Paul stoped and then went back to his car. He got in and drove after me. I could not stop crying I knew i wanted him i loved this man even after four years had gone past and I really do believe I always will it is just one thing about me that will never leave me. He honked his horn at me telling me to pull over. I just kept driving. He then just slowed down and to the exit. " thank god" is siad. I kept driving but i pulled over to the side for a minute to realize what just happened i feel to my knees. I ask god "why did he come back". I knew i wanted him to come to me one day and say those words to me but i wanted to know when he was going to do it. i got ahold of myself and drove back to my house and i saw him standing there waiting for me to come home. I got out and walk over to him and said. "you don't stop do you" " No because i can tell that you never stoped loving me" " Paul why did you come back now it a little to late for you to try to be with me i am going to college next year and someone is waiting for me." " yeah that person that is waiting Jay is me" He walked over to me and shock me. " look at me Jay you have no idea how long i have contemplated on my dissision to turn.." " Gay you mean you don't just turn gay Paul Bening Gay or Bi or what ever is an emotion something that you really don't have control over you don't wake up one morning and say well today i feel like i want to go and fuck men and well tommorow i will be back with women" I said sarcastically. " yeah i know that jay" " what happen to your girlfriend" "What" " you herd me Paul what happen to her?" " don't worry she is old news" " well i need to catch up on my current events." " she cheated on me with a woman" " and that why you maracusly turned gay" I was actin like an asshole because i wanted him to leave the more i looked and this man the more i broke down the more i could not tolarete the emotion in my mind body and soul. I would rarely look him in the eyes because his stare would drag me in i know it would. i watched his lips move as he was explaing how that is not the reason why he turned gay. " Listen Paul i have to go i have to study i have big test tommorow you remeber how it was like being a senior." " yeah i do and i know that i need help sometime on my work, i can help you on it" knowing that i had a 4.0 i wanted his help in other ways " paul i don't know, i don't want this to turn into something else" " I promise i will not make the first move" "wait who said a move was going to be made" " no one it's just that... never mind." " Ok i think i could you somework onmy icthology work" " yeah i remeber that class i got a A in that one" " good because if i fail this test tommorow i will have a B+ in the class and that would mean that i could fuck my chances of going to school next year on academics." "Don't worry you are going to pass it." " ok i'm going to trust you on this please don't fail me." I unlock my door and he followed after me. i was almost eightteen at the time so my parents trusted me to stay home by myself beside all of my nosie as neighbors would have called them if any partying was happing. " hey do you want anyrhing to drink" " do you have water" " yeah which type" " huh" " i have deer park i have evan i have..." "oh um it doesn't matter." " heres some Dasani" " thanks, ok so what do you need help with" " Paul... the truth is... i don't need help with it the test was yesterday and i got a 98 on it, i just couldn't hold back from you anymore i wanted to fight you off and tell you to just leave but you know that i love you and it would break me down worse than i already am." He leaned in and he kissed me on my lips. I kissed him back. he pulled back. " what wrong" i said " i made the first move and i told you i wouldn't i don't ever want you to think that i break promises and tell you lies" " i love you" I kissed him know that i would never have to worry about him hurting me we kissed and kissed then i went for his shirt. he help me pull it off and we kept going he lifted me off of the chair and brought me to the stair case. he was carrying me up the stairs. he was looking around for my room out of the 5 that was upstairs and i went down the hallways not ever letting out kiss break. i found my room and i feel back on the bed. he climbed on top of me and removed my shirt. I ran my fingers through his long hair. he kissed me down my stomach running his tounge through my pecks. i started to kiss his neck. he undid my belt pulled my pants down. i then turned him over and and started to kiss his chest. he held the back of my head with his hands i undid his pants and pulled them off and his boxers. exposing his cock. i always pictured him ass being a medium size guy oh how wrong i was. he was huge he was at least 10 and 1/2 inches i was nervous because i have never been with something that size before. he looked at me in my eyes and i knew he wouldn't hurt me. i went down on him taking atleast 7 in my mouth he gasped for air. i knew that i was doing something right on his andaconda. he started to work his hips slowly. i started to move faster on him. he was working me mouth harder now. he pulled me up to him and kissed me. i knew what he was asking me "yes" i was ready he turned me over and i went uder the bed and i grab some lube and a condom. he didn't ask question like why do we need a condom he just put it on and lubed me up. he asked me was i sure and i shook my head saying "yes but pleas go slowly" He moved in slowly and i gasped it was ripping my anal open and it hurted but it was a good hurt. Paul slowed down on me and then moved in slower and after about 2 minutees had his whole dick in me he started to draw out but when he was almost out he pushed back in i started to get use to it after about 5 minutes and thats when he started to pick up pace. i moaned louder and louder he was also moaning we went for two more hours. and then he finally busted on my stomach and on my face and i took him in my mouth to get the rest then he went down on me event though he was already done and he got me off. i layed in the bed with him and we talke for hours and then fell asleep in eachothers arms. i woke up the next day and paul was not beside me.