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I Wanna Know What Love Is Chap 12
The kiss was magical, it was mind boggling and it was everything Aiden had hoped it would be for his first kiss with Jules. Time seemed to slow to a crawl and it seemed like an hour of kissing had gone by, when it was actually less then a minute. Aiden set Jules on feet but still held him close, they smiled as they stared in each other's eyes. All of a sudden the smile on Jules' face swept away and was replaced by a look of shock, then a look of horror.
He covered his mouth with his hands and stepped away from Aiden. He kept walking backwards away from him, trying to put as much distance between them as possible. Jules couldn't believe what just happened, his best friend and someone he treated as a brother just confessed his love to him and then they kissed. Jules turned around and broke out into a sprint back towards his house, leaving Aiden just standing there confused and a little hurt.
Jules ran through his front door and up to his room where he closed the door and locked it. He didn't know what to do or how to feel, he wasn't even sure it really even happened. His head was swimming with emotions that he was slowly loosing control of. His chest started to get tight and his breathing was becoming labored, his eye sight became blurry and he was getting dizzy. He walked into his bathroom and splashed some cold water on his face and took some deep slow breaths, which seemed to calm his panic attack down before it even started.
"What the hell am I going to do?" he thought to himself as he sat down on his bed. He decided to smoke a joint to calm his nerves. After taking a few hits of some really good weed, he mellowed out a bit and knew what he needed to do next. Talk to Damian. He booted up his laptop and started Skype, and of course Damian was signed on.
"Hey brother" Damian said, adjusting his webcam.
"Hey" Jules replied as he took a hit of his joint.
"So what's up?"
"Some crazy shit just happened" he said as he took another hit "I might as well just come out with it"
"I'm waiting" Damian said with a knowing smile.
"Aiden told me he loved me and then I kissed him"
"Finally" Damian said with a smile.
"What!?"
"Nothing...so what was it like?"
"I think it was nice"
"What do you mean you think?"
"Well I kissed him first then my mind went blank, then when it was over I kind of ran away after that and left him there"
"Oh shit" Damian said, shaking his head.
"I know, it was just a lot to take at the moment and it almost caused me to have a panic attack, that's why I'm smoking a spliff. I don't know what to do"
"Well what is there to know? If I remember correctly you have been in love with Ade since you were little but you never said anything or did anything about it because you didn't want it to ruin the friendship. Well he loves you...which I figured out a while ago, so what's the problem?"
"You should have told me asshole"
"Whatever, get over it"
"There's a lot of shit to think about" Jules said, taking the last hit of his joint "Just because he said he loves me, does that mean he's gay now? And if he is, I know he's not out because I was the last to know and so does this mean that he will come out and risk everything he has worked for?"
"Risk everything like what?"
"His popularity, its one thing being the gay kid's best friend, but being his boyfriend is something totally different. He is the football and basketball star and colleges are already considering him for scholarships and that will all go away if he comes out"
"But if he loves you like you say he does, then he'll come out or if you love him like I know you do, maybe you'll keep his secret until school is out"
"Fuck that, I wouldn't subject myself to that. I deserve better then trying to hide who I'm with and you should be ashamed of yourself for saying so"
"Hey, I'm just laying out your options"
"But then there's Dustin, who is so cool and sexy and funny. He doesn't mind showing other people what he thinks of me. And we are kinda unofficially seeing each other"
"Ok then, there you go" Damian said "or is there a problem with him too?" "Yes there's a problem with him, just one problem" he said taking a deep breath "He's not Aiden"
Jules was more confused after chatting with Damian then he was before, there was one thing he knew he needed to do for sure, and that was tell Dustin about this kiss. Jules was never one to lie or keep things from people, and he hated when people did it to him. After ending his conversation with Damian, he went down to have a conversation with Dustin. He avoided the curious stares of Amy and DeMarco as he pulled Dustin out onto the patio.
He explained everything that happened between him and Aiden after he ran out of the house. He told him that he was the first one to kiss him and that he ran away after he realized what he did, and even though him and Dustin weren't an official item, Jules still apologized to him.
"Well...how do you feel about him Jules?"
"I have no idea, I was in love him a long time ago but I never said or did anything about it because he had a girlfriend and he was treating my a brother. As far as I knew he was straight, my gaydar didn't go off at all...He just really threw me for a loop, I'm already fucked up in the head and this just scrambled me more"
"And how do you feel about me?" Dustin asked.
"I like you a lot and I could see myself having fun with you. I don't know, I just don't want to lead you on now that I have this added bit of information to think about"
"Look Jules, in my other life I wouldn't care whether you had another boy or not. I'd be fucking plenty other boys besides you and maybe a girl mixed in there too, but after coming here and meeting you, I can't do that. There is something about you that has me stuck and I care about you, so I'm going to do the gentlemanly thing here and give you some space and let you have some time to think"
"Um...ok" Jules said getting misty eyed.
"But know that I'm going to fight for you" he said. He got up and kissed Jules softly on the cheek and walked back inside. Amy came outside and sat next to Jules, she told him that Dustin asked DeMarco to give him a ride home; she couldn't hide her curiosity any longer and asked Jules what happened. He recalled the whole ordeal, she didn't want to overwhelm him with her personal opinion, so she told him to take his time and think things over because the last thing she wanted was for him to get hurt.
The next few days were very awkward for Jules, he avoided Aiden like the plague, which he felt bad about; he just wasn't ready to face him yet. He still sat with Dustin at lunch, but as promised he kept his distance, not literally but he kept his touching and flirting to a very low minimum. The more he thought about the whole situation, the angrier he got. He didn't like that fact that his friends knew Aiden being in love with him and didn't tell him, he was actually getting angry about a lot lately and he wasn't quite sure why.
By the end of the week; Jules was totally consumed with confusion, he panic attacks were becoming more frequent and his nightmares hadn't subsided at all. That Friday Jules went to see Caden who was still at home on bed rest. He informed Caden that the boys who jumped him had been suspended for two weeks and the two football players were removed from the team permanently, they accepted their punishment with much complaining, but it was either that or be expelled and have charges laid on them.
Later that night; Jules sat at home alone, it was a play off game and he knew he should be there to support Aiden but he wasn't ready to see him, even if it was just on the football field. Being home alone; he walked around naked and free, trying to be relaxed as possible. He made a low and cozy fire in the fire place that was in the family room. He plugged in his IPod to the sound system and pulled up a soulful playlist that consisted of Mary J Blige, Jill Scott, Musiq Soulchild and a few other R&B greats and sat to relax in front of the fire.
At about 9 pm there was a knock at the back doors that went out to the backyard, Jules walked to the door and saw that it was Kodi. Before thinking to cover himself, he opened the door and let Kodi in. As it turned out; Kodi had just come to check on Jules, as he was becoming increasingly worried about the young guy since the night he witnessed Jules having a nightmare that turned into a panic attack.
"How you doing Jules?...comfortable are you" he said noticing his nakedness.
"I'm great, thanks" he said with a grin.
"The yards look great by the way; my mom would be pleased with your work"
"You think so? I do it because I love it, I love being outside" Kodi said with a smile "but I came by to check on you"
"Check on me for what?"
"Remember what I said about talking to someone outside of your general situation?"
Jules nodded.
"Well I noticed you are still having your nightmares" he continued "I can hear you scream in the middle of the night, you leave you windows open. Are you still having panic attacks?" "Yeah I am actually" Jules said, he was comfortable talking to Kodi, there was something about him that Jules trusted, and Kodi was right; talking to someone who doesn't really know him is a lot better then talking to his friends about some things. "I have been having them more frequent then before"
"Why do you think that is?" Kodi asked.
"Out of the blue, my best friend told me he was in love with me and I just don't know how to deal with it, and I'm worried about my friend Caden...and I'm just angry, I'm angry all the time" he said as he got misty eyed.
"Ok let's start with you being angry, why are you angry?"
"You are starting to sound like a shrink, I don't like therapists"
"I'm sorry, I don't mean to but I just wanna know" Kodi said.
"I'm angry for a lot of reasons to be honest, there's a list"
"What's the list? And take you time, I don't have class tomorrow"
"Well..." he took a deep breath "I'm angry that my mom died, I'm angry that a drunken asshole killed my mother and took the greatest person in the world away from me. I'm angry that my dad left me to fend for myself for months and I'm angry that those boys raped me. I'm angry that my dad left again just when my resentment for him was starting to decrease, I'm angry that I allowed myself to be fooled again by my ex-boyfriend. I'm angry that a great kid got beat up at school and that I was the one who had to do something about it. I'm angry that my so-called best friend decided to wait until I had a sliver of happiness to tell me that he loved me and fucked up the whole situation. I'm angry because I'm alone"
By the time he was finished he was in tears, Kodi moved to sit beside him and wrapped his arms around a naked Jules. He held him and let him cry on his shoulders until he seemed the calm down. Kodi told him that he had a lot of weight for just a 16 year old boy to bear. He also told Jules that he needed to figure out how to deal with his anger, because anger will turn into a temper and a temper will turn into hurting someone that Jules really cares about, whether on purpose or by mistake. Kodi lastly told him that needed to forgive those he was angry at, he had every right be man, but it would eat him up alive if he didn't forgive them and try to move on. He had been hurt in his life enough to allow his anger and resentment to hurt him.
"I'm not saying you have to stop standing up for yourself or others, but next time use violence as a last resort. Yes, you may physically hurt those who may deserve it right then, but ultimately you hurt yourself mentally and emotionally in the end"
Jules agreed with his reason, he got up still naked and got him and Kodi something to drink. After returning, he desperately wanted to change the subject and politely but bluntly asked Kodi if he was gay. Kodi smiled at his forwardness and told him that he was, Jules replied by saying that he hoped he was and then went on to say they he was too freaking hot to be straight. They talked for another hour before Kodi decided it was time for him to hit the bed because he was starting on the front yard in the morning.
At around midnight on that same Friday evening, Aiden sat a teammate's house with his fellow players celebrating their win. The was music and dancing and drinking, everyone was having a good time but Aiden, he was upset that Jules hadn't come to game and was hurt that Jules had been avoiding him since the day they kissed. Being the team captain; he had to stay and party for a while, he had a few beers and smoked a joint, then had a few more beers. One of his groupies tried to give him a lap dance, which he usually faked like he enjoyed but he just wasn't having it. The more he sat there listening to the thumping music as he drank another beer, the angrier he got. Aiden was always one to be able to hold his booze, but for some reason after six beers he was a little wobbly on his feet.
With liquid courage running through his veins, he asked one of his teammates to give him a ride. He refused, saying that he was too drunk to drive so he asked another and was turned down. He asked his kicker, who was usually good for a ride, but again was turned down. Frustrated that he didn't take his mother's car, he walked into the backyard and spotted his teammate's bike, he pushed the bike into the front yard, hopped on and bounded down the street. After riding for twenty minutes; he reached his destination, he left the bike sitting in the drive way and walked to the door. He used his key to enter, and after re-setting the alarm, he ran up the stairs.
He pushed the bedroom door open and stumbled in; he turned on the lights to the bedroom and saw Jules in bed fast asleep. He looked to peaceful just lying there with an angelic look on his face, Aiden smiled at him...the boy he was in love with. That smile quickly turned to hurt and anger, and in his drunken state he remembered why he came.
"You're a fucking jerk Jules" he yelled with a slur.
"What?" Jules said, half asleep and trying to figure out what was going on.
"I said, you are a fucking jerk"
"What the hell is your problem Ade? It's after midnight?" he said more awake now.
"You're my problem" he slurred.
"Are you drunk?"
"Maybe I am"
"I can smell it on you Ade...you're drunk and acting like an idiot"
"I'm not an idiot; you're an idiot and a jerk"
"How am I an idiot and a jerk Aiden" Jules said sitting on the edge of his bed, he was starting to get really upset.
"You're an idiot because you kissed me, you walked up to me and kissed me then you just ran away. I've wanted you for a long time, first it was just attraction and then it turned to love, not brotherly love but real love but I didn't say anything because I was scared. I was scared you wouldn't want me and I was scared it would ruin our relationship, so then I see you getting cozy with that pretty boy rebel wannabe douche bag Dustin and it fucked me up so I told you, and what do you do? You kiss me then you run away"
"It sounds like you were the idiot there Ade, not me" he shouted "you say loved me all this time and you didn't say anything, that's your fault not mine. I have been so deeply in love with you since before I realized I was gay and you know it, but you said nothing. You went on pretending you wanted to be my big brother, and you were dating girls so I left it alone and I moved on from thinking about you like that. Then after all the shit I've gone through recently, I find someone who wants to be with me and is proud to be seen with me and makes me happy and you have to fuck it up...why now?"
"Because I'm better for you then he is" Aiden said, still slurring.
"What makes you think so?"
"Because I know how to take care of you, I know what you need, I understand you and no one in the world will ever love your and treat you like I will" Aiden said stepping closer to Jules, he grabbed him and pulled him close. He wrapped his arms around Jules and brushed his face with his hand. Jules melted at the touch but quickly pushed him away.
"What do you want from me Ade?"
"I want to be with you forever...I want to be your boyfriend"
"Do you even know what that means? Are you prepared to come out to the football and basketball team? Are you prepared to possibly loose your popularity?...Because I deserve more then someone who is going to remain in the closet"
"Yes...yes I am"
"Why?" Jules asked.
"Because I love you" he said softy. He pulled Jules into his arms again and kissed him; Jules didn't resist and returned the kiss. It started off softly then quickly got intense; Aiden parted Jules's lips with his own and slid his tongue into Jules' mouth. Aiden used both hands to firmly grasp Jules' naked ass and lifted him off the ground, Jules grabbed Aiden by his neck and wrapped his legs around his waist.
The kissing grew more and more passionate as their tongues wrestled back and forth, in and out of their mouths. Aiden laid Jules down on the bed and climbed on top of him, Jules wrapped his legs around Aiden again as their steamy make-out session continued. Jules grabbed Aiden's shirt and pulled it off of him and ran his hands across his chiseled chest, to him; Aiden was built like a Greek god. They took a moment to stare into each others eyes and smiled at one another.
"You are so beautiful" Aiden said before kissing Jules again.
Aiden kissed Jules on his lips then moved down to his cheek and then his ears. Jules squirmed when he got to the ear and Aiden knew that was his spot, he nibbled and sucked on his ear lobe making Jules writhe and moan in pleasure. He licked down his neck and across his chest until he got to his nipples, Aiden spent ample time swirling his tongue around both nipples as he enjoyed the taste of Jules's body. He kissed down Jules' stomach until he got to his belly button and swirled his tongue around it.
The touch of Aiden's lips on Jules's skin was sending Jules into over drive and Aiden knew it. He slowly and lightly kissed down Jules' happy trail and into his neatly trimmed pubes, he by-passed Jules' rock solid cock and went straight for his balls. He licked them both to get them wet before sucking them both into his mouth one at a time, Jules couldn't take it anymore and grabbed his cock to start pumping it, but Aiden grabbed his hand and pulled it away. He gave his balls one last suck then licked Jules' inner thigh, Jules had to bite his bottom lip to keep from screaming in ecstasy.
With a smile on his face; Aiden took hold of Jules's hard cock and licked the tip, Jules gasped at the sudden change of sensation. Aiden swirled his tongue around the swollen head before sliding the rest of the massive cock in his mouth and down his throat. He gagged on Jules' cock when it reached the back of his throat; he wasn't anticipating that little Jules would have such a large cock when hard. He started to slowly suck on his lover's cock bringing it in and out of his mouth, making it nice and wet and doing like he was a natural.
"Where in the hell did you learn to do that?" Jules asked panting.
"I've been practicing on a banana for months in preparation for this moment" Aiden said before diving mouth first back onto Jules' brick hard dick. After a few minutes of sucking his dick, Aiden lifted Jules' legs in the air and pressed his face into his butt and inhaled. Jules watched in anticipation as Aiden stared at his twitching hole, not being able to resist any longer, Aiden licked his hole. He savored it's sweetness as he licked it over and over again, then pressing his tongue against Jules's hole and slowly pushed it inside. Jules banged his head against his headboard as he screamed out in pleasure, it had been so long since anyone touched him down there and Aiden was hitting the right button.
Aiden licked and slurped and slurped and licked at Jules's pucker like it was the nectar of the gods. Jules' cock was leaking pre-cum like crazy and leaving a puddle of his juice on his stomach, his cock was so hard it hurt but Aiden held his hand so he couldn't touch his cock while he ate his hole. Jules felt himself about to cum and wanted the experience to last longer so he pushed Aiden's hands out of the way and flipped him on his back.
He straddled Aiden and kissed him on his lips, then moved down to his chest and repeated the treatment Aiden gave him. After sucking on both of his nipples, Jules got right down to business, he was too horny for all the teasing. He unbuckled Aiden's belt and pulled his pants down to his ankles, he grabbed his hard prize and without hesitation, went right down on it. Though Jules and Aiden were different in body size, their cocks were very similar in size and thickness. Unlike Aiden, Jules didn't have the need to practice sucking cock, he was an old pro at it, he massaged his balls while he sucked and slobbered on Aiden's engorged dick. Jules grabbed it by the base and sucked on the head, not forgetting to swirl his mouth around the head before sliding it all the way down and past his throat. Jules could deep throat him with no problem and Aiden was in heaven feeling the head of his cock at the back of his lover's throat, Jules could taste his pre-cum leaking down his throat.
Aiden pulled Jules off his cock and laid him back on the bed; he got up and took off the rest of his clothes. He climbed back on top of Jules and kissed him gently on his lips, he stared into Jules eyes as he kissed him, and as if reading his mind; Jules nodded his head to Aiden's silent question. Jules spread his legs as Aiden felt his hole with his index finger; he was still slick from the Aiden eating his hole. He spit in his hand and rubbed it on his cock and lined the head to Jules's button, he looked Jules in the eye and slowly pushed to enter him.
Jules gasped and winced at the slight pain of finally having Aiden's pole enter him, Aiden stopped; thinking that he had really hurt him, but Jules urged him to keep going. Aiden slowly slid his penis into him and he held Jules' ankle and sucked on his toes, he was really trying to go all out and give Jules maximum pleasure, though making love to him wasn't his intensions for going over to see Jules that night but he had fantasized about this day for almost a year. He finally bottomed out, pressing his balls against Jules's cheeks. He held it there so Jules could get used to the feeling of having something so far up in him again. Jules' eyes rolled in the back of his head and he bit his lip and was lost in total bliss for a few seconds before Aiden leaned down and kissed him, bring him to his senses. The feeling of their lips touching and the intensity of the moment combined with a thick, long piece of meat shoved in him caused Jules to explode without even touching his own dick. He grabbed Aiden's head and held him in the kiss as he spasmed in his climax, when he recovered he still had Aiden's dick parked inside him.
"Oh shit man, do you want me to pull out?" Aiden asked.
"Fuck no, please Ade keep going"
And so he did, he slowly began to pump his dick in and out of Jules's hungry hole. Aiden could feel the heat of his insides on his dick. He would pull out to the head and slide it back in causing Jules to whimper every time the head passed over his prostate. He picked up the pace and started to pump in and out of Jules even faster while leaning down to kiss him, the cum from Jules's previous orgasm was sticking to their stomach. Jules wanted it more, so he grabbed his own ankle and pulled them close to his ears to Aiden maximum access.
By instinct Aiden knew what to do; he kept his pace steady but pumped him harder. Aiden looked down at Jules and noticed the expression of him face, it was a mix of lust, pleasure, joy and most importantly love. Seeing the look on his sweaty lover's face brought Aiden to the brink, he pumped one last time deep into Jules hole as he cock erupted into his bowels. He yelled out as he shot six or seven thick long ropes of sticky love juice as far inside the love of his life as he could get it. He was sweating profusely and panting really hard while trying to catch his breath; he looked down and saw Jules feverishly stroking his own dick. Aiden kept his own dick planted inside Jules and watched Jules' face in amazement as he shot his second load, it landed all over his chest and even go some on his face. Aiden leaned down to lick the love juice of his boy's lips and then gave him a kiss.
After overcoming their mind blowing climaxes, Aiden scooped up a giggling Jules in his arms and carried him into the private en suite bathroom. He stood Jules up in the shower and turned it on, he climbed in with him to rinse of sweat and juices of their love making. Jules sat on the shower seat and turned Aiden to face him; he grabbed his waist and pulled him close. He took his half limp cock in his mouth and began sucking it back to life, Aiden started to protest but was soon over come by the amazing love and attention he little buddy was getting. Jules sucked and stroked Aiden's tool like it was life support, sucking cock had always been Jules's favorite sexual thing to do and prided himself on his talent, he was now giving Aiden the full extent of his abilities. Being the attentive cocksucker that he was, he sensed with Aiden was about to blow. Aiden warned him that be was about to cum and tried to pull out of Jules's mouth but Jules held still. He slid the cock deeper into his mouth just as Aiden shot three ropes of his salty sweet seamen down his boy's throat.
After sucking Aiden clean and savoring the taste of his juices, Aiden stood him up and gave him a kiss on the lips before turning on the water and stepping out of the shower. He dried Jules off before drying himself off and walked back into the bedroom; he turned of the lights and climbed in the bed with Jules following him. Aiden pulled him close and Jules rested his head on his chest, Aiden wrapped his arms tightly around his love and they entwined their legs together.
"Do you really love me Ade?"
"More then you could even imagine"
(Author's Note)
Everyone has been waiting for a sex scene, I don't want this story to be all about sex but it will be within the story...I hope I did it justice. I didn't want to make it hot and raunchy as I normally like but...keep reading, it will come.
Readers if you get the chance, email me and let me know what you think of Jules and his story so far: eric.z.james@live.com
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