LIVING MY DREAM
I was finally home, home in my own house. The anguish, the unknown(s), the long trip, the finality of all my dreams, it was finally over. I just sat on my bed and looked around and couldn't appreciate it more than that very minute. I reached for the hem of my nightgown and pulled it and over my head. I let it fall to the floor and I stood and looked into the mirror. I just admired my new body, a feminine body!!! This dream of mine all started when I started crossdressing, I loved how it felt when I wore stockings, a garter belt, panties and a bra. At first it was just an "experimental thing" but after a short time the experiment became more of a need and a want. I crossdressed more and more and started to realize that maybe, just maybe there was a female person that lived inside of me. I tried many times to "quit" but always went back to satisfying my urges, desires, wants and needs. After a while I constantly wore lingerie under my male attire and longed for the day that I would change my sex and become a woman. I went to therapist(s) for a long period of time and they all concurred that I was really a female in a male's body. I was recommended to a gender therapist who suggested that I actually live as a woman for a year and then objectively ascertain if I really wanted to become a female. I did in fact live as a woman for a year and actually gave it more time which amounted to a year and one half. There was one decision to make which was a very easy one, and that was to go "full boat". My therapist agreed and arranged an appointment with one of the best SRS (Sex Re-assignment Surgery) doctor's. When the day arrived for my appointment I wore a black 42C bra, beige pantyhose, a black medium high waist shaper, a charcoal grey pencil skirt that was about 3 inches higher than my knees, a burgundy front button blouse, 3 inch black pumps. I had my hair done the day before so all I had to do was comb it out, some white gold jewelry and off I went to see the doctor. I arrived at the office 10 minutes early because I had to the required paperwork. The receptionist was very polite and she just kept looking at me which made me very nervous. When I handed in the finished paperwork she told me that I looked beautiful and that she would never would have guessed that I wasn't who I was trying to become. I just smiled at her and thanked her for the compliment. I went back to the chair that I was sitting on, crossed my legs and waited to be called. I had just settled myself when I was called into the doctor's office for the examination. I was asked to remove all my outer clothing and was given a medical robe, the one which is closed in the back but never closes. I laid my skirt and blouse on the chair, put on this ridiculous paper robe, got onto the examination table and waited for the doctor to come in. the doctor came in almost immediately and asked me the usual questions and then he stated the examination. He asked me how long I wanted to become a woman and I told him all my life was true. He asked me if I knew about the procedure to make me into a woman and I answered him YES!!!! He asked me to lay back so he could examine me. His hand went under my bra and removed one of my forms and then he rubbed my nipple which responded to his touch. He then asked me to remove my pantyhose and high waist panty so he could complete the exam. At this point his nurse came into the room and helped me to take down my pantyhose and panty but only to my knees. The doctor held my penis for a short time but I started to get hard so he turned to his nurse and asked her to take care of the "thing". She bent over me and slid her hot mouth down and over my "clit" and gave me the best blow job I ever had. It didn't take long for me to blast my seed into her mouth and down her throat.