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It Has Always Been You 20 - Is It Over?
Drake was missing Mikael so badly as for the last whole month he was not able to see Mikael as much as he wanted to. Mikael reasons, would be either studying with Nick or on his own. He had tried to give as much space as Mikael had wanted, to be able to concentrate on his preparation for the exams. But what bugged Drake the most was the fact that most of the time, if not always, he was with Nick.
He never knew he could get jealous, which had risen rather high in his heart and he could not control it anymore. He knew that Mikael had said that Nick was only a friend, mates, but the reality was, Mikael had fancied Nick before and even though it did not go as what Mikael wanted to, he still have hearts of Nick as were told by Sandra.
With Mikael is being with Nick always for whatever reasons, Drake was afraid that Mikael might develop that same feelings of love, lust, admiration and longing for Nick all over again. He could not afford to let that to happen ever again. He was not sure to why was he so drawn to Mikael. Is it because he was his boyfriend or something else? He wondered.
The realization that he might be losing Mikael was impacting him so much that he had difficulty sleeping at night, tossing on his bed with Mikael on his mind. He never fell for someone this deep and he did not really know why Mikael had fallen for him. He never asked himself if he would ever be able to move on if something really bad happened between him and Mikael. For now he never wanted to think about it.
He was sure there were others who had also crossed this type of situation. He never, ever wanted to be like everybody else. He never even knew why he would ever be like everybody else. He never wanted to step off the roller coaster of life and be alone. He never wanted to ride the bus like this. He would never ever know who he could trust anymore. He had to... he had to try to see where all this was going.
The more Drake was thinking about this, the more angry he got. He clenched his fists and tried to contain it, but it was too much for him to hold and it made him punch the toilet wall a couple of times. He only stopped when he felt the pained on his knuckles and the bloodied, bruised and scraped off the skin. He winced with the pain and cursed himself for his stupidity.
He gains back to take control of his emotion and to calm himself down. He decided to go out and to find answers to all his questions and uncertainty. He got himself ready with a simple white V-neck T-shirt, black skinny jeans, white socks, black vans and a grey Hoodie to top it off. Took his car and house keys and drove away to his destination.
It was 10.00am when he reached the intended place. He pressed the doorbell and waited. It was Sunday and it was bright and sunny and kind of chilly with the occasional winds blowing. He pressed the bell again and slip both of his hands in the pockets of the hoodie to warm it up. About three minutes later, he heard footsteps approaching the door. He propped himself again to make sure he looked presentable to Mikael.
Drake heard the doorknob clicked as someone was unlocking it and the door creaked open slowly. He prepared his sweetest smile. His jaw dropped when he saw the person who opened the door. It's none other than Nick, who's standing in his full glory of nakedness except for the black and blue striped pajama pants. His slim yet toned body was in full view for Drake to see. Nick's was sure to have a good body definition and no wonder Mikael was so enthralled by him.
Drake drastic change of mood had caught Nick's attention. He was pushed aside roughly by Drake barging into the house and went directly up the stairway towards Mikael's room. Before that, Drake gave him the hard stare of hate and anger and yet it did nothing to him. Nick nonchalantly closed the door, locked it and walked himself to the kitchen to make for himself a cup of coffee and then sat at the sofa in the living room.
Drake was fuming mad and lots of things started to play in his mind. Was his boyfriend Mikael cheating on him? Was he having sex behind his back with Nick? Is he being dumped by Mikael? What did he do wrong, he had wondered? Is not he good enough for Mikael? This was all Nick's fault. He had been the one to lured Mikael to accept him back after he knew how good Mikael is as a person is.
Along the way up towards Mikael's room, his brain tried to play all kinds of scenarios of what he might expect to be happening between Nick and Mikael. He glanced around the house, starting from the living room. All was neat and tidy, no indication that Nick was sleeping on the couch and it makes his anger rose up a few notches. When he had reached Mikael's room, he paused for a while outside the door, took a deep breath, reached his hand for the door knob and turned it slowly. He's trying not to make any noise so as not to wake up Mikael if he was still sleeping and dreaded to see the state Mikael was in.
"What the fuck?" Drake gasped, seeing the state of Mikael's room. The floor was scattered with clothing, shirts, socks and pants. He suddenly remembered Nick's nakedness, and it made him furious with anger. He went up to Mikael and shook his body gently to wake him up. Drake backed off when he saw Mikael stir. But Mikael was remained still sleeping. So Drake tried to shake Mikael again to make him wake up.
"Nick stop, please stop, I'm tired." Mikael was purring and whining with his eyes still shut.
"Mikael wakes up." Drake deepened his voice and it jolted Mikael up immediately from slumber. He looked to the source of the voice and he was startled when he saw Drake standing beside his bed with an angry frown on his forehead.
"What are you doing here?" Mikael wipes both of his eyes with his hand to stir himself wide awake. He gave a long satisfactory yawn while stretching both of his arms and looked at Drake back again. He was not worried for Drake to see his nakedness because he wasn't. He had his boxer on that night.
"What is going on here Mikael, all of this and why was Nick half naked in your house?" Drake anger was notified and he was not in anywhere hiding it from Mikael. He wanted to know the truth.
"What do you think happened, Drake?" Mikael replied with a question to a confused Drake. He sat up from his bed, looked at the piles of clothing on the floor and picked up his shirt to wear it. He turned to face Drake, staring at him intensely.
"How would I know, it looks as though you had a wild night here with Nick. Did you Mikael?" Drake was clenching his teeth while staring back at Mikael. He needed an answer and he needed it now. His emotion was beyond control. His hand had already clenched into a ball and the pain on it did not bother him at all.
"You did not presume that we are having sex, are you Drake?" Mikael was annoyed with Drake. He could understand why would Drake think so by looking at the state of his room. But he was not ready to give Drake a truthful answer what was going on between Nick and him that night.
"Can you just for once be honest with me, Mikael?" Drake was looking at Mikael for any reaction. "I was not able to see you for the last month, you're not answering my calls, and when you did, every time when I asked to meet, you gave all sorts of reasons." Drake sighed deeply and continued, "Are you trying to avoid me Mikael?" Drake was drooping with dejection. Rather for Mikael to feel sympathy and guilty towards Drake, he was actually angered by what Drake had said, asking him to be honest.
"Don't you ever talk to me about honesty, Drake... and do not ever get me started with you about honesty." Mikael was spitting venom at Drake. Both their voices were loud, enough for Nick, who was sitting quietly in the living room just in his pajama pants, to hear. He did not want to move as he wanted to hear the argument.
A few emotions developed in his heart. Happy, due to the fact that Drake had angered Mikael so much that Mikael began to hate Drake and his chances to be with Mikael looked rather promising and no one can be in his way. Sympathy and sadness, for Mikael were hurting due to what Drake had done to him. Nick did not know what it is, but it sounded quite serious. Anger, at drake for making Mikael life full of mess and hurt. He wanted so badly to run up to Mikael's room to comfort him. but he knew better not to interfere with the situation at the moment.
The night before Nick had invited himself into Mikael's house and asked if he could stay the night. Mikael was ecstatic about it and agreed to the sleepover. They did not do anything as Mikael was serious about as long as he was still with Amy, they will only just be friend. He sure need to sort it out very soon if he did not want to lose Mikael. He believed to have already decided with whom he wanted to be with, but his feelings were still in a turmoil.
Drake was appalled by Mikael's comment. He was not sure what Mikael was talking about. "What... what are you talking about Mikael? I do not understand." Drake gave a quizzical and confused look to Mikael. he was not sure where was Mikael gets to. He was wracking his brain and tried to remember anything that he might have done to make Mikael felt this way.
"For goodness sake Drake, you do not have to act innocent with me already. You can stop your fucking charade, Drake." Mikael turned away from Drake and proceeded to walk out of his room and went down to the living room where Nick was still sitting on the sofa. drake was stunned and was rooted to the ground for a while before he ran out after Mikael.
Nick was jolted from his seat when he heard loud stomping footsteps coming down the stairs. He turned back to look at the stairway to see Mikael running down the stairs and Drake was behind him in hot pursues. It broke his heart to see Mikael in his disoriented self. His hair was still in a mess and there were streaks of tears on his delicate cheeks. How could Drake do this to his beautiful Mikael.
"Can you please just stop and talk to me?" Drake was running toward Mikael, grabbed hold of Mikael's shoulders and turned him around to face him. He was shocked to see that Mikael had been crying and the streaks of tears were so prominent on his face. For once he felt like an idiot to hurt Mikael. But he still wanted to know what did Mikael means when he said all of that.
"What... you seriously want to talk about this now?" Mikael hissed at Drake. "You are pushing the wrong buttons Drake." Mikael said, giving Drake a warning. He was so furious at Drake. He knew that whatever he wanted to say will not have a good ending. He dreaded to say more, but Drake had been persistent to know it.
Drake was in disbelief seeing how angry Mikael was. He was not able to think straight right now. He's wondering if Mikael knew about things that he had tried to keep Mikael from knowing it. But how can Mikael had known? So it is true that Drake had a secret and he wanted to keep it to himself. It was his way of life.
He was snapped from his daydream when he heard Mikael speak, "I am trying to give you the benefit of the doubt Drake. I tried not to bring it up... but you pushed me." By now Mikael's eyes began to water. Nick, seeing Mikael on the verge of crying, ran past Drake, nudging him a little and hugged Mikael tight, trying his best to soothe Mikael.
Mikael, feeling the tight warm embrace from Nick, was getting very emotional at the moment. He leaned his head on Nick's shoulder and cried. Nick was talking sweet comforting words into Mikael ears while rubbing him gently on his back. After a few minutes Mikael seemed to cool down, parted himself from Nick and looked back at Drake, who was still standing there, looking bewildered and flabbergasted at Nick and him. Drake just couldn't believe what was going on right now. he anticipated to make a move to pull Mikael away from Nick. But his body didn't respond at all.
"I tried to understand you Drake. I tried to love you more, but I do not know how. I tried to believe you, but what I saw and knew prevented me from doing it. I have tried to be a good boyfriend, but I've been taken for granted, Drake." Mikael was sniffling while he spoke. Nick was still holding him on his side and the feel of Nick naked chest did actually distract him for a slight moment.
Drake looked worried as he kept on staring at Mikael. He was not sure how to react at that moment. He knew he did something wrong, even though he was not sure what it is and he was hoping that Mikael could lighten him up. He could feel that Mikael is slipping away from him and to see Mikael was comfortably standing there in front of him wrapped by Nick, had sealed the deal. Should he fight for his right to have Mikael? He did somehow have love Mikael. Did he actually love Mikael? He was looking at Mikael when what he heard what Mikael had said, shocked him to the core of his heart.
"You've lied to me Drake... YOU FUCKING LIED TO ME!"
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