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Subject: I?m Not Gay? Am I? Chapter 6
A trickle of sweat pours down my chest as I lay on the soft white cotton sheets. They are so white that the light tan on my skin seems to almost make me look brown. I can hear the central air conditioner system is running in the house, but it doesn?t seem to cool me. I feel the sudden urge to run and throw myself out the window, but I know the humid heat out there will feel even worse. I lay here and accept the feeling of perspiration on my skin and lay as still as I possibly can.
I know where I am. I know clearly what I have done. But I don?t feel a part of myself. I feel like I'm watching myself from the ceiling above. In the back of my mind I hear my screams but I don?t move. This must be what it is like when you are in shock. Frozen in place and unable to run, but hearing your own screams inside your head. I look own my body and see the familiar smooth skin, my building muscles, even my cock that betrays me lying on my thigh. But despite my familiar body, I'm separate - a different person than the vessel I live in.
I feel the movement next to me and hold my breath. I'm not alone in this bed - the body heat, the deep breathing, the dampness of the sheets from his sweat all remind me I am not alone. But I refuse to look at him. Maybe if I don't acknowledge him this will all be a dream.
With tiny movements I climb from the bed and step quietly into the bathroom. I grab a towel and wipe the sweat and cum from my body, and pick up a tiny brief from the floor. When I pull them on I realize they?re not mine, but I don?t care. I feel the walls close in and I have to escape. I rush from the bathroom and out the bedroom door. As I descend the stairs I hear the deep voice behind me.
"Eric? Eric?!"
I make it through the house to the deck out back, and breathe in the hot humid air, but despite the heat I feel able to gain control of myself again. Unfortunately the air not only gives me control, but it slams open the back doors of my mind that hide memories I don't want to face. The rush of images comes back to me quickly, and the face I fear the most fills my mind. Josh.
Josh. Even though it?s been a few months now, I still flinch when I think back to that day. To the moment he called me that name. Even though I knew - no I KNOW - he is wrong, it hurts to think he would say that to me. He barely speaks to me now, and I know that I am to blame for the destruction of our relationship.
I remember the moment we heard Mom and Dad downstairs. That memory always forces me to remember the second when Josh and I broke the rules of taboo in society. How can I blame him for calling me that name? How can I be mad at him, when I did what I did? His hatred of me is expected. I betrayed a trust between brothers. He had looked up to me, and I took that away from him. No wonder he hated me considering that an hour after I was with him, he found me in the hayloft with Daniel. I remember watching Josh running back toward the house and feeling the pain.
?Hey, you ok?? Daniel words came from behind me as I watched Josh run that day.
?I got to get out of here.? I replied, and walked back toward the blanket. As I looked down at it, I saw the evidence of my sickness sprayed across it and felt bile rise in my throat.
?Yeah, guess we better get out of the loft,? he said, casually grabbing up his jeans.
?I have to leave,? I said, "I have to leave." I repeated it over and over as I stared at the blanket.
Daniel came to me and wrapped me in a hug, whispering, "Josh won?t tell. This is our secret.? A small kiss landed on my lips and I shoved him away, disgusted and sickened by his action.
?I HAVE TO LEAVE! Don't you get it!? Don?t you realize what happened?! My life here is OVER! I have to get away from ALL of it - from everyone! From YOU, from Josh, from Ryan, Todd," I said, and shook with fury.
?Eric you didn?t do anything wrong. This was not wrong. And whatever happened with Josh, well, Eric it was just two people showing each other how they feel. It's ok! So you got carried away with him! He won?t tell! It is over and won't happen again because I will help you. Just like I helped you today," Daniel said.
?WHAT?! Are you crazy?! Look what we did? It cost me my little brother! I only came to you because I was confused and I needed those sick thoughts out of my mind! You could have stopped me, but you are just another one of those guys aren't you?!! You're just like Ryan! And Todd! YOU are the ones who are truly sick!"
?I felt the same way at your age. I was just as confused,? Daniel said quietly, as he stared at me.
?I?m not confused! I am not gay!!? I screamed at him.
?Whatever.? Daniel said, with a snide smirk and started to pull on his pants. Then he stopped and turned with a glare and said, ?You loved my cock inside you. You begged for it. Hell Eric ? your ass is full of my cum right now! You like it! You don?t have to label it anything. I don't! And just like me, you won?t be able to control it. Take my word for it. I've tried. You WILL be back for more and I can't wait to fuck you again!"
I didn?t even reply. I just ran. Like Josh. But instead of toward the house I ran to the field, running and crying until I finally made it to the creek and jumped in to let the water wash me clean.
Mom and Dad were oblivious to everything of course. Josh and I acted normal in front of them, but he avoided me. Lately he was either hanging with friends or spending time with his new girlfriend, Jenny. Finally in early June he had to come face-to-face with me. My parents and little sister had gone to Sunday church so we were alone in the house. I heard him go to the bathroom to shower that morning so I waited in my bed and listened. The second the bathroom door opened I stepped into the hallway and blocked his path back to his bedroom.
?Just move, I want to get to my room,? he said, staring down at his bare feet, and tightened the beige towel around his waist.
?So you are finally speaking to me?" I said with sarcasm.
?MOVE!? He yelled out at me, but looked away while he held his towel tightly.
Instantly my hands grabbed his shoulders as my anger poured out. I opened my mouth to scream back at him, but our eyes met and the world seemed to stop. He was my Josh again. I could see his handsome face, his smooth skin, the water on his bare chest, his muscled body. Everything I avoided was in front of me in my hands. And once again I felt my body stir into betrayal.
"Josh," I said softly.
"Eric," he replied, staring and our eyes locked.
Our eyes stayed together and I felt his anger disappear. I quickly embraced him and he returned it hugging me tightly. Our chests pressed together as I whispered in his ear over and over "I'm sorry". I felt his hand caress my back and we pulled away just enough so we could press our mouths together again. Passionate kissing took us over and despite the screams in my head I opened my mouth wide and let our tongues wrap together. My hands moved down and pulled the towel from him. We moved together against the wall and I quickly shoved my briefs from my body. Nude we pressed our bodies together, our cocks finally together again. We were brothers who wanted each other and we could no longer resist the desire. I took what I wanted and nothing could stop me. His hands clung to my back as I felt his incredible body, tasted his neck, and started to sink to my knees licking all of his chest. Finally my mouth encircled his amazingly huge hard cock and he screamed out with pleasure. His knees buckled and he slid down until we were face to face. We froze in silence staring in each other?s eyes. We both knew what was about to happen and the reality ripped through our taboo desire.
?Get the fuck away from me!? he screamed, as though a wild animal in fright for his life. He flew himself forward on his hands and knees, and started to scramble frantically to his bedroom. I couldn?t let him escape! I wanted and needed him! I lunged forward and grabbed one of his legs while my other hand grabbed at his hips. My eyes focused on his muscled round smooth ass that I wanted to devour! I dove for him, and my face plunged onto his warm ass cheeks and I opened my mouth and plunged my tongue onto his ass lips. I licked and shoved further tasting his ass and grabbed him by the waste shoving into his further. I pinned him to the floor and raped his hole with my tongue. His foot slammed into my forehead and I flew back off of him just long enough for him to make the final scramble into his bedroom. The door slammed shut behind him, and the lock clicked as I heard him lean against his bedroom door crying. I leaned back against the other side of the door and sobbed with him. In my mind I heard his urgent request to leave him alone and I knew Josh was right. I had to leave here. I was sick.
?Eric ? I?m sorry," Dad said that night down in his tiny work office off the barn. He used the space to hold his files and do his paperwork for the farm. It was a messy room that Mom and the rest of us avoided. I sat on the little cot he had there, while he sat at his paper strewn desk. "Your Mom and I know how much you want to go to the university. But we told you, you have to do your freshman and sophomore years at the community college here. Come on now, you got through your freshman year, you just got one more left."
?Dad, I have to go,? I said, and stared at my sneakers.
?Eric ? we don?t have the money."
?Then I will get the money! Dad, I have to get out of here. I think if I can get to Chicago and work for a year then I will have enough for the university. Please, just loan me enough to get a tiny place in Chicago. It won't be near as much as tuition," I pleaded.
?No way! You are going to school," he said sternly.
?Dad you don't understand - I HAVE to leave," I said.
"Eric - we are done! This has been decided! You have one year of school left here."
Little did I know that very night, Daniel would be the person to help me. The one person who I had avoided so well since that day in the hayloft. He found me that evening sitting out by the creek watching the sunset. I started to stand up to leave as he sat down next to me.
"Stop!" He said with authority, grabbing my shoulder and pushing me back to the grass. "I'm not going to do anything. Can't we just watch the sunset?" He said.
"I want to be alone," I said, but remained sitting. For several minutes we just sat in silence, watching the sky turn pink and golden.
"I heard you and your Dad today. Wasn't trying to, but I was in the barn and his office door was open," he said.
"So," I said with snide tone in my voice.
"Why you want to leave so bad? Because of me?"
"No," I muttered.
"Because of Josh?" Daniel said
"I just need to leave," I replied.
Within minutes I slowly started to tell him about the university tuition, the lack of money, my idea for moving to get a job in Chicago, etc. He was silent as he listened, and waited to speak until I was finished.
?Doesn?t that Ryan guy have rich parents??
?What? Ryan?! Why the fuck are you asking me about him?!? I said in shock.
?I remember he was driving a little sports car when he was out here that day. I bet his parents have some dough, don't they?? he said.
?Yeah, he?s a rich kid. So fucking what??
?You think you can get him out here to the farm again??
?Why?! What the FUCK for?!!?
?You and Ryan obviously have some sort of history. We both know he was out here for a reason besides just torturing Josh and you. I got a feeling you and Ryan are either boyfriends or something. Whatever it is, it?s a secret. And a man who has a secret AND has money is what you need.?
?What the fuck are you talking about?!?
?You want money, right? And I bet his Mom and Daddy don't know their precious son has been doing the things he's been doing. He knows you know something about him. So you tell him you are going to talk, unless he gives you cash.?
?We are not boyfriends! I am not gay!! I got nothing on Ryan!? I said, and stood.
?Just sit down, Eric. You don't have to tell me anything. I'm only trying to help you.?
I knew he was right. Daniel for some odd reason was trying to help, and he already knew almost everything including my worst secret about Josh and I. I wanted to finally say the words and tell someone.
?Ryan raped me. More than once.? Daniel motioned for me to sit down again, which I did slowly. Once I was settled I spoke again, "He did it to me in the locker room. It happened again at his house. His best friend was there and they tied me up. And there were other times with them. Doesn't matter. But that's the secret."
"Were you hurt?" Daniel said quietly.
"No. Just some bruises. Some pain I had to deal with from... from you know," I said, embarrassed.
"Did anyone else see it? You got any proof?"
"No, we were always alone," I muttered.
?Did you like it?? Daniel said, looking at me.
?What?!?
?Did you like it?"
"Why would you ask me that?!"
"Because you liked what I did to you. And from what I saw with Ryan, he probably did that to you because he likes to fuck guys. So it was less about attacking you and more about having a bit of your ass," Daniel said bluntly.
"So what are you saying? That I'm lying and I was having a good time?!!" I blurted at him.
"No. I am only asking if you liked it because I want to know if you are willing to let it happen again. It would be the best way to get some evidence and then you could get cash out of him.? Daniel said, and stared at me.
?What are you talking about?! He RAPED me! What you want me to do ? ask him to do it to me again?!!? I screamed at him.
?Yeah! Why not?! Come on! How would it be any different than you coming to me in the hayloft?! You wanted me to fuck you and you loved it! So did I! And I bet Ryan loves giving it to you too. So let him! But this time you not only get a hot fuck, you will get the evidence you need to get cash from him!? Daniel said and smiled.
I couldn?t speak as I searched his eyes for answers.
?Eric, get him back out here to the farm. Remember those cameras your Dad and I installed when the horses were foaling so we could keep an eye on them round the clock? They are perfect for getting your evidence! You get Ryan out here and I can help you. If we could get video of him and you ? you'd have all the evidence you need! And I bet that punk would pay you a pretty penny something for that video!"
Daniel?s face shown with excitement. I was sickened by the idea, but I also knew in the back of my mind it was a possible plan that could work. It would not only give me power over Ryan so I could stop him from ever attacking me again, it could also mean I may get enough money out of him to get off this farm! Away from Josh. Away from everything.
?You are fucking crazy, Daniel,? I said softly as my hope faded and I realized what this would mean for me. ?I am not gay. And I just can?t be raped again.?
Daniel reached his arm around me and I tried to shove back, but he was stronger than me and held me tight. I finally relented and returned the embrace and we laid back on the grass as the last bit of sunlight faded into night. When we kissed it was quiet, as though two friends just enjoying time together.
"You see - you can handle a kiss. Eric, this plan could seriously work. I know you think it is wrong, but wouldn?t it be worth it just once more for the money. And wouldn't it be great to see that asshole squirm when we tell him we have a video tape!" Daniel said, looking in my eyes.
"Dan, I just can't. I know you can?t believe this but I am not what you think. I?m not gay! And I can?t let anything like that happen again to me," I said softly as he held me.
Daniel's right hand reached up and unbuttoned my shorts. I immediately grabbed him hand to resist, but his voice was direct and urgent.
"Eric - just let me show you something," he said as he worked further unbuttoning until my shorts were open and my cock was exposed. In slow motion I watched as he licked his lips and leaned down. I immediately felt those amazing sensations again on my cock and I couldn?t resist this time. I didn?t care, I just wanted to feel good again. I arched my back and closed my eyes, pushing my hips forward and giving my entre cock to the mouth. My mind filled with Josh once again. It took only a minute before I felt the exquisite pleasure of my cum spraying into Josh?s mouth.
Seconds later as I opened my eyes I looked at Daniel who was sitting up beside me.
"You thought about Josh didn't you?"
I nodded my "yes".
"All you have to do is pretend it is Josh when you are with Ryan. You only have to do it one last time. I will help you this last time with Ryan," he said.
"Why would you help me?" I replied, buttoning up and sitting again.
"Because I know how scared you are. I ran too when I was your age," he said.
"Did you run far?" I whispered to him, but the dark has already started to conceal him in shadows.
"I'm still running, Eric. I only took this job here to hide from myself and my temptations. Funny thing is, being here has only made the temptations worse," he replied. "If you stay on the farm, it would make it harder for me too. You better get back up to the house. Go on back and think about it. Let me know in the morning if you want to set him up," Daniel said as he stood and walked away into the darkness.
The next morning Daniel and I met up in his trailer out back just long enough to iron out the specifics. All I had to do was get Ryan to the farm, up into the hayloft, and in a compromising position for the video. Daniel agreed to take care of the rest including the camera set up, the video recorder, the hay loft prep, and the actual blackmail process. Ryan was already afraid of Daniel, so he would take the threat more seriously from him.
?I NEED TO SEE YOU. COME TO THE FARM TOMORROW AT 2PM. WE WILL BE ALONE.? That was the simple text I wrote to Ryan, and it got an immediate reply.
?WHY?? He replied.
Daniel helped me write my response. ?YOU WANT MORE OF MY ASS, DON?T YOU?? All I had to do was wait to see if it worked.
And it did, because the next day Ryan's little sports car rolled up the drive. Despite his darkened car window, I felt the shiver up my spine and knew it was him behind the wheel.
When he stepped out of his car, he looked even bigger and more threatening than the last time I had seen him. He looked ever more like a male model too, much more of a man. Like he had gone from high school punk to college jock stud over the past few months.
?We alone?? Ryan said as he walked over where I sat on the white fencing by the barn.
?Yup,? I said, and looked in his face, confronting my fear.
?Where?s your brother? Or that loser guy with his shovel?? Ryan said with a smirk.
?We are alone,? I repeated.
?So faggot, why is it you wanted to see me so bad??
I wanted to say many things in reply, but I swallowed the lump in my throat and forced myself to say what I needed to say.
?Because I need your cock.?
I remember how he blinked in shock, but said nothing in reply.
?You were right. You?ve always been right. I liked what we did in the locker room. I loved it at your house with Todd too. So I want you to fuck me again.? I said it for Josh, for me. To end this all.
Ryan stared at me and whispered without emotion, "Todd's in my car."
I wasn?t prepared for that, but I knew I had to pretend I didn?t care. ?So,? I said.
?We came out here to fuck you up, not to fuck you? he said, still staring at me.
?You both like to fuck me so why not do that instead,? I replied.
?I?ll give you want you want, but what we going to do with Todd,? he whispered back to me. It hit me at that moment the tables were turning. Ryan was actually asking for help. He wanted me, and he wanted Todd to join in. Just like at his house by the pool that day. I never wanted to relive that same attack, but if it meant this would all be over with then I knew I could let them do what they wanted to me.
?You want his cock just like I want yours. Don?t you, Ryan,? I said in reply to his stare.
?I?m not some sick fag like you are,? he replied, but still whispering.
?I got a blanket laid out in the hayloft. It's the perfect place for you and I. So if you want Todd to join us probably the only way is for him to make him think he's attacking me. Just like that day at your house, right.?
Ryan answered me quietly, ?Yeah, we need to make him think I this is about paying you back for stuff. If we get him up to the loft, I'm pretty sure he'll join in. But you have to put up some resistance. And you have to make sure he gets undressed too," Ryan said confidently, his eyes shining with excitement. I glanced back at his car behind us and knew that Todd was now to be Ryan's victim too.
?You want me as much as I want you, don't you Ryan?? I said it, staring at him straight in the eyes. I wanted to hear the loser admit what a faggot he was.
Ryan squinted back at me in the afternoon sun. I could tell he was unsure how to answer, but finally he said, ?Yeah, I want to fuck your sweet ass again and his too.?
?Then let?s do it.? I said, and raised my fist, slamming it into his face.
I didn?t wait to look behind me, I ran to the hayloft and waited until I saw Ryan?s head pop up from the ladder through the floor. His smile told me Todd must be close behind.
"He's coming," Ryan whispered to me, smiling broadly. Todd's body flew through the opening of the floor, and he stood breathing deeply with anger on his face. Just like Ryan he looked bigger, more muscled, more handsome than ever. The summer tan he had shown on his brown skin bulging from his white tank top.
?Come on, Todd! I?m going to fuck up this faggot!? Ryan screamed with the voice he used every time he had attacked me in the past. He bounded over to the blanket, grabbing me by the neck, and plunging his fist into my side. Once again, I felt fear course through my body as I accepted my victim role.
The blows came from both of them, and I put up a strong resistance even landing hits to Ryan's chest and Todd's side. Eventually I was falling to my knees and Ryan quickly used that moment to unzip and shove himself to my mouth. I heard my mind screaming out to stop, but I did what I had to do and slurped it down. I performed my role, and it only took seconds before Todd was unzipping and demanding the same from me.
?Yeah, faggot,? Ryan breathed out.
?Fuck yeah, suck me, faggot,? Todd said as he spit on my face. I did what was necessary and worked on them both, but tried to act resistant.
?Yeah, let?s rape this worthless shit,? Ryan said and pulled his cock from my stretched mouth and tore off what few clothes I had worn. Ryan quickly removed his own as he watched me service Todd. I remembered I had to do my part to get Todd involved further, so I reached up and tore his tank top down the center, exposing his massive pecs. That angered him enough to push up his violence level as he stepped back and kicked off his shorts, and forced me back down on him. When I felt the pressure behind me part of me was excited because I knew the pain would mean I had finally given the camera enough evidence to use on Ryan. Pain plowed through me as a cock shoved inside me.
I closed my eyes and accepted the pain. It wasn't long before the pounding turned to pleasure. Pain only returned when Todd switched places with Ryan because he was so much bigger inside of me. I took the abuse though because I wanted as much on video as I could get. Daniel had warned me I needed to go all the way with the attack to make sure we had enough evidence. So as a good victim I became their pleasure hole. Over and over I was used, back and forth they used my mouth and my hole. Until at one point I was pushed to the side and Ryan took my face quickly, accepting Todd massive dick up his ass.
"Ryan! Get off me!" Todd yelled out as he opened his eyes to realize it was no longer me he was fucking. But Ryan only stared back at him and said, "Todd - come on. Todd's eyes closed and he began to give Ryan what he wanted.
?Oh god, yeah, fuck me,? Ryan begged as they went passed their lines of friendship and became what they truly were. I watched my former rapists fuck! They are the true faggots. Power burned through me and fear left me. I stood and moved over to Todd, standing with his face at my waist and I pulled his head violently and slammed my cock into his mouth.
Excitement over took Todd as he feasted on me. His hunger for me seemed intense as he pulled himself out of Ryan, pushed me to the blanket and positioned himself over me.
?Eric, you are so fucking hot!? He said looking down at me. Our eyes locked and I remember feeling my body quiver. At that exact moment we both started to blast ropes and ropes of cum on each other. His large wads of cum slammed on my chin, and chest while at the same moment Ryan stood over us shooting himself onto Todd's back.
The second it was over clarity went through my mind and I snapped into action. I had done all this for the plan.
?DANIEL!? I hollered, and pulled my cum covered body from them and crawled to my feet.
Daniel was already standing off to the side and was laughing, ?Hey boys! Thanks for the show.?
?Who the fuck are you?? Todd had muttered and stood up, while Ryan jumped up to grab at his clothing.
?HOLD IT!!!? Daniel voice was loud and piercing, ?No one does anything until I saw so!"
With a smile Daniel pointed at the camera mounted on the north wall, ?See that? It recorded a beautiful video of you guys. So if you?re smart you?ll do exactly as I say if you want to ever get that video tape from me. All I need is cooperation.?
?What the fuck?? Todd said, looking at me for an explanation.
?Shut up!? Daniel said, and in a flash lunged forward throwing Ryan to the blanket, pinning him with his knees and wrapping a large rope around his wrists and ankles. Daniel?s horse roping skills prove excellent because Ryan wasn?t so cocky as he laid silently on the blanket, naked and restrained.
?KNEEL!? He screamed at Todd, who quickly obliged and was easily tied up as well by Daniel.
Daniel grabbed the pitchfork leaning on the wall, and ran the handle end slowly between Ryan?s bare ass cheeks. ?So punk! You been picking on Eric, eh? Funny how you like to call him a faggot when I see just who the real gay one is.? With a quick push, the handle plunged into Ryan?s ass, but Ryan was quiet and his only reaction was tears in his eyes.
?So you like that up your ass, Ryan?!? Daniel said softly, and leaned forward. "You wish that was my big cock up your ass instead, don?t you?!?
This was not part of the plan I had made with Daniel. I watched in shock as the pitchfork was used on Ryan, until finally it was tossed to the side. When Daniel started to remove his own clothing I did not move, but only observed as Ryan was flipped over and pulled up to his knees. No words were spoken, as Ryan was forced to perform his own mouth skills on Daniel. Eventually Daniel pushed Ryan back to the blanket and pulled Todd up to continue the same act on his now hard cock. Todd resisted with a volley of profanity but Daniel grabbed Todd's jet black hair and screamed into his face, ?SUCK IT NOW BEFORE I KILL YOU, FAGGOT!? Todd slowly opened and did as as he was told.
Ryan watched in rapt attention and Daniel fucked Todd?s face, and his obvious excitement was evident. I felt my own excitement and hated the way my body betrayed me again, but I loved seeing my attackers being forced to do the things they had forced me to do.
Several minutes later Todd was jerked back from Daniel and shoved forward to the blanket. Daniel screamed to him. "NOW SUCK YOUR BEST FRIEND!"
Todd looked stricken with terror as he faced Ryan, but Ryan widened his legs offering himself to his friend. Daniel grabbed Todd's hair and shoved him down, forcing him to do the act. I watched in fascination as Todd did as he was told, and Ryan moved his hips in excitement. Todd faced was filled with disgust, but he did what he needed to. When Daniel forced them to switch Ryan was excited and was the reverse. It was apparent he loved having to return the action to Todd.
Minutes later Daniel pulled them apart, pulled Ryan up by his hair and affixed a large rope to the his wrists. As he tossed the large rope over a rafter beam above, he quickly pulled Ryan up into the hair so he was dangling above the floor. He secured the rope and then moved to the side wall and picked up a long lasso rope I had never seen before.
"You were enjoying it too much, so now you have to pay for it," Daniel said through clenched teeth and swung the rope, slashing across Ryan's back, which created a large red welt. The scream from Ryan must have echoed across the entire farm. It continued - slash after slash as Ryan was whipped into submission. I watched in horror, but then in fascination as I noticed both Daniel and Ryan's obvious excitement as their cocks seemed to grow bigger and harder with the whipping.
I moved over to Todd and helped him untie himself. Something told me I had to get him out of there before he was next. But we both were mesmerized with the scene as the whip was dropped, the rope untied and Ryan and Daniel moved back to the blanket and begin to start intense mutual sex.
?What the fuck?? Todd whispered to me, as we watched in shock and saw Daniel position himself between Ryan?s legs, and shove into Ryan. Todd and I picked up our clothes and climbed down from the loft. We turned and faced each other.
?What the fuck is going on, Eric?? Todd softly said to me.
?Who cares. I don?t care about anything other than that video. That?s what this was about,? I said.
Todd dropped his clothes, knocked mine from my hand, and violently grabbed me by the shoulders with a look of terror, ?I need that video!"
?You give me money, and you get the video tape.? I said through my gritted teeth, and glared into his eyes.
?Eric, please,? he slowly whispered, his eyes filled with terror. ?Eric, show me where the video machine is that recorded all this.?
I shoved him off me, and stepped from his grip. A switch flipped in my mind as I realized the loser pleading was the same guy who had raped me! Contempt filled me for the pathetic loser and my hands clenched into fists as Todd stood before me.
?SHUT UP FAGGOT!? I screamed, and flew at him. His body flew back from my violent push, and he slammed into a wooden wall. My fists pounded into him as I paid back my attacker. Over and over I rammed his body as he tried to fight back but my fury over took him. His fist hit my face only a couple of times as I pounded him like a wild man out of control. Within minutes I had him pinned against a barn gate, my fists connecting again and again with his muscled body.
?ERIC! FUCK ERIC, STOPPPPP!? His vice was a wail that broke through my fury and made me stop. In that same moment I could hear above us the sounds of Ryan and Daniel give obvious pleasure to each other. The sounds seemed to make me react, because in that instant I tossed Todd over the low gate, bending him at the waist, his legs spread wide to reveal his ass lips. It was time Todd felt exactly what I was forced to feel. I gripped him by the hair and pulled his head back and whispered in his ear.
?You think you can rape me and get away with it, you fucking faggot?!" With that I thrust my my hand forward into the cheeks of his ass, shoving my fingers deep into his male pussy hole.
?STOPPPP!? Todd screamed out, but my body weight held him in place. I shoved harder, and raped his ass with my hand. The more I shoved the harder he screamed, while above me in the loft I heard Daniel's voice roar, ?This is for Eric?.
I felt such pleasure as Ryan?s and Todd?s screams of pain filled the barn. I was getting my revenge and the satisfaction made me feel lust for the scene. The lust made my whole body tingle, and I looked down to see how excitement had filled my cock with blood. It was time to get my ultimate revenge, so I pulled my hand from his hole and shoved my entire cock up his ass.
Todd?s scream echoed throughout the barn, mixing with Ryan?s scream from above, which only made me shove again harder. In my mind I saw all the abuse and rapes, so I pounded the faggot below me. It only took a minute before I felt the convulsion course through me as reached the pinnacle of my revenge on Todd and I burst my cum inside him. It wasn?t until I finished my release did I realize Todd had no longer been screaming, but he had been saying my name in pleasure.
I pulled my hard cock from his ass and backed away while he stood and faced me. ?Where is the video machine that is connected to the camera, Eric?? Todd asked me.
?In my Dad?s office off the barn,? I said, no longer caring if he took the tape and left. I got my revenge today. Todd I had handled, and Ryan was receiving his punishment in the loft above us. I didn't even care about the money anymore.
?Show me,? he said calmly. We walked through the barn together and I showed him into my Dad's office and the video recorder. Todd quickly stopped the machine and the image of Daniel fucking Ryan in the loft above disappeared from the monitor. The tape ejected into his hands.
?Thanks Eric,? Todd said, and turned to face me. ?I need to get out of here. Can you give me a ride back into town??
?No? I said, and walked out of the office, back to my pile of clothes across the barn.
We both stood next to each other and dressed. Above us we heard Ryan?s moans of pleasure, and his words yelled out ?Oh fuck me, fuck me harder.?
Todd looked at me and whispered, ?You help me get back to town, and I will help you use this tape to get money from Ryan.? His face was strong and determined.
"Blackmail, Ryan. I know him, he will pay you whatever you ask. He's loaded. I will tell him I gave you money, but that the video doesn't come back to me until he pays you also. I promise. I just have to keep the video Eric. I can't risk anyone know about all this," Todd said, and looked at me for an urgent reply.
"Why are you helping me?? I said, confused.
?I want to get out of here and I don?t want anything more to do with Ryan. Only you can give me a ride back to town. And maybe I owe you," he mumbled.
I drove silently into town, Todd next to me in my passenger seat, holding the video. As we pulled into his parent?s driveway, I turned off the car engine and sat in silence staring ahead.
?Why do you want money so badly that you did all this today?? Todd said softly.
?I want to get out of this town and start college in Chicago. My parents can?t afford to send me.?
?So you decided to get fucked on a video just to get the money.?
?I gotta go, Todd,? I said and reached for the ignition. But his brown hand encased mine and he stopped me.
?Are you really not gay?? His voice was barely a whisper, as his hand remained on mine.
?No, I?m not gay,? I said.
?You just fucked me, Eric.? Todd whispered.
?I raped you. I was paying you back.? I said, softly.
?Do you think Ryan is gay??
?How the fuck would I know? I don?t even care!?
"Did you see him go down on me?! He loved it!"
"I don't care. I just want the money."
Silence echoed loudly in my car for a few minutes, until finally Todd spoke. ?Ever wonder what it's like. You know, to be, well, to be gay??
I swallowed the lump in my throat, because I heard the fear in his voice. My reply was quiet, ?Yes.?
?Sometimes it felt good? he said.
?Yeah,? I heard myself say.
?I?m sorry? Todd whispered softly and released my hand. When I heard those words from him, tears started to run down my face. I had just wanted to know someone was sorry for everything that had done to me. For several minutes we sat, as I brushed away the tears. When he got out of my car, I watched him walk around and open my car door.
?Come on. My parents are traveling so I got the house to myself. You know you can?t go back to the farm while those two are still going at it. Come in,? he motioned.
The house was large and expensively furnish. Not as opulent as Ryan?s family house, but almost as nice. In the kitchen he handed me a beer, and we both guzzled one down quickly. He grabbed two more and we drank them, and he removed his shirt to look at the scrap wound I had given him.
"You better shower," I said. "The wound is kinda dirty. Clean it first and I will take care of it after your shower."
?Yeah, guess we both are a little gross. You want to shower?? he asked. He grabbed the antiseptic from my hand and left the kitchen while I followed him like a robot through the house, up the stairs into what was obviously his bedroom. In the bathroom I flicked on the shower and he motioned me to go first while he started to brush. I quickly removed my clothes and stepped under the water. It felt amazing to finally wash myself clean again. But it was then I heard the shower door slide open behind me. I slowly turned around and saw Todd standing naked again in front of me.
He stepped closer to me until we were only inches apart. In the brightness of the bathroom light our contrasting skin color was vibrant. Mine creamy white, next to his brown smoothness.
?I just want to know what its like,? he said, and blinked back the water on his long black eyelashes.
?We are not gay, Todd,? I said. "We can't."
?I?m sorry Eric,? he said again to me, and I felt my body shake. ?I?m so sorry,? he whispered again, but the sound was drowned out because his lips we moving against mine. I was pulled into his embrace and opened my mouth to accept his kiss.
We moved back under the water, kissed passionately and let our hands feel each other?s body. Our cocks ground together as we relented and let our sick lust take over.
?Eric, Eric?. I want you so much,? he said, as he ravaged my body and licked down me, and took me into his eager mouth. I looked down at my brown Mexican attacker as he worked on my hard cock.
?Say it, Eric.? My voice was a command.
Todd froze, my cock between his lips as he looked up at me confused.
?You know what you are. Say it, faggot.? I commanded.
My cock slide between his thick lips until it slapped back against my abs. Our eyes met and his lips moved. I heard his whisper.
?I?m a faggot.?
With that I grabbed his head and rammed my thick dick back between those soft lips and started to fuck his face. He seemed to worship me as he cleansed me and tasted me over and over. Minutes later he bent for me like in the barn, but this time he grabbed his ankles in eagerness and widened his legs. I gave him what he wanted and plowed deeply into him, and it only took seconds for me to release another one of my loads up his ass hole
Back in his bedroom we toweled off in silence. When I tossed my towel on his bed and reached for my jeans I heard him say to me, ?You won?t tell anyone??
?No,? I said.
?I meant what I said. I will help you get his money,? Todd replied.
?Thanks. I should go,? I said in reply.
As I opened my jeans and bent to step into them, I saw his towel open and drop slowly to the floor. I didn't move as I saw his brown feet step over to his bed and I watched his muscular legs slide up onto the mattress. When he settled on to the bed I finally looked over at him. His smooth skin was such a stark brown on his white sheets, and I felt a shiver seize through my body. We locked eyes as I stood up straight and looked at him in question. I watched his full lips move.
?Eric, it felt amazing. It's your turn. You know want to know what?s it feel like to. Let me show you,? he said and pulled back his covers and for me to come to him.
?I?m not gay,? I whispered.
?You know you don't want to leave," he whispered.
"Todd, this is wrong. I have to leave," my voice whispered back.
"Eric," he whispered and reached out his hand. I felt the warm strength of his hand as I let him guide me onto his mattress. I looked over at him and let myself hear my own thoughts. Desire flooded over my body. Every time he had raped me, my body had loved it. I loved his cock, I loved his incredible body. I loved his muscles, his chest, his full lips.
With a smile on his face he slowly reached behind his bed and pulled out a big bottle of lube. I had never even seen anything like since my days with Sarah. I felt a shiver of anticipation to try it with Todd. I was anxious to know how it would make Todd feel inside me. I eagerly raised my legs and helped him pour it on my hole. It felt silky as it coated my hole, and I felt lust seize my brain as I ached for Todd?s cock. I realized this time I was about to make a conscious decision to say what I wanted to say. When the words came from my mouth, they shocked me.
?Fuck me, Todd.?
His cock pierced my hole and plunged inside of me.
Daniel's voice is clear in my ear as he picks up his phone back on the farm. He would be shocked to know I am standing in Todd' kitchen now wearing Todd's briefs.
"Hey, it's Eric" I said quietly so that Todd upstairs can not hear I am using the phone.
"Hey! Where the hell are you?! What happened with you and Todd? You missed watching me with Ryan!" I could tell he was excited from his performance today.
"I just want to make sure Ryan is gone before I come back," I reply quietly.
"Yeah he's gone. Come on back - I got a lot to tell you, plus I want to hear all about you and Todd. I heard him screaming! Oh and guess what?! How does $10,000 sound? Ryan agreed to get it to me by tomorrow morning, but where the fuck is the video tape?!
I felt the smile on my face, but held back my excitement. "I got it, don't worry. I'll be home in a bit. See you then," I whispered and hung up.
As I climb the stairs again, I know I have to grab the video tape off the dresser where Todd laid it. I finally will have everything I wanted! I got my revenge on Ryan, and Todd. And I got enough money to get me off the farm, away from Josh and Daniel. I feel hope enter my soul and I know I'm finally free of all this.
When I step into Todd's bedroom door way my hope seems to fade though as I see him stretched out across the bed, his smooth brown body, his massive manhood, his muscles still shiny with sweat. His gleaming white smile is intoxicating.
"Hey, there you are," he says.
"I gotta go," I mutter.
I look over at the black video tape on the dresser. I turned and see my jeans on the floor. And I see the images of Josh and Daniel in my mind. It's all over - finally. I can be free of all this.
"Don't go," Todd says, and I look over to see him in his bed. His eyes are looking away, embarrassed at his own request.
"Todd - we can't. I can't be this way anymore. We tried it, it?s over."
We both look way from each other as our bodies ache to be together. I try to squeeze my lips shut, but the words come from my mouth. "Can I stay the night?"
"Yes," is his immediate reply as he stares up at me. "Just once more, Eric" he says stretching his hand out to me.
I feel his hand in mine as I climb into the bed next to him and I look up at him. I promise myself I will only say these words one more time.
"Todd, fuck me.
I close my ayes as I feel his mouth lower to my chest. I only hear the quiet purr of the air conditioner as I raise my legs.
TO BE CONTINUED...
Hope you are enjoying the story. Per some reader requests, I allowed Eric to finally get some form of revenge on his attackers. But as you can tell, not all revenge turns out as planned. Now Eric has what he needs to leave the farm and start a new life. Will he be able to finally step away from his family and end his temptations? Will he start a new beginning? Or will his confusion lead him on a path toward more temptation. I hope you will stick around with me to find out, and enjoy some pleasure with Eric like I do. You can email with your comments, questions, or whatever. Send them to mheast111@hotmail.com