think about how she accepted you for who you are and cherish the time you two spent together."
"I know Jason, but it still hurts."
"I know babe, I know." He motioned for me to sit between his legs. So I did. I leaned against him and he wrapped his arms around me. The rest of the day and most of Sunday went smoothly. Sunday night, Jason and I were in his room talking and the subject of school the next day came up.
"So what are we going to do?" I asked nervously.
"I dunno, do you think everyone should know?"
"Not really. I don't wanna be made fun of and stuff, ya know?"
"I know but we can't keep hiding from it. People are going to find out eventually."
"Yeah, I guess so. Can we just keep it quiet for now? I just need some time."
"Sure" And the subject was dropped.
A few weeks had gone by and things seemed to be ok. That is, until a Wednesday in November...
"Johnny, we need to talk." Jason said sternly.
"Um...Ok." `Oh shit, what did I do?' I thought to myself.
"Johnny, I really don't know how to say this but..."...
And there's chapter 5. I know, cliff hanger. You`re just going to have to keep reading to find out what happens. I know it's a bit short but I needed something to post for now. This chapter was a bit hard for me to work on. I used some things I have gone through as inspiration. I am working on chapter 6 as of now...Comments and suggestions are welcome. Email me at johnnymas1288@rocketmail.com. Feedback people, I need feedback!!