I make two decisions in the next few days. First, I'm going to make Amanda and Tracy my friends. If that "outs" me on campus, so be it. I enjoyed expressing my true feelings and accepting my femininity so much that the thought of repressing it again is too much to bear. They are fun to be with, I'm comfortable with them, and they have become my role models to a large degree as I attempt to emulate their lifestyles. I'm going to join Lambda with them for it's social aspects. I faced the fact that I have done gay things and enjoyed them, so why not socialize with a group of people whose orientation I share?
Second, I've decided I must give Trexler a try. I enjoyed the sex with Amanda and Tracy and I'm looking forward to Trexler as a sexual outlet for the growing desires which increase daily.
Trexler is a large building which houses a combination of the campus research library, and the part of the student social center. The second floor mens room is at the end of a long hallway leading to the library. It was closed Sunday, so I had to wait until Monday morning to check it out. The mensroom is large, with a a row of urinals at the far end and sinks along the wall. It's an L shaped room with the stalls in the short part of the L just to the right of the urinals. I'm dressed in jeans and loafers with no socks and a baggy sweat shirt. Under my clothes, as always, I'm wearing panties and a bra that I've changed into in the mensroom of my dorm. My hair is pulled back in the pony tail style Amanda introduced me to and my nails are still polished from Saturday night. I'm not wearing lipstick but my eye shadow and mascara are still slightly visible as I've made no attempt to wash them off.
There's one boy at the sinks as I enter and I see him following me with his eyes in the mirror as I walk past toward the stalls. I wonder what he's thinking. I'm sure he's noticed my ponytail and nails. I have trouble locating the stall with the glory hole, I don't remember which end to count from, so I take a stall near one end and sit down to collect my thoughts. It's quite except for the occassional flush of a urinal. Nothing seems to be happening in the stalls. I check out another, then another before it dawns on me to look under the stall walls to see if anyone is there. Sure enough, on the end opposite from where I started I notice legs and feet. Looking closer it's obvious what's going on. On pair of feet are turned 90 degrees, facing the stall wall and in the other stall the feet are pointing straight ahead, like you would expect to do if sitting on the commode. The person standing must have his dick thru the glory hole and the person sitting must be sucking him. I take the stall on the other side of the person sitting and listen for activity. If there was anything going on, it's stopped and I sit in silence for at least five minutes before I hear the sound of slurping which gives away the activity. I sit in silence for an hour while doors open and close, the sound of footsteps coming and going. I can see feet underneath the wall, and after an hour , this person leaves. Before he is out of the mensroom I move to the vacated stall.
The stalls are not large, maybe 4 feet across, and as I sit on the commode I notice the glory hole. It's a big hole in the wall, maybe six inches in diameter, to the rear of the toilet paper holder and on a level just below my eyes, so I have to bend forward to peek thru. There's no one in the stall, and I wonder if I'm in the suckers stall or the suckees stall. Maybe it doesn't matter, but I decide to stay where I am for the time being.
I don't have to wait very long and I hear the sound of the door being opened, then shut, then latched and as I peer thru the hole, I'm greeted by the sight of pants being pulled down as the boy sits on the commode. It's obvious that I'm starring and it's also obvious that I'm in the right stall as the boy brings his hand down between his legs and begins stroking a rather large cock, with a head hidden by foreskin. He works up a hardon very quickly and my excitement follows just as quickly as my eyes take this in. It must be obvious to him that I'm watching , my face is so near the hole, and he points this monster directly at it. I don't know what to do, but instinct draws my face closer and I'm faced with a very hard prick being projected thru the hole. I can't help myself and I close my lips around the head and draw it quickly into my mouth. Oh God, the sensation is overpowering as his cock slips easily into my mouth. I'm new at this but the emotions and the instinct take over and I swallow as much of it as I can, my face pressing thru the large hole and my nose buried in his pubic hair. He's excited, no doubt about this, and he thrusts thru the hole and fills my mouth. My tongue darts out to caress the underneath side of his head, and he shoots his load almost immediately. This boy has been holding back for a while, I think, because the strength of his spurts fill my mouth completely and I cant hold it all in. The sweet sticky liquid fills my mouth and before I can swallow it escapes the tight "O" formed by my lips and dribbles down my chin, stringing to the floor. The taste is heavenly, a strong salty gooey gob in my mouth. For the first time in my young life I realize that nothing in the world tastes so good. He must have cum a gallon, I swallowed at least half of it, and the rest puddles on the floor.
As quick as he put it thru the hole he withdraws it, leaving my mouth all sloppy from the cream he left there. I lick my lips and try to get as much in my mouth as I can before swallowing his thick load.
The sound of a zipper, a door, footsteps, and I'm alone again. My thoughts and emotions still in high gear, I decide I haven't had nearly enough and wait for my next lover.
Within minutes the door opens, then closes, and I'm faced with yet another delightful dick to suck. The scene is repeated and I suck this boy for at least 10 minutes before he too discharges a large load in my mouth.
I've found heaven in Trexler Hall, and I vow to come back again and again to worship the object of my affection.
But, as Tracy warned me, there are others waiting for enjoyment here, and I don't overstay my welcome. I'm new at this, there's plenty more time, and I don't want to be a pig here. So I leave for the night, and as I do, I see another boy takes the sucker's stall as soon as I'm out. He gives me a knowing look and I'm comfortable with it.
When I recount my experiences to Amanda on Wednesday she says we must get together Friday at her place to induct me in to the "SGHQ". When I ask, she says it the Sorority of Glory Hole Queens, and I can't wait.
I receive my Lambda pin on Friday at the beginning of Amanda's party. Amanda, Tracy and I are the only "girls" at the party, Tracy says 15 people are there, a mixture of gays, lesbians, and us three and it's a rollicking, fun time. I'm "pinned" by a dreamy looking black boy who insists on having the first dance with me and warns me that if I ever go black, I'll never go back. He's sweet but disappears with another boy into the bedroom halfway thru the party. Most everyone seems to disappear in couples during the course of the evening.
By midnight most, if not all, of us are higher than kites and Amanda makes a big scene over my induction. "Here's the queen of the party, ready for her corination into the Society of Glory Hole Queens" she announces in a loud voice. The music stops and everyone crowds around Amanda and me as she produces a jar of mayonnaise and instructs me to "kneel for the coronation". She forces me, without much force at all, to kneel in the center of the room as she administers the badge of honor, a dolop of mayonnaise down the front of my blouse. "Come, come" she exclaims "and that is what they do". I scoop a gob of it from by blouse and stick my finger in my mouth, smiling with fake satisfaction. "And the queen is crowned" she continues "let her loyal subjects show their allegiance".
A circle of eight boys forms with me in the middle. One by one they unzip their flies and take their penis' out, which seem to vary in size from medium to large to very large.
"And let the queen bestow blessings on her subjects" Amanda continues "by doing what queens do.....sucking cock" and she laughs like a banshee.
I move to the closest boy in the circle and he guides his rigid cock into my mouth. It tastes to die for..pre cum already on the head as I bury it in my mouth. Shouts of encouragement push me on and I ride his member, bobbing up and down on it until he finally gives me my reward, a mouth full of delicious cum.
No sooner than I have sucked him dry, he withdraws, and another delicious prick is in my mouth. I work him slowly, using my tongue to massage the head, withdrawing and licking his shaft, even taking his swollen ballsack into my mouth and sucking first one, then another ball. I'm on auto pilot again. I don't know why I'm doing this, only that it feels natural, my feminine instincts taking complete control of my actions. They watch me do my work in rapt silence. I'm neither shy nor embarrassed by what I'm doing or the fact that so many people are watching me do it. As a matter of fact knowing that people are watching sort of turns me on. Within minutes I was taking another prick deep in my throat, my first deepthroat, and sucking him to climax as well.
And so it went, I sucked all of the boys, going round the circle until I repeated a few. As I finished the circle I noticed a growing number of boys pairing off with each other and having sex. It was a regular Sodom here.
I was having another drink, collecting my emotions from the circle suck, when I felt a hand on my shoulder. Looking up, I recognized the black boy who had pinned me. "You're quite a hit tonight" he slurred, obviously drunk, or high "would you like to party in private?" "Sure, why not?" I replied, not quite focusing thru my emotions and the alcohol, but turned on none the less.
He helped me up and guided me thru the crowd of people toward the bedroom. Once there, we shared the bed with another gay couple locked in deep deep sex. Tony, as I came to know him later, flopped on the bed and pulled me down, engulfing my mouth with his as our tongues came together in a sensual melting. I locked my arms tightly around his neck and kissed him back, letting the full weight of my body rest on him. His hands squeezed my buttocks and I ground my tucked groin into his. I was on fire, and I raised myself slightly in order to slide my hand between us and massaged his swollen manhood thru his trousers. It was large, and hard. Very hard. In my limited experiences of the last week it was obvious that this was going to be the largest I had ever had. I couldn't wait to get at it and I quickly unbuttoned his trousers and pulled them to his knees. He wasn't wearing underwear, and the site of his hugh stiff member sent shivers thru me. I slid down til my face was at it and began licking the underneath of it's huge head before I finally succumbed to my desire and fit the whole head in my mouth. It literally stretched my lips to the breaking point, but after a few minutes work I had at least 3 inches in my mouth and the groans coming from Tony confirmed that I was doing a good job. He gave me words of encouragement and reached down to take my bobbing head in his hands.
He let me go at it for a good ten minutes before pulling it out of my mouth and standing to undress. I stripped out of my skirt and blouse, leaving my heels, hose, bra and panties on. He stripped completely and pulled my panties down my legs and I stepped out of them. Guiding me down on the bed, he spread my legs and lay on top of me. We kissed as we fondled each other's organ, his hand completely engulfing mine as I barely fit half of his in my hand. Sliding down my body he took my entire penis in his mouth and pressed his face against my pubic hair. We then shifted into a 69 with me on top and I took him in my mouth.
"I want to be in you" he said "I want to fuck your pussy". I wasn't sure I could take him, but the drink and all the sex tonight had my mind irrational at that point, so I just lay back and let him position me the way he wanted. He lay me on my back my legs spread. On his knees now , he held my legs behind my knees and pushed them toward my head effectively bareing my hole to him. The first thing I felt was the huge head of his cock pressing against my hole. It was so big I was sure it wouldn't fit, and was surprised as I felt my muscles give way a little and it seemed the head was making its way inside. He went slow, pushing, then stopping, then pushing again, all the while keeping pressure on my straining sphincter, and within a few minutes I felt the sharp tinge of pain that signaled the head was going past the muscle. The lubricant helped, the way he positioned me helped, and the fact that I wanted this more than anything else helped and before too long he was taking short strokes inside me. And with that, I relaxed completely, and the short strokes turned into longer strokes and before I knew it he had the entire length of that huge cock up me.
There was still pain, but it gradually subsided, to be replaced by a feeling of pure ecstacy as I gave my self up completely to him. For the first time in my life I was giving myself to a man, giving him the ultimate gift I had to give. Women are so lucky to be able to give this to a man, I thought to myself, and I made up my mind that I would be a woman someday. Until then, I would be as much like a women as I could and give myself in the only way possible, and I would do everything in my power to make my man feel that it was the best he had ever, or would ever, have.
Tony's orgasm shook me to the roots of my being, spurt after spurt of hot, soothing, love juice filled me to the bursting, and drove me over the edge to my own climax as I shot onto his stomach as he lay on top of me. We lay in each other's arms for a long time, neither of us able to speak. The other couple had obviously finished and left, although in the excitement of our lovemaking, neither Tony nor I could remember when.
We dressed and rejoined the party, promising to get together again soon. My contentment must have registered on my face because both Amanda and Tracy remarked at my "glow". I would tell them about my experience later. For now, I was drained, and after a few more drinks and a post sex cigarette I changed into my "straight" clothes, bid everyone a farewell, and headed back to my dorm. Trexler was dark at that time of night or I would have made a stop.
While walking back, I made a mental review of the past week; I received my first kiss, an introduction to oral sex, my first fuck, and was dressed for the first time in front of others. For that, I gave my first blowjob, performed at a glory hole for the first time, and gave myself to a black for the first time. During that week, I estimated I had sucked a dozen dicks and been fucked by two. Quite a week for one's inauguration into the world of transvestitism. With the memories vivid in my mind, I vowed to begin a diary, a record of my new found realization of what I was, and what I wanted to be. And it is from that diary that the following is taken, the record of one boy's transformation into the girl, and woman, he always desired to be, and all the joy, fun, and pain that accompanied that transformation.
Starting as a confused boy, being introduced to the joys of transvestitism, the understanding of transexualism, to the final realization of ones self as a woman. This is the story of lesli.
To be continued
You may contact the authoress at lesli99@hotmail.com