If you are under legal age or you find sex between males awful, sick, ugly or sinful do not read any farther.
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When someone writes about their first time it is done to titillate themselves as much as someone else. Mine was. Fiction should do this also but more for the reader then yourself. Gay fiction should be a story built around sex. I think most writers, including myself, build around things they may have wished for or even tried when they were younger. I wish this story was my life. It's not. My father wasn't a tolerant person. He called me a queer when I was eleven . I kept my life style secret from him till the day he died. This story is fiction and if you enjoyed it, let me know. If you don't tell me why. Email me at lee1841@prodigy.net
I love reading true accounts of sex between two or more males. I know everyone's trigger is tripped by something. Stories of S&M, bondage and bodily waste doesn't trip mine.
------------------I love Todd-----------------
I was 16. Just one day short of 17, and Jimmy caught me. It had been my secret for almost two years. The only time I did it was when everyone was away from home. Mom and Dad were at work and wouldn't be home until close to 5:00. Jimmy was playing baseball, I thought. I was so engrossed in what I was doing I didn't hear Jimmy come in the back door and upstairs. As Jimmy pass my room, he looked in. I always left the door open, so I could hear anyone coming in the house. I didn't want to get caught. Jimmy stopped and hollered, "Rod, what the fuck are you doing." I was instantly embarrassed and totally mortified. I jumped out of bed. I stood facing my younger brother. I was naked and with a boner sticking straight at him. As I dressed, I keep saying, "Please don't tell Mom and Dad. Please don't tell Mom and Dad. I wasn't hearing anything Jimmy said. I fled the house. I ran to Murray Park and went to a place I used when I wanted to be alone. I would go there when I needed to think. If I wanted to jack off and someone was home, I went there. At this time there wasn't any place else to go. I sat down, buried my face in my hands and started crying. My crying had turned to soft sobbing when Jimmy found me two hours later
If Jimmy had only seen me naked and jacking off, I wouldn't have been as embarrassed as I was that day. Jimmy and I had taken many bathes and, when we were finally allowed, showered together. Jimmy was about eight minutes younger then me. We looked like what we were, twins. Still, no one had any problem telling us apart. At 5' 9" and 175 lbs., Jimmy was 30 lbs. heavier then me. He was tanned, muscular, had a scar on his chin and most times had a girl hanging on his arm. No one ever saw me with a girl. Jimmy liked most high school sports, lifted weights and swam. I liked books, poetry and flowers. I guess most people thought of Jimmy as a jock and me as a nerd. It wasn't nerd that bothered me. When they said queer and cock sucker it hurt. Until then I had never touched another boy. If Jimmy heard these remarks, he always came to my defense. Jimmy would tell them he didn't know if I was and even if I was it wasn't any of their fucking business. On occasion, Jimmy had even threatened someone who made remarks. Jimmy was well liked and most people left me alone. I have known for more than four years that I was different then most guys. To this day I've never had any desire to do anything physical with girls. Jimmy now thinks I'm queer and a cock sucker. He also knows, I'm a pervert.
Every boy jacks off and Jimmy was no different. I've walked in and caught him several times over the last few years. When I first jacked off successfully that little bit of jism excited me and I tasted it. I liked it and started swallowing it each time I shot. I wasn't just jacking off the day Jimmy caught me. For a couple years I had a desire to suck on my own dick. I had tried many times but had never gotten close. I would place a pillow up near the headboard and cover it with a large towel. I quickly learned to use a towel so I wouldn't make a mess I would have to explain. I had given up trying to suck myself off because I had found a new game. I would scoot up until my legs were up the wall, my neck curved and pointed my dick at my face. I closed my eyes as I neared shooting and tried to hit my mouth. Many times I hit my mark. I also missed many times. I had hit myself in the eye, nose, on the cheek, chin, forehead and in my hair. Some times I missed completely. I enjoyed doing this and no one knew. On the day Jimmy caught me my first shot had missed and was running down my cheek. As Jimmy hollered, my second shot was hitting its mark. Jimmy knew and would tell Mom and Dad. I knew I couldn't face them and I might as well be dead. My life was ruined.
Jimmy was the only person who would know where to find me. He had told Mom and Dad that he and I had a bit of a spat and I had run off. He would go out and find me. When I heard someone behind me, I knew it was Jimmy. He sat beside and put his arm around me. I tried to pull away but he held me tight. "Rod, stopped crying. I'm not going to tell Mom and Dad anything." I continued to sob while begging Jimmy to go away. Jimmy continued holding me and I slowly stopped. "Listen to me Rod, I've known for a long time that you and I liked different things. When you were around and Todd and I would talk about baseball, football or the girl you were never interested. Let us mention a book report we had to make for school or have someone mention the flowers out front and you couldn't keep your mouth shut. I was sorry for walking in when I did but I think now it was the best thing that could happen. I said, "You must hate me. You think I'm sick." Jimmy said, "So you think I hate you. Well I don't. Do you hate me for what I like or do?" "No," I replied. "Why would you ever think I hated you?" I was beginning to think maybe he didn't hate me. Jimmy said, "I don't think your sick. I'm going to tell you something and if you ever tell anyone I'll beat your ass. I've tasted mine before. I tried it a couple times but didn't like it. I've never tried it since." For the first time that afternoon, I smiled. When he told me what he'd done, I knew he couldn't hate me. Jimmy told me he had taken care of the towel, cleaned up my mess and straightened the bed before he came looking for me. He said, "I know you jack off. You should take better care of the towels you use. I've found them before, in the hamper, still wet. You know that jism has an order you can't miss".
I stiffened and said, "No! I can't do that" when he suggested I tell Mom and Dad how I felt about boys. "Just listen to me," he said. "Rod, I know you like boys. You've never mentioned a girl before. Believe me. It's OK with me. Some day you'll believe me, but for now, just think about what I'm saying. I think Mom already knows or has a good idea. I heard Mom talk about a guy she works with. When some of the people found out about him being gay, they bash him. Mom said she came to his defense. Told them they were wrong to say the things they did. She told Dad they were cruel and she didn't like it. She's eaten lunch with him a couple times and they talked about it. If you tell her I'm sure she'll cry some but in the end it will be OK. Dad will be OK too. I said, "I can't right now." He said, "That's fine with me. Make sure you tell them before someone else does, but don't worry, it won't be me. Let go home." We stood and I put my arms around Jimmy, giving him a big hug. "Thanks little brothers," I said. We left the park. Jimmy placed his arm around my shoulder as we walked home. When we arrived home, Moms first words were "How are things between you two?" Jimmy said, "I told Rod I was sorry about what happened and everything is cool now." Dad suggested we eat. We all set down.
When I awoke that morning Mom and Dad had left for work. Jimmy was in the kitchen when I got downstairs. There was a birthday card for each of us. Mom had written, "Happy Birthday. We'll go out for cake and ice cream later. Love you, and signed it, Mom and Dad."Jimmy ask, "Rod, are you going anywhere this morning?" I said, "No. I"ll be home all day." He said, "Good. I have to get out of here right away. Someone will be coming over and I need someone to be here. I told him, "No problem." After eating, I washed the dished and was going to watch a movie when the door bell rang. Todd was standing there when I opened the door. I invited him in and we went into the family room and sat. Todd ask, "If there's no one else home, I need to talk to you." I thought it odd that Jimmy's friend needed to talk to me. I had known Todd as long as Jimmy, but as I was different from Jimmy, I was different from Todd. Jimmy and Todd dated girls often since Todd got his license and car over a year ago. Todd and Jimmy were the best of friends. What was going on? Why would Jimmy have to leave if Todd was coming over? Why would Todd need to talk to me?
Todd hardly got started when I blurted out, "That fucking son of a bitch." Todd was telling me
Jimmy had asked him to come over today and talk to me. He had told Todd about yesterday. Twice in one week I was mortified. I hollered, "Get out. Todd, get out of here." I started for the stairs. Todd placed his hand on my shoulder asking me to listen. As I turned and pulled away Todd grabbed me and pinned me against the wall. He tried to put a look of anger in his face as he said, "If you don't settle down and listen to me I'm going to knock you stiffer then your cocks ever been. There was the threat but nothing behind it in his voice. I knew Todd wasn't going to hurt me. He wouldn't. He couldn't. When he released me, we sat back down.
Todd started again. "Rod, please just listen to everything I have to say. You'll know everything I'm telling you is true. If it wasn't, and you tell Jimmy what I've said, he'd kick my ass up around my eye brow. Jimmy told me about yesterday. Jimmy said you need someone to talk to and he thinks I am the best one to do it." "Why would Jimmy think you would be the best person to talk to me?" Todd answered, "Because we're so much alike." I said, "How are we so much alike." Todd said, "We both like the same things." "Like what?", I ask. His reply was, "Boys!" " Just how do you know I like boys?", I ask. "For over a year Jimmy and I have seen you sneak looks at other boys in school. Lot of times when I'm over I'd catch you looking me over. When I'm sneaking a look, I know what going through my mind and I know what's going through yours. I like your brother. .When I do him, I love what I'm doing but I don't love him." I ask, "What do you mean, when I do him?" Todd said, "Jimmy said this might come up and if it did it was OK with him. I've been jacking Jimmy off for three years and giving him blow jobs for almost two. I enjoy every time we're together but I feel empty and incomplete afterwards. Jimmy's never done anything for me. He's never even touched me. I need someone like myself to give me that contented and fulfilled feeling. I need someone like you. A couple days ago, while I was over, I was watching you outside. I got talking to myself. I must have been too loud. Jimmy heard and told me to leave you alone. He wanted you to sort things out yourself. Last night he had a change of heart. He came over and ask me straight out if I liked you. I told him very much. He ask me to come by today and talk to you. He said you need help quickly, today, and I agreed gladly."
"Rod, I like you a lot. I think I love you. I'm hoping you can come to feel the same about me" I got a warm feeling all over. "Todd, I know I love you. You were the one in my mind for over a year. All that time, whenever I jacked off, I fantasized it's you who are shooting jism in my mouth and it made my orgasms stronger then ever before. I want you to have me and I want you right now." We stood, hugged and kissed. Todd grasped my ass cheeks and pulled us as close together as possible. We ground our hips, feeling our dicks rubbing each other, and held a long passionate kiss. As Todd released me, he stepped back a bit. He said, "Jimmies ask me to say something to you if we reached this point. Happy Birthday big brother." Tears welled in my eyes. Not just because of Jimmy but also for what Todd and I were about to share. We both had kicked off our sandals when I said "Let's go to my bedroom. I don't want Jimmy to catch us. Todd said, "Don't worry, Jimmy won't be home until I call him."
We helped each other remove our shirts, then Todd dropped to his knees. He slid my shorts and briefs to my ankles and helped me step out of them. He cupped my balls, kissed the head of my dick and took one deep long suck and released me. As he was standing up, I got down and began to lower his shorts. Todd wasn't wearing underwear. When Todd stood in front of me, totally naked, I gazed at his body. Todd was six months older then me. At 5' 11" he stood 2" taller and weighed 180 lbs. His had brown eyes and light brown hair. There was a small knot on the bridge of his nose because it had been being broken twice playing sports. There was only a small amount of body hair. His balls rested in a bag that hugged his body. His cut cock was at least six and 1/2" long. Most people would have to call him handsome. To me I was looking at beautiful beyond belief. I ask Todd to lie down on the floor and I got my face between his legs. I grasped his dick, pointed it to my mouth and took it deep. I gagged and pulled off. Two more tries and I still gagged. Todd told me not to take it so deep "This is your first time, take it slow and easy." I knew soon after starting again. I wasn't very good at giving a blow job. Todd stopped me. He scooted down beside me and we kissed. "Rod, I can tell you're excited but nervous. You need to calm down, slow down and let both of us enjoy what's happening between us. Please, let me start."
Todd began by kissing me but no just on the lips. He kissed my eyelids, nose, forehead, cheeks and chin. He nibbled at my earlobes, blowing gently and whispering how much he loved me. He moved to my nipples teasing each and sucking softly. He worked my bellybutton and as he grasps my bag my body gave a strong shudder. I was getting more excited with each passing minute and Todd was getting close. Close to showing how much he cared for me. Todd began kissing and licking. Slowly he sucked one ball into him mouth and then the other. He finished by sucking in both at once. I could feel his tongue swirl around. All this time he had been stroking my dick. When he let my balls slide out he licked up the underside of my shaft and kissed the head. He ever so slowly sucked my dick into his mouth and his tongue began circling the head. For more than ten minutes Todd never took more the three inches of me into his mouth. When I would try to thrust up to drive myself deeper, he would press down on my hip bones stopping me. Todd began to pull off me completely and flick his tongue rapidly around the head and down the shaft and licked, sucked and flick his tongue over my ball sack. He would move back to the head and begin sucking but he added something new. He would twist my dick a little, and at the same time twist his head a bit, as he slid down and up. As his speed picked up I began to tense a bit. When my breaths began to come in short gasps he would pull off and started rapidly flicking with his tongue. Several minutes of this and I began asking him not to stop when he started sucking again. The last time he pulled off I pleaded with him not to stop. He smiled then ask, "Do you want me to share?" I looked down at him and said, "Yes!" When he started again, it took only a couple minutes and I felt that wonderful feeling in my balls. I began to squirt jism into Todd's waiting mouth. He held me until all that could be left was a dribble. He moved up to me and as we kissed he shared it with me. As I rolled it around in my mouth, I thought it had never tasted better. Todd lifted up by stiffening his elbows, looked at me smiling, and swallowed. I swallowed also.
We lay together for several minutes, just holding each other in our arms. I broke the silence by asking, "May I try again?" Todd responded, "I thought you'd never ask." I started just as Todd had and tried to do every thing the same. Only one time did he tell me anything. He said, "Watch the teeth." I never ask him if he wanted me to share. When he spewed his jism into my mouth, I caught every drop he gave. When he was finished, I moved up to him, pointed at my mouth and then at him, making an offer. He smiled and said, "Not this time. You earned it." I savored the wonderful taste in my mouth and when I finally swallowed, I thought, "It's much better then mine." We moved up to the couch and held each other for what seemed forever. I finally ask if he wanted to share a soda and he said please. As I stood and headed to the kitchen I looked back at Todd. He was watching me with a big smile on his face. When I returned, I ask him if he wanted to dress. "No, not right now. I want to drink in all your lovely nakedness. Rod, if you'll have me it's too bad for Jimmy and too bad for the girls. You'd be all I could ever want or need."
As we embraced and kissed again, the front door opened. I tried to cover myself as Jimmy entered. I shouted "Jimmy, you weren't supposed to come home until Todd called. Jimmy said, "He did." I just looked at Todd. Jimmy said, "Looking at you two I take it things went well." I said, "Time to get dressed," The three of us talked for quite some time. Jimmy was told that he was out and I was in. I shook my head no when Jimmy ask if I was going to tell Mom and Dad. Jimmy said again " Make sure you tell them before someone else does, but don't worry, it won't be me." After Todd had gone home Jimmy said, "You really like Todd, don't you?" "Jimmy, I love him."
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