Impossible Love

Impossible Love 11

The flight was long and tedious, not boring just repetitive. I was offered juice, water, sweets, ice-creams, food, more food and wine. I slept and walked up and down, I went to the toilet and cried silently into the window as I looked out and saw nothing but darkness and a flashing light.

I was so rung out when we landed and had no idea what to do or where to go, and I could still hear the jet engines in my head. I followed Federico's lead and grabbed my suitcase from the carousel and went through customs smoothly. We walked for what seemed like miles then we came to a big open space and while I was taking in the whole arrivals hall, I was grabbed from behind by two gorgeous men who started kissing me. There were many tears and many kisses for both of us and we did the same to Carlos and Leon, they looked haggard but smelt wonderful as their familiar floral aftershave emitted from their freshly shaved faces.

"There is no hurry Antonio, we will sit and have coffee for a minute so you can get adjusted," Leon said. We found a coffee shop and sat with our suitcases and friends then Leon ordered a sandwich and coffee for us all. They were talking in Italian but I didn't mind as I messaged Nono and Gino to let them know we arrived safe and sound.

"Antonio?"

"Eh, sorry I was texting family to let them know we are here."

"Ok, we were just saying that because of the family being all here at once you and uncle Federico have been assigned rooms at the Manor house, we didn't think you would want to sleep in Luca's room which is the only one available at the house."

"I wouldn't mind Carlos I could be near him there."

"We feel you would be better off at the manor house Antonio, with us." He didn't smile, but he did wink.

"You're staying there too?"

"Yes Antonio, it's best we do, momma has too much work as it is, and her cousins are there also, they are a noisy bunch when they get together, too much screaming and crying if you know what I mean."

I sort of did know but I would have coped, but it will be nice with my boys there with me and maybe I wouldn't cope with sleeping in the bed my Luca passed away in.

We finished the coffee then found the car, some sort of black SUV, which was pretty roomy. They forced me to sit up front with Carlos so he could point things out, he did a circle of the Colosseum, and a couple of other tourist spots then we hit the freeway that will take us to the family village. Almost two hours it took because he was driving slowly so I could take in the vistas. We didn't talk about Luca and I didn't want to start crying again, I think they were trying to take my mind off it by doing the tour.

The sprawling green lawn and the fountains at the manor house were all perfect when we drove through the big iron gates, it was like entering a wonderland. I lost count at fourteen chimneys on the three-story mansion, it was huge. I have seen a TV series on manor houses in Italy but I don't remember seeing this monolith, it even had its very own lake.

"Your parents restored all of this?" I asked as we pulled up in the portico.

"Yes from the ground up, many millions of Euros were spent, its primary job is weddings and corporation events Antonio, but we love it here and have our very own apartment at the back, the view is magnificent, no rooftops." Leon smiled, it was nice to see and I knew they were trying hard to make my stay a happy one, maybe they are forcing themselves to be happy also.

Our bags were taken and I was shown through a bit of this house but because it was so huge they only showed me the main rooms. The marble staircase was magnificent but we didn't take that road, we caught the lift which was off to the side in its very own little room. It took us to the third floor and we walked the rest of the way to our suites, well to our apartments. I was glad to get to the toilet to take a piss, I splashed my face and went out to the bedroom. Federico was nowhere to be seen but he left a message that he will see me at dinner, he was going to have a rest.

The boys were lying on the king-size bed and it was patted for me to jump on too, so I took my shoes off and climbed in-between them. It was like old times as we cuddled each other and cried our eyes out for our brother Luca. I was exhausted and went to sleep with them next to me.

Waking up later on I felt it move and it was dark in the room.

"Antonio, we have to attend dinner, are you feeling okay?" Leon asked.

"Yes thank you, that sleep is just what I needed."

"Well we all slept for three hours and can sleep more tonight, but for now Carlos is in the shower so let us join him."

It was nothing to them that I stripped off and joined them in the big shower recess which had two rain forest shower roses in it. Carlos was awesome in the nude and when Leon was naked he got in behind me. They soaped me up nuts and all, but no sex was mentioned or expected, we were just being together for the company.

"Antonio, can you help me a little?"

"What is it, Carlos." I had just washed my hair and I had soap everywhere.

"Can you do my ass, I can't quite reach?" He giggled.

"It would be my pleasure." I soaped his magnificent ass up and gave it the works, Leon got a hard-on as he watched from the sidelines, then he wanted me to do him. I know what they are up to, they would never cheat on each other but they do push the limits. One pushes and the other pushes back urging each other on, to play. I know how frustrating it is to me, God knows what they must feel, but it's a game they play.

We dressed in good clothes but my dick wouldn't go down, I felt guilty but the other two were much the same.

The lift took us to the ground floor and my boys looked magnificent, thank god I had bought up big on good clothes because jeans and tops didn't fit in well here from what I can see.

The banquet room was full of people and it shocked me a little as Carlos pulled me in closer, I suppose they are going to shield me. The language was all Italian and there was so much food on display my mouth started watering, I was all of a sudden very hungry.

"You are on the family table with us Antonio, please to follow me."

A beautiful woman held her hand out to shake mine, she had Luca's eye color and if I didn't know better she was a woman in her late-twenties but calculated her to be in her late thirties early forties, she was awesome and I had no idea what to say to her when I was introduced. She took me in a gentle hug and said in my ear,

"Thank you for making my son's last months a happy time for him, we are forever indebted to you Antonio, our fifth son."

"I don't know what to say to you, only I have the deepest regret I couldn't help him any more than I did."

"You helped my son a lot Antonio, we will not speak of regrets at our table, we will only speak of celebration of my beautiful Luca's life."

"Antonio, this is our mother Sabine and our father is Ramone, father this is Luca's Antonio." I turned around still holding Sabine's hand and looked straight into Luca's face, I reeled on my feet and the waterfall started again, he was the spitting image of his son, a little older but a perfect replica, I guessed they only adopted boys that looked like them.

"Please don't be sad Antonio, remember to celebrate tonight for he is around and even more now you are here with us, all his family," he said to me and held me in a hug. I felt safe in his arms and that fresh flowery smell was back again.

His mother handed me wine and a tissue. I skulled the wine and dried my eyes, this is going to be too much for me, I know it is. I followed them to a big round table and when I looked across at the next table, Federico was sitting there with some other gentlemen.

"That's the uncle's table Antonio, the auntie's table is the next then the cousins and then the town folk. The children are in the kitchens at the back, we thought it would be a little too noisy with them here also," Carlos said. I rolled my eyes because it seemed already very noisy to me.

I was seated in between Ramone and Carlos, there were only the five of us and I noticed there were two empty chairs, one in between Ramone and Sabine and one on the opposite side to me. The one between Sabine and Ramone had a gold-framed photo of Luca on it.

"That is Luca's seat, he sits between his parents from now on and the other is for Gianni, who hasn't turned up, once again," Ramone said, he then called a waiter over and they were talking.

Sabine stood up and the guests quietened down immediately.

"Tonight is a celebration of my son's life, we don't want to see any sad faces, only smiles because he was well-loved by all of us, and also made us smile whenever we were with him. Please drink up, there is plenty of wine and the food has been specially prepared and is all Luca's favourite fare. Please help yourselves and enjoy." She sat down again and asked her husband something then she said to Leon,

"Leon, please ring Gianni and find out where he is, I need to see my grandson."

Leon got up and walked through the French windows onto the vast porch. Carlos poured me another wine and it was so smooth.

"Our very finest Antonio, I believe you have had this one before."

"Yes, a lifetime ago on a balcony far from here with my dear friend."

"Then celebrate." He clinked my glass and we drank the liquid gold.

"He isn't feeling up to it mama, he's had a big day."

Sabine shook her head and seemed to be a bit annoyed with Gianni, and I think I'm about to find out why.

"Tomorrow you will go down to the caretaker's cottage and drag him and Lukas up to the house for breakfast, tell him if he and Lukas aren't there by eight-thirty I will come down and drag him out myself, get it done son."

"Lukas?" I looked at Carlos

"Lukas, Gianni's son Antonio."

"He has a son? I didn't know that, but I thought..." I cut myself off, I was being rude now.

"He was gay yes, he is Antonio but he slipped for a minute when he was caught at the swimming lake with his pants down by a gypsy girl. She placed a spell on him and nine months later she handed him a son, but then she left with her tinkers. The last we heard she was selling postcards to the tourists outside the Coliseum." He smiled.

"My god, he must be over the moon to have a son."

"He is Antonio, he's always at his side, he carts him everywhere, and I think he hasn't come tonight because he much prefers his son's company. And he's a little afraid to maybe meet you."

"Why on earth would he be afraid of meeting me? I have waved to him several times, he's even seen my dick," I whispered.

"Everyone has seen your dick, Antonio." He laughed and it was nice to hear. I went with them to get some food and it was everything that Luca liked so I had a piece of everything, almost. I sat quietly as his mother and father held court and greeted everyone at the reception, they were an awesome couple and I could see why the locals loved them so dearly. They knew everyone by name and even their children's names, and they were also very down to earth, money hadn't spoilt them.

"How did your parents make their money Carlos?" "My mother's grandfather was in shipping Antonio back when billionaires were very few on this earth. My grandparents started the winery and the rest his history."

"So you don't have to work then?" "If I didn't do what we are doing I would have a pick and shovel in my hands, my parents are very strict that we work for our meals." He grinned, good to see.

I was pretty tired after dinner and my eyes got so heavy I was falling asleep at the table, so I excused myself and retired to my apartment.

"Breakfast at eight-thirty Antonio, at the family house, the boys will bring you." I was kissed goodnight by both parents then I talked to Federico for a minute before I retired.

It was the jet lag that got to me so I stripped naked and hung my good clothes up and crawled into that huge bed in between crisp white sheets and a pillow that moulded to my head perfectly. The bed moving woke me momentarily and two handsome men crawled in and held onto me. I was too tired to play with their asses so I dropped off again. I slept well and the morning kisses were a bit over the top but I hoped my breath was still okay. My boner wasn't though as they took it in turns to play with it.

"Do you want us to masturbate you, Antonio?"

"If you don't mind." That got them heading for the showers.

"Well come on or we will be late for breakfast." I jumped out of bed and raced to meet them. We started laughing and as I soaped up I noticed the boys both had huge boners.

"Can you do something for us Antonio?"

"Anything Leon."

"Can you rim Carlos while he fucks me?"

"What? No, get a fucking life you two, I am frustrated enough thank you very much!"

"Please, he wants to try it," Leon whinged.

I jumped out and started drying myself as they stood and stared at me.

"Hurry up or we will be late," I yelled.

There were grins for miles as we walked out the front and grabbed a golf cart to go to breakfast.

"Did you enjoy washing my bum last night Antonio?" "You know I did, it's fucking awesome."

"Leon doesn't like to play with it, so you can from now on." He grinned at me, then he got a smack from Leon. `One time only, that's what we agreed upon."

"Ok." I was disappointed and so was Carlos I think, and their game continued.

I could have cum buckets in that shower, I had been storing up all week because I didn't feel the urge to have a wank at all. We went through a copse of trees and that's when I saw my Luka's vineyard, it went for miles up each side of the surrounding hills and almost in the middle was a large house, not as large as the manor house but pretty bloody big.

"Wow."

Leon stopped the machine and I got out to take some photos and to look at the view.

"It's impressive isn't it Antonio?"

"Very, I never imagined it would be this big, I take it those buildings over there is the distillery?"

"Yes, we will take you there after we finish breakfast if you like."

"I like."

We were met by nothing but smiles as we walked around to the back of the house it was covered in grapevines and a huge wooden table had been set for a meal. I took heaps of photos and felt a certain calmness. This veranda was so Italian, every cooking show, every tour guide has them in it, and now I'm a part of it, and I don't want to go home.

"Please Antonio, sit with me this morning," Sabine said, she made me sit beside her and left a spot for Luca on the other side. I noticed the photo of him had appeared again and I picked it up and smoothed my hand on his beautiful face. I shook my head and placed it back then food was coming from everywhere, but no guests.

"We are dining in private today as there are family matters to discuss." She was the iron rod of the family, but I did see a glimpse of her heart when she looked at the photo.

"Leon, Carlos, Antonio please eat, and where is that lazy good for nothing son of mine, didn't you go and talk to him, Leon?"

"Sorry mama, I did after I got caught up waiting for a shower."

"There are fifty-two showers in that place, why would you be waiting?"

"I don't know Momma, I was waiting for Antonio to finish and I think he was masturbating."

"What"?" I looked like that bloody deer caught up in the headlights again.

"You gay boys, you are a sexual lot and don't try to change the subject, Gianni, my grandson?" She shouted.

"I called him but he wouldn't come here, he said he wasn't well and to apologize."

"Well, it's not me he has to apologize to, it's Antonio his brother."

"I know momma, I will talk to him again."

"Now fill your plates, that's not enough to sustain you through the day, Ramone, eat something."

We got some more food but it was far too much, I thought about hiding some in my pockets until I remembered Nonna watching my every bite when I was younger.

I got the grand tour of the house and boy was I happy to be moving again, that food was wonderful but shit I ate so much of it.

"This is our room Antonio, and that is Luca's opposite."

"Can I go in?"

"Of course you can, and take your time, we will meet you in the kitchen."

I went into Luca's room where his big bed had been made and there was a wreath of flowers laying on it. I looked at his beautiful things and swept my hand on his pillow, I noticed a photograph of me on the bedside table when I sat on the perfectly made bed. I picked his pillow up and held it to my face. The brick came back and my tears flowed as I rocked his pillow back and forth saying silently that I was sorry. I had to pull myself together because I didn't want to stain his perfect headrest and then I saw it. Next to my photo was an envelope and a small box, it was addressed to me. I picked it up and opened it then started reading the note.

`For my handsome Antonio (not Ant). Thank you for making my last months a beautiful memory for me. I hate that we have to part and I do love you, I did from the first moment I saw you on the staircase. You have taught me that no matter what, impossible love is possible if you look for it. I am sorry, and I will love you forever. This is your heart, I am returning it to you because I won't let it die with mine, it will beat on, please do not forget me.'

I cried again and re-read the message, it was written just before he took the pills, I could tell by the shaky handwriting. I picked up the little box and opened it, a perfectly shaped ruby heart with a gold arrow placed across it with an A and L in the middle, it was beautiful and I will treasure it all of my life. I wept some more then I gave up, I replaced the pillow and put the box and letter into my jacket pocket, I then went to his bathroom and splashed my face and I joined the others.

"Did you get it?" Carlos asked.

"Yes." I was down again but tried to be positive.

"If anyone wants to read it you can, I will place it on the table so you can hold it."

His mum read it first and smiled at me followed by his dad, when they all had read it I put it back into my pocket and no more was said.

"Now we have to discuss the funeral Antonio, are you up to it?" Ramone asked.

"Poppa, can we do it some other time?" Leon asked.

"No son, it has to be now as the funeral is in two days, I am sorry."

"Okay." Leon didn't want to discuss it and I guess it's his turn to be down now.

"I want you boys to be pallbearers, I won't have my son's coffin touched by strangers. There will be us four with Gianni, and Federico has offered and was very close to his nephew."

"Yes poppa, that will be fine, Antonio are you up for it because there are many who will more than willingly take your place."

"Yes, it will be the last thing I can do for him, I am blessed to be asked."

"Good, it will start at ten on Wednesday morning followed by the family gravesite, then the manor house for the celebrations. We are having a mass so it will be a long day but I will talk to the priest to try and shorten it a bit." He smiled and winked.

"Flowers have been arranged and we each get a red rose to place on the coffin, and your momma and I have ordered a white arrangement to sit on a white coffin."

"Thank you, poppa, mama, it's going to be a hard day for all of us," Carlos said.

"Not as hard as watching his precious life waste away son." There were tears in Ramone's eyes so Sabine took his hand.

"Can you leave us alone for a moment, boys take Antonio over to the distillery for a while maybe?"

"Yes, momma." We got up and they walked across the lawns to the big sheds I had seen on our way in.

It was awesome, they showed me how the grapes were crushed and miraculously turned into wine to be stored in massive barrels in another warehouse, there were workers everywhere and I was introduced to half of the village and some very tight buns too. How could I be thinking about sex at this time? I felt awful but I knew I had to go on for Luca.

On the way back home to have an afternoon nap, they stopped at the big lake and we went towards the shore to paddle our feet, it was a very hot day. I wasn't thrown in like as I had imagined these two rascals would do. I was instead propped up against a tree and the boys laid their heads on my stomach occasionally squeezing my balls. They started reminiscing about their childhoods, and Luca's total disgust when they threw him in the water in his best church clothes, he was mortified with them and couldn't wait to tell his parents. Another time they had made a swing out of an old car tire and they would swing out and dive into the water, all except Luca, he just wanted to swing, and he wouldn't give it back. I laughed at that one because I knew he would have done that.

We three fell asleep under the shady tree and I couldn't remember when I was happier with my whole life.

My eye opened a little and I didn't want to wake the boys so I sort of dozed, but my eye did open because I heard something coming from across the lake. A man was sitting on the bank and had a baby in his arms, and the baby was crying. He did something to it and it settled down maybe a warm bottle of milk was produced? I couldn't quite see. The baby was placed in a carry basket and the man stood up, he was gobsmacking gorgeous. I could see his hair even from this distance, was jet black and curly down below his shoulders, his chest was wide and I could almost make out the two pink nipples. They were huge, and his chest the shape of a god tapered down to a slim waistline, I couldn't see his legs but I knew they would be hard as rocks and muscled to take the weight of his big frame.

It was Gianni in the flesh he was more handsome than on camera, and from what I was seeing he was fishing in the lake. He sat by the water with a pole in his hand and was dipping it now and then. My boys stirred and Carlos was the first to wake up, he looked up at me and smiled. Then Leon stirred, my nuts were played with again and I told them we had to get back home as they would be worried about us. They didn't see Gianni as they both went to take a piss, but I did, he was standing by the lake hand over his eyes and he was looking our way. I waved then went to take a pee myself.

The trip back was fun, we had all fully woken and Carlos invited me to have a game of pool with them.

"Maybe I will bend over the table Antonio and you could lick my ass?"

"Shut up Carlos, I'm warning you." Leon slapped him again.

"Sorry my love, I forgot you were here with us."

"Sure you did, and anyway what makes you think he likes your ass, he might like to lick mine?"

"Carlos laughed and answered, "He likes yours but he loooves mine." He giggled.

"Tomorrow we have to go into town for a meeting Antonio, will you be all right by yourself for a few hours?"

"Of course, I may take myself down to the lake and maybe go for a swim."

"There's a swimming pool out the back if you want a swim."

"I like the lake."

Nothing else was said and I wanted to meet Gianni before the funeral, I will take pot luck he will be there when I am. I showered and changed, I suppose the banquet room will be full again tonight so I had better dress up. I went to talk to Federico and he was in his room when I knocked.

"That flight took a lot out of me Antonio I have been sleeping for most of the day." "I haven't had time, those boys had me up at sparrows fart and over to the main house for breakfast, then the distillery and then the lake where we caught forty winks, this place is amazing."

"It is indeed Antonio, have you heard from anybody at home?"

"Not yet, I may ring grandad in the morning, have you heard from Alice?"

"Yes, everything is running smoothly, they had a good day at the market and Gino is eager to help in any way he can, so you're not to worry. When you get back home Antonio, you should think about retirement." "I can't retire, I have too much work to do."

"Do you?" He lifted an eyebrow.

"Well can I escort you to dinner at least? I suppose there will be plenty of people there again."

"No Antonio, that was a welcome dinner for you and me last night, tonight we will be in the kitchen."

"Good, there's nothing like a good old fashioned kitchen to get you into the Italian mood."

"You think so?" He laughed.

Well, my perception of an Italian kitchen is a lot different from an Italian manor house kitchen, it was as big as the reception room. There was a new part and an old part, all the old wood fires and ovens were still there. I believe they still bake the bread in the oversized ovens but when you passed through the big doors, a modern kitchen all dressed in white appeared, the ovens in here were large and there were eight of them along with eight dishwashers and four farm style sinks. It was all glass and overlooked a huge pool and I know I'm going swimming tonight.

"Good afternoon Antonio, we have gnocchi, lasagne, seafood and plain bolognaise tonight for dinner, is there something else you would prefer as I will get the cooks to prepare it for you?"

"Err no thank you, you've covered all my favourites, Mrs?"

"Mrs. Russo, Antonio. I am the housekeeper, and if there's anything you require just let me know." She smiled and went back to making her gnocchi. I have watched my Nona make it hundreds of times and the method never changes, she was doing exactly what gran did.

I opened the back door and walked outside while Federico organized some coffee, I dipped my toes in the pool, it was nice and cool so I am going for a swim tonight.

"We can organize some of the hunky farmhands to swim with you, Antonio."

"That's okay, I don't think I will drown, but if I do I will call you Leon." He had snuck up behind me.

"They swim in the nudo Antonio."

"Well in that case send six over, my ass is itchy and needs to be scratched from the inside."

I laughed, and I bet he thinks I'm serious.

Federico called us over to the big outdoor table where he had coffee, biscuits and cakes.

I munched on a biscuit, it was very nice.

"Not too many Antonio, we still have dinner to get through," Carlos said.

"Is your momma coming over?"

"No, not tonight, they have important guests."

"Good."

"Why good Antonio, I thought you liked my mother?"

"I adore her Carlos, but she's like my Nona, she force-feeds me as if I haven't got enough fat on my body."

"It looked all right to me in the shower this morning Antonio, the only fat I saw was that big log between your legs."

"And it will go right up your ass Leon if you don't shut up." I looked at Federico.

"I have heard it all before Antonio so don't worry about me, I don't mind a log up me occasionally." Federico laughed his head off at my expense and I blushed beetroot.

"We have time Antonio, in that little shed over there are some bathers, go and find a pair and go for your swim." I looked at my watch and it was only early so I thought, why not?

The bathers were typical Italian, speedos and nothing fits right, they are all too small but that's the way they are meant to be. So I picked a black pair and struggled into them, I got wolf whistles when I came out, I didn't mind that my dick was semi-hard and poking out like my old nose. I dived in and that was the end of it, so I thought.

The boys dropped their shorts and their bathers were skimpier than mine, I spent the next twenty minutes trying to avoid them. They tried everything to relieve me of my bathers but I foiled them at every turn, it was so nice to hear them laughing, I didn't mind at all. I was laughing myself, and when I got out to dry off Federico was laughing too, he called out to me that there were fresh towels left out for us. I wrapped one around me and dropped my swimmers, he was bug-eyed and I thought I would give him a flash so I lifted the towel over my ass and showed him, it was a spur of the moment thing. The problem was when I did flash, Mrs. Russo was bringing more food out and she got an eyeful too. Federico thanked me for the visual and Mrs. Russo went back inside as if nothing had happened, the boys laughed their heads off. They were less shy than me and both of them just dropped their swimmers, Federico and I got to see them and their worldly goods close up.

Later we sat with the towels around us and ate our dinner, I messaged gran and told her everything was working out okay and she wrote back that my business has grown and it was wonderful to see everyone was happy to be working for me. She also asked when I will be home and I said I didn't know so asked Federico. He said he was leaving a few days after the funeral and I felt sad, that only gave me another five days. He saw my face and said I could go home anytime I liked, and the boys said they wanted me to stay for a few weeks. I told them I would think about it.

After dinner we had wine, Federico went to bed and we skinny-dipped, the groping started again but I didn't struggle this time, I just took it on the chin.