Lehigh and Kian
Part 2
I just thought an update -- and conclusion -- may need to be included to this true story.
Note: This is not my usual "happy ending".
I continued to communicate with both "boys" and watched as they made plans to get together. Kian moved back to England from Australia, and he flew to Chicago on business, and Lee met him there.
It was there that they had their first time ever sex with any other person. Kian was the top, mostly because he was afraid of Lee's "size". Kian is short and stout and very intensely handsome, whereas Lee is very tall. But it's not Lee's height that intimidated Kian: Lee sports a gargantuan uncut member. Kian is also uncut.
Lee was from Alabama -- where he still lived, with his VERY dysfunctional family. Kian insisted on meeting them at least by phone and established what he thought was a good rapport with them. And the two guys made plans for Lee to move to England and continue his education there.
Both guys were deliriously taken with the other. By this time, I was out of any romantic picture, as far as either was concerned. It took some convincing for Lee, but between me and Kian, he saw the wisdom in that.
They made plans. Kian got a bigger flat in his town, near London, and he flew Lee over to visit him.
(Author's note: I am one of Nifty's "Prolific" writers (a Nifty designation) and I call my style, "Writing from the hip", meaning that I don't pre-plan any story. I start writing and each page is a revelation to me. Well -- this is more "Written from the heart" and though now several years behind us all -- I didn't realize that I would feel so hurt, this far removed from the situation.)
Lee and Kian had a glorious time during Lee's visit to Kian's home turf. That short visit was the last they ever saw each other.
I saw at least part of it happening -- but was powerless to stop it. I tried in subtle ways to warn each of these guys -- because I love them each dearly -- but Lee was oblivious and Kian probably chose to ignore it.
What I observed:
Kian is an extremely controlling individual. He is intense in everything he does. He is a positive thinker and believes that everything/anything can be worked out. And I suppose that when Lee came to visit him in England, Kian's compulsive drive to dominate started to become a concern to Lee. I am guessing about this.
Lee truly wanted to be led, but I think that Kian was too demanding for even his comfort level. Kian got more and more jealous of any communication that I had with Lee and actually told me that he wanted me to copy him on everything I sent to Lee.
Of course I refused that "order".
But -- what Kian did not count on was Lee's family. As dysfunctional as they may have been, they WERE from Alabama: think DEEP SOUTH! If you are from the USA, you know that another name for the Deep South is "The Bible Belt".
I suspect that when Lee came home from England, he was freaked out by Kian's obsessive behavior. Kian had even poisoned Lee's mind regarding me, to the point that Lee was afraid of contacting me. Kian TOLD me not to contact Lee and if I did, I was not to ever tell Lee how Kian was doing. What does that tell you?
It tells me that he was trying to punish Lee, and trying to use me to help accomplish that end. He wanted to punish Lee because Lee -- after coming back to Alabama wrote and told him he wanted no more contact.
And -- the reason that I am left to suppose all this is that Lee even told me that he didn't want contact. I am pretty sure that Kian told him things that made him not trust me, but I think it was more than that. I think that Lee's mother -- and his older brother, whom was very protective of him -- convinced him of the "evil" of what he was planning to do. Religious guilt can be a scary thing!
I kept contact with Kian for a long time, but that too has slowed down from letters every day to a once in awhile note.
I wish I knew what became of Lee. I am saddened because I deleted all reference to him when I was hurt so bad -- as he deleted me from his life. In the several years that have passed, I cannot even remember his real last name -- and so cannot contact him at all.
I wish I could report something better. I can only report that Kian is now over 30, still single (never had another boyfriend as far as I know).
Neither of them can claim to be a virgin again ...
I feel like I have lost something dear. I can only imagine what both of my beloved young men feel/felt.