This story is all fiction and is not implying anything on the Backstreet Boys, 'N sync, or anyone else mentioned in this text. If you don't approve of gay relationships and/or are under 18 years old, please stop and leave now. If you are over 18 and approve of homosexual types of sex and relationships then please keep on reading.
Okay I'm going to help a friend of mine with readers so here it goes. I recommend that you read 'Millennium Love' and 'Set You Free' by my good friend Kenitra. And I would also like to recommend everyone that has not bought 'No Strings Attacked' by 'N sync, you should it is a great album.
Hearts Combining (Chapter 2)
"Oh my God!!!" Nick yelled.
This woke Brian and I up from our peaceful state. I looked up to see Nick standing at the foot of the bed; mouth wide open and eyes ready to jump out. I finally realized why he was looking at us that way. I had my head on Brian's chest and my arms wrapped around him. Brian had his arms around me, holding me close. When Brian and I realized this also, we both jumped apart. Just then AJ and Howie came running into the room after hearing Nick yell, with Kevin right behind them. When Kevin saw this all he could say was "Shit!" Brian looked at me then to Kevin with a look asking for help. Kevin saw this and said, "Group meeting, my room, now!" as he pushed AJ, Howie, and Nick out of the room and then turning to us.
"Okay what's going on? Are you two having sex now?" Kevin asked suddenly.
"No!!!" we both replied at the same time.
"Kevin its not what it looks like!" Brian said trying to defend us.
"Well I don't care what it looks like, I just know that you have to start explaining this to the other three."
"Brian I'll just leave. I've caused enough problems." I said getting up.
"No don't leave!" Brian said getting up and stopping me from leaving.
"Why Brian? I've already got the other three guys mad at you." I said looking down at the floor. And again started to cry.
"How can you do that?" Brian asked me lifting my chin to look him in the eye.
"Do what?" I mumbled.
"Don't you ever go longer than an hour without crying?"
"No I guess not. Brian what are you going to tell the guys?" I asked still looking him in the eye.
"I'll, NO, We'll tell them the truth! We're going out with each other. That is if you want to? I don't want to push you into anything." Brian said with a tear escaping his eye.
"Brian do you mean that? You really want to be with me?" I asked unsure of his statement.
"Yeah why? Do you not want to be with me?"
"No I just have never been wanted like that."
"Sorry to break this Kodak moment, but I hope you have your explanation because we have to leave for practice in two and half hours." Kevin said almost in a whisper.
"Alright Kev, you go ahead and go to your room. We'll be there in a minute." Brian said to Kevin.
"Alright. Don't be long." Kevin said as he shut the door.
Brian turned to me.
"Will you come with me?" Brian said lowly
"Brian is this really going to work? Can we actually have a relationship?"
"Do you want it to work?" Brian asked
"Yeah if we could and if it does it does, and if it don't than we can still say that we tried." I said taking his hand showing him how much all this meant to me.
"Well I agree. Okay we better get this done and over with." Brian said opening the door for me.
As we approached Kevin's room I could feel Brian's fear as we held hands. Hell I feared what was on the other side of that door. Brian stopped and looked at me, I could see hear and yet I could read his mind. He was going to run.
"Brian what's wrong?"
"I'm scared. I don't know how they're going to react toward seeing us together."
"Brian if they are really your friends then they will still love you. Don't worry. I'll be here." I said walking toward the door. Brian stood in front of me so he was the first to walk in. We could hear laughing coming from the other side but as soon as the door opened everyone shut up! Brian walked in dragging me behind him. Once I was in Brian shut the door. Brian grabbed my hand again and pulled me over to the couch that Kevin was sitting at.
"Brian why didn't you tell us or tell me for that fact!" Nick said suddenly.
"I... I ...I was scared of how you would react." Brian said looking at the floor. "I thought you would hate me because I'm gay."
"Brian, how could we hate you for that?" AJ asked and then glanced at Howie who just nodded back. "And tell you the truth, that would mean that I would have to hate Howie too, and myself." He said the last part quietly.
"You guys I'm sorry I didn't.... you what?" Brian said after what AJ said had clicked in his head.
I truly don't know whose mouth was open farther Kevin's or mine. When I looked over I saw Nick hit the ground. I helped Kevin wake him up. When Nick finally came too, he just looked at me and then everyone else.
"I'm sorry my 19 year old Brian could not handle all of this new information." Everyone laughed at Nick's comment, then everyone started in on Nick.
"Nick your Brian couldn't handle much anyway!" AJ said
"Nick did all of the air finally escape from you head?" Howie asked. I was laughing along but I could tell that they were hurting his feelings. Nick got up and left. All of the guys looked surprised by his actions. After seeing him leave I got up and walked out the door after him. I walked down the hall until I saw him crying in front of his room. I walked over and sat down beside him.
"Nick what's wrong? Is it about Brian and I or is it because of how the guys were treating you? Because if it was Brian and I, I can leave now and you'll never have to see me again."
"NO! Don't do that. It's not about you. It's about, well....I don't think you'll understand." Nick said looking me in the eye.
"You would not believe what I can understand. Well we're both the same age, so if you want to talk to someone then my door is always open."
"Thank you I really appreciate it. Can I ask you a question?"
"Yeah sure, shoot."
"Well do you really like Brian or the Backstreet Brian?"
"Well I'm not going to lie to you. It started out that I just liked the Backstreet Brian, but after last night, I met the real Brian. I realized last night that the Backstreet Boys was just his job, and not who he is. I really don't care about his job, he could be the poorest man in the world, but he would still be the sweetest, most caring, funny, interesting, and talented person to me. Money and fame mean nothing to me. Nick can I ask you a question now?"
"Yeah sure."
"Why exactly did you run out of the room?" I said then saw his face. He had tears streaming down his face. "Its all about me isn't it. You think all of this is my fault!"
"No it's not your fault. It has nothing to do with you. I just couldn't handle everything that just happened. God what would the public think when four-fifths of the Backstreet Boys are gay?"
"Excuse me! What did you just say? Nick are you saying that you're gay?"
"Yeah I guess. Please don't say anything to anyone. I'm just not completely sure yet."
"Well I promise not to say anything. I just don't know why you need to hide it!" Just then Kevin's door opened and Kevin and Brian walked out. I saw a look of fear in Nick's eyes. Kevin walked over and pulled Nick into his arms. I was standing beside Kevin, I could see the look on Nick's face, and then I knew the problem.
Brian walked up behind me and wrapped his arms around me. I jumped but soon leaned into his chest. I could really get use to this. Brian pulled me toward his room and we left Nick and Kevin alone. Once in his room, Brian shut and locked the door and then turned back around to me. Brian gently ran his hand across my cheek. I moaned as I could feel the love in his touch. 'God I swore I would never fall in love again,' I thought but from the look on Brian's face I could tell I had said it out loud.
"Chris what do you mean?"
"Brian I guess I need to tell you the rest of the story." I said walking over to the bed and sitting down, patting the area where I wanted Brian to sit. He walked to the bed and sat down.
"Brian, after Amber died I fell apart. While Amber was living with me, we both grew close. Brian I was falling in love with her, that's why I took her death so badly. After Jase was released from the hospital we had to go to court over him. Amber's parents did not want him or anything to do with him, but they wanted to make it difficult for me to take him. After three weeks of going to court, I was able keep Jase with the help of my grandparents. Well because my grandparents lived across the street from me, Jase had to stay there. If it had not been for my grandparents I don't know what would have happened. My dad had started truck driving and it seemed as if all the money stopped in all together, because he was making less then before."
"My mother worked three jobs and I would work two and still go to school everyday. My grandfather would watch Jase until either my mother or I would get home. Even with my mother and I working, we still almost lost everything we owned. If it wasn't for the guy who owned our house we would have been living with my grandparents' full time, but he was pretty much letting us live there for free. We went for months without paying him anything and when we did have the money for him, he would tell us we have more important things other than paying him. We were on food stamps and any other government money source. Well it had been six months, I had tried to kill myself at least five times with starvation and OD'ing, and one night about 3'oclock in the morning the phone rang. It was nothing unusual for my dad to call at this time. So I answered the phone still asleep. There was a woman on the other end, she said something and I just said "Okay, What ever" and hung up. A second later I realized what she had said. I called the operator for the number that had just called. During this process I had woken my mother who was standing in the middle of my room with Jase screaming in her arms. When she saw my face, she knew exactly what was wrong. Coming to my senses and then stuttered out, "He's dead! Dad died!"
Brian again somehow was holding me in his arms and rocking me. "Were you close to him?" Brian asked
"Yes and No. We were never extremely close but if I needed him, he was there."
"Oh, Oh okay." Brian said, "Continue."
"Well I was the one to claim his body. Then the next thing I knew was that we were sitting in a board room with our lawyer."
"Why?"
"They're the one's that killed him. Yeah he was in a collision, but they were the one's who had given him the wrong blood type and medication. He had what they call a forced heart failure. Well we settled out of court. We had enough money finally to pay all of our bills and then had a large sum left over. Well after we buried my father, we went on a savings spree. Any money left over from the settlement after we paid all of our bills we invested. You know when people find out that you have money, they just automatically become your friend."
"Yeah and add a little publicity you really find out who your real friends are." Brian added.
"Yeah it took awhile for me to figure that out. Well my mother and I bought off our house and remodeled it. We invested the rest and lived off of our paychecks. It had been a long time since I had only worked one job. (A reader insight: Britney and Chris have known each other for over eleven years. They lived close by each other as children and became close friends. But after Chris moved away, they still remained close but not as close. Britney was the second one to know about Amber and what she had done to Chris. And Britney is also a key element in this story!) Well it had been over two years, Britney and I had grown extremely close, and I had gone and seen her several times. Well I had taken my grandparents down with me to Orlando to see Britney. We stayed there for a week and my grandparents left early because I was going to stay there to help Britney do something for a couple of days. Well they called me to tell me that they were in Tennessee and that they were just going to drive right on home. It was later that night. I was talking with Brit in her room when I suddenly had a feeling of loneliness. Then my cell phone rang. I answered it but I couldn't speak, I knew what was wrong. Brit took the phone and talked to my mother."
"My grandparents left me their car and house here and 6 acres in Kentucky and something else that I still haven't been told about. Everyone said that I would get it when I have my own life. You know what, I spent three hours sitting on the beach staring at the wide open ocean out side of Brit's house. That was when I discovered a lot about myself. I was 17; had two sons, one of which is dead; their mothers dead; my father's death, when I was 15; and now two of the most important people in my life had just died. I no longer believed in love. It seemed that everyone I loved was dying. Then Brit proved to me that everything in my life was happening for a reason. I did not discover this myself until last year. It took Jen, Nicole, Shannon, Brit, Just, and Josh to make me finally realize this. Jen, Nicole, and Shannon witnessed me trying to kill myself several times, mostly from starvation. I would go days or weeks with out eating. Brit, Jen, Just, and Josh were there every time I needed to talk about myself since they were the only ones who knew about me. If it weren't for them I would probably be either in a hospital or dead. I really and truly trust them with my life. I listen to everything they think about me or suggest. I would do anything for them and I know that they would do the same. Brian right now they rank up with Jase and my mother in the feelings I feel for them so I will put them first before any of my friends. I would like you and the guys to be up there too, but now I will listen to them. But I will also listen to you too!"
"Chris I understand what you mean. I'm the same way with the guys. I just could not trust anyone with my love. Chris I want to hear your hopes, dreams, and fears. I want to be able to look at you and know how you feel and what you're thinking."
"Brian I want the same, but if I say I need time to think or just to be alone or even to do something with Jen or somebody, you need to understand that I'm not pushing you away I just need to do something else. And I expect for you to want the same, because I will not come between you and your friendship with the guys or anyone else. And if I feel as if I am I will leave!" I said.
"I feel exactly the same way. You just said everything I want for our relationship to work."
"Brian I have one more question. Does this actually classify us as boyfriends?" I asked
"Yeah I guess it does if you want it to. I will not push you into something you don't want to do."
"Brian can I think about it before I jump into something this big."
"Yeah, like I said, I will not push you into anything. I would wait for you as long as needed."
"Brian you're sweet, kind, caring, sensitive, and all too damn cute!" I said as I hugged onto him. I looked down at my watch. "Brian what time were you suppose to leave?"
"10:30 or so why?"
"Because it is going on 2o'clock!"
"Oh god Kevin is going to kill me! I better call him!" Brian said getting up with his phone and walking into the other room.
I sat there thinking about the last 24 hours. 'Brit and Just are going to freak when they find out that I have a boyfriend. God did I just call him my boyfriend? I do like him and I could careless about his money, fame, or power. I enjoy being around him. I feel safe. I feel loved. It doesn't feel like that of a family member or that of a friend, but of that of some one I want to spend my life with. But how will Jase react to it? I need to talk to Jen, Brit, and Just they will help! I need to tell them anyway. Damn she has a show to do tonight. I haven't seen one of her shows since last summer. But at least I saw her at Christmas. Jase loves to be around her and the guys. God I still wish I could of said Hi to them in August. I haven't talked to Josh for over a month now. I'll have to do that tonight.' I thought to myself stopping when Brian walked back into the room.
"Kevin's a pain. I guess when Kevin came to get me he heard that we were talking and decided to let me skip practice."
"So why is he a pain?" I questioned
"Because I have to be at practice by 3:30! I really want to stay here though. I like listening to you talk." Brian said in his sweetest southern accent.
"Brian you're so sweet, but I will be at the concert tonight!"
"Hey let me get you backstage passes for during the show." Brian said as he started to pick up the phone. "I'll get you stage tickets! That way I can watch you all night!"
"Brian stop I have front row tickets. And I won't take the passes because I don't need them!"
"No I want you to take them!"
"No end of discussion!" I yelled and turned away from him.
"Okay, can I at lease give you my cell number so you can call me?"
"Brian I would like that. And here, you can have mine too." I said as I scribbled my number down on a piece of paper. "I guess that I should get going so I can go tell my girlfriend about you! If that is okay with you!"
"Yeah that's fine, because I'm going to tell Kevin about you! And also your girlfriend has something to tell you also!"
"Oh is that so? Is it something in which I have to trade information for information?"
"Yeah well I had to think twice about it."
"Oh so I need to go find out all the information in which I'm lacking! I will see you tonight. And call me!"
"Will you come back here after the show?"
"Well I need to head back home so I can set everything up for Jase's Birthday. Hey if you want to you could come with me tonight. I have room for one more cute guy." I said then thought for a second. "And then tomorrow morning we can run down here and pick up the guys and they can stay at my house that way you won't have fans everyplace you look and you guys could have a couple of days to relax and everything. And then I get to cook for more than four people!"
"I would love to go! I will ask the guys if they want to go too. Here I'll give you the key to my room and then you can come up after the show."
"Brian, Jase will be with us tonight!"
"Chris is that a problem for you? Because its not for me!"
"Brian are you sure you want to do this and all. I mean I may unknowingly push him onto you..." I said looking at the floor.
"Chris if you push to much then I'll tell you to stop, but until then I want to meet him. I want to get to know him. I want to meet everyone in your life, especially the ones that saved your life!"
"Brian you will, I promise you that. Well I guess I better get going before Kevin blames me for you being late again. Call me if you have time." I said as I walked to the door. Brian followed me. Just as I went to open the door he stopped me and turned me around. Brian leaned closer to me. I met him half way. We kissed for what seemed like forever. I finally broke away, regretting every inch that I moved away from his lips. I opened my eyes and stared into his. And before I knew what I was saying I said the four hardest words for me, "I love you Brian!" Brian stood there unable to talk. Brian finally moved over to me and gently pulled me into a hug. Brian kissed the top of my head.
"Chris does this mean that we are officially a couple?" Brian asked hanging on to me.
"Yes I guess it does." I said softly. "Okay enough of this you have practice to get to and I have people to tell." I said pulling away.
"You're going to meet me here tonight, right?"
"Yeah I'll be here. And don't forget to ask the guys. And I will see you in about five hours." I said opening the door just as Kevin was about to knock and scaring him. "Kevin he's yours for the next seven hours. But I want him back after that. And thank you!"
"Why?"
"For being here last night and talking to Brian."
"Hey that's my job. And right now my job is to get him to practice before our manager kills him."
"Alright I'll see you tonight and don't forget to ask." I yell as I walked out the door. I walked down the hall and stepped into the elevator. I saw Brian watching me the whole time. As soon as the doors closed I fell against the wall thinking! 'I swore that I would never say those words again. Why am I feeling like this? It has only been a day. Okay I will tell Jen, Nic, and Brit as soon as I have time. What will Jase think or act?" What does Jen have to tell me? And I thought I had my life organized.' The elevator doors opened and I got out and walked out of the building to my car and then headed to Nicole's.
****************** "Jase what do you want for your birthday?" Nicole asked as they walked around the mall.
"I want to see aunt Britney!" Jase yelled
"Aunt Britney? I don't know if she can come. She has to work for a lot of people."
"I want to see Aunt Britney and Justin and Josh!" Jase said
"Well we'll see what I can do with that!" Nicole said as they walked out of the mall. ******************
"Jen you here?" I yell as I walked into Nicole's house.
"Yeah I'm in my room!"
I walked through the house to where her room normally was. When I saw her, she had the weirdest grin on her face.
"Okay what's wrong?" I asked starring at her
"We have a lot to talk about!" Jen said then thought for a second. "Where the hell were you last night?"
"I met someone last night! He was really sweet!" I said noticing how large of a smile was forming on her face.
"Well I beat you this time! I met two some ones last night!" Jen said with a giant smile. "And I won't tell you who they are! You have to guess!"
I thought for a second, "They wouldn't be in a certain boy band call the Backstreet Boys, would they?" *************
"Hello, Ann is Britney there?"
"No she's at practice, but I think that she wouldn't mine you calling her cell!"
"Hey after I call her, can I call you back?"
"Yeah sure I haven't talked with you for a long time."
"Alright I'll call you right back. Bye"
"Bye!"
My mother hung up and redialed Britney's cell phone.
"Hello Britney's phone, Justin speaking!"
"Hey baby! I was just about to call you later."
"Oh hi mom! Why were you going to do that?"
"I was wondering if you had the weekend off and if so how soon could you be here?" **************
"You did what!?!?!" I screamed at Jen
"I slept with them. Okay so who were you with last night?" Jen asked trying to change the subject.
"I found someone so sweet, so imperfect, and all so sexy. He has a sexy southern voice, and eyes, oh lord, those eyes that you could get lost in every time you look at him."
"Oh so then how are you and Nick loving each others company?" Jen said laughing.
"Oh yeah right, like I could like him!" I said then thought for a second. "Nope try again!"
"Yeah right like Brian would even think twice about you!" Jen said with a serious tone. Then she looked at me and saw my huge smile and a twinkle in my eye. "Oh my god! You? Him? Brian? How?"
I told her about everything last night and this morning. During this time Nicole and Jase had came in and I filled Nicole in on everything that had happened. When I was finished it was going on 5 o'clock and for some reason I was more nervous then ever. Nicole was thrilled about Brian and I. Jen and I went to our rooms and got cleaned up. I got out of the shower and walked into my room. Jase was jumping on my bed. Jase stopped when I sat down on the bed. He crawled into my lap and played with my necklace. I could tell there was something else there.
"Jase baby what's wrong?"
"Are you leaving me?" Jase said with a tear escaping his eye. I swear my now whole heart, just broke into a million pieces.
"Yeah just for a couple of hours though, then Aunt Jen, you, me, and Brian are going home."
"Ryan? Who's Ryan?"
"Brian's a friend. You'll like him. He's nice." I said staring into his eyes.
"Daddy can I go with you?"
Before I could answer him, my cell phone rang. I debated if I should answer it or not. Here I was crying over what my son had just asked. There were only four people that could bring a smile to my face right now and Jen was not one of them. While my mind was debating this conflict, Jase had walked over to the dresser and was bringing my phone to me. Before he handed it to me he answered it (Being that he loved to play with my phone he figured out how to turn it on and off.)
"Hello" Jase asked
"Hello is this Jase?" the man asked
"Yeah..."
"Is your daddy there?"
"Yeah..."
"Do you talk much?"
"No..."
"Will you tell your daddy that this is Brian?"
"Yeah..." Jase said as he handed me the phone and said it was Ryan. (He has a hard time saying Brian every time.)
"Hey I miss you!" I said into the phone trying to hide the fact I was crying.
"You're crying why?" Brian asked. God how does he know these things? "Is it because of me? I screwed up already haven't I?" Brian asked
"No, No, No its not you. Its about Jase he doesn't want me to leave him." I said allowing another tear to slip from my eye.
"Well hang on for a minute." Brian said as he sat down the phone.
Just as soon as Brian sat the phone down, the other four guys decided that they would have a little fun with me.
"Hello you have reached the house of Backstreet Boys. For hot man sex, say 1; for hot one on one action, say 2; for celebrity sex, say 3; for abusive talk, say 4; for teenage sex, say 5; for soul mate matching, say 6; for desperate and willing, say 7; for a nude photo of Brian Littrell, Kevin Richardson, Nick Carter, Howie Dorough, and/or AJ McLean, say 8; for the operator sitting her nude and stroking himself, say 9. Please choose now." AJ said into the phone. I could tell that he had the speakerphone on because I could hear the other three laughing.
I thought for a minute and smiled at my thought.
"8!" I said suddenly
"And who would you like to see?" AJ asked quietly.
"AJ McLean!" I said trying not to laugh, but I could hear the guys rolling on the floor in the background and I could tell that AJ was burning red.
Howie took the phone from him and turned off the speaker.
"You know what! If you want AJ then you can have him, only if I get Brian in exchange!" Howie said to me in a serious tone, yet 'You'll never has a chance' tone.
"Well Howie if I had a dirty mind I would be thinking that you are implying you want a four some with Brian and I!" I said then heard two gasps on the other end, telling me that both Howie and AJ were listening.
"I... Uhm... a... Uhm... Damn! Here's your boyfriend!" Howie said suddenly as he thought he was safe.
"Baby?" Brian asked
"Yeah..."
"What did you say that turned both AJ and Howie blood red?"
"I'll tell you later. Where did you go?"
Have Jase ready to leave in an hour!"
"Why?" I asked unsure of his statement.
"I'll tell you in less then an hour. Just have him ready!"
"Alright I will! I miss you!"
"I miss you too, but Kevin's making me hang up!"
"Okay I'll let you go. I love you."
"I love you too. See you in a little bit!"
"Bye." I said as I hung up the phone.
I started to get Jase ready. He refused to take a bath so I had to take another shower so that I could get him clean. When we got done, Jen was in my bathroom fixing her hair and make-up. I swear the first time Brian sees this he'll freak. Jen took Jase to get him dressed while I went and got ready again. It had been about 45 minutes since Brian had called. I was fixing my hair when I heard some one knock on the door. I heard Jase run down the hall with Jen trailing behind. I heard Jase open the door.
"Hello" Jase said quietly
"Hello are you Jase?" the man standing in front of him asked.
"Yeah. Who are you?" Jase asked
"I'm Brian. Is your daddy here?"
"Yeah...." Jase said as he ran off to me.
"Brian come in and sit down until Jase drags Chris out here." Jen said laughing at Jase.
"Thanks." Brian said sitting down.
"Daddy, Daddy, Daddy" Jase said running down the hallway.
"Jase you better not be running down that hallway!" I yelled as I heard Jase enter the room.
"Daddy. Ryan's here!" Jas said out of breath.
"Who?"
"Ryan!"
"You mean Brian?"
"Yeah!"
"Okay," I said as I picked him up and put him on my back and walked into the living room.
"Hey, Baby!" I said as I sat Jase down on the ground and then move to where Brian was sitting.
"Are you ready to leave?" Brian asked.
"Why are you here?" I asked
"Well I have a solution to your problem with Jase. He can come with me!" Brian said
"How? You have a show to do!" I questioned
"I have my ways actually. You worry about watching the show while I take care of everything else." Brian said to me and then turned to Jase. "Well do you want to meet my friends? They're a lot of fun to be with." Brian asked Jase.
"Can I daddy?" Jase asked
I thought for a minute. "Okay I guess as long as you're good around Brian and you don't act up."
"Yeah!" Jase screamed jumping up and down.
"Well then I guess that we better get going then! Come on buddy." Brian said picking Jase up and putting him on his shoulders.
I walked out with Jen when I noticed my car gone and a limo sitting out front. I had never rode in a limo before so I just stood there with Jen. Brian noticed...
"Well, will you be going with me or are you just going to stand there?" Brian asked.
We finally got in. Jen and I sat across from Brian and Jase. Brian had Jase in his lap talking to him. Jase was playing with Brian's necklace. I just stared at the two people that were meaning the most to me at this point in time. Jen leaned over to me and whispered...
"And you were worried!" Jen said.
The ride to the arena was quiet. Brian and Jase talked while Jen, by herself, talked about my prefect wedding. I just sat there staring at how well Brian was with children. Brian would see me staring and look at me with a smile. 'God what did I do to deserve someone like him? And Jase seems to like him as well,' I thought. We arrived at the arena all to fast. Jen and Jase got out leaving Brian and I alone for a minute. I had been looking toward the ground since Jen and Jase had left. Brian moved over to me and was squatted down on the floor in front of me. Brian gently raised my chin with his soft touch. He raised my head to look me in the eye.
"Is it healthy to cry 24/7?" Brian asked with a grin.
"Brian, I only know that for last than 24 hours, I already miss you when you're not around. I swore that I would never fall in love again." I paused for a second and thought. "Brian I don't know of you feel the same but I think that I haven't fallen in love with you, I do love you!"
"Chris, baby, I love you more then life its self. I also love Jase. He's a lot like you. He's easy to talk to. Chris answer me one question, did you believe that Jase and I were going to get along?"
"Yeah actually, I was scared that I would lose you because of him. Everyone that I have ever liked ran off after they found out about Jase. I guess I was just scared that you would run too."
"Well you won't get rid of me so easily. You're stuck with me until we end it for good and yet you'll still be my friend, or we'll be together until the day we both die." Brian stated with more love in his eyes then I have ever seen before.
"Hey you better get going or Kevin will kill the both of us tonight. And did you ask them?" I asked
"Yeah they all said that they would be ready early in the morning or Nicole said that she'll bring them up tomorrow afternoon since everyone is staying with her tonight instead of the hotel."
"Well Jen will like that since she is staying here tonight." I said as I leaned over and kissed him. "I will see you later. I love you!"
Brian stole another kiss while mumbling, "I love you" into my mouth.
Brian and I got out of the limo just as we see Kevin running towards us. Brian put Jase back on his shoulders, said good-bye and then left Jen and I. Jen and I started to walk toward the entrance for our seats when we hear a little boy crying because he could not see. Without even giving a second thought about it, I grabbed Jen and pulled her over to where the boy was. A woman in her early thirties was trying her hardest to comfort her son (I'm guessing about that!) with little success. Before I said anything to the woman, I asked Jen.
"Do you mind sitting here?" I asked Jen
"No I don't mind as long as that little boy can see!" Jen said as she turned toward the woman. "Excuse me, Ma'am!"
"Yes can I help you?" the woman asked without looking up.
"Well we heard that your son could not see the stage from here and I was wondering if you would like a better seat?" I asked.
"Excuse me?" the woman said finally looking up at us. "Are you serious?"
"Yes Ma'am we are. I would rather see your son sitting in the front row and enjoy the concert instead of him sitting back here and not able to see." I said with Jen nodding her head.
"We could not just take your seats, you paid too much to sit there!" the woman argued.
"Well you paid too much to miss the whole show! And don't worry about us; we will have more of an advantage then what people actually think." I said the last part in a whisper.
"Are you sure?" the woman asked
"Yeah we're positive!" Jen said handing the woman our tickets.
"Thank you I wish I could repay you for this!" The woman said as she picked up her son and started toward the gate.
Jen and I talked about different things while we were waiting for the show to start. Just as the opening act started my cell rang.
"Hello"
"I love you! Now where in the hell are you at?" Brian asked.
"I love you too. We're sitting in the lawn."
"I thought you said that you had front row seats?" Brian asked
"We did but there was this woman with a little boy and he was crying because he could not see the stage. So we talked her into trading tickets with us."
"I LOVE YOU!" Brian said, "Okay since you so loving I want you and Jen to walk around to the entrance besides the stage.
"Why?" I asked
"Just do it! I will show you why!" Brian said
"Okay I love you!"
"I love you too, now leave and I'll meet you there." Brian said as he hung up.
"For as many times as you said I love you I'm guessing that was Brian." Jen stated
"Yeah he wants us to go to the entrance on the side of the stage. For what I have no idea." I said pulling Jen with me.
As we walked around the stage, two giant guards stopped us. One of the guards looked familiar and the more I thought about it I remembered Brian said something about the guard at all of their concerts. Well my thoughts were interrupted as the man started to speak.
"You can not go any farther. You need to turn around and leave." The big black guard said. His voice alone could scare some one to death.
"I'm suppose to meet Mr. Littrell here!" I stuttered out.
"Yeah right you and the other 5000 fans. Now will you..." the guard was cut off as Brian walked up.
"James let them through!" Brian said as he grabbed our arms and pulled us through the entrance.
"Brian where are you going?" I finally asked once we stopped at a curtain like area.
"We're going to try and make someone's dream come true!" Brian said as he pushed us out on to the stage. "Do you see the woman and her son that you switched tickets with?"
Jen and I looked around and then finally saw them in the front row.
"Right there!" Jen and I yelled at the same time.
"Okay come with me." Brian yelled.
Walked back off the stage. Brian turned and quickly pecked my cheek.
"I love you and thank you!" Brian whispered in my ear.
"I love you too and what for?" I asked
"For being so loving and willing to give up something, so that someone else can benefit from it," Brian grabbing my hand and stared into my eyes. I have never seen such eyes!
"Brian could you not look at me?" I asked so quietly that I barely heard myself say it.
"What! Why?" Brian said in a hurt tone.
"Because every time you do I just want to kiss you and never let go!" I said looking back into his eyes to prove my meaning.
"I love you," Brian whispered and then walked away.
Jen and I followed trying to figure out where and what he had planned. Brian walked over to a man talking on a cell phone. Brian talked with the man for a minute or two and finally the man seemed to agree to what Brian had said. Brian walked back to us and told us to follow him. We waked back out onto the stage where five chairs were being set up to the side of the stage.
"Sit here and I will be right back." Brian said then turned and walked away again.
Jen and I sat there staring into the 5000 eyes staring back at us. I was nervous but I just wonder how the guys could do this every night. Don't get me wrong I've been in front of large crowds before, but for some reason I'm more nervous now. Was it because I have no idea what Brian has planned, or was it the fact that most of the people were here to see my boyfriend. Jen looked just as nervous as I was. I noticed that Jen was starring across the stage into one of the wings. I followed her eyes to where they were fixated. There I saw Howie and AJ blowing kisses at her then they both ran out toward us on the stage. AJ and Howie both gave Jen a kiss on the cheek. They then ran back off the stage. Once they were off the stage I looked into Jen's eyes. I could not hold back anymore.
"You're in love with both of them!" I yelled.
"Yeah but they may not love me after they find out something about me!" Jen sobbed out.
"What could be so bad that they would not love you any more?" I asked then I saw something that I had only seen once in my life, and that was with Amber! "Are you Pregnant?"
TBC
Is she pregnant? How will this affect the relationships forming? What does Brian have planned? I hope that you enjoyed this chapter. I have already started on the next so keep looking for it. And as a warning this mild theme I have had so far is about to start getting rocky. And I'm looking for ideas for future chapters and/or stories, so if you have some and would like to share I would gladly accept them. And as always all comments are welcome, good and bad. Thank you. Christopher at Christopherunknown@hotmail.com.