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Previously
Michael sat at the table,his face devoid of emotion. Justin still sat at his side,holding his hand.His head was lowered,tears falling freely from his eyes. Lonnie and Nana were emotional ,tears present on both their faces. Justin looked up,staring at Michael,hoping he would get angry,feel something.But Michael sat still,not moving. He turned again,looking at Justin. "They used me Justin,for two days they used me.They used my body for their pleasures.They fucked me, they raped me,they shit on me,they did it all.They beat me, they threw me in the shower,they cleaned me up,and then they used me again.All weekend." Michael stood up then.Justin tried to hold onto him, but he pushed him away. "I was their whore,Justin.For two days I was their whore.Then they drove me home,throwing me out naked into a ditch about three miles from my home.They left my car in a parking lot in town." Justin got up facing Michael,wanting to hold him,to make him feel safe. "They threw me into a gutter,Justin.Like trash.Because thats what I was.Trash.They made me a whore." Justin was crying,feeling Michael's pain. He didn't know what he could say to make Michael feel safe. Michael finally focused on Justin's face. He saw the pain there, the hurt,and the love.He still saw love on Justin's face. Michael was confused. How can this be, how can he still want to love me. "Michael, oh my darling."Justin put his arms around Michael. Michael tensed, not wanting this,feeling he didn't deserving this. "How can you still love me,Justin.How can you love me when I am a whore." Michael pulled out of his arms, running out of the room,grabbing his coat and leaving the suite. Justin collapsed into Lonnie's arms,crying.Nana was beside him also,rubbing his shoulders,knowing how much Justin wanted to run after Michael.She also knew how much Justin loved him. Her gift was shining through,feeling his love.And yes she could feel Michael's love trying to break through. But Nana knew Michael needed space,he needed to sort out what Justin meant to him. He needed to come back on his own.
Chapter 15
Michael exited the hotel, walking down the street.His mind was on one thing,and one thing only. Justin. He walked down to the corner,not really deciding where he wanted to go. Michael couldn't get the look on Justin's face out of his head. Why was Justin still looking at him with love, when Michael had revealed what had happened. What had been done to him.What he had endured. Justin should be disgusted with him, Justin should hate him. Why didn't he? Michael crossed the street,not really noticing that he was heading into a small park. The park was pretty well deserted, not many people moving about on a cold day. Michael wandered down a path until he came to a bench. He sat down, putting his head between his legs.He sat like that for a few minutes, then finally sitting back up against the bench. He looked around,seeing the bareness of the area,all the leaves gone, some snowy patches here and there. Michael hated this time of year, it always felt to him that the world was dying. All the colour was gone in the world,soon to be buried by whiteness. Like his heart.All the love was gone,soon to be buried by loneliness. Michael shook his head, he couldn't understand Justin. He couldn't see what Justin saw in him. After he had told him everything,he still wanted to love him. Why? What was Justin drawn to, what made Michael so attractive to him. Michael searched inside himself, looking at everything that he was, everything that he appeared to be. He went over the last two days, everything that he had done with Justin,everything that they had done together. Michael's sensed something inside himself,something he hadn't sensed before. He couldn't quite understand what it was,but it was there nonetheless. Something new. Michael continued to look around,taking in the dreariness. Michael notice an elderly couple sitting on a bench just a few feet away from him. The older man, who looked about seventy or seventy five, had his arm around the lady beside him. Michael assumed it was his wife. The man keep looking down at her, she had her eyes closed,leaning against him. Michael could see that they were both in love, had been in love for many years.He could see it in the man's eyes, in the way he looked at her. The elderly man smiled at Michael. "Having some trouble,son." Michael nodded back, feeling calm.He felt this man was genuinely concerned for him. "Love is a funny thing,son.Its always taken for granted, until its gone." He looked down at his wife, she was apparently sleeping. Michael looked again at her, and saw that she had a small smile on her face. "Is she okay?" Michael asked with genuine concern. "This is one of her good days,they have been few and far between lately."The man said quietly. "She wanted to come down to this park,this is where we met over sixty years ago.She was so insistant on it.Said she wanted to see it again,one last time.To feel the love thats here." there were a few tears showing now on the man's face. "You have been together for sixty years?" Michael was in awe. "Yes, sixty years of love and happiness.Its been so beautiful,I still can't imagine where all the years have gone." Michael smiled,seeing so much love and tenderness in both of them. "What about yourself, youngster?Are you in love?" The man's gaze was on Michael,and he saw only sincerity and caring. "I don't know, I am so confused.I have been hurt so much,I don't know if I can trust someone like that again." Michael couldn't believe he said this to a stranger. "You must remember something,young man."The man's wife said,raising her head,looking at Michael with tender blue eyes. "Yes, mam?" "Love conquers all." There were those words again.Michael had heard them often ,but couldn't understand what they really meant. "I've heard that before, I don't really know what that means." "Come here ,son."The older man said. Michael got up of his bench,walking down towards them. They seperated ,moving a bit, making a space for Michael to sit down. "I don't want to intrude.You both looked so happy." "Sit down,son.Betty wants to tell you something." Michael sat between both of them,introducing himself,Betty and Fred introducing each other. "You remind me so much of my own grandson.He too fell in love and was hurt.He couldn't deal with the rejection and loneliness.In the end it cost him his life.He couldn't learn how to be loved,and in turn love someone himself." Michael felt he knew how her grandson had felt. Betty put her hand on Michael's shoulder. "I see love in you ,Michael.I don't know you very well, but I see love.Don't throw it away,son.If someone loves you, take a chance.Open your heart to them,let them in." She smiled at Fred,putting her hand in his across Michael's lap. "I almost walked away from Fred sixty years ago, I sat on this same bench,trying to decide.Trying to see what my life would be with him or without him.And thank god I had enough faith in myself to make the right choice." She smiled at him,tears evident in both their eyes. "And I have been blessed with his love for sixty years." Michael had tears in his own eyes now,smiling at both of them. "Thank you both.Your kind words have given me a lot to think about." "We should go ,Bets.This young man needs to be gettin on with his life,getting on with his heart." Fred smiled at Michael. Michael helped both of them up.Betty was very fragile, seemingly very tired. Michael helped Fred walk her down the path to their waiting car. Before Michael helped her into the vehicle,she turned and gave him a tender hug. Michael's mind filled with her aura, her lifeline.He felt all through her mind and her body.He found the cancer, lodged in her spine and in her lungs.Michael knew he couldn't cure her, but he knew he could ease her pain,give her comfort. He closed his eyes,sending his healing touch down into her body. She pulled back from him, smiling. "All of a sudden I feel so much better.It must be your youthful smile,Michael,your energy." Michael smiled at both of them,then helped Betty into the car. She smiled a heart warming smile at him,waving to him as the car pulled out into traffic. Michael stood looking after them,watching their car dissappear.He stood there for a few minutes,standing alone. I want what they have, that tenderness.That love. Tears were flowing from Michael's eyes. And then a smile began to form on Michael's face. Michael knew where to find that love.
Justin had sat back down in his chair again, regaining his composure. The tears had finally stopped,Nana still stood,stroking his shoulder. "Oh god, he's been hurt so much.How could Paul do that to him.Use him that way. How could he not love him,how could he hate him so much that he would want to hurt him like that." "I don't know child.He had Michael completely fooled.He fooled all of us." Nana sat back down in Michael's vacated chair. SHe put her hands in Justin's. "This is the first time I heard Michael say the word rape.He always said he was beaten or used,never that word.I believe you have made him realize what truly happened to him.Your love has drawn out his truth,Justin." Justin looked up at her. "Why did he run from me, he saw the love in my eyes.He knows I still love him." Nana brushed the tears off Justin's cheeks. "Thats whats scaring him,Justin.You still love him.He's confused, and when Michael gets confused,when he can't logically reason something out,Michael has always walked away.He needed to give himself time to think." Nana smiled at him."Its not you he ran from,Justin,he ran from his own uncertainty." Lonnie smiled,she really knew her grandson. He had been thinking almost the same thing. "He will be back,Justin.He just needed space, needed to reason all this out in his mind.Michael has never rushed into anything Justin.He's so like his grandfather, I see his soul in him." Justin smiled. "Your husband must of been a great man,Nana,if Michael is like him." Nana smiled. "He was Justin.He was a special man,Michael has a lot of his traits." Justin gave her a warm hug. Lonnie got both of them a cup of coffee.All three sat at the table thinking about Michael. "If its not to difficult to talk about,can you tell us what happened to Paul?" Lonnie asked,sincere in his words. Nana sighed, knowing that they should hear all the story.
"I remember that day so well.That sunday Mico didn't come home.It was late that night,and still no Michael. Silas went out looking for him,but didn't find him. He even went to mayor Richards home,and found there he found Paul. Paul told him he and Michael had had a fight friday night and Michael had left him then.That he hadn't seen him since then. When Silas got back home with no news,without my Mico,I felt a dread forming in my heart. Michael wouldn't leave Paul like that. Something wasn't right. I called Zach and he came over.The three of us went looking for Michael." Lonnie could see the raw emotion in Nana's face.The hurt. "It was myself that found him.By pure luck and god's will,I found him.We had travelled for two hours,going up one road and down another,but no MIchael. Then I felt that someone was guiding me, showing me which way to go.I made Zach turn down a deserted country road, about three miles from my home,it was an old logging road,seldom used.I caught a glimpse of a hand in the headlights,it was hanging out of a ditch,as if the person had tried to crawl up out of the gutter." Justin put his arm around her,steading her. She started crying, tears flowing."My baby, what they did to my baby.His body was covered in bruises,blood on his face,and on his back and legs.He didn't even know where he was,or who we were. He was in so much pain. Zach was crying ,he couldn't believe it was Michael.He was totally unrecognizable.Thats how badly they had beaten him." Justin and Lonnie were both crying,just imagining how Michael must of looked. "Zach lifted him into the back of Silas's truck carefully and tenderly,holding him in his arms the whole way to the hospital.Zach never stopped crying for him,for his friend." Justin was so glad that Zach had been there for Michael.Zach sounded like a true friend,Michael's only friend.He must be a special man indeed. "At the hospital we found out how badly he had been hurt.He had been raped repeatedly, beaten almost to death.He had a concussion,internal bleeding.His nose was broken, two of his fingers were broken.Those bastards almost killed my baby." Nana's anger was surging,her thoughts going back to that day. "It was two days before Michael was able to talk, to tell us what had happened.Thats when we found out it was Paul. And two of his friends. Zach went ballistic, taking off in anger.He found them down at the local Burger King.He got to them before the police did. Zach laid into all three of them.If the police hadn't hauled him off him, I believe Zach would of killed Paul. Zach and Michael have always been close,when Mico got hurt,Zach felt that his brother had been hurt.He was only fighting for Mico. Paul was arrested for Michael's rape,along with his two friends." Nana stopped talking,wiping her eyes with a kleenex Lonnie had handed her. "Before I finish this, you have to understand something.This is small town America.Everyone knows everyone, and everyone takes sides." Justin and Lonnie looked at each other,not sure what she was alluding to. "Paul and his friends never made it to a trial.They were released,they were set free." Justin and Lonnie looked shocked. Justin jumped up, banging his fists on the table. "That bastard never paid for what he did to Michael? He got off scot free?" Nana looked up at Justin.She saw the anger in his face, his love for Michael,and his hatred for Paul. "Yes,Justin.They didn't pay.And I was just as mad about it as you." Justin sat down,he couldn't look at anyone.He was so mad.Lonnie had never seen Justin so upset about something. "You see, Justin, it all came down to Michael's word against theirs.The mayor's son against a misunderstood boy.The other two boys were the sons of the bank manager and the chief of police.Who do you think they would believe. Everyone had always thought Michael strange,a loner. All three guys had made up alibis with their friends.They had their own inner circle ,their own protection. Michael never stood a chance. It tore the whole town apart, everyone chosing sides.And Michael's side, the side of truth,was on the losing end. The police released them because of lack of evidence. Lack of evidence. They only had to look at my broken,hurt grandson. To look in his eyes. To hear him screaming in the night for weeks after he came home from the hospital. There was their evidence." But, in a small way,justice was done. A lot of people didn't believe Paul and his friends.They were shunned by a lot of people. Paul's two friends were killed in a car accident about six months after Michael got out of the hospital.I always thought of it as god's justice.They were as much to blame as Paul. Paul left shortly after that. I guess he couldn't take the pressure,the looks,the hushed talk. He had moved to California the last I heard. His father lost the election the next year.As did the chief of police. Some justice had been done." Nana got up, walking over beside Justin.She put her hand on his shoulder. "But the greatest damage was done to Michael.There were so many changes in him,his soul was gone. His love was gone. His injuries healed, but his soul didn't. And here today,I stand now and look at you.At a young man who had touched Michael's soul.You have touched it haven't you,Justin.What did you find there?" Justin looked up at Nana, tears again in his eyes. "He found love." They all turned to stare at Michael standing in the doorway. Justin got up from the table,looking at Michael. Michael looked at Justin,feeling a little nervous. Justin walked up to him. "Why did you leave me,Mikey.why did you run away from me." Michael wiped a tear from Justin's cheek. "I am sorry,Jus.I couldn't handle the things I saw in your eyes.I couldn't believe that you still loved me." Michael looked into his eyes, seeing that the love was still there. "How, Justin? How can you love me,now that you know i am damaged,I am not whole?" Justin looked into Michael's deep soulful eyes. "Nana told me everything,Michael.About your injures, about your courage in standing up against them." "But I lost,Justin.They were given their freedom.I have never received my freedom.They beat me again." Michael's head began to lower. "No,Michael.You stood up to them.You have the greatest courage, the greatest hope." Justin lifted Michael's head,placing a light kiss on his lips. "Thats what I love about you Michael.YOur hope, your courage.And deep inside you, your love." Michael smiled a timid smile. "You didn't deserve what Paul did to you ,Michael.You are not a whore, or a piece of trash.You are the man that I love,the man that I will always love." Michael pulled Justin to him,hugging him, letting Justin fold him into his arms. Nana and Lonnie smiled to each other. "Can I talk to you in private,Jus?" Michael asked, his head laying on Justin's shoulder. Justin pulled back from Michael. "Sure,babe.Lets go into the living room." Michael looked at Nana,giving her a loving smile.She smiled back at him. JUstin and Michael walked into the living room,sitting down on the sofa.Justin kept his hand in Michael's. Michael sat still for a moment. "I have done a lot of thinking, Justin.All I have thought about for the last few hours has been you.I have come to some truths about myself and about us." Justin stared at Michael, watching his face for any changes. Michael turned and looked at Justin. "I need you,Justin." Justin couldn't believe he had heard Michael right. He needed him, he actually said it. "I need your love, its whats been missing in my life." Justin couldn't contain his happiness, he hugged Michael to him,kissing his lips. Michael kissed back, a warm loving kiss. Then Michael started to cry. Justin pulled him close letting him cry. "I'm sorry,Jus.I am so overcome by your feelings towards me,I have never experienced something like this.No one has ever shown me so much love and kindness.You overwhelm me." Justin continued to hold Michael,stroking his hair,being close to him. Michael sat up a bit,still holding Justin's hand. "I have told you all of what Paul did to me,what I went through.I haven't been able to be with anyone since then.To feel anything for anyone. Paul destroyed me,Justin.He destroyed me inside.I have walked around for years,hating myself for what he did." Justin listened,knowing Michael was saying this to Justin,but also to himself. "But I should of been hating him,not myself.I didn't do anything wrong,all I did was try to love him.He hurt me.I never hurt him." Justin understood now that Michael was finally realizing the truth.That it wasn't him.It had always been Paul. "And now when I looked back at what happened, I realized that I was deceived by him.I told him I loved him,but he never told me.He never loved me." Justin stroked Michael's shoulder,keeping contact with him. "I have been so terrified to let anyone touch me,to love me again.You saw my reaction this morning.But I want you to know that I want you to touch me, to make love to me.But I just don't know when I can overcome that obstacle." Justin began to say something,but Michael put his finger to Justin's lips. "I want to be with you ,Justin.To be in that intimate place,in love's center.But all I ask is that you give me time,you give me patience and understanding.Please?" Justin looked at Michael with love still openly showing in his eyes. "I love you,Michael.I can wait for you to be ready,for whatever you want to happen." Michael leaned in and kissed Justin passionately on the lips. "Thank you,Justin.For loving me enough to let me be myself." Justin kissed him again. "There is one more thing I have to say,Justin." Justin sat still, allowing Michael to go at his own pace. Michael took both of Justin's hands in his,looking at him,staring into those blue pools of heaven. Justin stared into Michael's golden brown orbs,lost in the suns of his soul. "I have this feeling inside me,Justin.I have been trying to figure out what it means.I have never felt it before.I can remember what it felt like when I fell in love with Paul." Justin tensed a bit,he didn't like Michael talking about love and that man in the same sentence. Michael sensed Justin's mood. He kissed Justin on the lips again. "This feeling I have,is totally different.I think its more than love,I think it may be true love." Justin's heart stopped. He hoped he would hear those words someday from Michael, but to hear them now from Michael's own lips sent Justin's soul soaring to heaven. Justin knew Michael hadn't said I love you, but these words were a start,he was beginning to talk about love,and he had c0me back to him on his own terms,to give Justin a chance to love him. Justin started crying, falling into Michael's arms, feeling the love he knew Michael possessed,feeling Michael's warmth and soul connecting with him. Feeling the spark of true love,now ignited in both of them. Michael held Justin close, feeling him melt into him.For once in his life,Michael felt close to someone. And Justin was thinking something else. Justin's felt his world had now become complete.
End of Chapter 15
All of Michael's demons have shown their heads,now on to their budding relationship.
A little shorter than usual, but I have been busy.I am trying to get one more chapter out before christmas,then I will take a week off for family functions. Always glad to hear the positive feedback about this story. My only wish is for all you to like it. Keep up with your own stories,I love reading them also. Thanks for reading mine. Hope to hear more from all of you.
Love and hopeful beginnings. Angel.