Disclaimer!!!!! I dont know AJ Mclean or Nick Carter, or ANY of the Backstreet Boys and this has no reflection on there sexuality or sexual preference, although I have my suspicions. grin Hope you like this, read and enjoy and feedback is always welcome!!-Mel
Lost Innocence-Chapter One By Mel 2001
The blond looked out the window of the hotel room, rubbing his new tattoo absentmindly. He had lost his innocence. Well, not really, after all he had never been that innocent. Fans would be shocked. But not the guys, especially AJ.
Aj. Nick swallowed hard. Just the thought of him made Nick's mouth water. It was getting harder to hide it, Hell, he didnt even know if he wanted to anymore.
"Nick?" he turned around at the sound of his voice, felt himself get hard. Damn. He silently willed his erection to go down. No deal, in fact it just got harder.
"Yeah, come on in AJ." Nick's voice came out husky, an aroused husky that nearly melted Aj's bones. He didnt know when he started noticing Nick, but now he couldnt seem to stop.
Aj came into the hotel room, and closed the door. "I need to talk to you about something." he said, his own voice raspier than usual. Nick gupled, and ran a hand through his spikey hair. Did Aj know?
"Everyone Knows I am bi, but I think I am in love." Nick went pale. Could Aj be in love with him? Was he hopeing for too much? or did he love someone else? Nick sat down on the bed, willing his hands to stop shaking.
Aj walked over to Nick, his heart beating fast. "Nick" he breathed, tipping Nick's chin up with a finger, so Nick could look into his eyes, his heart. "I love you." Nick licked his lips and Aj groaned.
"Aj.." was all Nick could say. Then he kissed him. It was heaven, like he had waited all his life for this moment, this kiss. Lips parted, tongues touched. Sweet heaven.
Nick opened his mouth, letting Aj in. The room spun. Heavy breathing, moans. Aj slowly pulled back. "Nick...that was.." Nick smiled.
"I know." Aj pulled Nick against him, just holding him.
"I think..no, I know. I love you, AJ." Aj shuddered, and ran his hands through Nick's hair. Nick sighed. "What are we going to tell the others?" he asked, almost plaintivly.
Aj knew what he was really saying. AJ bieng bi was one thing. He was the wild child of the group, and it wouldnt suprise anyone that he played both sides of the fence. But Nick? that was a harder pill to swallow.
"I dont know.. But we have to. They are our brothers." Nick nodded. He had known he was gay for a long time, but he had never expected to fall for one of his bandmates. He looked up at Aj, needing reassurance that this was the right thing to do.
Aj knew what Nick was thinking. "We cant start this on lies.. I dont want this to turn into a soap opera." Nick giggled. "you think that is funny?" Aj asked, raising an eyebrow. He inched his fingers under Nick's shirt and started to tickle him.
"Aj! oh god !" Nick yelled, tears of laughter streaming down his cheeks. Aj was tickling him to death.
"I am never going to let you go" Aj shrieked, and sent them both tumbling to the floor.
"You mean that?" Nick asked suddenly serious. AJ stopped tickling him, his body aware of just who was under him.
"Yes, Nick, god yes.." Their lips met again.
Nick's tongue, wet and hot came out to tease Aj's lower lip, tasting, curious. AJ moaned, a husky, deep, sexy moan. Nick dipped further.
"Holy shit!" That got their attention. Blue and Brown eyes looked up. Shocked green eyes met their unapologetic gaze.
"Kevin." AJ got up off Nick, but not breaking physical contact.
"I love him." Kevin couldnt say a word. A million things crossed his mind in a second.
"Say something." Nick stood up, wrapping his arms around Aj. Kevin fled. Shit.
"Now what?" Aj asked.
"I dont think he left because he is mad" Came Nick's reply, his voice thoughtful. Aj turned around in Nick's arms.
"Did I miss something?" he asked, his brown eyes curious.
"I think he is jealous." Aj's eyes widened.
"What?!" he exclaimed. Nick smiled gently. He had known for a while, but kept quiet in case he had been wrong. He wasn't. Kevin was gay. And in love with Aj.
"He loves you." AJ, shaking his head, pulled away from Nick.
"No."
"Yes."
AJ didnt know what to say. He didnt want to hurt Kevin, never wanted to hurt Kevin. But he loved Nick, that would never change. At least he didnt think so. Nick watched the play of emotions on Aj's face.
"You ok?" He asked, suddenly worried. He didnt want to lose him, not so soon.
"Nick. I love you. I just dont want to see Kevin hurting." Nick nodded. He didnt either. The older man had been a brother to him for so long. But he didnt want to hide, either.
A muffled cough interrupted them. Kevin. Again. This time with a sheepish expression on his face. "I am sorry guys. I didnt mean to run like that." His voice was soft.
Aj walked over to him, and closed the door. "Sit down with us...Nick told me." Kevin's green eyes clouded for a second.
"How did you know?" He whispered. His heart ached.
"Just a guess. We dont want to hurt you, but..." Kevin looked at both of them. He wanted them to be happy. But it hurt, how it hurt.
"It will be ok. But if you hurt him, I will kill you." Kevin's green eyes met Nick's and a look passed between them. Nothing more was said. Aj let out a sigh of relief. He grinned. Maybe this would be ok after all.
Kevin wasn't betting on it.