I just hung up the phone with Mike.. man did that take me back. I hadn't talked to him since I left home 9 years ago, I had to leave , I didn't belong there , more like if I would have came out there I would have been dead ... growing up in a small town in GA you were either a jock or a farm boy and I was neither .. so I was already looked at weird. Standing at 6ft4 and 230 lbs with tanned skin jet black hair and the prettiest green eyes , girls loved me but I didn't love them, Mike was my best friend we grew up together and even he didn't know I was Gay..I moved to NC to get away from everyone , we stayed in touch over the years I knew he had gotten married and was now getting divorced, but he still never asked anything about me , I guess he assumed like everybody else that I moved up here to write.So I let that be the story. As I grabbed my glass from the counter and poured me another drink I let our call sink in. Mike wanted to come stay with me for a while , he needed to get away and I was the only one he wanted to be around. So I gave in and gave him my address. Mike was my first crush but I never let it show. He stood at 6ft 3 with Dirty blonde hair that always looked like it needed a cut. He was always sporting a beard it fit him.. he had a what they call dad's bod ..he use to be physically fit all through school captain of the football team and all. But after school ended he gave all that up.. Man this is going to be really hard for me. I am going to have to play the straight card for as long as he is here ..I was hoping I was done with that. I stopped and looked around my living room, nothing I own screams GAY so no worries there. I don't have random guys over at my house so no one will just pop in while he is here, hell it's been almost a yr since I've had sex so there's really no worries there anyway.. I start walking through the rest of the house , stopping to look in each room , nope not gay here either.. all of that's covered ...so no worries. I walk into my room and lay across my bed, picking up my laptop and flipping it open, after about 2 mins my wall paper comes into view, a half naked guy greets me ..I almost spit out my wine...yeah gotta change that...and I start scrolling Google to find something more fitting..after that near heart attack I find a nice mountain scene and place that as my wall paper ..I get on porn hub and look up some oldies but goodies to help me relax ..as I am about to get undressed and enjoy the video I have on my screen , my phone rings .. Hey bubba you still awake ? It was Mike . Yeah I was just fixing to watch some TV for a Lil bit , why what's up? It was quite on his end for what felt like forever .. I almost checked my phone to see if I lost him when his voice came across again.. would you care if I came up tomorrow, I gotta get away and there's something I want to talk to you about and I can't do it over the phone.. now it was my turn to be quite ...my heart was pounding I felt like I couldn't breathe...finally I spoke and in a voice as calm as I could I told him that would be great...I could hear him sigh with relief and he said he'd see me tomorrow and said good night... As the call ended I dropped the phone next to me on the bed and lay staring at the ceiling... The one man that I had longed for for years was fixing to be under my roof for who knows how long.. he was bound to find out my biggest secret, the one thing I couldn't even tell him, my best friend.. how was I going to keep it together.. I closed my laptop right now pleasuring myself was the last thing on my mind, what I needed was a shower I got up and put my laptop on the dresser and took my clothes off, walking into the bathroom I flipped on the lights , there standing before me was a 47 year old that has spent his whole life running...and now he was going to have to face his biggest Demon yet.. I turned on the water and looked at myself in the mirror as the water was getting hot. I had taken care of myself , yeah I had a belly hell I love food I am a damn good cook and I don't really care to impress anyone .. I don't have as much hair as I'd like but I have enough..and well I wish I had a bigger dick but I am sure every man alive wishes the same thing, even though a few of the guys I have messed around with in the past really enjoyed it.. I grab my dick and give the mirror me a Lil tease ..it causes me to chuckle a lil.. I get in the shower and the water feels amazing..the warmth running all the stress down my body and into the drain..I turn around and grab the soap..I lather it up and slowly go over my arms and chest ..I imagine that Mike is with me and it's his hands going over my body.. I bite down on my lip to keep from moaning.. my hands go over my belly and lower..me not paying attention and being deep in thought my dick has woken up and is at full mass..I slowly run my hands up and down the shaft this starts getting faster and faster til I can almost feel my knees getting weak...I can barely contain myself now I am going full force ...I start to feel him holding me up his dick pressed against my nice firm ass as he strokes my hard dick with his strong hands ..FUCK!! That was all it took. I unloaded all over my shower wall rope after rope of white cum sprayed the wall..I hadn't came like that in months .. I turned around and let the water run over my head and back as my heart and breathe caught up to each other ... I am in for alot of hell when he gets here tomorrow..he hasn't even gotten here yet and I have just had a fantasy like this about him I can only imagine how it's gonna be with him living here under the same roof. I turned of the water and grab a towel that's hanging right outside the door.. I look at myself in the mirror again.. Joe do you know what you've gotten yourself into ? And I started to chuckle.. Walking back in the bedroom my phone rings. It's Mike Hey bubba what's up? I couldn't wait I am on the road , I'll be there in 6 to 7 hours . I stood there water dripping off of me onto my bedroom floor in shock.. Okay..I have nothing going on so I can still be up or wake up when you get here either way.. Thanks man...he trails off for a minute..I miss you... I miss you to mike... He hangs up this time I sit down..my mind tells me not to look to much into it but my heart tells me there's more ..he has never said that to me ..in the 9 years that I've been gone .. I catch my breathe and stop my mind and heart .. I get up and grab some sweats and a tee shirt ..it's kinda warm for April so I don't bother grabbing any boxers plus I really hate wearing them if I don't have to.. I clean and straighten up around the house making sure everything is in its place ..really I am not a slob but when you live alone you don't make a mess, but I do have a pretty big house .. I walk out to my wrap around porch that over looks the mountains it's truly breathe taking but I've never had anyone special to share it with so it's just been okay for me..I go back in and start a pot of coffee, it's gonna be a long night.. when it's done I pour me a cup and grab my Hoodie from the chair. I go back out to sit on the porch and listen to the sounds of the night.. I must have dozed off cause I woke to the sounds of birds chirping and the sun just peeking over the tree tops .. I jumped up and went to the bedroom to check my phone . There was no new calls or messages which was good , I took my phone with me back to the kitchen and started to make me something to snack on. As I was about to take a bite out of my beagle my phone rings it's Mike. Hey bubba how's the drive Hey Joe it's been a long one I am almost at your place I am about 30 minutes away Wow what did you do fly I said with a chuckle.. This made him laugh. God that laugh.. I'll see you in just a Lil bit have me a cup of coffee waiting please. We hung up the phone and I made sure the coffee was set to brew and I went and stretched across my bed..I had enough time to rub one out before he got here. I pulled down the front of my sweats and took my dick in my hand and started to pull and tug on it with images of Mike playing like a DVD in my mind ...reel after reel ..I could feel it building and building I knew I was getting close ..my back arched I couldn't hold it any longer I let my load go and with it I shot ...I must have forgot to lock the front door cause the next thing I knew there stood Mike in my bedroom door watching as my load shot all over my stomach and I called out his name...I didn't see him tho I didn't even know he was there til he cleared his throat .. I almost screamed , I bolted off my bed and went straight for the bathroom..my face hidden from Mike I would have stayed in there the rest of my life if it wasn't for him standing outside of the door saying that he guesses he isn't the only one that has something to talk about with a chuckle.. I told him I'd be out in a Lil bit to go out to the living room and I'll be out. I could hear him walk away ..so I splashed some water on my face and took a deep breathe .. I stepped out of the bathroom and then took the walk of shame .. He was sitting in the living room right where he could see me walking down the hall , smile spread across his face like he was the cat that caught the canary ..I could have just died right there .. Oh Stop Joe it's okay...I am fixing to make everything okay and make all your dreams come true.. I just looked at him, raised my eyes at him and how are.you gonna do that? Remember I said I wanted to talk to you about something just not over the phone ? Yeah and? Well I was married for like 3 years and I knew it wasn't what I wanted .. when you left you took a part of me with you.. what I am saying Joe is I have been in love with you for years I was just afraid that you would reject me and that would fuck up our friendship and I didn't want to do that..I didn't want to get married but when you left I was alone and you knew where we lived I had no choice .. But when I walked in on you calling out my name I knew I was home .. I just stood there for a few mins with my jaw on the floor . Had Mike just told me that the man I had secretly loved for years had been doing the same to me ? Mike stood up and walked towards me .. He opened his arms and I fell into them I laid my head on his shoulder and began to cry..not tears of sadness but of pure joy..the man that was my best friend that I had loved for so many years really and truly loved me .. I wrapped my arms around him and held him so tight that I was afraid I was going to break him.. I looked up and looked him in the eyes and for the first time we kissed..I've kissed guys before but nothing like this...this has passion , heat, lust ,longing, wanting , need . It was only a matter of time before I was walking him back to the bedroom, I pushed him softly on the bed and started taking his clothes of . It was like I was afraid I was going to break him or at some point he would change his mind or I would wake up..but I was so gentle.. I took his shirt off , then I kissed him , his neck, his chest , his stomach. Then I undid his belt , unbuttoned his jeans , unzipped them and opened them ..he wasn't wearing any underwear either... that beautiful mound of dirty blonde hair cascading down from his stomach to the prize below ..he was already hard as a rock..he lifted up so I could pull his jeans down all the way. As I got them down to his knees his dick sprang to life ..he was at least 8 inches and thick , I've never seen an uncut dick before and his was beautiful..he was already leaking precum and I had to know what that tasted like ..I wanted to know everything about him...I needed to.. I pulled his pants and boots all the way off and had him lay back.. but he wasn't ready yet.. He pushed me back a lil.ways away from him and stood up.. he lifted my shirt over my head kissing me then my neck, my chest, each nipple , my stomach, by this point he was kneeling on the ground ..he grabbed the waist band of my sweat pants and slowly slides them down off my hips and my raging hard dick..as my dick springs out of my sweats he rubs his hand up and down slowly on it then grabs my balls and rubs and plays with them. He then takes my dick in his mouth and starts to suck it , my eyes roll in the back of my head , this feels as if the mouth of an angel has just started sucking my dick..I can feel his hand moving to my ass and at this point I don't care..he grabs both cheeks and spreads them a part needing and rubbing my ass like he is making bread ...fuck he can suck a dick...he stops and sticks his finger in his mouth then goes right back to sucking my dick again...I feel.that hand going around to.my ass again and then his wet finger finding my hole ...as he is sucking my dick his finger slowly starts to slide in my hole.. I turn so I can lay on the bed , he fixes himself to where he can suck my dick and now finger my tight ass... I start to arch my back as I can feel myself getting close ...he removes his finger and focuses everything on sucking the life out of my dick.. As my load builds and I can no longer hold it I coat the back of his throat , he swallows every drop as if it was a water and he hasn't had a drink in days ... After I've shot every last drop in that mouth he raises up and spreads my legs apart..his dick is soaked with precum and he has this look in his eyes ...I bite my lip cause I know this is going to be amazing, He lifts my legs and buries his face between them and eats like a starved man..his beard feels amazing against my skin...I am moaning and grabbing at the covers on the bed ...after what felt like a million years he stands up and looks me in the eyes ...you ready Baby? You think you can handle me ? His voice was soft and more loving then anything I've ever dealt with... I looked back at him Baby make love to me , Promise me you won't hurt me And with that he leaned down and kissed me again as he slide his dick between my cheeks into my wet waiting hole.. I haven't bottmed in years so it did hurt but having this man do it to me was something so different...it was a pain I wanted to feel..a pain that I welcomed .. He was so gentle..going so slowly when I knew he wanted to shove it in and pound me so hard but he held back... Our bodies finally touch , he is all the way in now.. God I never knew I could love someone as much as I love him .. he starts to make love to me , sliding his dick in and out of me , each thrust getting stronger and faster I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him close to me ...he slides his hands under my shoulders and pulls me into each thrust..pounding his dick deeper.. I feel him swell inside of me and he grunts...he looks up at me and kisses me , deep passionate kiss...and before I have a chance to think I yell out I LOVE YOU MIKE.. And to my surprise in return he says And I love you Joe and right then he let's go and pulls me so close to him I can feel him deeper then before ...I start kissing his forehead and cheeks and holding on to him...I truly love this man... He lays there on top of me catching his breathe kissing my chest...holding me still. I am running my fingers through his hair.. Did you mean what you said Mike? What's that Joe. That you loved me Yeah Joe I love you, I have loved you for years, I've been in love with you for years.. I don't want to loose you again.. Mike you don't have to...I've loved you for years and I've been in love with you too.. I am yours if you want me .. Always and Forever .