Impossible Love
Chapter 3
As I left her place I passed a gorgeous young Italian looking guy coming the other way on the staircase, he was bloody awesome. As our eyes met he said,
"Ciao"
I replied the same and time stood still for a moment. I had to step aside to let him pass, he was big in all the right places and smelled so fresh like the wholesale flower shed. I couldn't help but notice he was about my age and his shoulder-length black hair and half beard were as black as night, his eyes were piercing and his clothes were immaculate, he was so out of place here.
Instant boner happening as I went to my flat and opened the door. I counted out what cash I had left and placed it in an envelope then left it with the contract on the table, I will get that to a conveyancer tomorrow after I go to the bank. I tidied up a bit and was so excited to have my own place, I rang grandma. She screamed down the phone like all Nona's do and she couldn't wait to get over to see it. I told her we could come over and have a look when I am staying with them. Grandad wanted to talk to me also but he wanted to know how much I had spent, how much deposit and how much the loan will be. I told him several times because he kept asking me to repeat myself, it's a task I endure. I love him to death but he is a bit slow sometimes. After I got that all sorted I went back up to Alice's and handed her twenty thousand more, she was very grateful as she counted it and made out another receipt. I thought I would get that out of the way which gives me a bit less to do tomorrow.
"Have you met our new neighbour Antonio?"
"No Alice, but I think I passed him on the stairway earlier, has he lived here long, I haven't seen him around?"
"No, he moved in next door a few days ago, seems like a nice young man. His name is Luca and he's from Rome, something to do with his family sending him out here to re-organize something they own. I will introduce him if we all pass on the stairs." She chuckled.
I thought this might be the Luca that Cam was talking about but then again I am proved wrong on so many occasions. I thanked her again then I went back home, I saw Gino still sitting on the stairs where he was talking to a man with a dog who was walking past, I made a beeline towards him as the man walked off and sat down with him.
He offered a drink but I refused and told him I had bought the apartment. He was very happy for me and offered to help me move, I didn't have much but I did ask if he would help me with a few heavy items, the rest I should be able to handle myself. I left him there because as you know I'm trying to wean myself off him, it will be good in the other apartment and there is a fire escape that leads straight to its balcony so it will come in handy if I have to use that to enter the building. I went and changed into my tank top and shorts and thought I might take a run to get rid of all that energy I had built up. It was still early but getting dark outside, and as I said goodnight to Gino again I headed down the road running.
I usually do three laps around the block but tonight I had a hankering to run around the huge park at the end of my street. After an hour I had slowed down and was in need of a wee, so I headed for the toilet block to relieve myself. I could have gone behind a tree but sometimes I get lucky in the loo and it's quite safe here. I walked into the dimly lit building with only one guy at the urinal, and a stall door was closed so someone was in there.
I went into the other stall and started having a pee and after I finished I had a half hard-on as I also noticed two smooth fingers come through the glory hole. I don't get offers like this everyday, and the fingers looked young so I pushed my good-sized uncircumcised dick through the hole and got an amazing head job off a total stranger. I was so horned up that I didn't last long, I can't remember when it was the last time I got one, and this was awesome. I blasted my juices on the wall after I pulled out then I dragged my shorts up and left, the other guy at the urinal had already gone so he didn't hear my heavy breathing. I walked out into the fresh air and started jogging down the track again towards home. Gino was gone and I went straight to my flat and showered. I felt really good after that blow job and fortunately, it had turned me on more than I realized, I had to have another pull before I went to sleep.
In the morning I had my breakfast and as I went over my list of things to do there was a knock at the door around nine, and when I answered it there was Gran and Grandpa standing there with smiles on their faces and a big basket of food. I welcomed them and immediately put the coffee on as they sat at my kitchen table.
"And what did I do to receive this royal visit?" Gran smiled at me.
"Please look at this Antonio, it's important." Grandad passed a piece of paper over to me, it said last will and testament across the top and my stomach ended up in my throat and my eyes watered. This was my dad's last will. I had never seen this document before and I didn't even know it even existed. I opened my hands and looked at gramps.
"Please just read it, son." Gran got up and placed her hand on my shoulder then went to make the coffee.
I read my dad's words he had left everything to me and hoped one day I would use any funds to buy a house, it was specific, my dad said I was to use the money to buy a house only, and to furnish it with the balance.
"Why are you showing this to me now, my parents didn't have any money and if there is any it's certainly not mine, it belongs to the both of you."
"You are buying a home Ant, the money has been kept in a trust for you and now it can be released as you have completed your father's request. So we are here to tell you that you have no reason to go to the bank for a loan, you can pay for it with your own money." He winked. I fell back in my chair as Gran placed the coffee on the table with some biscuits that had magically appeared from her large carry bag. He then passed over another piece of paper with numbers on it.
"That's the balance of your trust as of yesterday, it was invested when your poppa passed away and if I were you I would use the balance to buy another flat, but you will have to take out a small loan to do it."
"What?"
"Yes, welcome to my world, if you then take out a loan on both flats you could buy a third one as the rents will pay them off easily." He smiled. I didn't know what to say and gran put her arms around me and hugged me.
"Let me have a minute for it all to sink in." I didn't want to ask the thousands of questions, I wanted to be classy and accept that they had my best interests in mind by not telling me about this earlier, so I looked at them both and said a sincere thank you.
"It's your money Antonio, we were just the custodians, we think now you are a responsible adult and you should manage it from this day on." Grandpa actually smiled at me.
"So how do I get my hands on this money?"
"The investment house is written on the bottom of that balance sheet, go and see them instead of going to the bank."
I was blown away and also a bit sad I never got to meet my father, he must have been a wonderful man.
"I know you have questions son, and the important ones you have I will answer as best as I can. I didn't like it when you opened your little market stall but now I realize I was very wrong to hold this money back. I am sorry and I hope you will find it in your heart to forgive me. I thought you were irresponsible and I apologize, I was so very wrong."
I leaned over and hugged him, it didn't matter to me if he had held it back, what's important to me is that he still loves me.
"I love you grandpa, nothing you can do will ever change that." I kissed his head and went back to my coffee. Nothing more was said except he mentioned that when my parents passed he had sold our house and invested the money as per dad's instructions. Inside I was grateful and it took all my willpower not to cry.
Grandma wanted to go shopping so they dropped me at the investment house and I walked in on my own. The money was real, and I instructed them to transfer money to my everyday account with the bank and the balance they were to look after for me. When the apartment has been transferred I will get the money to Alice. I reckon within four weeks I will be in my new home and Alice will have a whole bunch of new money.
As the week progressed I did my usual thing and was almost walking on clouds, apart from the usual work greetings and coffee moments I didn't engage Gino in any conversation outside of the market and the flat. Maria was seen several times coming from his apartment and he seemed happy. Of course Pat and I talked about it behind his back, and because she knew the family she had all the gossip first hand.
I didn't run into Luca at all where we lived but I did get a glimpse of him when I went into my bank to do some banking, he looked amazing in his black Armani suit, he was so sophisticated, but also he looked like he was out of his comfort zone because he looked so young.
Monday week rolled around and grandpa insisted they drive me to the private hospital for the surgery, I will have an overnight stay. I told them not to pick me up because I will catch a cab. Alice had given me her spare keys and I had almost moved in. Gino and I moved her to her new apartment which was really nice and at street level so she will be able to get out more. The day we moved was the day my life changed for the better, we had done our work and I invited Gino up to my new apartment for a drink. It had been a hot day and we had our shorts and tank tops on, I couldn't get enough of his perfect body and I was so horned up it took all my strength not to touch him. He smelt so manly and as I watched the sweat trickle down his neck I wanted to lick it all up.
"She's a nice lady Ant, she said she would probably have gotten more for this place but she thinks you're a very nice boy so she let you have it."
"Well I think I got a bargain, but I won't be looking to sell it, so money isn't a driving force for me." I sat down and gave him a cold beer, he craved something cooler than wine, and I was pleased because I prefer it anyway. As the evening progressed we both got a little tipsy and he told me that he and Maria haven't actually made love, she had spent the night but there was no sex. I didn't want to tell him again that she was using him but I was surprised she had refused him sex as he is an absolute dream. More beer and more sex talk and I could see he was rising in his shorts, he rubbed it a few times and I couldn't keep my eyes off it, oh I guess I will have to do my duty again tonight.
"You know Ant I could go a nice suck if you are in the mood." Did I just hear him right he wants head? Fuck me yes, I am a goner. My hand moved to his crotch as he moaned then I pulled his shorts down so I could have a good go at his dick which was above average thick and hairy, just awesome.
"Are you sure Gino?"
"Just this once more Ant, and don't tell anybody," he slurred.
"I won't." I bent over and placed his knob in my mouth then started sucking on his pole. I left my eyes open so I could watch his balls rise up and down, a good deep throat suck for the guy that I have secretly loved for months now. He moaned loudly and I stopped, then I lifted his tank and started sucking on his left hairy nipple, his hand stopped me and he pushed my head down to his dick again, no extras there's never been any extras. I know he was enjoying it because of the noises he was making and I was loving making him feel awesome. He came buckets so I nearly gagged, but managed to keep it all down, I was prepared to swallow everything he unloaded because I knew he was safe and he tasted wonderful. After he recovered he pulled his shorts up and stood up, then he looked at me and said,
"Don't tell anyone Ant, I mean it." He left shortly after, a little worse for wear but I assumed he was very happy. He didn't offer to get me off and he didn't kiss me or thank me, in fact, he has never thanked me, at all. I quickly started smelling my hand and licked my lips as I tossed one big load out onto my stretched legs, it was the best pull I have ever had. I almost staggered to the bedroom where I laid on the bed. I didn't want to shower because that would wash Gino off me and I wanted to smell him. I prayed to God it happens again, maybe I can set up a secret camera which would be awesome, please God, one last time, and this prayer coming from a guy who is trying to avoid Gino.
The surgeon went through a few things and no I haven't eaten for twelve hours so it was all set. I felt the needle and then there was nothing, no dreams, no feelings.
The nurse was slapping my hand and saying "Wake up Antonio, it's all done." I was as groggy as hell and my face felt like someone was sitting on it but I didn't panic, I laid there and tried to open my eyes. I knew what to expect, black eyes, swollen face all that, so I won't be in any state to receive any guests anytime soon. My eyes opened and the nurse was smiling, she asked me a few questions and then said I was right to go into the recovery ward. I was wheeled into a room and being a private hospital I had it to myself, and then when I was shifted to the bed I fell asleep.
I have no idea how long I was out but when I came to my grandparents were sitting by the bed smiling. My hand went to my head and I tried to smile as it moved down my face, I was a bit surprised as I could only feel a bandage go across my nose, I thought my whole face would be covered in them.
"You look great Antonio, I can already see a big improvement, no big bump," Nan said.
"Are you hungry?" She asked, I guess she's got half her fridge in her handbag.
"Not yet gran, give me a few minutes, did the doctor say everything went well?"
"Yes grandson, he was just in and told us it went better than expected." I felt less stressed.
An orderly came by and spotting me he came into the room."You're awake at last, here let me help you sit up." He placed his hands under my armpits and lifted me up so I was almost sitting upright. I couldn't smell anything as the gauze stuck up my nose prevented that, but I bet he smelled nice. Unfortunately, he left to get us all a coffee and some sandwiches while Nonna gave me some orange juice to drink.
"It hasn't started swelling as yet Ant, we will get some ice onto it when you come home, that will help it to heal." Good old Nona, she knows everything medical wise.
I fished around and found my phone then took a photo of my face, it was awesome, I could see the big bump had disappeared and almost make out the new streamlined nose.
"Who are the flowers from, I didn't expect any?" Gran got up and took the card then handed it to me.
"Get well soon from Gino, Maria, Alice and Pat xx." That was very nice of them and they were lovely, they probably got them from Stavros who will be having a bumper week selling his flowers while I'm not there.
I was feeling ok after I ate and had a coffee, there were no complications and the plaster across my nose will come off next week, and I hope it doesn't itch too much.
By the next afternoon, I was sitting on the bed waiting for Nan and Grandad to pick me up, they had insisted I didn't waste all my money on a cab. I felt good and when I looked in the mirror to shave, it had started swelling but it will get smaller eventually.
I was ordered to go to bed and get some rest and as if by magic a big bowl of chicken soup appeared with some crusty bread. I was more than happy to have brought my laptop with me, I can watch movies and surf Facebook on it. I made the big announcement by posting the photo of my plaster and two darker eyes. The likes were coming through thick and thin from family members and friends. I got a message from Pat amongst it all.
"I'm glad it's all over for you, it looks good so get a good rest, everything is ok here. No new updates except Gino's talking marriage again, I just roll my eyes at him. Like you, I don't want to hear it." My stomach turned and I felt a major loss.
"Pat, thanks for the update, it's his life, if he wants to fuck it up I suppose it's his business. Am feeling great but Gran won't let me get out of bed and she won't stop feeding me." Angry face.
"He's as thick as a brick, she's been coming in every day for lunch, even trying to help sometimes, I guess this is the start of bleeding him dry."
"I don't care but thank you anyway." I was as mad as hell and my guts turned even at the mention of his name. I threw back my blankets and went to shower. I will go and sit in the sun for a while as I have to get out of this bedroom, it was closing in on me. My thoughts went back to Gino and the few nights we had together, I found some plusses but there were so many minus's, I guess I had expected too much and the big love scene in bed I had always yearned for was just a quick mate's blow job. He can tell himself he's not gay all he likes, and the more I thought about those nights the angrier I got. I wasn't just angry with Gino I was angry with myself for doing it so eagerly, this isn't what I want, what I dream of, my dreams are so much better than this.
Gran argued with me while grandad giggled as he read the newspaper, so I grabbed my laptop and a coffee and went to sit in the back yard amongst the fruit trees and grapevines, the tomato and veggie patches. Nan yelled out I will catch a chill and to put a jacket on, so I went inside and grabbed the toweling dressing gown and wore that over my t-shirt and jeans, if looks could kill.
Halfway through answering the many messages a plate of biscuits was dropped on the table.
"Eat." I couldn't help but giggle, and love surged into my heart.
The garden snips arrived ten minutes later she was out in the garden clipping off dead leaves with one eye on me.
"Nan, it's just a nose, I'm not dying you know."
"Anything could happen you might get a chill which could turn into something so much worse."
"I'll go inside then." It's better to appease her than argue.
"Good." She followed me inside.
"Did you get all the dead leaves, my love?"
She groaned and grumped her way through getting lunch ready, but I didn't go to the bedroom, I sat at the kitchen table so she could watch me.
Four days of this and I was done, I couldn't wait to get home. The swelling was minimal because I had placed constant ice packs on it. I believe I won't see the final result for months yet and the surgeon wants to see me on Friday to take the splint off and the internal packing out, which is now driving me nuts as I can't breathe through my nose at the moment.
"You have a visitor." I got up from my bed and moved to the loungeroom and standing there was Gino, he looked awesome as usual and held another bunch of flowers. I moved him to the sofa and he stared at my nose, and if I may say so his visit wasn't all that welcome, but I was nice to him.
"It's going to be great for you Ant, I can see it's a lot smaller."
"Yes, thank god the plaster and packing comes off tomorrow, then I can breathe properly again, how's work?"
"Good Ant, we all miss you, people have been asking where you are and I just say you are on a holiday."
"Why don't you both go out and sit in the sunshine." I heard from the kitchen. I rolled my eyes and took him and our coffees outside.
"So what's the latest news Gino, Maria still around?" I knew bloody well she was.
"Yes Ant, she's talking about getting engaged." I gave him a blank stare but relented and asked,
"Okay, is that good or bad?"
"I don't know. I don't want to go back there if it doesn't feel right."
"And does it?"
"No." He dropped his head.
"I keep thinking about what you said and what happened the last time I saw you, and I'm worried. I like her and all that but I don't think I love her." I know, you love me.
"Then don't do it, you will regret it for the rest of your life. Is she really what you want Gino? I mean she sounds pretty full-on. Do you think your ex has put her up to this to extract more money?"
"I don't know she doesn't talk about her, I was assuming they aren't friends anymore."
"They are as thick as thieves it's written all over her face and actions." I knew they were.
"How do you know?"
"I have my spies and I'm a pretty good judge of character." More biscuits arrived with a luncheon invitation which he accepted.
"I just don't know Ant. I'm so confused at the moment I don't know which way to turn."
"Dump her, she's too close to your ex and she's having a bloody good lend of you. I hate that you are being used again." I was being honest and I didn't care if I hurt his feelings.
"Ant?"
"Yes, Gino."
"You won't tell anyone what we have been doing will you." Now he wants to talk about us.
"No never, it's our secret." I brushed his hand he drew it away.
"Well thank you." That was short and sweet.
He didn't say anything more, he just nodded his head. I was glad after making small talk for the next half hour that gran called us in for lunch, the table was covered in food and Gino was in his element, it's been a while since he's eaten home-made Italian. I was thankful when my grandparents took over the conversation. I learned where he was from, what his parents did and a lot more about his personal life than before. It was a pleasant day and I said I would see him Friday when I come home.
The doctor removed the plaster on my nose and it was still a bit swollen, but I was so happy with the result, it looked perfect to me. It was a bit sore but boy was I happy, I looked at it every which way in the mirror and figured a little makeup will cover the redness and some yellowing around my eyes, but I'm not desperate to do that just yet.
I moved back into my new apartment the next day and went to get the last of my things from my old flat, Gino gave me a hand and Maria was there to carry some bags upstairs. I provided lunch for them because I had bought a big box of food home from grans and I had to get rid of it. Maria was all over Gino and his red face told me he was embarrassed. I guess he doesn't like public displays. I won't tell you what I really thought of her (airhead) because that's nasty. When they both left I sat on my balcony with wine and bawled my eyes out, it doesn't have to be like this, he should be with me, not her.
I went back to work and started running every night again because Gran had fattened me up a little. I got many compliments on my change and Cal was blown away with my new look, although I had decided to be my old self at the market, you know sweat pants, baggy t-shirt all that. He couldn't get over how my face now looked and more than once I caught him staring at me
It had been a dry year for me except when I went running, I had discovered if I ran at the same time every night I would meet my faceless cock sucker in the toilets about twice a week, it was very satisfying and I often thought I should invite him home. I even offered to do him and he couldn't wait to poke his huge uncircumcised dick through the hole. He was just what the doctor ordered, uncut and large, but I had no idea how old he was. However, by the look of his stomach muscles he wasn't a daddy, he was young, his joggers were a younger person's too. There wasn't much I could see through that hole but I fantasized he was pretty young. One night I even stood in the shadows to catch him coming out but it wasn't a good position because all I saw was a standard frame in shorts, but I knew he was young and he had a beautiful shape.
I didn't like to admit it to myself but I really enjoyed our trysts, it was more exciting than watching porn by myself and the now non-existent affair with Gino.
On my next day off I went to get my hair styled properly. In the past I kept it longish and wild, I had no reason to be coiffed to the max but somewhere between having the nose job and moving I felt I was letting all that good work down. So off I went to a local popular men's salon and basically ordered the works. A very trendy, good looking and very young guy called Mark washed, cut and blow-dried my hair, then he sculptured my three-day growth into next week. I found out he goes to the club and vaguely knows Cal and his mates, so I took it one step further and asked him for his number, he looked pretty excited and I was about to bust a nut. When he had finished I looked in the mirror and didn't recognize myself, even I thought I looked awesome. I headed for the men's shops and bought up big on trendy t-shirts and jeans, these items would be for clubbing only, not work.
To put everything into perspective my confidence has risen tenfold and I felt fantastic, I even felt better when I took Mark out for coffee, and soon after I was buried balls deep in his twink ass. He was new and so tight, and we had a lot of fun that night so I will see him again, but my inside emotions were still with Gino, every time I saw him I wished he would bend me over and do me, or at the very least let me suck on him again.
I had run into Luca quite a few times, it was unavoidable because we were the only two apartments upstairs, so we passed each other every now and then. He was bloody gorgeous and it wasn't only the Italian attraction that got me going with him, he was also pure smooth young beef, but also innocent like Mark. I sometimes would talk to him and I told him I had seen him at the bank, he told me he was in Australia for three months and was helping to launch his family's wine shops and to attend a few corporate functions. I stood there transfixed on his moving lips, at first I thought he had lipstick on but when I really looked they were a beautiful shade of pink and matched his deep olive skin tone.
From what Cal tells me he hasn't been seen at the club since that one night, I figured he may be straight and went into the wrong bar that's why no one could bed him. I liked him and he was always pleasant to me but I still saw Gino whenever I looked into his eyes. I also decided he was a very private person because he spent a lot of time in his flat, I would know if he was in there because the light from his living room would light up my balcony.
I visited Alice in her new apartment and she was very happy with her newfound freedom, and my old flat had been rented to a nice young couple while surprise, surprise, the owner had painted it out and installed a new oven. Shame he didn't do that for me when I asked, I may mention it at the next body corporate meeting which I am now entitled to go to.