"Cassie, why are you avoiding me? And don't tell me you're not because it's obvious you are.What did I do? Tell me, please," Katherine said, sadly.
I don' t think I ever felt so much tenderness for any one person as I did then. Her eyes pleading for answers, she looked at me waiting. I didn't know what to say.
I'm madly in love you
It had crossed my mind, albeit briefly, to just spill the beans about my feelings. Of course, that's not what happened.
She came up to me unhurried, and put her arms around me loosely. Call me stupid, because if this wasn't the moment of moments to seduce Katherine I don't know what was.
She leaned into me, her blonde locks dancing on my face. I could smell the faint scent of her Channel no. 5. on her neck. And then her lips, those luscious lips grazed the top of my forehead. I wanted to stay like that, with her, forever in that single pose. It felt right. Everything just stopped for that mere second.
Katherine pulled away. I don't think she expected so much emotion to transpire from that one action. She seemed unsure of herself. For the first time since I'd known her she looked positively vulnerable.
"I, huh^ÅI just wanted you to know that I'll miss you while you're gone." Katherine said as she made her way towards my tiny bed."
"Yeah! I'll miss you too."
I wanted to break the tension. I decided the best way was to keep packing and hope she didn't notice the awkwardness of the moment.
She sat down and watched me. Her eyes searched mine for something. The truth perhaps.
"Do you need some help?" she asked.
"Nah, I don't think so. I'm almost done. But if you want, you could be here bright and early tomorrow...If you want, that is? You could help me bring this shit to the bus station?"
"Sure, I'd love too! Maybe if you have time we could go for breakfast or something?"
"Um, Cassie?" her voice trailed off.
"What's up?" I said looking up from the pile of clothes stashed in front of me.
Brain one that I am, I figured she'd forgotten all about her question and we could just move on from there and have a regular chat. No such luck! This was a conversation she wanted to have, and well I did too. Just not now! My week away was too close for comfort and this wasn't exactly the best conversation to be having right then and there.
"Are you gonna tell me why you've been avoiding me?"
In that moment, the blood rose to my head, the room started to get unbelievably warm. I'm sure my heart rate increased enough to scare someone with hypoglycaemia. I was stumbling to formulate proper sentences. Everything I tried to say made me sound like a three-year-old.
"Umm, well, I've just been, you know...trying to keep busy and stuff. With school, work and the gym, I haven't really had enough time to spend by myself. I didn't think you'd notice? Besides didn't you want to spend more time with your boyfriend and stuff?"
My voice betrayed me. We both looked up at each other and attempted to smile. It wasn't an all-knowing kinda smile. I think Katherine figured I wasn't going to reveal anything to her that I didn't feel comfortable revealing, and so she just left it at that. Maybe, me not being mad at her was good enough reason not to pursue the subject. Who knows, who cares but I was relieved.
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