here it is. chapter 10. if you've ben reading this far then you already know the stuff thats supposed to be here but i dont feel like writing...
Chapter 10: just like the first time.
Why cant we just be happy? Every single time things start going well something happens. Every time we have that 'moment' that makes everything seem ok. every time! Something bad happens. I was surprised we lasted this long. Happy for one whole day.
Maybe Josh was right. Maybe I should be with Johnny. NOT! What the fuck was with that? My boy friend telling me it was okay to run to him. The guy that he's all competitive with.all this because I have to have all these dumb ass problems.
If I wasn't so sad all the time. Always complaining about stupid shit. Maybe we could be happy. Maybe Josh wouldn't have thought about breaking up. And I'm doing it again. Complaining. From now on I'm not complaining. It has to work this time.he was almost gone. Just a few more steps and Josh would have been gone. So determined to 'protect' me.
" your parents are going to kill us." Josh Whispered in my ear.
" maybe they didn't hear anything." I was hoping they didn't. hearing that your son screaming that he's going to kill himself cant be good. Knowing my parents we'd be in family counseling.goody.
" going upstairs now." I felt Josh's body move. I didn't want to get up. I didn't feel like doing anything. Anything except raid the freezer for ice cream. Comfort food.damn. Am I that bad?
" I don't feel like getting up." not feeling depressed. NOT feeling depressed. Damn it I'm depressed. This is bad. I have to be not depressed so I can work on my relationship. I have to show Josh that he doesn't make me sad.
" hey put me down!" Josh ignored me and kept going up the stairs. " if you drop me,"
" do you trust me?"
" yea."
" good." he slapped my ass. " you better."
This reminds me of the first time. When Josh and I first had sex. Ha! I thought he was talking about a video game. God how I remember that day. The best day of my life. If only we could go back to that. To the beginning.
We were so close. My arm around his neck. Face snuggled into his chest. God I love him. Something so simple as being close to him makes it seem worth while. I remember when he first held me. After our first time. And that damned conversation.
" Josh?" although I like being in his arms I really hate being not on the ground.
" yea."
" were in my room now."
" so?"
"You can put me down now."
" I don't want to. I like your body." he buried his head in my neck.
" school.in four hours,"
"I guess we have to be quick then." his breath on my neck..
" my parents." all fight I had in me died when he started sucking my neck. I could feel his boxer clad dick growing. I was his. His mouth left my neck and found my lips, his lips. This kiss that would last forever. Well it would've if we didn't have dicks begging for attention.
Slowly our bodies separated, regretting the loss of our kiss. But we met again, connected. Josh inside of me. His mouth once again found my neck. Marking me, seeing but ignoring the bruise on my neck.
My head thrown back in ecstasy, pure pleasure from having josh in me. Mouth open, daring not let out the screams that were stuck in my throat. Josh covered my mouth was his, sticking his tongue in when I least expected it.
' I missed you, its been too long.' our eyes met. Communicating the words our mouths could not.
Its been a while since Josh and I have done anything. we've been fighting for a while.so I guess this is make up sex.
His skin was so warm, hot. Every part I touched was like fire. My hands roaming his back feeling the muscles beneath.
'I love you'
Josh laid me on my back. Our bodies never loosing contact, our connection. His mouth found my neck again. Going back to the spot that was sure to be marked.
Here it is. He's close. One hand goes down to my cock.
' I'm close.'
I shoot and Josh starts pounding away, abandoning the slow loving pace he did before.
" I love you " he spoke, trying to catch his breath.
" I Love you.more" I wrapped my arms around him. not Wanting to loose our connection.
" Roll over," Josh and I got in our sleeping positions. I love him..
"we should skip tomorrow."
"don't think so. Your not getting me to skip."
" I own you." his mouth found its way to my neck again.
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