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He Was My Best Friend Chapter 11: Happy...
I'm fucked! Screwed, caught AGAIN!!! Why cant he walk in when I'm trying to stop it? I just had to screw this up! Why didn't I pull back? Slap him across the face or knee him in the balls like I always do...am I attracted to Johnny...like that?
" I knew it! I fucking knew it!" wait...that's not Josh...even worse. Tabby.
" It's not what you think," sounds like I'm lying already. I pushed--tried pushing Johnny away but he wouldn't budge. " Johnny is NOT my-"
" Save it! Your just trying to protect your deranged little...thing." NO! NO! NO! If she thinks Johnnies my boyfriend...then the school will think he's my boyfriend. And if the school finds out then Josh will and....and....
" Tabs, seriously. Were just friends." I tried to push him again, He still wouldn't move. I was already angry at him...and I should've done this sooner. I kneed him in the balls.
" GOD DAMMIT MARK! That shit HURTS!" He yelled bending over cupping his balls. I told him to get off!
" Don't talk to him like that! Plus, you deserve it. All the stuff I heard about you...." she seriously thinks Johnnies my boyfriend...so if she doesn't like Johnny...she wont like Josh. I need her to support me and him...
" THAT! WASN'T! ME!!" he yelled at Tabby who glared at him.
" Oh my god...mark what happened to your wrists?"...god this is going to sound so wrong. This weekend, when Johnny and I `talked' and he went into all confession mode...yea. She was talking about the bruises on my wrist when he grabbed me...
" Did HE do that?" damn! She's doing that weird eye thing...
" No...he didn't mean to...we were talking and..." I babbled. The truth is :he did do it. But he's not who you think he is...that's what should've came out.
" Abusive son of a bitch! Did he make your neck turn different colors too??"
" No! no, he did that one but--I'm going to lunch." this is so fucked up! Damn her and her nosiness!
" NO? denial much? GOD!"
" Look..." I sighed. " I know what this looks like...but Johnny isn't my boyfriend. He just has a BAD HABBIT of kissing me" I glared at Johnny through gritted teeth.
" You DIDN'T try to stop me! You want it as bad as I do so forget-"
"Oh my god! Be quiet!" what's going to stop him from telling her that its josh...what's going to stop her from doing something.
"...I'm lost..." Tabby looked confused from me to Johnny.
" Don't TRY and act like this is my fault. I wasn't the only one there this weekend! That was me AND you." Johnnies face went red and he punched a nearby locker.
" I'm tired of this shit! I'm tired of you always running from me!" Johnny stalked over to me grasping my shoulders. " I need to be with you..." Johnny leaned in...
I put my hand in his face and looked the other way.
" I'm NOT doing this. What happened this weekend is done! Over! Forgotten...go back to whoever your fucking cause your getting none from me!"
" what happened this weekend IS NOT OVER! WERE DOING THIS SHIT AGAIN! RIGHT NOW! AND IT DOESN'T MATTER IF I'VE FUCKED SOME ONE ELSE!"
" Whate-"
" If you think all I want from you is sex...you're wrong! I want you, not just your body. I was there for you..."
" let go of me Johnny."
" No. and if you TRY to kick me in the balls again..."
"You'll what? Hit me! I dare you!" I looked at him defiantly.
" GOD!! You piss me off so fuckin bad...but- I love you."
" No, Johnny!"
" You haven't even given me a chance!"
" Why cant we just be friends? Why all this-this drama?"
"Because I love you!"
" I cant be with you..."
" Because of him!"
"Things were better when we were just friends."
" I LOVE YOU! ARE YOU NOT HEARING ME! I! LOVE! YOU!!!"
" Let go of me." I said calmly. If I was pissed and he was pissed that bad shit would happen. So o can try and stay calm.
"FUCK!!!" Johnny hit the locker again. He brushed his fingers through his hair...crying.
"I had you first. Do you not remember....I was there for you. ME! I'm not going to lose you...fuck!" he laughed... " but if you don't want me I guess we can be friends."
" I'm sorry. I really am...."
" Whatever man. i was stupid for being like this anyway." he smiled and laughed. " I guess I just had to get it off my chest...."
"Yea..."
The lunch bell rang...Josh is going to be pissed. I missed lunch and I have no excuse for missing it. I cant tell him that I was arguing with Johnny.
" That was the bell." Johnny said, walking down the hall. " I have classes to skip." he smiled.
Lost and confused is what i was feeling. All through my next class....all I could think about was what happened during lunch'. Johnnies confession of love'. Tabby thinking that Johnnies my boyfriend...and how she treated him. They weren't friends but we all talked a lot. She was all mad at him...she is one of my closest friends and if she doesn't approve of my boyfriend. Yea that can be some more drama.
I could blame it on myself. If I told her about me and josh earlier. If i told her about him period. Maybe she wouldn't just know that bad stuff about us. Maybe she wouldn't hate him so much. Hate him without knowing him.
Johnny...I don't know what new drug he's on...at first he was all I love you then he laughed about it and went back to...normal. I don't get him. Was he lying? Or trying to cover up his feelings...I made him cry. AGAIN! If I cant be his boyfriend I can at least be the BESTEST friend he's ever had. Yea that'll be my apology to him.
I was in the school parking lot waiting in my car. Waiting for josh. School let out almost twenty minutes ago and he still wasn't here.
I turned my music up a little louder. I haven't seen Josh the morning and I miss him. Or I could just be horny...ha ha yea its that one. After what we did this morning...just thinking about it...me and him are okay now. The end of all that bullshit...
" So you wanna tell me why everyone thinks Johnny is your boyfriend." Josh opened the door and sat in the passenger seat, not looking at me.
WHAT!!? Tabby. All tabby. i knew it. I JUST knew it...damn. But he doesn't seem mad. that's a good thing. A few days ago he would've killed me...
" What are you talking about?" I played dumb to see how much he knew. If he didn't know about the kiss then i was not going to tell him about it.
" I've had people come up to me all fucking day saying that my best friend was dating an abusive asshole..." shit...happy must not like us. Every time.... Every fucking time...something always happens.
He's almost left me because he thought he'd hurt me...and now he hears this shit. " at first I thought some one knew about us...I thought they knew about our past." he clenched his jaw...he's holding back tears...god I cannot stand high school! We were floating on clouds this morning and now were like this...
" The more they talked about it...the more pissed I got. In my mind It was Johnny, cause they were talking about him." he faced me. " I wanted to kill him...I wanted to kill anybody who'd do that shit to you...but it's me...I was the one who did it not Johnny..."
" Well you know the truth and you know that's stuff is In the past so don't even waste your time thinking about it."
"I know but...I don't know! Fuck!!" he yelled. His face turning red. "Everything is so fucked up! I don't deserve you mark!"
" We are not starting that again! You do deserve me! Stop being so stupid, god!"
"ME! I'M STUPID!! I'm NOT the one who stays with an ABUSIVE boyfriend!"
"You do know that your talking about yourself right?"
" Don't get smart with me! I'm serious mark!"
" We already talked about this. Remember? Last night...then we had awesome make up sex. Do we get to have make up sex now." I joked. Even though I so wanted to.
" I'm sorry.." he sighed. "abusive boyfriend. They should mind their own fucking business! I got worked up for no reason..."
"Ok so were going home to..."
" Yea baby! I've been horny since this morning." he said massaging his crotch...licking his lips...
" BUCKLE UP!" I sped out of the schools parking lot getting a few honks and middle fingers. I don't care cause I'm getting laid!
Today wasn't so bad after all and its only going to get better...
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