Growing up Joshua This is a work of pure fiction, but based on the author's feelings,beliefs, and in some cases, experience. Come to think of it -- it mightnot be all that pure! There may be graphic sexual encounters at timesbetween males, so if this offends you, you are invited to retreat. If youare too young or it is otherwise illegal for you to be reading this kindif story, shame on you for reading it - - please stop here. If not, - -ENJOY! Cast of characters:
Joshua Alan Black II Barbie Warfield -- my mother Dennis Warfield -- my stepfather
Richard -- My favorite Cousin Ray and Raul -- Richards' younger brothers.
Nate Willows -- My first roomie.
James Meriwether -- Mid-year Transfer
Seth Gary -- My therapist. Luke -- Seth's partner. (Lukamaiola Makamakahaiiolioli)
Jake -- Seth's Cousin Colin -- Jake's partner Uri -- Jake and Colin's Son Ursula -- Jake and Colin's Daughter
Chris -- Seth's brother Craig -- Chris's partner
Rob -- Seth's "big brother" (not really, but ... ) Denny -- Rob's partner. Greta -- one of Rob' and Denny's 4 kids.
Uncle Jake Smith -- Jakes father and the Smith Patriarch Aunt Lindy -- Jakes Mom Etta -- The Smith's housekeeper
Ren (Lawrence) Smith Family Friend Lenny (Leonard) Ren's partner.
Bobby -- Colin's brother
From Chapter 26:
I led Scout -- with Donny atop her -- all around the four main houses, then when I led her around back of Seth's we saw the car from the group home.
"Shit!" Said Donny. The first time I heard him say anything so emphatically. When I led him on Scout to the car, the window came down. His group home mother said, apologetically, "We have to take him home." "Can I bring him home later?" I pleaded.
She looked at her husband and said something. She looked up at Donny. "Would you like to stay a little longer -- and have -- this man -- being you home?" I laughed inside when she called me that!
Donny enthusiastically nodded.
"He needs to be back by five to get ready for dinner. He'll be pretty smelly after this, I suppose."
"Could he stay for dinner?" I asked.
She looked at me suspiciously and said, "Just a minute." She made a call and then turned back and said, "He may stay -- but should be back before ten." And they left.
This was the first time I heard Donny laugh!
Chapter 27
I watched the big ol' SUV move around the driveway, and out the gate, and when I looked up at Donny, he was hugging the neck of the big ol' horse, and, eyes closed seemed to be in heaven for a moment. Scout wiggled her ears and nickered softly. "Shhhh." Whispered Donny. "I'm here."
I climbed up behind Donny. Scout started to dance around a little. "I think she wants to run!" I whispered in Donny's ear.
"I -- d-d-don't think - " Donny said.
"I know horses, Donny -- she wants to run a little. Hold on!" I slid up close so my crotch was actually under the rear of the saddle and hugged Donny close to me. Donny let out a low giggle. I took the rein and told him to hold the horn. I nudged her sides and she started to walk. I pressed my knees in and whistled low, while digging in my heels. She sprang into a trot, nearly bumping me off. I held on the Donny and yelled, "Lets GO!"
Scout went into full gallop, around the house and onto the trail, then stretched out her neck and galloped full tilt toward the other side of the property, around the easy bend and then headed back toward the stable. I could have stopped her any time, but as Donny was giggling and yahooing, I let her have her head. It was about a five minute ride, because the equestrian trail runs around the entire Smith acreage.
When we approached the stable, Scout again slowed to a trot, and I gently pulled back the rein so I wasn't jiggled off. She slowed to a walk. She was breathing hard, nickering loudly, and seemed to be relieved to get out and run. Donny was still giggling and when I got off, I helped him off too, and he hugged me closely. Donny's curly head came up to my chin, and as he held on to me, I petted his head.
Then I felt it. My leg warmed up. I am afraid I overreacted slightly, as I realized that Donny had gotten so excited he was wetting us both! As I quickly stepped back, he suddenly looked almost overwhelmed with embarrassment. He ran into the stable and tried to find a place to hide. As he was frantically running form place to place, I said, "Donny -- stop!"
He stopped and looked at the ground. "It's okay Donny. You were excited. It could have happened to anyone. That was so much fun! I was excited too! But we're not finished. No one else is here, and Scout needs to be walked awhile. Will you do that?"
He looked at me for a split second , then down at his wet jeans. "I won't tell of you won't!" I said, looking at my own wet pant leg and laughing. I held the rein out o him. That was too much temptation for him. He ran to me and grabbed it. He turned to hug me again, then looked at our wet jeans and thought twice about it.
"Just walk her around outside the stable until she's breathing more normally." He walked away with her. I went back into the stable and opened a few gates until I found some hay, grabbed a flake of it and tossed it into her cubicle. The sun was starting to be low in the sky, and there were deep shadows in the cubicle. I went in and as it was pretty stimulating, having my genitals under the saddle seat, rubbing up and down, I felt the need to relieve some of my own tension -- which I did quietly and quickly.
When I was finished, Donny was approaching the stable. He brought her in and I showed him how to take off the saddle, then we let her into her cubicle. She went directly to the flake of alfalfa and stated to munch.
"Now lets get us cleaned up!" I said.
We walked back to the house in the semi dark. Seth was with a patient. Luke waited for us outside. "Looks like someone found a horse!" He said.
"I think he likes riding." I said, looking to Donny. He grinned shyly and nodded. "Luke -- you're about his size. Do you suppose Donny can borrow some clothing while his are washing?" Donny gave me a worried look. "We got pretty sweaty riding. We'll need to clean up a bit, and we may as well wash his clothes to wear home." I winked at Luke.
"Sure!" He said.
We went upstairs and Luke handed me some shorts and said, "I understand Donny will be joining us for dinner. Do you like pizza, Donny?" Donny looked up and nodded, grinning. It won't be delivered for another hour or so. Why don't we go over to Rob's for a swim? The kids will be at their dinner about now, anyway."
I shed my own wet jeans. And walked into my room in my underwear. Luke stared momentarily at my wet pant leg and I shook my head slightly. I changed in to my swim suit and then told Donny to go into the other room and do the same. We went downstairs and hopped into the little golf-cart type transport and rode over to the pool.
After we washed off at the poolside shower, Luke and I played and romped and dove in the pool, not excluding Donny, but letting him join in as he wished. He mostly watched. But he got wet and cleaned the sweat and other residues off him.
When we came back into the house, and went upstairs, I told Donny he could shower first. I gave him a towel and bath robe, and then showed him where the shower was. He went in and came right back out, looking distressed. "I can't!" He said, holding the door ajar. I walked and pushed the door open and saw why he couldn't. He felt exposed to the Craysons, next door! I laughed and hit the video switch. The wall want blank.
"It was just a picture." I explained.
As he started to shower, and I started to shed my wet trunks, Luke came into my room. As I stood there in my birthday suit, Luke admired anew my prowess. "That's amazing. Better not expose Donny to that, eh?"
"Yeah, I was planning to give him his privacy. When I heard the shower stop, I wrapped in a towel and walked in as he walked out. He didn't bother with the towel. He was slim and had skinny arms and genitals to match his otherwise small proportioned body. I closed the door and started the shower. Luke joined me from his room.
"What happened -- to your jeans?" He asked.
"He has never been on a horse. When we galloped, he got very excited. When we stopped he was so elated that he hugged me and then ... wet his -- or rather -- OUR pants. He was devastated, but I treated it as nothing, and had him walk Scout. Both of us commenced washing our hair and as we rinsed, and I opened my eyes, the door to the shower room was standing open and Donny was staring, open-mouthed at my junk. When he saw me seeing him, he quickly closed the door.
"So much for non-disclosure!" said Luke.
"Non-disclosure about what?" Said Seth coming from their room.
"Non-Exposure might have been a better term," Said Luke. "We tried not to expose the kid to our bodies, but he helped himself while we showered. He was just standing and staring."
"No biggie!" Said Seth, then he chuckled, "Well, except for that!" He said, pointing to Josh Junior. "Let me talk to him a moment before you guys come out. I'll remind him of a few things he ought to remember when he is in a situation like this. He's no dummy!"
"Will he understand?" Said Luke.
"Oh yeah! There's nothing wrong with his mind. He can reason ... but he has a hard time with reality. He will understand alright. But either or both of you may need to expect something interesting -- from him -- depending on what fascinated him the most."
"It was no mystery what THAT was!" Said Luke. They walked out together into their room, and I in to my own. Luke knocked my door and came in, dressed, to wait with me while Seth talked to Donny.
Their talk lasted longer than expected, and we heard the doorbell ring. "LUKE! -- the Pizza guy is here. Go let -- er no! Send Josh!"
"You heard him. Go answer the door!" Said Luke.
I went to the door and opened it. "Pizza Hut Delivery!" I stood open mouthed for a moment -- at the 6'-8" hunk on the porch. "Did you order some pizzas? Um - Sir?"
"Oh - Yeah!" I said coming out of my mini-stupor. I handed him a fifty. He started to make change and I waved it back. "Thanks!" He said. Then, "Um -- did you want me to come back ... later -- or something?"
"Later?" I said, puzzled.
"You know -- like -- after work?"
"Oh! Haha! I don't think - "
"Oh! I'm sorry! I mean -- I thought - "
I grinned. "You thought I was gay?"
"I -- er -- that is -- I -- um -- THANKS -- um g'bye!"
"The tip wasn't for anything other than telling you a job well done. And if you want to come back later, I'd be open to chatting with you. And -- yes -- I'm gay! But if you do this sort of thing for money -- better not come back."
Look ... uhhhm -- I'm sorry that I uhm -- assumed that -- I mean -- your tip was just so big -- what was I to think? Oh god, no! For money? But I guess -- I mean -- uh -- haha! When did you want me to come back? This actually was my last delivery, so I am off the rest of the night. I live just over the county line."
"What? This was way out of your way!" I said.
"Oh -- yeah -- that! Well -- haha! Um -- the Smith's usually tip pretty well, and -- as I was on my way home -- well, anyway -- when could I come back -- um -- that is -- if you want me to - ?"
Was I imagining that he was admiring me too?
He turned bright red, as he dug himself in deeper. "How old you?" I asked.
"19."
"I'm Joshua! I -- um -- can you wait here a moment?" I started to close the door then opened it wider. "I mean -- come in for a moment -- okay?"
I tore upstairs and asked Luke if he saw any problem adding one more to the mix. "Who?"
"It's the -- um -- Who? Um -- haha! I don't know his name! haha! The pizza delivery guy!"
"Is it the tall one?" Asked Seth.
"Yeah!" I said.
"That's Randy. I've wondered if I should fix you two up! He's your age!"
"I know!" I said, suddenly more excited than before.
"I've been working with him." Said Seth.
"Oh!" I said.
"Oh -- nothing serious -- well, anything is serious, I guess, but -- I think you'd get along. I just wasn't quite ready to- "
"It's okay!" I said. "We can get together another time." I demurred.
"No .. I mean -- NO! Usually the Universe delivers things right on time! Tell him to stay!"
"There's plenty of pizza!" Said Luke.
I bounced down the stairs. I stopped short at the bottom, realizing that maybe my excitement was over the top. Randy gave me a querying look.
"Can you stay for dinner? I mean -- do you even like your own pizza?"
"Of course I do!"
"Oh! Heh! I mean -- well -- sometimes when you work somewhere, you get tired of - "
"Not to worry. I never get tired of pizza -- from anywhere!" He grinned. "I'm Randy!"
"I know!" I said, then realized that was stupid.
"You do?"
"Um -- er -- yeah -- um -- Seth told me."
"Oh!"
"Hello, Randy!" Said Seth. "This is the guy I was telling you about."
"You're joking! But I thought -- you said he was in -- Chicago, was it?"
"Milwaukee." I said. "I was in Milwaukee. I came here to - "
I stopped because of the shocked look on Randy's face as he looked up the stairs.
"Donny?" he almost whispered.
I turned and looked up at Donny. He looked as shocked as Randy. Donny nearly floated down the stairs and came and stood inches away from Randy, looking up into his face.
"What? You two know each other?" Said Seth.
"Don's my cousin. His dad is the one I - "
"Yes! I remember! Say no more!" Said Seth.
Donny threw his arms around Randy and they both started weeping almost uncontrollably.
Finally Randy looked up and said, "We haven't seen each other for five years. I was only fourteen. All I knew was that he was taken away -- for the same reasons my dad stopped letting me go over there. My aunt and uncle are sick-o's."
All the time he was talking, Donny clung to him.
"Donny -- no one's going to take him away again -- ever."
Donny looked at Seth, keeping his face firmly pressed against Randy's chest. Randy said, "Donny -- I thought you were -- far away. Where -- I mean -- can I come see you?" As he talked, Randy extricated himself slightly from Donny's grip.
"We'll take the pizza's in to the kitchen and heat them up some more, while you two get reacquainted." Said Seth. "C'mon, Luke -- Josh -- come with me to the kitchen. We'll call you guys when everything's ready."
When in the kitchen, Seth said, "They never mentioned each others' names to me. As soon as I saw them looking at each other, I knew. Omigosh! They both were destroyed when they were split up. I should have put two and two together, maybe. But It didn't occur to the that they both were talking about one another. Randy's mom is sister to Donny's father. I can't tell you details, of course, but -- they are obviously happy to see each other."
We had dinner and when it was time to take Donny home, he balked. "Donny, you know you have to go." Said Seth. "But maybe you and Randy can come ride horses together some time -- soon. Do you ride, Randy?"
"Yes, as a matter of fact - "
"YESS!!" shouted Donny, then looked all around with that old scared look. We all laughed and he did too.
I invited Randy to ride along when I took Donny home. We were a few minutes late. Donny's "parents" were waiting at the door for him. Donny and Randy hugged again closely before he reluctantly got out and walked soulfully toward the door. "We'll se you in a few days, Don!" Donny looked back and waved.
As we pulled back into the Smith compound, Randy said, "Um -- er -- do we still have a date?"
"Date?" I said.
"Um -- yeah -- I was originally staying to see you -- wasn't I?"
"Look, you don't owe me anything!" I said maybe a little too quickly.
"I didn't think it was about that! You said - "
"Oh! I mean -- no! I just thought -- I mean -- you and Donny -- I just thought - "
"Dude! He's my cousin!" he said, grimacing.
That took me back! I realized that I was projecting my relationship with my own cousin -- on them! I decided not to mention that to him.
"Oh -- well -- okay! Sorry I jumped to THAT conclusion!" I parked and we got out. "Wanna go for a walk?" I said.
"Sure!"
"Hey!" I said, "It's a warm night -- wanna go for a swim?"
"I -- don't have anything to swim in."
I flipped out my Blackberry. "Craig? Yeah, Josh here. Yeah, Seth's Josh. Um -- would it be okay -- I mean -- is anyone swimming in your pool? -- I mean -- I'd like to bring -- oh ... no? Great. Thanks! Well -- maybe -- okay bye!"
"We can go in my friend's pool -- it's inside, and very private."
"Cool!" He said, understanding that I meant clothing optional! I didn't mention that Craig and Chris might join us.
We walked around for about a half-hour discussing what we had in common ... Seth. I found out that he was seeing Seth because of abuse from his uncle -- which happened to be Donny's dad. I told him about my own step-father and we compared some notes. "Wow! Amazing how much we have in common!" Said Randy.
We ended up at Craig and Chris's. Craig invited us in and showed us to the pool. "Excellent!" said Randy.
We stripped and went swimming. We were standing next to each other in about 5-feet of water, when Randy moved in -- or maybe some current in the water pushed us together. He simply leaned down and kissed my lips. "Thanks for being so sweet to my cousin."
I returned the kiss, pushing at his mouth with my tongue. He offered little resistance. We were in this mode, arms wrapped around naked bodies, when the door behind us slammed. It was dark and the hallway that they came out of was light, so I don't think that saw what we were doing.
"Craig! Chris!" I said, as if I was surprised. Well, I was slightly! "This is - "
"Oh, we KNOW Randy! He delivers pizza to us -- and has shown up at Rob's on occasion to the Smith Family quarterly. Randy's -- what did Seth call him -- one of the good ones!" said Chris, buffing fists with Randy. "Who was that I saw you tearing up the sod with earlier -- on Scout?"
"Oh -- that was Donny -- as it turns out -- Randy's cousin!"
"Scouts not the most exciting ride." Said Craig. "But he's good for two -- or with someone who's never rode. Very well mannered horse. Now if you want a good ride -- hey! Randy -- I think I remember you saying you'd like to come ride my Button!" Craig turned to me. "That's my 2 year old Morab."
"I didn't want to intrude. I mean I thought you were just being nice!"
"Well you see now!" quipped Chris. "If you knew Craig better -- you'd know -- he's never all that nice!" He laughed.
"Both Chris and I have to work for a living -- unlike most of the people around here. We'd like for someone to come and exercise our horses. Mine's the Arabian bay -- dark brown. He's a devil. Can either of you ride well?"
"I think I can handle it." I said.
"Then it's settled. My bay is Chocka -- short for chocolate. I guess that means you get to ride Button." He directed to Randy, who was all grins.
"Button?" Said Randy.
"Who knows? That was her name when we bought her. But she's fast -- just not as skitterish as Chocka."
"Are you coming in the pool, or are you just here to look like movie stars and set the mood for us?" I asked.
"Oh -- he's good!" Said Craig. He stripped off his shorts and dove in, followed closely by Chris. We played grab-ass Marco polo -- which I think Craig made up rules for as he went. But it was fun and it gave each of us a chance to see the rest in full flag!
"Well, we oldsters need to get up to bed. Are you staying over tonight, Randy?"
Randy looked at me. "I dunno."
Well, I felt awkward! I think Randy did too. I can't blame Craig -- after all. We WERE skinny dipping!
"Oh!" Craig said -- to try to save the situation. "Aren't you two - - ?"
"I just delivered the pizza, and as it was the last call of the night, I was prepared to go home. As it worked out, that kid you saw riding with Joshua -- was my cousin -- whom I haven't seen in 5 years!"
"Yeah, so we just -- sort of -- clicked -- or whatever and -- here we are." I said. "You can stay if you want, Randy -- there is an extra room up there."
"Yah know, I'd really like to, but actually I'd want to call my mom -- so she wouldn't worry, you know. I don't want to wake her up. I've done that once already tonight. I think I'll just drive home."
I was both relieved and ... disappointed. We threw our clothes back on and walked out into the balmy night air. When we got back to his car, I hugged him g'night and he kissed my mouth again, but it was not a deep kiss. "I guess I'll be coming over to ride with you and Donny, huh?" He said, scanning my face for something. "Well, that will be fun! Maybe we can both stay and have a fun night of it sometime." He said.
"Yeah -- maybe." I agreed. "But I was hoping that tonight - "
""I mean -- well -- I don't really have to call Mom. I often don't come home. I was just being -- um -- polite, I guess. I didn't want to put you on the spot."
"Well, alrighty then! So now I'll put YOU on the spot. "You want the extra room or -- shall we spare the sheets and just sleep in my room?"
"I like the way you think, Joshua! Is there a place to rinse off this chlorine?"
"Heh! Yeah! I think you're gonna like it!" He gave me a querying look. "You'll see!"
When we got up to the bedroom, I was sure to turn on the LCD "windows". When I showed him the shower, he -- like his cousin before him, walked out as fast as he walked in. I laughed and called him back. "What's wrong?" I laughed.
"Your -- your -- your neighbors! Won't they see us up here?"
"They're very liberal. They won't care!" I said off-handedly. "C'mon, it's okay!" I said. He came back reluctantly. As soon as he got in, I pulled him into a close hug and kiss. He struggled to get away, but even though he was several inched taller, I held him fast, and pulled his butt up so we were tightly clasped together. Then I started to laugh.
"What??!!" he said.
I walked around the corner and hit the switch on the monitor to the Hawaii, Oahu north shore scene. By this time he was standing, covering his crotch with his hands, then he said, "What the - - ?"
"It's not real. They're not windows. They're LCD screens. That's Hawaii -- Luke's favorite place to surf."
"Why's it all dark?"
"It's a real-time web cam. It's about 9:00 PM there."
"Boy -- you got me there!" He said grinning.
"I bet you'll think of a way to get me back!" I said.
"Yep! I really do like the way you think!" He giggled, and pulled me up close to him again, and pecked me n the forehead.
I pretty much let Randy lead -- which I was glad for, since I learned that he was not all that experienced. We did a little light sex play -- mutual wanks -- first doing ourselves -- then each other -- and he asked me before he went down on me.
"I've never done an uncut one before. `Course I haven't done that many cut ones before either. I heard that there was a pretty strong smell that -- um -- you don't seem to have. There was this Puerto Rican guy that I went to school with -- I think he was straight -- but in the locker room, he had a very strong smell that the other guys complained about -- behind his back -- but I never said much about it ... because it always made me a little excited! How come your's doesn't have that nice smell?"
"Well, we just got out of a pool with gobs of chlorine in it and then we just showered for the last 20 minutes -- that could be the reason!" I smiled.
"Stupid me!" he said, laughing. "Maybe next time we can hit the sheets before we hit the shower."
"Is that an invitation for another date?" I quipped.
"Was THIS a date?" He quipped back.
"Touché!" I said. "Okay -- I'm gonna go out on a limb and say - - yes!"
"Good, because I was having second thoughts about sucking on it -- but if this is a date -- that will make it okay. As a matter of fact -- could we call our dinner with my cousin the first date and after we took him home -- well -- the whole picture changed -- so we can call this the second date -- right?"
"Huh?" I said.
"Well, I wouldn't want you to think I'm so slutty that I'd go down on you on the first date!" He giggled again. (And a very cure giggle!)
"Well then in the interest of lessening your sluttiness -- and of getting my dick sucked -- I proclaim this our second date! You are so polite, Master Randolf!"
"It's Randall -- and -- with that, sir -- please pass the penis!"
Okay, he was pretty new to sucking. I guessed that maybe it was his first time, but he wasn't admitting anything. It certainly was his first experience with one as big as mine and also with a foreskin. He was fascinated with it. Almost made me cum, just playing with IT! We are the same age, but I FELT much older than Randy. But - - I liked him and could get used to his fresh innocence.
The next morning, Seth and Luke were pleased to see Randy again. They had figured out that he was with us -- I assume from the noise we made -- though we were pretty quiet. Luke had been up before us and made eggs Benedict and hash browns. That was a treat for them too, because both are pretty much health nuts. Oh yeah -- we also had a special nut bread that Etta had sent over.
"Donny will be here again this afternoon for his regular appointment. My brother told me that you guys had a good ride yesterday -- and that you're considering all riding together. Will you be doing that today?"
"I have to go to work this afternoon., But Joshua says that he wants to teach Donny a little more before letting him ride solo. But -- I can't wait. Both your brother and Craig told me to come any time and ride -- Button, is it?"
"I may take Donny over again." I said. Is there some way to let his caretakers know?"
"I'll call them this morning."
"What time do you have to be to work?" I asked.
"Four, this afternoon."
"Oh my gosh -- we have all day! Do you wanna ride this morning?"
"I gotta get home to get a clean uniform." He said, regretfully.
"Give me those!" Said Luke. "I'll wash them, and you two can go ride."
"You can wear some of my jeans!" I said. They'll be short and -- you'll have to wear a belt so they don't fall off you -- but they'll be fine for riding."
We went to the stables and I saddled Chocka. Randy said he'd rather just use a riding pad, so we found one and he put it on Button. "I like bareback the best, but things can get messy without some protection."
"You just said a mouthful!" I said.
"Wha -- oh! You mean -- oh! Haha! Well, when I get to the point of doing that stuff, I'll be extra careful. I'm terrified of disease."
(Mental check: he's never done THAT kind of stuff!)
We rode for a good 2 hours. We left the Smith compound and rode the equestrian trails that were all through the woods here. Randy was the one who noticed the time. "We better get back. I'll need another shower before going to work and -- can I use your deodorant?
Of course. I don't use antiperspirant. It's supposed to be bad for you."
"I KNOW! It causes Alzheimer's Disease!" he said.
"Yeah, I've heard that it can contribute." I said.
In the shower I got even with him for last night. I think THAT was his first too. He came almost before I got my mouth around it. But it was hard enough -- and long enough -- that I was able to swallow it. It was at least as long as mine, but much skinnier -- like the rest of him. He blew his load down my throat, then hugged my head while still inside for several minutes.
"You'll probably want to lock all the shower doors when you do that in the future." Said Luke, walking in while I was still locked on to his -- by now -- softy. Both of us were embarrassed, but Luke just continued, "You never know who might walk in."
I got up off my knees and Randy was staring at Luke's perfectly formed small body, with its dark brown skin and hairless chest. Even his dick is brown -- browner than the rest of him, but with a deep pink head. He proportions were perfect -- and his muscles were smooth and impressive -- with a six pack that would be the envy of anyone.
I pulled Randy out of the shower and to my room and closed the door. He immediately attacked me, hugging and kissing me like he was going away for a month! "I don't know what's happening to me!" he said.
"Well, I don't either. Is it good or -- well, based on what you just did, I will just ASSUME that it's good."
"I -- um -- I've never felt like this before. I -- I mean -- we're the same age but -- is it possible to be -- I mean -- I feel like -- Oh GOD! I don't think I can even say it!"
"You feel like you're in love." I said -- not a s a question, but matter-of-factly.
"YES!!! Then -- you feel it too, I mean -- how is that even possible -- in less than 24 hours?"
"It's not."
"I mean one day I have never met -- um -- what?" He stopped when what I said hit him.
"It's NOT even possible." I said, waiting for the follow-up question.
"Wha -- at?"
I smiled -- maybe a little sadly. "Sex stimulates the release of endorphins," I explained, "making you feel like you're in love. Relax, it'll go away before you are done with your shift tonight."
He looked at me in disbelief -- or like he didn't WANT to believe me.
"That was your first time -- being sucked -- wasn't it?"
"Well -- yeah." He looked ashamed.
"It's okay. It's nice to know that. I hope that it won't disappoint you that -- I am much more experienced."
"One of us has to be." He said.
"Right. And -- last night -- that was the first time you even sucked a guy, too -- right?"
"No!" he said emphatically. "Um -- well -- I did it once or twice with my cousin -- when we were little."
"And your uncle? Did he do anything to you?"
He never touched me but -- he jacked off several times while he told me and Don what to do. He made me suck Donny."
"I don't think being forced counts." I said.
"Well -- the other times -- after my parents wouldn't allow me to stay over at his house any more -- we did it -- willingly. He's 4 years older -- so -- well, not that it makes any -- um -- anyway -- I always sucked him -- never the other way."
Did you feel that way about him - when you did that?"
"I never got off." He said.
"Of course.
"Omigod!" He exclaimed
"What?"
"He -- I mean -- Donny -- he probably felt that way about me!"
"It's possible" I said, suddenly remembering how I felt when my cousin would do me. Even as a little boy -- I felt like he -- or Dennis -- loved me. Well, with Richard at least -- I knew he did. The very word -- "did" made me sad.
He left for work -- after kissing me again -- and it felt good! It's hard not to let my experience make me jaded.
Soon, Donny came. "Hello!" he said, this time greeting me first, but then looking at the floor.
"We're going over to ride Scout as soon as your finished. I'm taking you home afterwards -- like last night."
"Like last night? Will Randy be here?" He brightened.
"No. He has to work. But we'll do that soon, too.
"Come in, Donny!" Said Seth.
"I'm gonna ride Scout when we're done!" I heard him tell Seth. "Hot diggity!"
"Seth thinks this is a major breakthrough -- the riding and then -- the return of his cousin." Said Luke. "But he also is worried about how your relationship with Randy might affect Donny."
"Randy is pretty turned off to that. He doesn't see himself with a cousin."
"Still, you may want to tone it down when Donny is around."
"Hmm -- I suppose."
Notes: Always a complication! But what would life BE ... without them! Comments are welcome -- to Steve at stevethomas535@hotmail.com. Thanks - and love, Steve