Impossible Love 8
My head was pounding when I woke up, I didn't remember anything past the fourth drink and I worried I might have made a mess of myself out the front. I hurled my guts out as I hung onto the towel rail, I couldn't let go because I would fall over. The mirror opposite wasn't being kind to me at all when I went to splash my face, making me think I must get to the hairdressers again soon.
I made it out to the kitchen and put the coffee machine on then I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and flopped down at the table. After several minutes I stretched my arm over and picked up the note that had been left for me.
"Good morning Ant, we put you to bed and we are sorry but we took some very nice pictures of you nudo, we have emailed them to Luca so can you do the vanilla ones to send?
Carlos and Leon your new brother's xx
I nearly fainted as the blood rushed to my head, they could have done anything to me last night because I wasn't in control at all. I suddenly had an awful thought as I squeezed my anus to check if it was sore, but I was relieved when I swiped a finger over it, there wasn't any grease so I don't think they interfered with me in that way. I am going to kill those bastards if they did take any photos, that is a form of rape, isn't it?
I made my coffee and turned on the computer, and the first thing I did was check my emails then I checked the outbox. There was an email sent at ten-thirty last night and the address was Luca's, I felt ill when I saw it, and there was an attachment. I really didn't want to open it but my finger accidentally clicked on the mouse and it instantly burst into life, forty photos had been sent to him, oh my God.
I tried not to look and I did the first one was me drunk on the bed, the second was me and Carlos on the bed, the third was Leon, Carlos and me on the bed with me in-between and dead to the world. They both had wicked smiles on their faces, and so it went, me without my t-shirt a close up of Leon sucking on my nipples and belly button. Me without my shorts, wearing my blue Rory hipsters, Carlos with his mouth close to my dick. It went on and on until I was completely naked then the humiliation started. I was photographed with my ass in the air they had shoved pillows under me, even one of a hand holding a wine bottle neck up against my freckle, a very, very close up of said tight freckle. My dick in all positions and balls with a tongue licking them, I don't know who did that one but they got worse.
My dick was in Carlos's mouth and his dick was in mine, and the three of us naked with me on my stomach and them both looking like they were top and tailing me. As I looked closer my dick was now hard as a rock, in some more close-ups they had me posed across the sofa and even out on the balcony, how they did it I don't know, but my legs were in the air like I was ready to receive dick. I slammed the laptop lid down as I didn't want to see anymore, it was too humiliating. I was more pissed off that I was asleep and missed out on all that fun. I had no one to call and no one to talk to, and I certainly didn't know how Luca would react, it might send him into a spin again. I worried about that more than the photos themselves.
I looked at the clock and it wasn't late, but it's too early to ring Luca and I had to get ready for work. I quickly looked through the rest and my favorite was the two boys in the nude draped over me like they were well and truly spent, I think it was then my tongue got hard.
I had a shower and managed a deep probing orgasm while I was in there, then I dressed, had more coffee and I started my walk to the market. I had my backpack today because I wanted to run home and I need to get some exercise, not sit and drink all night, and I needed to talk to Luca.
I bought some food when I got there and my aunties words were in my head, eat. More coffee and I started transferring buckets from the cool room into the shop. I dropped pricing tags into the buckets then did the register. No Alice but I didn't care, she must have had a late night also.
I didn't see Pat or Gino before ten and I was starting to get busy, but a smiling face arrived just in the nick of time. Alice was beaming and looked ten years younger as she swanned into work.
"Sorry Ant I, had to go somewhere important."
"That's okay my lovely, you look smashing this morning and I'm not going to say it."
"Thank you." She smiled as she put her apron on and started asking customers if she could help them. My phone rang around twelve and it was Nonna.
"Antonio, your grandfather wants to see you, can we meet at the Italian club for dinner around six-thirty?" "Sure Nonna, why is it so urgent?"
"He has business to discuss with you and it won't wait."
"Okay that's fine, I will be there." She thanked me and hung up.
"Grandma?" Alice asked.
"Yes, they want to go to the Italian club tonight for dinner, would you like to accompany me?"
"That would be very nice Ant, are you sure?" "Of course I'm sure, what grandad wants to talk to me about won't be private, let's go out and have a fun night."
"Good, because I'm at a loose end tonight."
"I'll pick up at six-fifteen."
The lunchtime rush has started and I refilled the buckets many times, it's good I have this big cooler so I can keep more flowers, eventually I am aiming to only go to the wholesalers once a fortnight. Another beep on my phone and I got an email from Luca.
`Open in private, I love you, more to follow.'
I looked at it and couldn't help myself so I went back into the cool room. I opened the attachment and there he was sitting on his bed legs in the nude. I nearly wept when I looked at his face, he was so pale and has lost weight but he still looked awesome. His light hairy chest and big round nipples were outstanding, and his dick and bush were so inviting.
"Ant, could I get a hand in here please?" I quickly closed the phone and went back to work, I will find time to look at them later.
That time never arrived because we didn't stop until four-thirty, Alice went home to shower and change and I locked up then put my shorts on and ran home, all the while thinking about that photo I had seen. I closed the door behind me and headed for the computer, but as soon as I sat down the phone rang again.
"What time are you going to the club Ant?" It was Gino.
"Leaving here at six-fifteen."
"Okay, pick us up on the way." He hung up and I looked at my watch, I had no time so I slammed the lid of the laptop down and went to undress to go wash my body. Although I'm not overly hairy I do have a sizeable bush surrounding my cock and a trail from my chest to join with it but it's something that I have always liked and I wondered whether Luca would like me smooth, no I haven't got time.
I heard noises in the hallway as I opened my front door and I came face to face with my two terrorists, they were in their jeans and god knows what brand of awesome t-shirts.
I sneered when I saw them standing there, smiling from ear to ear.
"Well I hope you two had a great time last night, we must do it again sometime when I'm sober."
"Sorry Ant, but our brother wanted some nude photos and we thought you might not do it properly." Carlos blushed.
"I would have and you both know it."
"We are sorry." They were a couple of naughty boys but I liked them, so I won't be too harsh.
"Come on, I'll take you out for dinner, and if you ever speak of it I will bury you both. God knows what your brother thinks."
They livened up a bit and Leon said,
"He loves them, he hasn't stopped looking at them all day, he even managed to masturbate a few times when momma wasn't around."
"Really?"
"Yes really, did you masturbate too Antonio?" I was in two minds whether to stay home and do it, but I had to meet the grandparents.
"No, I haven't found the time yet, people won't leave me alone."
"We will help you Antonio, after dinner we can come to your bed, ok?"
"Not ok, come on." My god how am I ever going to live this down. We picked Gino and Anna up then Alice and the troops and I headed to the club, I got to thinking on the way there that they were testing me, they were trying to see if I would fool around on their brother but if they come inside tonight, but I will fail miserably because I will be all over them like scales on a fish.
"Gran, grandpa, good to see you both again." I kissed my nan and my grandad's head and sat down while the boys were at the bar and Gino and Anna found a friend she was talking to.
"Antonio, we must speak business tonight, no drinking," Grandad said as the boys placed a large drink in front of me. They greeted my gran and grandpa, and it was like a light switch had been turned on the place as it filled up. I looked around the room and people were grabbing chairs and waving at me and my grandparents, and a hand was rubbing my crotch vigorously. Leon had sat next to me so I did the same and started by placing my hand over his mound and squeezed it hard. He yelped, two can play that game, I must have got one of his balls in there somewhere. He behaved for the next half hour so I ignored him, and surprisingly I didn't rise to the occasion but it did take some willpower.
"Now what business are you wanting to talk about Grandad?"
"Antonio, we believe you have received a big account sometime this week." "How the hell did you find that out?" "I do business with many people Antonio, don't question my resources."
"Sorry, I should have known, what's happening?" I'm sure he has it all worked out.
"Don't get smarty pants with me please, this is serious."
"Sorry." I dropped my head in respect.
"Come with me, we have much business to conduct." I moved my chair back and excused myself as I followed grandad. He stopped at a table of older men playing cards and we sat with them.
"Everyone, this is my grandson Antonio, he wants to do business."
All five greeted me and one started to talk.
"Antonio, I am Frankie, I have a small warehouse in this area and it has tables, water, gas, just about everything you will need, please take my card and let me know when you will need it, I charge family one hundred and fifty dollars a day." He smiled.
"I am Giuseppe, pleased to meet you, my uncle owns Lilydale farm where he grows everything you will need for your account, take my card and we will go there one day to meet him and you can tell him what you need, it will be less than wholesale." He winked.
"And your price?" I asked.
"A nice lunch with vino, thank you Antonio."
"Done." He handed his card over, this is a big bonus.
"I am Pietro, I own an import business and I have loads of pots, urns, and bowls for you to look at, of course at family rates." He smiled and handed me his card.
"I am Gabriel, I have a fleet of vans big enough for you to move your blooms, they are at your disposal for a small fee, please inform me on what day you will need them." Another card was passed over. I looked at the last gentleman and he opened his hands.
"I am Tomas, I am here to play cards, but it's nice to meet you, Antonio." They all laughed and I felt a tear in my eye, but I wasn't allowed to linger.
"Now we need flower ladies Antonio, please follow me. He took me to another table to a gorgeous lady who I guessed was the head girl in the place. She kissed my cheeks and handed me a printout of names.
"Antonio, please decide what days you want my girls, they are all trained in floristry and the charge is eighty dollars a day each, cash in hand please, give me plenty of notice. Grazie, and five hundred dollars for me when you are ready." She had such a sweet smile.
I left with all the paperwork in my hand and a shocked look on my face.
"Is that all you need grandson?"
"Yes grandad, thank you, I will be forever grateful to all of them, this is so awesome."
"No problem grandson, and for that I will charge you five hundred dollars, in cash please."
"What?"
"Please don't be uncouth grandson, you heard what I said." I was so grateful to him and five hundred is a small price to pay to do business through him.
"Now let's eat," Grandma said.
The night was getting away from me, I met so many well-wishers and when I looked at the boys they were always smiling at me, and I was blushing.
They didn't succeed in getting me drunk, I was holding my hand over my glass most of the night. Federico arrived late and we made room for him and the food was awesome as usual but no dancing tonight, it was card night. Gino and Anna were the first to leave and when I said my goodnights to the grandparents the boys walked me home. I couldn't wait to look at Luca's photos and as we said our goodnights I closed the door, not inviting that trouble in.
I stripped off my clothes but left my briefs on, then I poured a wine and sat at the table to have a good sex session. I was only on the second photo when I heard a knock on the window, it shocked me because I'm not used to people coming to my home that way. It was Carlos and he was holding up a bottle of wine, he indicated for me to come out so I rushed to the bedroom and threw on my shorts. After grabbing my glass, I went out there to find they were sitting on the floor of the fire escape with their arms reaching through the handrails. They shifted over and made room for me so I sat in the middle and saluted them.
"I used to sit here with your brother some nights, god I miss him."
"We know you do Antonio, that's why we are here so you don't run off with Gino."
"So you know about him, do you?" "Yes, he's a fine man Antonio, but he loves the pussy too much, I love cock." Carlos smiled. Luca nudged him and grunted then he said to me,
"I just like cock Antonio, I like your cock but I like Carlos's better though." Leon licked my neck and I was sure he was going for the nipple next so I stopped him and now they have come out as a couple, which confused me a bit, but I said,
"I like your brother's cock, so let's not go there. I am never going to cheat on him without his consent or his involvement, so all I can do is promise you both that."
"Good, that's what we wanted to hear, another vino?"
"Yes please, and take your hand off my dick Leon, it's not going to grow."
"Ok Antonio." He poured us another drink.
"We have one more challenge to complete Antonio, we have to get back at those pigs at the gay club, so Friday night we are going clubbing with you."
"Oh my God no, let's not do that, I don't think I will ever go back there again."
"They called you some awful names Antonio so we are going to fix that Friday. Then you will never have to go back there again." I cringed as I drank my wine, I was like a pig in shit when they quietened down and was imagining Luca was beside me again.
"So you like a little dick too Carlos?" I grinned.
He turned to me and said,
"I will put you out of your misery Antonio, Leon and I are a couple, but sometimes open." Carlos smiled.
"I thought so, it's okay, it's not unheard of that brothers sometimes play."
"We are together and we are brothers, but we are all adopted by our mother and have been together since we were fifteen."
"Oh I see, congratulations, so what's with the secrecy?" I give up guessing what the hell's going on in that family, adopted, makes sense.
"No secrecy Antonio, we like to act like we are not together in public because it only confuses people. If we have an especially difficult job to do, the first thing we do is find out the client's sexuality, if he's gay we charm him and if he's not we use our wit."
"So you both use your charms to get some jobs then."
"Sometimes," I could see Leon was almost going to give him a mouthful of insults.
"I don't like it and Carlos has to stop doing that otherwise he knows the consequences Antonio, and we only play together." I laughed.
"Do your parents know?"
"Yes, they have known since the first kiss."
Carlos bent over me and gave Leon a beautiful kiss and I horned up.
Then they started telling me their funny stories, they were bordering on pornography.
I laughed my head off on that fire escape, something I missed doing with good friends. I staggered the ten feet home to my apartment after kissing my new brothers who are lovers, goodnight, and I took my time to get ready for my computer pull.
Losing my shorts and underwear as I closed the sliding door and drapes, I then got myself another drink and sat at the laptop. I cried as I looked through the photos, and I cried more when a gorgeous long, curly-haired man with a hard field worker's body, was looking like he was sucking Luca's dick and licking his awesome butt. I knew it was a setup and I didn't mind the orgasm I had, it went on for ages before I was thoroughly exhausted and went to bed. I need to go through them again when I'm sober, I guess I will have a hangover tomorrow but as I turned the lights out I didn't care, I had Luca's image in my head again.
Surprisingly I was okay in the morning, and after coffee and another look at my photos that were taken with the boys next door, I orgasmed again with a different sort of porn, although I'm sure it's illegal to lust after family members, especially brothers of a sort.
I ran to work and changed my clothes when I got there, I had so much work to do today. I had to make up a schedule of who I would need and what I would need. I had already decided to do dry runs to perfect the creations. I will get a heap of extra flowers and start practicing with them, then do the real ones. I can do all that in my apartment but I must go and look at the Crown reception center to judge what I must do in real-time.
Alice was on top of the world and the sun was shining today so I put a tank top on and if I may say so myself, I looked pretty sensational.
Cal came by and wanted to know everything because he was hanging out to meet my boys again, so I told him we were going to the club on Friday night. There was something I caught with Cal, just a few words he had said that got me thinking.
"Boy, am I going to have a good night, those hunks are awesome, thanks Ant."
I thought he assumed too much and although I was jealous of his good looks, I also saw an ugliness in him I hadn't seen before. Whether I read it all wrong or not his comment made me regress into my old self again, just for a fleeting moment. Why would he assume he's going to have a good night with my friends, why didn't he think that maybe I was having it off with both of them or they were a couple? I know he knows about Luca, but why would he automatically think my friends are his to do what he wants with them?
I was being stupid but it did bother me a little, he was acting like his stupid mates, always assuming I couldn't get a hunk into bed, always staring and silently accusing me of letting the team down, I know they were.
I pulled myself out of it and went to find Pat, I took three coffees over and stood with Gino and her and we talked, but I kept looking across at Cal.
"Ant, where are you, come back to us baby?" She shook me.
"Sorry Pat, I was just thinking about something, sorry, so how has your morning been going Gino?"
"Very good Ant, but it's not as busy as the weekend. Did you do a lot of business last night?"
"Yes, grandad organized it all and I am so indebted to him for helping me out."
"He's a nice old guy Ant, and he loves you," Pat added.
"Yes he does, he's one in a million and I got everything I needed to help with this event. I have to go and see Gabriel and look at his pots and if there's nothing that suits I will have to research some wholesalers. I need to start practicing as soon as possible so I have to get extra Wednesday morning."
"So you don't just make them up before the night?" Gino seemed interested.
"No, it's too big a job, I need to make up finished samples so the ladies know what I want when they come to do the real thing, they can use them as a guide."
"I see, that's fascinating." Gino laughed.
"At thirty-three grand, they have to be perfect Gino."
"What?"
"You heard, thirty-three big smackers." I smiled and finished my coffee then went back to work.
I hadn't told Gino how much they were paying me for my blooms but now I think he will take me seriously. I made appointments with my new friends for Monday and Tuesday next week and by then I will know what I need.
We had an okay day and again I ran home to look through my photos, they had been on my mind all day. I snuck a few peeks at my phone emails, and every time I did I fell in love with Luca's image more and more.
There was another knock on my door and two boys came through the balcony slider holding up four bottles of wine.
"Drinks with Gino?"
I looked at the screen and my now deflated dick and asked them to give me a minute. I went into the bedroom and pulled some shorts on then grabbed three glasses and we left by the front door. I didn't mind if the boys used my balcony to get into my place, it's a lot easier for them I suppose.
"Before we go, can you tell me who that guy is with Luca?"
"Which one Antonio? He has many lovers at the vineyard." Leon smiled but I didn't believe him. `Long dark, curly hair, the face of a dark angel who looks like a peasant worker."
"That's Gianni, our gypsy brother Antonio."
"Oh, are you sure?"
"Yes, why Antonio?"
"Because he is so much more handsome than you two." I was chased downstairs for my rude remark, but only after they both slapped my ears.
Gino and Anna were out the front but no Alice, she was probably resting after her big day. Two chairs appeared and the drinks and greetings were done, then Anna moved over next to me and took my hand.
"Did you have a good day Ant?"
"Yes I did, and you?" "Meetings all day so pretty boring, but they had to be done. I work for a publishing company and we had urgent decisions to make on some novels."
"That sounds interesting, why do you say it's boring?"
"Because I would rather be here with my friends Ant, that's why it was boring, and I miss playing with Gino's dick." She whispered that in my ear. I nearly spilled my vino as Gino asked,
"What are you two talking about?" "Ant was just telling me about his man, when is he coming back anyway?"
"I don't know, when he feels better I suppose, I miss him very much." I looked up at the sky because I didn't want to cry.
"He will come back Ant, but he needs time to heal if he ever heals," Leon said gently.
"What's wrong with him?"
I looked at Leon because I didn't want to answer her, and although I thought it was none of her business I also thought why not, she's family.
"He has depression bordering on bipolar Anna, he has been through a very hard time and when he was here on business it all returned to him so he went home. He feels the safest at the family vineyard, and I believe at the moment he is happy because he has discovered a very interesting porn site."
"Oh porn, I love porn." She almost screamed and Gino's ears pricked up so he leaned in and asked,
"What type?"
"Gay porn of course, loads of dick." She giggled but she didn't fool me one bit, she was trying to make a sad moment into a fun one.
I heard Gino say,
"Okay, I can do gay porn." I bet you can asshole, but I thought it nicely.
Alice, with a bottle and a glass in hand came up the street and Carlos moved to give her a lady seat, he sat with me and poured me another drink.
"Oh no you don't, no more for me, you're not getting me drunk again."
He laughed and I felt a fingernail, feather tickle my left nipple, it was nice.
"So what have we been talking about?" Alice asked.
"Porn, specifically gay porn," Anna chirped up.
"Why doesn't that surprise me, I think we are outnumbered here Anna." She smiled.
"It's okay Alice, you and I will have a girly night and watch some, and if you like you can invite Federico, he might like it too." Alice almost went to get the soap for Anna's mouth, but she laughed instead.
"Yes, he would love that," Carlos said in my ear.
"Really?" I said back.
"It's the way he is Antonio." His white teeth shone.
I looked at Leon who was trying not to laugh, he was a gorgeous man and almost the spitting image of Luca, lank and black, longish hair, with blue eyes, what I call a six-day growth with a moustache, and primed to the max. From the photos, I could tell he was as big as Luca in the dick department, but I won't go there, as much as I kind of like him.
I turned to Carlos again and said,
"I want to talk to you about Friday night, can I ask you not to do something while we are there?"
"Yes of course Antonio, what is it?" `Well I know I can't tell you what to do, but I can ask, can you both not fall all over my friend Cal and his mates? I saw him today and told him we would be there, so he is assuming I'm escorting you guys there so he can bed you both, to put it in politely." I looked at Alice as she sipped her vino pretending she didn't hear me.
"All taken care of Antonio, another drink?" Leon asked.
"Yes please," I answered as I held my glass out.
Never and I say never have I ever felt so bad as I did the next morning. I woke with Carlo's ass in my face and Leon's dick between my legs so I couldn't move. They had insisted I was feeling unloved and wanted to sleep in my bed with me, I was too drunk to resist because all I wanted to do was sleep. I failed miserably when my tongue slipped out and I ran it up to Carlos's crack, it tasted wonderful and I wondered why, it's because I hadn't had a man on man sex for some weeks, but then I remembered Luca and stopped.
"Keep going, you haven't hit the spot yet," I heard him groan. Leon pumped me a few times and that was my cue to go to the toilet so I climbed over Carlos and headed for the bathroom. The coffee was on by the time I went to the kitchen and I got a gentle cheek peck off Carlos.
"No work today Carlos?" "No, we have a day of relaxation, do you want us to come and help you?"
I laughed because I knew that my stiffie wouldn't go down all day.
"No thank you, why don't you go out and see the sights?"
"We might do that Antonio." I heard the shower go and someone was getting under the water.
"Do you want to join him?" I glared at him and said,
"Yes." I laughed then went to take a headache pill and make some toast.
When Leon came out Carlos went in to clean up, then I did, locking the bathroom door behind me. I had to have a wank, because Carlos's hard-ass had turned me on fiercely.
"Did you have a pull Antonio?" Carlos asked me when I came out dressed for the day.
"Yes." I laughed.
"Me or Leon?"
"Your awesome ass." I laughed louder.
He bent over the kitchen table and said,
"Be my guest Antonio." Leon slapped him on that perfect ass.
"Well I'm off boys, let yourselves out and I will see you maybe tonight."
"Have a good day Antonio, we will miss you." I got kisses and bum pats then left with half a hard-on again.
My life has changed so much in the past few months and I can't believe I have so many gorgeous friends now when I virtually had none before. My nose had stopped hurting and the doctor said it will shrink some more, but not much more, it was perfect just like my dad's and I loved my new look.
I made it to Friday without any problems or any more hangovers, Luca had called me Thursday night, he was in bed and we had a sort of phone sex conversation, he told me the other hunk in the photos was his gypsy brother Gianni and they had a small fling years ago but decided they would just stay brothers. He was happy to pose with him and I was happy to look at him, he was gorgeous with long black, tight curly hair, three-day growth, moustache, a hairy bush to die for, and a dick that should have its very own postcode, and those green eyes. I told him it didn't matter to me if they were sleeping together, it wouldn't make any difference to the way I loved him, I could almost hear him smiling on the other end. On the other hand, Gianni I thought was the supreme Italian hunk, he looked like he worked in the fields all day, his muscles outshone Gino's and his skin was perfect.
We talked for an hour then I got him off, and myself, and he wished me good luck tomorrow night at the club. I gave up asking myself how he knew these things and figured he was talking to his brothers behind my back, it made sense in the end so I didn't ask.
I ran home from work Friday excited as hell but scared I will fuck the night up with my concerns for Cal and his mates. I showered and shaved so I was clean-faced then found some clothes I liked and waited for my gentlemen callers to knock on the door. I waited and waited, watched TV, looked at the internet and at nine, the knock arrived. We walked to the club, they were gorgeous and crazy because we had to call into three cafes to have a drink, so by the time we got there we had a good buzz going. We headed for the bar and Leon gave the order to the barman and Carlos grabbed me and pulled me onto the dance floor, he took me in his arms and kissed me deeply then we danced and swayed for a few minutes until the music changed then went back to the bar. We found a good spot and I dared to look at Cal and his friends, some mouths were open, I guess time stood still for them.
"Skull," Leon said, so we downed our vodka shots and I was once again pulled onto the floor. I had one either side and they were doing a very sexy dance with me squashed in the middle, Leon got down and kissed my nipples, stomach and crotch then I was bent over and Carlos had his mouth on my butt simulating an ass lick. And so it went, there were very few on the floor but all eyes were on us, we were an inch away from giving a live sex show, I felt hot and the scene was hot. More drinks and two big arms crossed over my shoulders, Mark passed by and he said hello, he was then pulled in and kissed by all three of us. I think we made his night as he was smiling from ear to ear when his new friend pulled him away. Cal tried to get near us but each time he did Carlos or Leon would block him by kissing me. My shirt had been open and I leaned back on the sidebar and they both sucked on my nipples. If anything ever happens tonight I know I am well and truly ready for it.
I had to go to the toilet so I left them at a table in the quiet area, and as I walked through the door I looked around, guys were moving towards them in droves, poor guys.
Cal was in there playing with his blonde hair, he stood next to me to have a piss and said,
"Hey, aren't you going to share?" I looked sideways and replied,
"Nup."
"Why not?" He laughed.
"Because Cal, they kind of like me, a lot."
"I thought you were attached to their brother?" "Wrong, I'm attached to the three of them and loving every fucking inch." I had finished and was now ready to go out and rescue my boys.