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So there are a few things I hate about animes. Useless flashbacks (cough cough Kabuto caugh), and filler. I hope your not finding my flashback to be boring but I'm gonna pull something at the beginning of this chapter that I don't like doing. A flashback in a flashback. I realized I forgot the days Lucas missed just as I was finishing up the last chapter but I have a plan! Just not one I approve of.
Now, last chapter I showed you guys a lot of Shane and Lucas' past. Mostly Shane's, but this chapter will go into Lucas' more so. You also met Blake, Lucas' little brother. Just so you know he is 11 in current time and my mind kinda just made him up on the spot. So suggestions for him would be nice.
Like I said this chapter is gonna have a flashback in a flashback. It's gonna start with Lucas going to his spot to talk to his mystery friend that you already know about! Well you know his name, but I'm not gonna tell you. He hasn't done much in the story other than be introduced. So I'm gonna use him here!
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So here is Chapter 15 for all of you readers! With a the title being another song by the amazing band: All Time Low. Happy reading!
Chapter 15 - Time Bomb
Lucas' POV
I don't really know how I ended up at the end of the industrial wing... Well it's an easy route from the cafeteria but I don't know why I chose it over everywhere else. Probably cause all the other spots around the school are obvious.
So here I am just siting here thinking about everything. Matt catching us in the bathroom. Weather or no I really do like guys or if this is just a phase like some people say. Or if I am gay and if so what my family and friends would think. I don't think I could handle being the target of bullies and such again.
Before Shane showed up I was picked on all the time. No one really wanted to hang out with me. At least I wasn't like that Issac kid I keep hearing about. But ya, ever since Shane showed up I've felt better about myself. But it also has me thinking weird thoughts.
Ever since I saw Shane for the first time I've noticed that I keep looking at boys more. I still look at girls but boys I look at just as much. I can't shake them out either, they always come back. I've looked it up online and it says that if you like both your bisexual, and that scares me.
It scares me cause that means if I can't ever have a boyfriend without telling my parents. My dad has always been a man's man kinda guy. I don't think he'd take it lightly that I'm girly. Then my mom is a psychologist so she'll probably try and find whatever is wrong with me. I just can't take it!
To top everything off Matt caught us! Matt Jones caught me and Shane having sex in the boy's washroom! Matt is gonna tell his friends, I know it! Then they are gonna tell others and then everyone will know about me and Shane.
Just as I was about to freak out majorly I feel a hand on me. I turn around to see Chester Vermont, one of my best friends. "Dude, what's up with you. You haven't been at school for a few days and now your freaking out in the middle of lunch." I said nothing in return. "It's better to let it out than to hold it in."
"I'm scared..."
"Of what!?"
"Of my attraction towards boys..."
"Wait, your gay?" He didn't seamed turned off by the idea.
"I don't know. I know I like girls and boys and that means for someone to be bisexual. But other than that I don't know anything."
"Well it means right now you know your bisexual. It might change later to straight or you might even become gay, but you'll still be you."
"No I wont! I'll be some kind of faggot no one likes and who everyone picks on! It's not that I'm scared of liking guys. I'm scared of what people will think of me for it."
"Lucas, there's gotta be reason why... Why weren't you at school the past couple of days? Be honest with me, for your sake."
I hugged my knees tight, "I was on a family trip... and my dad started talking..."
Lucas' POV – A Few Days Prior.
We were just getting out of the parking lot. Me and Blake were siting in the back of my dad's mini-van. My dad started the drive home talk,"Who was that guys?"
"He was our waiter Honey, he serves our food." My mom and dad haven't been together for a few years. My dad recently married a lady named Riley. She has a 12 year old daughter named Rita Good. I guess it's her dad's last name.
"Not that, his voice and mannerisms, very feminine if you ask me."
"He was probably gay Honey, nothing wrong with that."
"As long as none of that kind touch my children I'm fine."
The rest of the conversation was not on that topic, but my mind never left it. My dad doesn't want a gay guy touching me? Then what about Shane... and Anthony for that matter. I showed him what a BJ is the other day... Does that mean that my dad hates me?
When we got back to the hotel we all got comfy. For me that was to grab my PSP and start up my new game: Crisis Core: Final Fantasy 7. It's a great game by the way. I have kinda played the normal 7 but not much.
Blake and Rita both decided they wanted to get a swim in and convinced Riley to take them to the pool. They offered for me to come with them but I declined. I want to get farther in my game.
Shortly after they left I moved from 'my room' to the 'living room' and sit with my dad. He's watching hockey of course, when isn't he? It was the 2nd period and who ever my dad was cheering on was winning.
When the period was over I spoke up, "Dad, what did you mean by what you said in the car?"
"What did I say in the car?" He was grabbing a beer from the fridge.
"'As long as they don't touch my kids'"
My dad looks up at me from behind the fridge door, "Why, did 'one of them' touch you?"
"No sir..." I shook my head fanatically. "I was just wasn't paying attention to the conversation before that point." Flat out lie there, but he doesn't need to know that.
"Son, men who like men cannot call themselves a man. How can a male be the female in the relationship it's unnatural."
"Dad we live in Canada, that kind of talking isn't..."
"Lucas, I'm not saying I have anything against 'them' but I don't see how a man could subject himself to that." Every time he says 'them' it stings like a mental needle. "If I was to be aware of a member of my family, including your cousins, I would not be able to look at them the same."
"Nothing changed about them though! All that's changed is that..."
"That they are homosexual and against the course of nature. Now enough of this talk, the third period is about to start." There was still like 5 minutes till the period started. Though that didn't stop me from not saying anything. It was a lost cause anyways.
I just watched the third period with my dad, his team lost. He wasn't all that happy, but I thought it was funny. When everything was over with he went down to the pool too. I stayed in the hotel room... just thinking.
So I asked my mom what she thought of gay people via text message. All she said is 'that is their life's choice to live like that. Could I ever do it, no, but some people like their gender better.' That didn't help, it sounded a lot like what dad said.
For the rest of the trip this never left my mind. How my dad basically told me how he felt about me. That I was 'against nature' and how he wouldn't be able to look at me the same ever again. It hurt, more than anything I've ever experienced and I've broken a few bones. I just wanna curl up and cry right now.
Lucas' POV – Grade 8
"So that's why I'm scared."
"Lucas, Why haven't you told anyone about this. Shane is worried sick."
"What can they do!? What can they do that'll change how my father feels!? About how Matt caught us today!?"
Chester looks at me funny. Oh shit I just told him that me and... "Caught you doing what?"
I hide my face in my knees, "Matt Jones caught me and Shane... ya..."
"'Ya' as in anu..."
"YES!!" I really didn't want him to finish that.
"Oh, well I can't change what your dad said... or what Matt caught you doing. But what I can do is offer you some advice. Don't let other people affect you, the only opinions that matter are those who are important to you."
"My dad is important to me Ches." He just pat me on the back.
"Listen, I get that your dad is important to you. But there's only one way to know for sure what he'll think of you. You gotta out yourself."
"I'm not gonna out myself!" Luckily the bell went just as I said that. "I gotta go to class."
"No, your going to the councilors first and your gonna tell them an edited version of what you just told me. You know minus the sex part." I just nod cause he was right. I gotta tell someone... if it's the councilor or someone else. I gotta get this off my chest.
Shane's POV
I really don't know what was up with Lucas at lunch after Matt found us. I mean ya, I was scared of Matt outing us too, but I think he's trustworthy. I also don't know him, other than by name.
So it's after school and I haven't seen or heard from Lucas since he ran off. I probably wont till lunch tomorrow cause that's when I'm gonna see him next. Stupid school schedule not working for me.
It's about 7:30 when Noah comes in holding his cell phone, "Bro... you might wanna see this." When he hands me his phone, I see it's a text from Natalie, his girlfriend. Then I look at the message, 'When did your bro out himself???'
I was shocked, did Matt tell someone? "I haven't outed myself!" I texted back 'I haven't! - Shane'
"Well someone told someone and then it traveled around the school." He had to be right! But who, it wasn't him or Natalie and Lucas wouldn't, so it's gotta be Matt who did it right? "Did you tell someone else?"
"No, but Matt Jones kinda... found me and Lucas at lunch today."
I could see Noah get angry the moment I said his name, "That little..."
"Matt wouldn't, I think..."
"Do you know him?"
"He's my facebook friend and is in my gym class..." I pull out my laptop and log on. "I'll ask him right now. You're not allowed to be angry with him."
As I finished saying that Natalie texted back – 'Well i've been getting questioned since 4th period today about it.'
'Just hang on I'm trying to figure this out.'
When I logged on Matt was online thankfully and I messaged him immediately. - Dude who did you tell?
Matt - No one, but i've been hearing stuff all around school. Since 4th period
Me – That's what Natalie, my bro's gf, said to me.
Matt – I didn't tell anyone I swear
Noah took the comp from me and sent him a message – prove it! - Noah
Matt – Honestly Noah, I can't. I feel bad for your bro and hope him the best. I've even been trying to find out who told who for him.
"Noah, he didn't say anything, I trust him! That's enough 'protective big bro' mode." I push him off.
Me – Thanks Matt, if you find anything please tell me.
Matt - Np, I will as soon as I figure anything out. Remember you still owe me a favor.
Me - Yup!
"What does he mean by favor?"
"He said he wouldn't tell anyone in exchange for a favor. A non-sexual favor, I'm fin with it." Noah just let out a huff. Then Natalie sent another text 'okay tell me if you guys figure anything out'
So I sent he a message back, 'It's not Matt Jones, he's also trying to find out who'.
"Okay then who would it be then?" Noah was still on me for any information he could get.
"I don't know, Lucas wouldn't I know he wouldn't!"
"I'm not saying it was him." He knows that Lucas has a crush on me... he's covered us when we were moaning to load a couple of times. "Just sleep on it okay? Tell me anything that might point out who it was!"
"Of course OP brother."
"Shut up you!" He pushed me over and left me to my thoughts. It didn't take long for me to be side tracked though. Not long after that I was asleep so I really didn't get any info for him. I had a rather peaceful sleep too.
I got ready as per normal in the morning. I got on the bus and everyone kinda looked at me funny. Noah just glared back at them and they stopped immediately. I stayed quiet the entire ride to the school.
I arrive as the warning bell goes off as usual and head straight to my first class. None of my friends are in the class and everyone has weird looks to give me. As I sat down the girl behind me asks quite loudly, "So Shane are the rumors true? That your gay, cause I've had a bit of a crush on you till now."
I said nothing in return. Then a boy in my class responded, "Well if he's not responding, it's probably true." Still I said nothing in return.
Mrs. Bells called the classes attention, "It doesn't matter what Shane's sexuality is. It's the fact that Shane is Shane that you should respect him. You don't need to like him, just respect his privacy and leave him alone." The lesson then started and everyone left me alone.
During recces I didn't have much time to do much. Mrs. Bells talked to me a bit about how not to let it get to me. I just nodded and listened. After she was done I headed to my next class.
That class was no better. I got a few notes passed to me. Most of them said 'faggot' but one of them hit me hard, mentally of course. It said, 'I heard you seduced Lucas into fucking you'. At that moment there was no question who it was that told people.
I had to leave the room, I didn't even ask to leave I just left before I cried. I left everything on my desk, even the notes. I brought the important one, and I headed to the library. It was Noah's spare so he was stuck in there.
When I walked in the librarian stopped me, "Do you have a note to be here?" She's not the nicest lady...
"No ma'am I just need to..."
"Without a note I'm going to have to ask you to leave. End of story." I just nodded and left. I could have walked past her but I didn't feel like disobeying orders.
I ended up on a flight of stairs looking over the track and soccer field. They gym class was running around having fun and everything. I was stuck on the fact that Lucas sold me out.
He must of said to someone in his defense that I seduced him. But then who could have gotten that info out of him? Matt? No Matt said he didn't do it and he was helping me. So then Lucas probably got talking to some kid and mentioned something.
Wait it's possible that all of this started with a rumor and then got juiced up right? I mean it happens all the time. By the time the story gets around there's like 20 different versions of it. This can all be a misunderstanding right? I really hope that's what it all is.
By the time I had calmed down it was almost lunch. Before I could even get back to class the bell went. When I got back to my class everyone was gone but my teacher who didn't say anything other than, "You owe me time Shane."
I said the typical, "Yes ma'am." and left. The stares didn't stop either. I quickly got to my locker and grabbed my afternoon class' books. Just as I closed my locker I got pushed into it. When I looked to see who it was, I couldn't really do anything about it. It was a grade 12... I'm like half his height.
I got to the cafeteria as fast as could and sat down with my friends. They immediately asked if I was doing okay and went on about how they didn't care. Lucas wasn't there though...
Then out of the blue, someone said, "I bet he got raped." just loud enough for me to hear it. I immediately turn to them with a face of fear, just to hear, "Oh my god he has!"
There is no way this day could get any worse. There is just no way it could be. Well there is one, Lucas comes in saying that it's his fault. I know that's not gonna happen though... right? But then that would make Matt the lair... My head is messed up right now.
Without me even noticing Lucas had walked up beside me and was trying to talk to me. He actually had to poke me to get my attention. "Oh, sorry... There's a lot on my mind."
"Ya I can tell. Listen I gotta talk to you..." No, no, no, this is not happening!!
"So you can say this is all your fault?"
"It's not my fault! I was talking..."
"See you were talking to someone! Then they told someone else and it just spread like a wild fire!"
"Shane I didn't mean for this to..."
"And now everyone is talking about how your the victim! That I did everything wrong and that you were just horny!"
Lucas looked very awkward standing in the cafeteria getting yelled at. Not to mention that like the entire place was silent and paying attention to us. "Shane can we go talk in private, please?"
"Why!? They already know what's been happening!"
"Please Shane..."
Just as was about to say something, someone on the other side yelled out, "Just calm your pants Shane. You'll get fucked some other time!" The entire cafeteria burst into laughter.
It didn't even stop there, someone else managed to yell out, "Why don't you go ask your big brother for some!?" through the noise.
The last one hit me like a brick though, "Or he could beg his daddy for some!" I looked at Shane with pure hate. He looked at me like I was a murder scene. I got up pushed Lucas out of my way and ran out of the cafeteria.
I just wanted to be outside and alone. I ran to the drama wing and went out the exit. Went down the small flight of stairs and went to one of the corners of the building, sat down, and cried. I felt like hours in only a few minutes.
It was Lucas who spread it out. It wasn't Matt, it was Lucas. Lucas, my best friend who I trusted with my deepest and darkest secret told everyone, indirectly. It's his fault everyone knows now.
Some people, I don't even know who, noticed me and tried to talk to me. I don't really know what they were saying, I wasn't paying attention. That is until one of them said, "Someone go get Noah, I bet you he can talk to him."
It was only like 5 minutes till Noah get here. He was sprinting when I saw him come into view. When he got to me I just tossed myself on him and balled. Noah didn't even ask anything just rubbed my back and waited.
When I was starting to calm down, the drama wing doors opened. I guess Noah looked towards them cause he then said, "Lucas what happened?" I stopped moving and grabbed Noah's sides. I could of ripped his kidneys out if he wasn't used to it by now. "Lucas... tell me right now."
Lucas hesitated for a second, "It's my fault everyone knows... but I don't know how it happened!"
"What do you mean it's your fault!?" Noah went to get up but I pulled him back down. No matter what Lucas has done, I'm not letting Noah so much as touch him.
"My family trip didn't go so well... and then I was talking with someone yesterday and I don't know what happened. I know neither Matt or him would tell anyone such personal details. I know it!"
"Noah who did you tell?" By the tone of voice, Noah was between angry and in pain. Both slightly my fault.
"I told a good friend, he wouldn't tell a soul! I swear on my life!"
"Lucas, Shane is currently pinching my sides so I don't beat you. I suggest you leave before I forcibly remove his hands from me."
"NO!" I couldn't sit there with Noah threatening Lucas like that, "I will never forgive you if you so much as lay a finger on Lucas! No matter what he's done, your not allowed to touch him!"
Noah looked at me shocked, and then just nodded. Lucas went back inside without saying anything. It was a few minutes before Noah said anything, "You want me to call Scott or Paula so you can go home?"
"Please..." I just wanna go home... and sleep this nightmare away.
Lucas's POV – current time
"Then when I went to your house you flipped out on me."
"I didn't flip out." Yes you did Shane... "I just told you to go away very rudely."
"'Lucas, even though I defended you against my brother that doesn't mean we're friends anymore. So get the hell away from me before I punch you.' Slam door."
"I didn't flip out... I stopped myself before I flipped out. I will admit though I was hard on you."
Everyone was listening to the story quietly until Gage chirped in, "So did you guys ever find out who spread the rumor? Like if it was Matt or Chester? They really aren't the types to spread rumors like that."
"We never have... and that's the reason I told Chester. He may be a gossip hound, but he spreads truths that people don't mind sharing. He's gonna be a good reporter one day." Chester is my best friend now since I flipped out.
"So that's why afraid of PDAs? Your dad finding out?" Nick had tried on several occasions a PDA, each time it failed.
"My dad doesn't know the real reason why me and Shane aren't friends anymore. He thinks we just grew apart. I don't know how I'm gonna tell him I'm into guys more than I'm into girls. I am bi though."
"Well me and Annie will be there for you. And if Annie's not, then he's not a very good cousin."
"He'll be there, me and Anthony are like brothers."
"Well now that that's done with how bought we play some games!"
"Really Gage, your gonna go their right now?"
"Hey, you guys can talk more if you want, but I think if we just ignore the fact that you and Shane have had your bumps in the road it'll be better. Just be friends again and take it slow with everything."
I look over at Shane, "We can get to the bottom of this faster together than w can separately." Finally, I have my best friend back, so happy I stayed now.
Chapter end
So this chapter is the slightest bit longer than normal but I had lots of stuff to in my mind. It could have been longer. I hope you enjoyed reading it as much as I enjoyed typing it.
Remember if you have any suggestions for the story just send me an email at kuragari129@hotmail.com and/or the official fan page on facebook: http://www.facebook.com/LifesExpectations?ref=hl. It's got a few things that I think are worth a look. Like the original first chapter to Life's Expectations, so don't forget to 'like' it while your there!
Thanks for reading!
P.S. - Looking for some other stories to read? I have a few suggestions that are worth a look. "Trials and Tribulations", "Pixie Dust", and "Alex's Guardian Angel" are all very good stories! I have some other story suggestions in chapter 12 at the very end as well if you didn't notice.
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