I Woke Up 196 by M.P. Arsent
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I understand you are looking for me. I don't wish
to be found. I have also been given to understand
that it is only that you wish to connect with me as
I appear to be your only living relative. I do
understand the desire, but at this time, it just
isn't going to happen.
It may at some future date and I hope you can accept
that I have taken this time away from everyone as I
need to think my life through.
I understand that you have a husband and for that I
am grateful that you have someone to look out for you.
Please don't try and backtrace this email. It would
be a waste of time. Likewise you cannot reply to it.
If contact is to be established I will make it.
I hope that you can see it in your heart as I do
believe that we are brothers, it is just that I am
at a point in my life where I have to make decisions
and I can't be dealing with other things right now.
T.S.
So there it was. He was out there but he didn't want to have anything to do with me, at least at this point.
Karl must have seen the look on my face.
"Den?"
When I just sat there he came over and wrapped his arms around me.
"What the hell Den?"
I just pointed to the computer and he read it for himself.
"Look at the up side lover. He is out there and the door hasn't been completely shut on you. He says 'at this time'. There's some hope that he might eventually get back to you."
"Sure as hell doesn't feel that way."
"You gotta keep hope husband mine, right up until the time he slams that door and locks it, which he hasn't done in my opinion."
"Maybe not, but it still hurts Karl. This is just for us for now. I don't want anybody else knowing."
"Nobody elses business to know Den, except maybe the lawyers."
"Not even theirs at this point."
"Shut the thing down and let's call it a night Den. I've got a feeling it is going to take you forever to fall asleep tonight."
"You got that right. You go ahead I don't think I'll be fit company tonight,"
"Bullshit Den. Least I can do is hold you tonight."
"Fine."
We moved into the bedroom and stripped and climbed into bed. Karl spooned up against me and wrapped an arm around me.
I don't know how long I laid there before I eventually fell asleep, and I must have as the alarm was waking me up.
"I suppose we had better get to it Karl. The guys will be waiting on us,"
"Yes I guess so. Better paste a smile on your face when we get there or they are all going to know something is up."
"Don't think I'm that good an actor Karl but I'll try."
So we were out of the apartment an over to campus and did our laps with the guys. Paul wasn't dragging quite so bad today at the end of it.
Luckily no questions were asked so no lies had to be told,even though it was pretty obvious to Aiden and Gordon that something was up. Karl and I got back and had our breakfast and showered up and were soon back on campus.
My first class was gotten through without any problem. The second class, with Mr McEmbers was a different kettle of fish.
"Mr Sawyer, if you have a moment before you leave?"
I stepped down to talk to him and he waited until after everyone had left.
"You look a little out of it Dennis. Is everything ok?"
"As far as class work, yes sir."
"Then I take it whatever is bothering you is a private issue?"
"It is."
"Well just remember that I'm here if it's something you ever need to talk about."
"Thank you I will. Just something I have to come to terms with I guess."
"Well I hope you do it soon. I'd hate to see you having problems in your classes or on the mats. Nice job by the way."
"I'll try not to let it interfer in either place. Have a good day."
I turned and left and headed outside to help clear my head.
What could Thomas be facing that was this disconcerting? I mean it had to be something huge for him to still be wrestling with it 2 to 3 years later. Could he be trying to deal with the fact that he was gay as well? I had never seen or heard of anything to indicate that twins shared that trait;nor that they didn't for that matter. I did at that point remember what Gordons dad had said about it. Something to the effect that they had looked at twins in the studies and found no conclusive evidence in either direction.
I had to get my mind off of this and it was still a while until my last class. Not enough time to go over to the rec center for any kind of workout though.
Carlton and Devon wandered into my view and as almost always they were tossing a frisbee. They saw me and it sailed my way and we kept it going for a bit, but my heart wasn't in it. It eventually got to be time to head over to the last class of the day. It was gotten through with a minimum of aggrevation and I headed home.
While I waited for Karl to get home I went about checking my imaginary portfolio and found that one mutual had taken a good sized dip. I went to investigating and found that particular fund had a bunch of overseas investments. I started checking the individual stocks within the fund and found that they were all energy related.
So it looked like my theory was starting to be realized. I shopped around for another fund to invest in, and made the trade and made a good set of notes as to why I had made the trade. I was up for my review next and I knew the professor would want my reasoning.
At some point Karl had called and I had gotten something into the oven for supper. Karl didn't interupt me while I was working and when I finished he came and gave me a hug.
"Doing better this afternoon lover?"
"Yeah I managed to forget about it for a whole hour and a half."
Our supper was ready shortly after that and Karl did his classwork while I cleaned up. We went to bed fairly early as I hadn't slept all that well the night before.
Tuesday morning and we were up and out and then back to the apartment. Karl was off to classes and I just kind of hung out until it was time to go to class.
It was the usual 15 minute discussion and then reviews.
"You bailed on this particular fund awfully quick Mr Sawyer and given our previous review I suppose I can understand why you reacted the way you did. Still you should have given the fund a chance to react."
"I could have, but as you said, given our previous review I didn't feel it wise to wait."
"I can see your reasoning. Well you look to be in fine shape so far. We'll talk again next week."
So now I had time to kill if I was going to go over to the rec center to work out in the apparatus room. I didn't think my mind would be on my work today as Thomas was still bothering me.
I decided to head over anyway and get some pool time in. I was in the locker room and changed up into my bathing suit when coach walked by.
"Not working out with us today Dennis?"
"No sir, my mind wouldn't be on it today and we both know that leads to accidents."
"It does. Anything I can help you with?"
"No sir. It's something I have to work out for myself."
"Well regardless take it easy and be careful."
"Yes sir."
I went to the pool which was fairly empty at this time of day and just started swimming laps. I don't know how long I was in there but it must have been at least an hour and a half. I got out and headed for the whirlpool. There was somebody in it but I didn't think much of it. I sank down into the hot water and zoned.
Somebody poked me in the arm and I turned to see Randy Porter sitting there.
"Damn Dennis are you ok? Five minutes and you haven't said a word."
"Sorry Randy. Minds on other things today."
"Must be something pretty heavy for you to be that oblivious."
"Only to me and really it's not up for discussion."
"Have it your way Dennis. Good job over the weekend by the way. We didn't have a game so I got to go over and watch the team."
"Open your eyes a little did it?"
"Yeah, well you did that last semester, but I can appreciate the effort more now that's for sure. It's a home game this weekend. Will I see you there?"
"That pretty much depends on what happens during the rest of the week Randy, but I'll try to be."
We soaked for a bit more and then I hit the shower and was on my way home.
I had called Karl before I left and our supper was ready shortly after I pulled in. As usual the plan was for a quiet night. I went and checked my imaginary portfolio and as I hadn't done it in quite some time, I checked to see how my real portfolio was performing. I was happy on both counts.
While I had the computer up I checked my email. There were two things that caught my attention. One was from the frat and the other from the lawyers.
There was going to be a meeting of membership at the house on Friday evening. There was no mention of the agenda, but it had to be something serious I thought as there hadn't been a meeting called all of last year. I sent back a quick acknowledgement that I had seen the message. This was going to worry me for the next few days.
The district attorney had finally decided to move forward with the case against Larry Browns father. It was expected that I needed to make an appearance and this was just a heads up. They also wanted to know if I wanted to have them keep searching for Thomas.
I dashed off a reply telling them to stop any further searching. Did I still want to meet my brother? Hell yes, but whatever was going on in his life he deserved the time to work it out without being harrassed by me.