The girls are back. This is part 2 of the Jealousy story, which is the third story I'm posting about these ladies. There is a general order so it probably is best to read the oldest ones then go in order...Hope you like it. :)
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Jealousy II- A Kim & Carin Story (3)
By Mas
The day began on a pretty normal note. I woke up, I woke Carin up. Made us some breakfast, we kissed each other goodbye. I tried to kiss her back to bed and failed. Then we both went to school.
I was studying graphic design. I wanted to become one of the creators of those ads that stuck with you forever. But not in an annoying way you know?
Carin was studying Art History with a minor in Literature. How she found the time was beyond me. She was practically bursting with knowledge though and I never tired of her dragging me to the museums downtown to tell me about the artists, both dead and alive and why they did what they did.
I never tired of her period. Sitting in class as my professor told us about the different ways to sell a product I was still thinking about her. She just got over a horrible flu a week ago and I noticed that she went to bed earlier these days.
I saw her trying to stay awake after we made love but told her not to fight it and would rub her back until she went to sleep.
This week also brought a complication with it, that I really had no idea how to fix...if I could even fix it. Jessica. Who was bugging the hell out of me.
I told Carin about her but got no real feed back, only a frown and a strange, uncomfortable look. Usually she'd shake her head as if in awe but never voice her opinion on how to get Jess to stop bugging me, she's listen to me rant then ask me if I was finished. The three word question was loaded with attitude. I had no idea how to respond to it.
It's not as if she was following me or anything though. Small things really. I'd leave class to eat lunch with Carin and suddenly Jess demanded my presence for some meeting or another.
I'd be at home, working on some homework or working on Carin and Jess is calling about some mundane part of a project. Jess was a pain.
Jess was sitting in front of me this very moment.
"Jess..." I began.
"Hey Kim," her smile was white and even. She was a very pretty girl. Woman really when you took in the whole package; the slim figure, high firm breasts, confident presence that sometimes verged on arrogant. I knew quite a few of my friends who wanted to get with Jess. But I never did.
"We gonna work tonight right?" I nodded my head then remembered the movie I promised Carin I'd watch with her.
"I can't Jess, I have a commitment." Something flickered across her eyes for a moment then was gone.
"Come on Kim, the due date for this one is a week and you know Mr. Ford expects the best from us."
"Well yeah, but it's not like we're behind or anything."
"Kim, just tonight then we'll ease up a little."
I thought of Carin, then of this project. It was a big one for this class and I guess we could postpone the movie for another night. I'd have to call Carin after class I guess...
"Okay, I'll just cancel my plans."
"Cool, I'll meet you after class."
We got a lot of work done that night and were the last to leave the room. I turned up my collar as we left the building.
"Shit! It's cold." I grumbled as I tried to get at my gloves only to have Jess wrap her arm around mine and run her other hand briskly over it.
"I'll warm you up a little." I was about to tell her it's fine then saw her eyes look over my shoulder then she leaned closer to me.
I pulled back and followed her eyes only to find Carin standing a few paces away looking at us with a mixture of emotions on her face. The one that stood out was anger. It was a burning, hot anger.
"Carin!" I couldn't help the guilty expression and squeaky high way my voice sounded. I was supposed to call her to cancel the movie. I was supposed to tell not to wait for me after class. I was supposed to, but I didn't.
"Jessica, it's been a while." She said as she stepped closer to us. Jess still her arm around mine and her hand resting on it...almost possessively. Carin's eyes moved to her hand then back to Jess's face. She hesitantly removed her arm and stepped back.
"I know, how are you Carin? Kim tells me that you were sick a while back." I stepped back from Jess as if burned. The way that she said it made it sound as if we just spent long hours talking and Carin, my girlfriend, just happened to come up. What was going on here?
"Baby I forgot to tell you to cancel the movie for tonight." I stepped towards Carin and moved my hand down her jacket clad arm until I held her hand. "We worked on our project tonight."
"Oh." Was all she said. The three of us stood in an uncomfortable silence while I wondered why Jess didn't just leave.
"Umm..." I looked at Jess then Carin and wrapped my arm around Carin's shoulder pulling her close, catching the scalding look she fired at Jess then turned to Jess. She was looking at her shoes. "We're gonna head home now. See you tomorrow in class Jess." She nodded her head and left, waving happily to Carin, whose frosty response should have frozen her. I swear that I felt the temperature drop.
We were a few feet away when I heard Jess call my name. "I'll call you later." I felt Carin's body go tense beneath my arm as we both watched her walk away.
Carin was quiet for the entire walk home. She didn't say a word as I asked if she was hungry, thirsty, tired, cold, horny...my only response was, "No," or "Nope,".
"It's still kinda early we can still watch the-"
"I don't want to watch the movie Kim." She grounded out through clinched teeth. We were both standing in the room at this point. Me taking off my t-shirt as I liked to sleep with out clothes, Carin sitting on the bed glaring at me.
"Oookay..." I replied. She sighed then practically growled as she shoved the sheets back.
"Just get in the bed," she said after she got comfortable in the bed.
I stood back and crossed my arms over my chest. "Did I do something else to upset you? I told you that I'm sorry about not calling." She simply glared at me.
"I said just get in the bed Kim." I got in slowly and lay on my back, unsure about if she wanted me to touch her or not. This night was not going well, I thought as I stretched out on my back.
She moved and straddled me. I placed my hands hesitantly on her thighs. She saw my hesitance and I saw her eyes soften. I took off her t-shirt and her lips began to attack mine.
Her tongue demanded control and so I granted it. It seemed to be on every surface of my mouth at the same time. I moaned into the assault and grabbed her hips and began to rhythmically squeeze them as her mouth began to attack my neck then my chest. Her tongue trace a wet trail around my nipple then began to suck it as if there was no tomorrow.
My hips arched up as I felt the heat in my body move to my pussy and turn into a fire.
"Ohh God!" I shouted as her teeth roughly pulled at my taut nipple that was beyond sensitive to her touch. Her hand was massaging the other breast until her lips found that one too and she began to flick in around in her mouth.
"You feel this?" She asked then moved her hand between my legs and gripped me roughly. I arched up into her.
"Yes!" I shouted into the room. I opened my eyes and saw the dark chocolate orbes looking right into my very soul. They looked so dark, dangerous...angry.
"This?" She began to move her hand over my wetness, the heat making her touch burn, then I saw her eyes soften as her touch gentled. I whimpered for more but she held back, placing gentle kisses on my breasts that moved up to my neck where she sucked hard, no doubt, leaving a mark.
I looked into her eyes again and saw a heat there, wrapped snugly around a dark inexplicable anger that was making me feel frightened and aroused at the same time. I wrapped my thighs around her pulling her closer.
My world zeroed in on her mouth as her wet kisses and licks burned my skin. Her hands were on me. Her were eyes on me, her gaze on me.
"Yes..." I said in a deep voice, not even recognizing myself as I flung my body against hers; bucking my hips wildly as I tried to find purchase against her. She groaned and pushed up into me her nails raking into my back.
"This?" She whispered into my ear. "This is what she wants to do to you." She plunged her fingers into me and I shouted out.
"Wh-what?" I asked in a daze as she moved in me.
"She wants to FUCK you Kim." My heart beat sped up. Carin hardly ever cursed, but I found the crass word hot when she spat it from her lips. Her hand pressed down on my shoulder as her fingers spread inside me. I locked gazes with her and saw finally what should have been apparent from the beginning...since I stepped outside that building. Jealousy. Pure and green and burning in it's intensity.
My hands moved from her hips to her shoulders and pulled her mouth down to mine. Tongues collided and danced. Eyes fluttered open then closed, promises made with looks.
Her fingers curl upwards as she presses into me. My toes curl against the small of her back as my body completely and utterly surrendered to her. I sailed on the wave of my orgasm shouting and grinding my body into hers and her hand pumped into me.
"She can't have this. She can't have you." She murmured into our kiss. We breathed each other's air and her eyes followed my rise. I shouted out, falling down from the high with deep throaty groans that sounded painful.
I opened my eyes and saw her face clinch in what looked like pain as she came quietly against me. Only the deep, uneven breaths against my lips evidence of her release. Her silence should have worried me. She was a very vocal lover.
The room grew silent as our breathing evened out. Slowly calming...our bodies slowly cooling. Her body was sprawled over mine, my legs still tightly holding her close. She had to know I'd never cheat on her. She knew that didn't she?
"I didn't see it," she shifted but her head remained against my shoulder. "I swear, Carin?" I tried to lift up her head but she burrowed against me even more. "Carin?" I was worried now, unsure if I did or said something else wrong.
"I'm sorry." It was soft, I nearly missed it.
"For what?" I asked, now I pushed her away until we were both on our sides loosely holding each other. Her body was still warm. Her face still flushed. Her eyes though were now as I remembered them being, warm and open. They were not so cold, not so angry. Though there was something to be said for angry eyes on her...
"For what?" I repeated. Her hair was falling into her eyes, I brushed it away and kissed her gently.
"For how I took you." I must have had a smile on my face because she was blushing like crazy.
Now I was out-right smirking but she just looked too sexy there blushing against my pillow redder than a tomato. Not giving her a moment to think about it I rolled over until I was positioned snugly between her thighs. "You don't hear me complaining do you?" I asked.
"Noooo," still her eyes refused to meet mine. "But I was...it was...I mean I was jus so..."
"Jealous." I supplied. She frowned. "Well were you?" She turned her eyes away, looking everywhere else but into my eyes. "But you know what else you were?" She shook her head as her eyes found my lips. "You were sexy." She smiled against my mouth then I opened my lips to her searching tongue.
Her hands found my hips and pressed me closer and I felt something tug as my heart as our kiss deepened. I pulled back, showering her lips with small kisses. "I'm yours baby, I'm yours...all yours...it's just you baby..." She loved it when I called her that and usually got hotter. Tonight she just held me closer.
I didn't ask her if she was okay. I just held her.
My sister knew that I was gay before I did. She told me that no other girl she knew loved to play with matchbox cars and power rangers action figures.
She also knew about Carin.
"And how's your lady?" She asked from thousands of miles away in London, England.
She was studying law and decided to travel across an ocean to escape our wacky family like I did. This was her last year.
"I don't know Elly."
"Trouble in paradise?" I told her about the incident, of course leaving out the hot sex. I told her about Jess.
"Well she has a right to be worried Kim, it's obvious this Jessica girl likes you."
"I know El-"
"A lot!"
"But I don't want her, I only want Carin." I could hear the smile on Elly's lips from the way she spoke.
"Well you need to show Carin that she has nothing to worry about." I asked her how. "First off, you can start by not being caught walking around town late at night with a girl who isn't your girlfriend."
"But-" Of course I had no time to defend myself. She had to leave for a study date.
"Listen, just don't mess this up kiddo. From what you've been singing about Carin she's cool and I'd like to meet her when I visit. But you have to be more aware of these women who want you honey. You're hot, so Carin thinks that she has competition now." I still blushed when anyone told me anything close what she said. "I have to go hon but I'll call you this weekend."
When I hung up the phone my mind rested on Carin and how to assure her that she's the only girl for me.
We all decided to meet in a coffee shop near school to finish up an assignment. I decided to cook Carin dinner that night, lasagna. It just happened to be one of her favorites. I had all of the ingredients in the fridge and was tapping my feet on the ground anxious to get home to feed and love Carin.
I planned on a marathon of loving. The meeting was to run two hours. I told this to Carin who was a different person after that night. We talked a lot more recently about how much our feelings have changed to something much more serious.
We both said out loud that we don't like to share. That was something that I thought was a given but still was happy to hear that she felt the same. The thought of someone else touching Carin...
I didn't know that my eyes hardened and my lips thinned until Jess touched my arm asking if I was okay.
"I'm fine," I politely replied. Then I looked at my watch and was relieved to see that it was time to go. "Time to leave now right?" The other group members packed up their bags quickly and said their goodbyes and I followed suit.
"I had a problem that I hoped you could help me out with Kim?" She made no move to put away her books and laptop. I already was shaking my head.
"Not tonight Jess, maybe tomorrow at school." I zipped up my bag then felt her hand on my arm.
"It's about Marketing class Kim, I know that you're an ace at it and that you helped Mark out last week." I never shied away from helping out my classmates when it came to class work and so turned into a kind of unofficial TA.
And like Mark, today I found it hard to tell a fellow classmate no. I made the mistake of looking into Jess' eyes and saw it, the longing. Jess wanted me, badly. This was bad. Very bad
I wanted to pull away from the table quickly and run. I didn't of course but I did gently remove Jess's hand. Then cleared my throat.
"Umm, Jess I will help you but we have to get one thing straight." When I saw that I had her full attention I continued. "I have a girlfriend who I care for a lot and have no intention of ever leaving for anyone, or cheating on..." I looked coldly into her eyes, "with anyone." She seemed to get the point and sat back.
For a moment anger and annoyance flashed in her eyes then a mask fell over it. "So you're going to help me or not Kim?" She asked without emotion. It was like I watched it bleed from her face. My eyebrow rose warily as I nodded my head and leaned a little closer to see her notes.
I don't know how much time passed but all I know is that the caf‚ was emptier and the lights were lower. I rubbed my eyes and yawned.
"Listen I have to go now." I announced and glanced at my watch and nearly fell out of my chair when I saw the time.
Then several things happened at once. Someone entered the caf‚ and the door chimed as it always does when someone enters. I leaned forward to grab my pen and notebook from across the table and Jess' eyes shifted from the door to me and I saw the mischievous glint before her lips were on mine and her tongue in my mouth.
I heard her gasp before I saw her. I knew it was her. Carin. I sat back with a thump as my eyes locked with Carin's and the pain I saw their and anger made my heart race and my eyes tear. Oh god, what did I do?
"Carin..." I whispered and watched her glare at Jess then turned silently back to me with a sad smile.
"There's no one else for me Carin..." She said, mocking me with my earlier words. With that she turned and calmly left the caf‚.
I sat in shock then the reality of what just happened slammed into me. She left me! I threw everything into my bag then stood up, not even feeling the tears race down my face.
"Kim, I'm..." I forgot she was even there how quiet she became. I finally looked at Jess, I could have strangled her.
"I could lose her you fucking idiot! I love her Jessica! Do you fucking get it now!?" I shouted at the wide eyed girl who shrank back into her chair. The few people in the caf‚ looked up in shock and boldly watched.
A look of disgust swept over my face then I left her. I wiped at my tears and rushed to find her, hoping that it wasn't already to late.
My search at home drew nothing. She wasn't in my apartment like I hoped. Sitting at my desk, or curled up on my bed. I looked around and saw little reminders of her. Her school bag was on the floor, a pair of her jeans folded on a chair, her underwear peeking from beneath my bed. A book was open with a pencil sitting in solitude across a page, looking as if she left it suddenly. She was probably studying and decoded to get coffee.
My luck that she chose the coffee house I was at. "I'm such an idiot..." I cursed myself then decided that she had to be home. Her roommates were her support group. They're who she confided in about me. She had to be there.
I knocked frantically at the door ready to tear it off its hinges if it'll get me closer to Carin. I tried the handle, a little surprised that it was locked.
"Hang on!" Came Jinny's annoyed voice. Soon I was face-to-face with her annoyed face. The slits that she had for eyes thinned even more when she saw me.
"Jinny-" I began.
"So if it isn't the coffee drinking member of the dog house." She loudly announced. I cringed, knowing about her loyalty to her friends even when she had no idea what was going on. Which was most times. I heard footsteps then saw Kathy's face peering at me. Her eyes though held compassion.
"Jinny, get out of the way!" Kathy pushed her aside and I entered, keeping a wary eye on the tiny Vietnamize woman.
"Kathy..." I began but she only shook her head and we entered the kitchen.
"She's still crying Kim," She announced after we sat down. Jinny was still glaring at me so I was quiet. "What in the hell were you doing in some caf‚ on a date with a skank?" I raised an eyebrow at the word. "Hey her words not mine. And she used more colorful terms too."
"I wasn't on some date. Shit Kathy! You know me." When she only looked at me skeptically I lowered my head and counted to ten. "It was a study group."
"Of two that involved mouth to mouth?" Jinny asked sweetly.
"I wasn't kissing her!"
"No just breaking Carin's heart..." she added until Kathy poked her in the stomache.
"Hey, let her defend herself." Kathy said, then turned to me. My relief was evident.
"I didn't understand how much Jessica liked me. SHE kissed ME not the other way around! I love Carin and I'm an idiot."
"One out of four ain't bad..." Jinny quickly added. I was annoyed now.
"Know what Jinny? Shut up." I stood up now glaring at her. "I get it! You're her loyal defender, but I didn't mean to hurt her. I love her. I can't lose her...I can't..." My eyes began to water despite my orders for it to stop. I looked away and stood in the silent kitchen.
Kathy stood up and rubbed my arms. "We know you love her Kimmy," I smiled at the nickname Carin's roommates informed me was mine days after our being introduced. "She's just hurt from what she saw. I think deep down she knows the truth, but a girls gotta let the anger run its course."
I sighed and nodded my head. Then I looked at Jinny hoping to find something more than distrust in her eyes. Despite her being abrupt and feisty, I wanted to know that she believed me. What I saw there made me feel slightly better.
"Well, just keep away from that skanky-ass hoe and all those other skanky ass hoes I always see circling your blind butt!"
"I wanna see her, explain..." I looked at both girls who shook their heads.
"She doesn't want to see you Kim." Kathy's gentle reply made it hurt even more.
"But..." Jinny stood up and said she'd ask again. She disappeared down the hallway and I heard a door open then close. Silence until it opened and closed again, then Jinny entered the kitchen looking sad.
"Not today Kimmy, give her a while to cool her head." I held back the tears I felt threatening to fall and nodded my head. My exit was the opposite of my entrance.
The two girls stood in the doorway. I felt them watching me walk away.