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Here it is Chapter 25! 25 chapters in to Life's Expectations and more to come! This chapter it'll focus more about the hard times a gay or bi person might face. In this case it is Nick having a talk with his parents, Isaac talking to Cheryl and Gage standing up to a grade 12.
Just so everyone is clear there are only two relationships happening right now. Lucas and Nick are not an item, though they could become one. So besides the ones in relationships and the two I just mentioned you, the readers, know of 4 other boys who are gay or bi. Kale, Tanis, Annie, and Isaac. Exactly what becomes of them will be shown in the future!
This chapter is dedicated to all kids who are getting bullied. Even more so to the ones who think suicide is an answer to your problems. This is not just dedicated to those who get bullied for their sexuality but all of them. Suicide is not an answer, it shouldn't even be an option. There are things that can help you in your community, even if they are just your friends and family.
Don't give up on life when your young. Your life has just started and theirs no telling what might happen. The good, the bad, the worst, the best... it'll all happen but hey if the worse happens in the beginning your life only gets better form there!
I hope you enjoy the chapter!
Chapter 25 – Make It Stop(September's Children)
Nick's POV
So it's been a weekish since Zach's birthday. Friday the 13th... Today isn't gonna be a good day. Mom said she wanted to talk to me after school. Here I am at the end of gym sitting very awkwardly with Tanis and Sam just talking.
After the bells goes Tanis walks with Sam leaving me to make my way alone. I don't normally walk slowly, usually it's really fast so I can get out of the hallways. This time not to much, I don't want to go home but if i don't I'll get in major trouble.
While walking to my locker I bumped into someone. When I looked up I noticed it was a senior, a grade 12... Not only that but it was Adam Bruce, he beat up a grade 8 in September. Suddenly I'm scared for my life.
"What the hell, man? Watch where your going!" I got pushed against the vending machines and Adam and his friends.
I heard one of them say, "Isn't that Clair's littlest brother?"
Adam responded, "Ye, that's the fagot."
I continued on to my locker in silence. Tanis tried to awkwardly start up a conversation. I ignored him and just said see ya later. I walked home by myself, i didn't even have my music in my ears.
So I get home and sit down in the living room. I waited for about an hour while watching tv. Then the inevitable happened, mom came home. She walked into the living room and sat down of the couch I wasn't on.
Then it happened, "We both know what we have to talk about." I nod, "You know what happened with Gage's lube and I have yet to hear it from you."
"I'm not gonna tell you..."
"Why not?" My mom had a super serious face going on. I didn't really know what to say. "Well Nickolas, answer me!"
"I don't feel comfortable talking about it with you!"
"Does it involve your brother?"
"NO, no no no no no!" Not this time at least. Mom just stared at me, "Mom... Do you hate me?"
"Sweetie, I could never hate you. Not even if you tried to make hate you." I still don't beleive her fully. "You have to be honest now though, why did you use Gage's lube?" AWKWARD!!!! God how can this be worse?
"Mom... can I just say one thing and let you assume?"
"It better be easy for me to assume."
"I think I'm....." I took a huuuuuge gulp, "Gay..."
Mom just smiled and moved beside me. "Nick, I could never hate someone who is just expressing themselves. You thinking your gay is just how you see it today. In the future you may find you don't like boys but for now that's who you are, and that's okay."
The talk continued from there but it was more, mostly about how I thought I was gay. I mentioned Lucas and it went all downhill from there. I had to mention that only his mom knew and it's taboo to mention it to his dad.
From there the night was normal. Gage kicked my ass in video games, Clair talked to me a little bit. Like I said normal. I even had a good nights sleep. The weekend went on uneventful too.
Then came Monday... I was walking in from the math and language hall way when it happened. I bumped into Adam again... "Lookie here, what are you doing bumping into me again?"
"I didn't mean too, I'm sorry." I said before I got pushed onto my ass.
"Stay on the floor, your fagot ass belongs there." Suddenly a shadow fell in front of me and I flinched. Turned out, it was just Gage.
Isaac's POV - Saturday
So I've been thinking about stuff. Mostly about guys... I know it's weird cause before I didn't think about that kind of stuff. Now though it like every time I... well harden up, its about some guy.
Now that I think about it, I think I've always been this way. There were a couple of guys in elementary school that I would always stare at in the changing room before gym. I think I've always been into guys... just been to naive to notice?
Well anyways its Saturday night, and I'm at the youth center. Anthony and Lucas came in just a bit ago, they haven't noticed me though. Actually that's a lie, Anthony knocked on the window and waved. It was Lucas' first time here so he had to go talk to Cheryl.
When they finally finish Lucas waves to me and goes and hangs out with his other group of friends. Anthony comes in, "So what you drawing today?"
"Ummm..." I was basically just drawing I don't even know, "Apparently a merman." this is super embarrassing.
"I think he's very hansom. Maybe you should work on something else though."
"Agreed."
So I flipped the page of my sketchbook and started working on a scene of a log cabin at the foot of the mountain. Anthony and I started talking about the school. Mostly about our mosaic were switching up. I was in C.A.P.P. and keyboarding but now I'm going into Art and Drama. Anthony is going into woodwork/metalwork/drafting form sewing and cooking.
"I don't want to do Drama.. I'm not an actor." I huffed an continued drawing.
"Then have a talk with Mr. Knotts and see what kind of techie options you have in grade 8. There is probably more than you think." He's probably right. There is probably more options than I can see. Either that or there is no option at all.
We went quiet for a while until I asked, "Anthony, do you think your gay?"
"I'm not gay. I just like getting off." I guess that makes sense. "Like I like it when I get sucked off but I don't really enjoy sucking someone else off. And there is no going near my butt with anything."
"Didn't you suck Nick off before though, like started it?"
"I was super horny that day. I don't mind giving someone the same pleasure as I just felt so."
"Oh I see." The room went quiet again until Anthony got up and walked out. I was once again alone in the sound proof room, just the way I like it.
It stayed that way for a while until Cheryl came into the room. Cheryl is an odd one. She is a certified psychiatrist yet she works in a youth center. I guess when she was originally hired she had lost of kids she talked to but now only a couple see her through the week. I have only talked to her a little bit, not even about major stuff.
Here she is though coming to the sound proof room with a huge grin on her face. Kevin, one of the other youth workers was entertaining everyone with a movie so Cheryl could come and talk to me with out much hassle. Still it was odd that she would come in. "Hey Isaac how are you?"
"I'm well, just drawing a cabin."
"It is a very nice cabin. I love the setting."
"It's not even done, there is gonna be a mountain in the back round. Maybe a pond in the yard or something."
Cheryl just looked at the picture smiling, "You really are a gifted kid. I need to talk to you though." I put down my sketch pad and look over at her. I give out a 'what about' face. "I've heard a few things concerning you. Don't worry none of it is about you at the youth center or about your past."
"Okay, what did you hear?"
"It's about the boys you've been hanging out with."
For some reason I got super defensive, "I'm not gonna just stop because of rumor. They are my friends and I will hang out with who I please."
"I'm not going to say who you should or shouldn't hang out with. In fact I think it's great you've found friends. You've been much happier as of late. The rumor, like I said, has something to do with you." I waited this time before I said anything. "Some of the boys here have said something to the extent of 'Isaac is gonna turn gay by hanging out with them.'" She did her best to mimic a tough guy voice, she didn't succeed very well.
I thought about it for a few seconds then asked, "Who said this?"
"You know I can't tell you that. What I can say is that it might spread and I thought I would warn you before you heard it from the wrong person." She's genuinely concerned for me, woot!
"Thanks..."
She didn't stop there though, she went on, "If you want to talk, just remember that I am here for you okay."
I nodded. Then it rushed into my head. How that rumor might just be true. Is Nick, Tanis and Lucas turning me gay? Annie said he isn't gay but he still does it. Is it possible for you to catch gay? I turned to Cheryl and asked, "Is it possible to become gay because someone else is?"
"No that's not possible. What is though is that your hormones are so active that you just want to 'get off'" Oh god don't have the birds and the bees talk, please no, "And you go and 'have fun' with another boy. Why do you ask?"
"Since I've been hanging out with Nick and everyone I've been noticing I like boys..."
"Well let me ask you this: Think back, was their a boy before you met Nick that you think you had a crush on?"
I had to think about this one, it was a tough one. I finally figured that my staring at certain guys in the changing room meant I had a crush on them. "I think so."
"Then what Nick is really doing isn't 'making you gay'. You're maturing and realizing that you enjoy boys. We grow up in a society that believes everyone is straight at birth, that isn't true. You're born gay, straight, bi, a male trapped as a girl or vice versa and you adapt and realize this as you grow older." Makes sense to me. "All that's happening is your maturing and realizing things you were to young to realize in the past."
"Ok, so Nick isn't making me gay. I was born with an attraction to boys."
"Yes, and you may or may not have been born with an attraction to girls, that's all left up to you and how you discover yourself." Cheryl is the best! "If you ever want someone to talk to about this stuff just come one down and we'll have a little chat."
"Ok, sounds like a plan!" She messed up my hair and left. I gave her a dirty look and clean up my hair. Then I went back to the cabin, well the mountain and trying to figure out exactly how do make this picture work.
Gage's POV
I just walked into the school and I see Adam, a shitty grade 12, towering over my brother. So what do I do? I walk right in between them and stare at this giant. He's like a whole foot taller than me so I just got into the shit hole all for my brother.
"Move out of the way Bells. You brother walked into me twice now, so he's gotta learn to look where he's walking." Adam tried to tower over me, but I really don't care about how big he is.
"Did you say you were sorry Nick?" I presume he shook his head and gave out a mhmm. "He said he's sorry so what is their to teach him? He knows what he did, let that be the end of it."
"He needs to learn who is the boss around here. The grade 12s are the bosses of the students. The teachers may hold the power but we grads are who hold the cards."
"Do you?" He raises an eyebrow, "I have a mother who is an English teacher in the school. I have a sister who is student body president and I have control over how well you play goes at the end of the semester." I had gotten the roll of the older brother in the play, I'm quite happy about that one.
"Those cards mean nothing." At this point there was a good portion of the school surrounding us. "When I say cards I mean the muscle."
We both shared an evil look at each other then a teacher shouted, "What is the meaning of this?" and we all scattered. No one told the teacher anything, I didn't even know who it was.
I got Nick out of the school walked to a difference entrance, "Thanks Gage."
"No problem Nickie, I got your back." He's my little brother I have his back no matter what.
By the time first class started what had happened had already spread through the entire school. I had Drama first and talk about drama. I got looks from everyone! Chester, Kyle and Gabe all told me how proud they were of me.
In math Zach told me how much of an idiot I was. But he agreed that if he had a little brother he would have done the same. Zach told me how I should be careful. He hadn't been here long and he knew that Adam was a guy you don't mess with.
Then came lunch... I tried my best to avoid Adam but never the less he found me. Worst part is I just got out of my class and there he was. I thought he had history this block? Oh well here he is now.
"So Bells, we gotta talk."
"Got to talk, not gotta talk." I continued onward past him. Suddenly I felt the full force of Adam as he pushed me into the lockers. First my shoulder hit and then my head whipped right into it. Before I realized what was going on I was on the floor with a huge head ache.
"Dude, what the fuck!?" Kyle came up and lifted me up, "You okay?"
"My head hurts." I scratched my head, it was moist. I looked at my hand, yep that's blood. "And I'm bleeding..."
"Someone get Mr. Knotts to the First aid room!" Kyle went over to the other side of me, "Zach help me lift Gage up."
"Okay!"
"I'm fine..." I certainly am not, but I'm a guy so.
"No your not. And even if you were I wouldn't let you walk by yourself. You hit your head, your bleeding and you look dizzy as hell." He's right, I am very dizzy. When I got up my arms were around both of their shoulders.
From behind us we heard, "Just remind your brother that if he bumps into me again that it'll be worse!"
In little to know time I was in the first aid room. One of my other classmates brought my books. Mr. Knott came into the room almost running. "Okay, boys I need you to leave."
"No problem." Kyle turns to me as he leaves, "I'm gonna find Sam and Clair, they gotta know." I nod slowly as they leave.
Mr. Knotts attends to my wound. It turned out to be something worse than what I thought. Mr. Knotts phoned for an ambulance and then called my mom. Then I noticed something, I turned my head to point my right ear towards my drama teacher. I could still hear him but not as well. Great... my ear is acting up again.
In no time my mom was in the room. Asking how I was and other motherly stuff. Clair came in too, demanding to know who did it. Sooner than later I was in an ambulance heading to the hospital. I hadn't told anyone about my ear yet, but I bet you it's screwed up again.
I'll give you the run down. I got ear infections like it was going out of style when I was younger. I had to get tubes in my ears when I was younger. I wasn't even able to swim until I was 12. Cause of the whole 'can't get water in your ears'. So I've always had ear problems but not much of hearing issues.
My ear not working properly is a major issue. My ears are the most difficult thing to maintain stability. So if Adam just fucked them up... this is not gonna be fun.
A few hours later, I had been checked out and I have bandages around my head. Sam and Mrs. Small came in with my DS, "Here I thought you would want this."
"Thanks Sammy!" It even had my pokemon in it. "So how was school after I left?"
Worst of all right now, Sam was on my right so I didn't hear him. Mrs. Small with her motherly instincts notice my movements, "Gage, what wrong with your ear?"
"I can't hear that well right now. I think it's just the knock on the head." I smile slightly.
Mrs. Little shakes her head, "I don't care, and neither will your mother. It's being checked out ASAP!"
"Yes ma'am..."
Sam told me about Adam getting suspended and Nick blaming himself for it all. I have to talk to my brother now. I gotta tell how it wasn't his fault... He's just gonna blame himself until I tell ad convince him otherwise.
Chapter end.
Sorry, once again for the late chapter. Been super bussy with video games and such. Mostly LoL but I beat the Last of Us.... sooo success!
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P.S. I meant to get chapter out before I went camping... as you can see it obviously didn't happen, but here it is now. I hope you enjoy it!