This is a story about the growing up and coming of age of a typical Ohio boy by the name of Jason as told to me through the exchange of a series of Email. It is a true story detailing true events with only the names, including Jason's, having been changed to protect the travelers we meet along the way. We end our tale with Jason now living in the home where his sexual journey all began and looking forward to whatever the future brings. We hope you have enjoyed traveling with us on this journey. Comments about the story can be sent to the author, J.O. Dickingson at authorsix@hotmail.com and those who wish to correspond directly with Jason may do so at journeyofjason@yahoo.com
EPILOGUE: REFLECTIONS AND DREAMS
Ok, this is the last section of this little Journey so far. Hopefully not the end all together though. That would suck to reach the end of my sexual life at twenty-seven!
I learned a new word just now looking around on the Internet and it really seems to fit me perfectly. "Polysexuality - to be attracted to or sexually aroused by a variety of different objects, lifestyles or activities, for example, learning, reading, gardening, massage etc." You can check it out at http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=polysexuality I have a large number and a wide variety of fetishes and things that turn me on. If you've been with me since the beginning of this journey, you know about most of them. I can count at least sixty people that I know whom I have seen in the restroom pissing, and hundreds I don't know. I'm really into watching people pee. I still like to challenge myself every now and then by trying to reproduce the list of people I've seen and what I've seen without looking at one of the previous copies and I still give them numbers and draw a number and jerk off thinking of them.
Another fetish that really turns me on that I haven't mentioned much before are people swearing that either are too young or seem too innocent to swear. Thinking back to when I first heard Tara swear, or when Eric was younger still gives me a thrill. It is all part of that innocence and sexual discovery thread that you've probably noticed as you've read about my life.
When I jack off with Eric I can't help thinking about all the times I've enjoyed that poorly kept secret. I've done it at most of my friends' houses without them knowing, a lot of times sitting there and talking to them while I get off. I've shot in most of the counties in Ohio, and in the states of Indiana, Michigan, Pennsylvania, Kentucky, West Virginia, Virginia, Georgia, Florida, Maryland, Washington, D.C., and New York. I hope to travel around this country of mine and get to know it, and of course do it in the remaining thirty-eight states. I've also shot off in Toronto in Canada, London and Salisbury in England, and on the Islands of Malta and Gozo. I've even had a quickie in an Air Canada plane over the North Atlantic Ocean. As of now, I have not done it at a Six Flags, but being a real coaster enthusiast, I plan to hit a few of their parks and toss off in at least one. I still drive out into the country on my favorite stretch of road and jack off in a sock every now and then when I get bored with just doing it here at home. It is really exciting to be in public like that. Another one of my many fetishes!
Of course there was the incident licking Mitch's feet! That was a one time thing, but I wouldn't rule out doing it with another person if the circumstances were right and it was the right person. That is the thing about sex and me. Conditions have to be right, and as you know from this Journey, I really commit myself to the person I'm going to have sex with.
Another fetish I have is that I love to sleep in the nude, which I know a lot of guys do. Unfortunately I rarely ever do it anymore because I am constantly getting up at all hours to put my dog out.
I don't know what the future is going to bring. This getting tired of sex when I've been with a person for a while and really getting to like them has been a running theme in my life. I have come to the conclusion that I will never have sex again unless it is clearly just a one night stand without the possibility of developing an emotional attachment. It is just too much of a strain on a person, loving someone, screwing them, and then breaking up with them. I have come to believe that sex ruins everything. Really. But, it is a lot of fun though! LOL Sadly, the older I get the fewer innocent and inexperienced men and women there are that are available.
I'm bisexual but as I've mentioned really I've always considered myself a try-sexual. I will try anything at least once. I never really was much for bottoming for example, but I would like to try it now that I know more and have done more. There's lots of other things I'd like to try besides sexual stuff. Like I would love to take ball room dance lessons. Nicole and I had actually talked about it one summer, but fat chance pun intended of that happening any time soon, that no good fucking whore. Sorry. Revenge issues, hours no, days planning and scheming, using and losing people, has made me a well-rounded person who should not be fucked with. Neh-ha-ha-ha.
Things change. Like I think I am shrinking. My feet have also gone from 10s to 8 «. I don't understand it, but oh well. As long as what is important doesn't shrink! All through high school I was about 5'9 or 10, between 125 and 135 pounds. The only time my weight ever changes is when I am on prednisone for the Crohn's. I usually put on about thirty pounds during that month and then slowly lose it. It is hell on my body changing that much. I've just found out that I have osteoporosis from the prednisone now!
Binge drinking is something else that has changed. My cure for a cold used to be to take a fifth of whatever alcohol you have, finish it off, and wake up some time later. I learned that from my Sophomore History teacher in high school. Problem though was that used to be my cure for everything. Even my interest in music has changed. I played the new saxophone I got for college for nine months and now it is sitting in its case behind my door, still in mint condition. I may use it again someday. If not, I can teach my kids how to play it.
Other things will never change. I still hate Akron. I have actually changed several doctors just so I won't have to go back. We have gone to a few concerts up there, one actually on the campus, and it was horrible. For another I hate the feeling of cum in my underwear. It makes me glad I never had a wet dream. On the other hand, I love to drink the stuff. I really don't understand why people get so freaked out about eating their own cum and I have to laugh when I think back about the look on guys' faces when they've seen me do it. I love the stuff, and love getting it straight from the source when I am able to. Sadly back problems really limit my ability to do it that way anymore. It is funny but I have never eaten someone else's cum. I really don't know why. I have just never been with somebody that I would want to and the ones that I would have liked to wouldn't do it.
My opinions about Christianity and religion are another two things about me that will not change. With recent events around the world I don't know how anyone can deny the harm and strife that are the direct result of religion. Myself I am a Wiccan. I am not a praying person but I do send healing energy to those I care about and I have them in my thoughts.
There is a lot of hate in this world. Actually, I am truly embarrassed to live in this country right now. Americans are nothing but a bunch of right wing, bible-thumping, sexually repressed prudes.
Speaking of religion and prudes, my preacher story is sitting on the list of things to get to when I get around to it. As for as the kid from the choir, nothing ever happened. He was a very religious kid but not the kind that shoved it down your face. Maybe he doesn't know about the free toaster oven with every fifteen converts, LOL. He went off to a Christian school in Pennsylvania somewhere. I do like to think that I corrupted him and got him somewhat ready for the real world.
I contacted J.O. Dickingson, the Dream Spinner, in April 2004 since a chapter of his Aaron and Friends series didn't get posted at Nifty. We began an Email correspondence and that December we began working on the first of the chapters of what would become Jason's Journey. Why? I really don't know. I had been reading stories for years and thought it would be interesting to have my story out there on the Internet. It has been an interesting experience. There isn't anyone else I can speak to so freely and feel I won't be judged as the Dream Spinner. I hope by reading about my Journey people will learn to be more open and adventurous with their own sexuality.
I think the main reason I've done this though, is to hopefully help somebody who is at a crossroads in their life, someone confused like I was when I started reading gay and bi stories on the Internet. If my life story shows some kid that he is not alone, that others have been there and made it through, and helps him figure out who he is, then I think it is all worth it. Over the years I have read hundreds, maybe thousands of erotic stories. If it weren't for some of the early ones I read, mainly the ones from Comicality, I don't think I would be as open and content with where I am right now. Also, if it brings someone reading it pleasure and helps them get off, good for them, I'm glad I could help there too. The "Hanson Brothers Orgy" story by the Dream Spinner helped me in that regard many, many times. Actually, I started out wanting this to be a hardcore smut story, but I'm glad it didn't turn out that way.
What am I looking for? I don't know that either. I would love to find some hot chick about as big around as a pencil and just flaunt her around everyone I ever knew. A girl that would make people look at me and wonder what kind of blackmail I have on her. I know that wouldn't make me happy though, at least not in the long run. When I settle down with one person, I will put my all into the commitment. I want someone who is funny, easy to get along with, and somewhat attractive. They would have to like animals obviously. I have a small farm in my bedroom right now and I wouldn't give my babies up for anything. I also hope that they would be adventurous in the sexual department. I have a rather active imagination and I hope that my future partner would have one too. What would really be ideal would be someone who is naive about sex but willing to try just about anything.
I also want kids, someday. I would love to have a boy and a girl to pass on what I have learned in this life. I think I would be a great parent, very open-minded and ready to accept them for whom and what they are. Having kids would mean I would have to settle down with a female though, at least until we get the right wingers out of Washington. I do think that I will adopt when it is time because I do not want to pass on any of the medical problems I have. Maybe by then this country will approve of gay marriages and my male partner and I can adopt two kids
There are times I wonder if I am bisexual because of my earliest experiences with my cousin Brandon. I know that sexuality is something a person is born with, not something a person can choose, but still, I wonder sometimes. Playing around with Brandon was my first sexual experience and it lead to many other experiences with both guys and girls. I look back on my times with Brandon, James, Mike, and the rest of the guys as some of the most enjoyable times of my life. However, I also look at my experiences with Tara, Christine, Kay, and the rest of the girls as very enjoyable too. Choosing between living the rest of my life with just a girl or a guy will be a difficult thing.
I have always said that whoever I fall in love with is who I want to spend the rest of my life with, male or female, and I look at my life as a blessing. I have the best of both worlds. While most people are only attracted to a man or a woman, I can enjoy the beauty of both. Some people feel sorry for me because of what has happened in the past and what I have been through, but I don't, and I hope you don't either. I have made mistakes along the way and I like to think that I have learned from them, and that in writing and posting this Journey, so have you.
And so this brings my Journey through life so far to an end. It has been interesting getting Email from around the world in response to this story, either to me at my address or forwarded by the author, J.O. Dickingson. To those who have written and to the many who have read this story but have not, thanks for traveling with me, and thank you to the Dream Spinner for making my story a reality. Jason.