Thursday
Our late night phone call was not as I had hoped. We were on line earlier, Josh was doing his home work and I writing Gramp's story. Josh and I would say something to each other every few minutes (we were on IM) just like we were side by side studying. Josh started swearing like he was frustrated about something. I ask what was wrong. He wanted to know if I could help him find the answer to one of his questions for homework. The question was "what was the name of the first space probe sent out past Pluto to explore outer space". We both searched the Internet for an hour and couldn't find the answer. Finally Josh said he would have to find the answer tomorrow its getting late. Josh said he would call in five minutes.
While we were talking I told him Gramps worked in the space program back in the sixties, I'll ask him if he knows the answer. I ask him if if was ready for our nightly phone sex, he said he was exhausted and didn't think he could get it up. I could tell by his voice he was really tired, he even dosed off while we were on the phone. So we cut the phone call short and said I love you to each other. Josh said he would try to send me an email while at school and call me right after school. We said our good byes and he hung up, I never hang up till I hear the buzz buzz that signals the disconnection.
I tried to call Josh several times today on his lunch, but he didn't answer.
He called me on his way home from school while he was on the bus. He told me he had turned his phone off in an interview and forgot to turn it back on. He told me he call me again when he gets home, he has forty five minute ride on the bus.
He called from his grandma's house, she had fixed supper for him. He said he be home and on line in about a half hour. When he got on line we chatted for a while, then he told me he had to go he had a lot of stuff to do and would be on later. I figured since he is on dial up, he had to get off line to call you know who. I don't think he puts me first in his life any more.
Friday
I wonder if Josh remembers what happened a week ago tonight. I am not going to remind him, I just hope I can get past it.
Josh called me last night, I had dosed off waiting on him to call. He told me he got off line with me earlier to catch up on his English lessons. He has more homework than anyone I know. His ambition is to be a doctor, so I guess he has to cram all the subjects he can handle. I have tried to tell him he need to slow down and live his teen age life, he will never get another chance.
As always when I am talking with Josh, either on line or on the phone, my dick gets hard with his image on my mind. The sexier we talked the harder it got. Josh told me he was hard too and ready for our mutual jack off phone sex. We didn't say much, just a lot of heavy breathing. I kept telling him how much I wanted him and how I wanted him to cum in my mouth. He had me describe a blow job I got one time from a college student, he said with that image in his mind it really made him hot. We both get off at the same time, it is a great feeling. If we keep talking after getting off, I seem to always be hard when talking to him, I have to get off again. After talking an hour or so we said our good byes and I love yous. Josh told me not to call him today on his cell, his was over on his minutes and his parents would be upset at the bill. He told me he would email me this morning. I have been checking all morning, so far nothing. He said he would call me when he got home from school for sure. I have butterflies in my stomach just waiting for any contact with him at all. I can't help but wonder if anyone else ever loved someone as much as I love Josh.
Josh finally sent me an email:hay Jesse, we were havin major internet problems today, so that's why i didnt email you... sorry!!! oh yeah, happy bday~!!!!! ur so lucky, ur seventeen... omg... not fair!!! well, after skool ill call u and get on msn ok? ilu! and happy birthday! byes! Now you know why I love him so much.
Josh didn't call as I expected, he got on line. We were chatting then he quit replying, I waited and waited. Finally I ask if he was busy or didn't want to talk to me. He came back, he was talking to Sam on his cell, I guess they talked for about half hour. I thought to myself "what the fuck, he told me not to call his cell cause he was over on his minutes". Then all of a sudden he says he has to go without any reason. Then my phone rings, I hear "you OK"? My heart began to race and I said "I am now". Josh told me he had to go to Wal Mart and would call me from there. I wish someone could explain to me why or how does just hearing Josh's voice bring me out of depression.
Josh did call me from Wally World and we talked for forty five minutes, when his mom approached. He said he had to go, I ask if he would be on the Internet later and Josh said he would try. I said I will be waiting like always.
Josh finally got on line at eleven thirty, said he was sick, had bad heartburn. I wondered if I caused it, then he said he ate a sub with jalapenos on it. We are on line together, he is studying and I am working on Gramp's story. He's going to make our nightly call after he gets through studying.
Josh IM me he was too tired to call me later, I about had a heart attack. Then he said just joking and at the same time called me on the phone and we talked for five minutes and IM at the same time. God I love that boy, he is built and hung like a man, OMG I want him so bad.
Gramps 06
Gramps and Paul arrived back at the motel in Dallas after dark. Gramps didn't tell Paul about all the sex he had with the man. He wasn't sure how Paul would respond to him having sex with an older man. Paul told Gramps to go sleep in the motel room and he would sleep in the car because he didn't know the man and didn't want to intrude on him. Gramps reluctantly agreed even though he desperately wanted to have sex with Paul.
Gramps went into the room, the man was asleep, so Gramps quietly crawled into bed not wanting to wake the man up. Gramps just started to dose off when the man rolled over and started making love to him. Gramps felt guilty because Paul was right outside the door in the car. Gramps started to resist until the man's face made contact with his face. The man was crying with tears streaming down his face onto Gramps face, so he relaxed as the man made love to him. The man whispered in Gramp's ear "if I was thirty years younger and you could love me as I have come to love you, I would give you the world on a platter". Gramps didn't say anything, he hugged the man and responded as the man loved and kissed him into the night. After they had cum together a couple of times, the man sit up on the side of the bed looking at Gramps in the dim light. He told Gramps the past few weeks had been the best in his entire life and he would give up his family and everything he owned if he thought Gramps could love him. Gramps knew how he felt because he had felt that way already in his young life. They spent the rest of the morning until time to get up, saying their goodbyes. Gramps said if he hadn't been in love with Paul, he probably could have fallen in love with the man. You see the confusion never ends, this man was in his fifties and Gramps twenty, and one was confused as the other.
That morning after the ceremonies and receiving their licenses, they were packing getting ready to leave. Paul was in the driver's seat, Gramps was going to let him drive back. The man came up to Gramps in front of the car, took Gramp's hand shaking it not wanting to let go with tears forming in his eyes, one broke loose and slid down his cheek. Gramps had tears in his eyes as he got in the car, he kept looking out the window so Paul couldn't see his tears. As they backed out to leave the man gave one last wave to Gramps. When they started down the street Paul said "why was that man crying?" Gramps said "I guess he is happy to be going home". Then Paul noticed the tears in Gramp's eyes and ask why he was crying. Gramps said "because I am with you and going back".
The school had lined up jobs for the graduates that wanted them. They had two choices for Gramps, both small radio stations, one in Kansas and one in Iowa. Gramps chose the one in Iowa. He called them and they told him to report to work the first of March. He had almost two months to kill before then.
Gramps and Paul decided they needed to get a job until time for Gramps to leave for Iowa. Paul's dad worked in construction in west Texas and told us he could use us as laborers. That was fine with Gramps, he and Paul would be rooming together. It was the first time they were able to have any sex in a long time. Paul had changed since the last time they had sex, he let Gramps suck him but wouldn't do anything for him. Gramps sucked Paul off and jacked himself off three or four times that first night. After the first night they were too tired from work to do any thing except sleep and eat.
After working there for about a month, Paul's dad got fired, Gramps didn't know why, but he and Paul quit when his dad got fired. Paul's dad got another job as there was plenty of work in west Texas.
Gramps and Paul went back to north Texas. They double dated with the girls and spent most of the week ends together. Paul was getting serious over Pat, he fucked her every time he got a chance and Pat was in love with Paul. Gramps was in love with Paul and would do anything to stay with him. Paul just considered Gramps his best friend. Gramps told me this was a case of confusion where his heart over ruled his brain. They didn't have any money to live on, so he sold his dream car. He wanted Paul more than the car.
There was a new car from France being introduced in this country. It was a Renault and you could buy one with no money down. Gramps got it because Paul loved to drive it. The Renault is a small car with four on the floor and easy on gas.
Paul's family was moving to west Texas because his dad liked it out there and had a good job. Gramps and Paul went back to work for his dad. On the week ends they would go back to be with the girls.
One Friday night after working late they left for north Texas. It was about a three hour trip. Gramps drove for a couple of hours and let Paul take over to drive the rest of the way. Gramps was asleep on the passenger side when he was suddenly woke up by a rolling sensation. When the car stop rolling Gramps screamed at Paul to kick the windshield out so they could get out in case of fire. The car had ended up laying on the passenger side, so Paul was on top of Gramps and he couldn't move until Paul got out. When Gramps got out of the car he was kind of in a daze, he climbed a steep hill the car was laying against. Gramps thought the car had rolled over the hill and he wanted to get back up to the road, but when he got up there he looked back down and saw Paul standing in the middle of the road.
A tow truck hauled the car off and we were left to hitch hike the rest of the way. That time of night and way out in the country of Texas there was no traffic and we walked until morning before getting a ride. (This was before interstate highways).
When we finally got back we had to stay with Paul's grandparents. Gramps had no car, very little money and no where to stay. He had never been in such a fucked up, confused mess like this in his life before.
Gramps knew he had to get some wheels, he had to be in Iowa in a week. Paul knew he had screwed things up for Gramps but didn't offer to help. Gramps wanted to be with Paul so bad he didn't care about the mess as long as he had Paul.
Gramps went to a used car lot the next day and bought the only car he could afford. A 1948 Plymouth for three hundred dollars, a long ways from his dream car of less than two months ago.
Gramps did not want to make the trip to Iowa alone, but he needed that good paying job really bad now. He asked Paul to go with him. Paul said he wouldn't go without Pat. Gramps knew Mary Beth was in love with him. Again Gramps let his heart over rule his head, he wanted Paul to go no matter what.
They all got together one night and started partying. Gramps couldn't remember how it happened, but all four of them were headed for Iowa that night. The further north they got the colder it got, they hadn't even brought extra clothes. The next night it was snowing and blowing drifts, they were some where in Iowa but didn't have any idea where.
The car either froze up or just quit running, they pushed it to the side of the road in a snow drift and just waited for someone to come along. A highway patrolman pulled up and stopped. He got out with a bright flashlight, shined it in the car and asked what was wrong. Gramps told him it quit running. The cop shined the light in the girls' faces and said would this be Mary Beth and Pat? Gramps thought to himself "oh shit how does he know their names". The cop put the girls in his patrol car and called for back up. He came back shined the light in Paul's face and ask him, how old are you. Paul said eighteen. He then shined the light in Gramps face and said how old are you. Gramps said twenty one. Then the cop said do you know how old those two girls are? Paul and Gramps both said at the same time seventeen. The cop looked at us and said you are under arrest for transporting minors across state lines, three of them in fact. (this was before Miranda rights had to be read) The cop told Gramps and Paul the FBI was waiting for us at the police station. Gramps and Paul were piratically shitting in their pants. Gramps could see his job going down the tubes because he was going to jail.
When we got to the jail, the FBI interviewed us individually. Gramps told me he had to do the acting job of his life because he was scared he was going to jail for a long time. They told him he was looking at twenty years. Gramps started crying and telling FBI guys how much he and Mary Beth were in love, how she wanted to be with him at his new job. Gramps told them story after story about how they had been together for two years and wasn't aware they had done any thing wrong. Gramps told them she wouldn't have sex until her wedding night. They ask Gramps "you didn't have sex with her since you left Texas?" Gramps looked at them with big tears in his eyes and told them he had never had sex with her (and to make it sound a little better he added) because she wouldn't let me. They looked at him and told him they can have a doctor check her, and if he is lying that would be an additional charge of lying to an FBI agent. Gramps sobbed and told them to go ahead have her checked, she has never had sex.
After about an hour or so another FBI guy came in, he must have been their superior, they talked among themselves a few minutes. The one I think was the superior came over and sit down across from Gramps and told him "you are a very lucky young man" "the federal law you would have been charged with is, transporting a minor across a state line for immoral acts" We have no evidence of an immoral act being committed, so you are free to go. Gramps ask about Paul and the girls, He said their parents are coming to get them, they will be here in the morning. Gramps told him he had no way to get anywhere, could he stay there until their parents arrived and he could ride back with Paul's dad. The man said Gramps could sleep in an empty cell if he wanted. Gramps said OK because he hadn't slept in two days.
The parents arrived the next day, Mary Beth's step dad (he was an asshole) came to the cell where Gramps was sleeping. He started cussing at Gramps telling him what all was going to happen to him and he probably would rot in jail. Gramps had never liked this guy and had never really said anything to him. Gramps got up from the bunk, walked over to the cell door, pushed it open and walked out. Gramps said the ass hole's jaw almost hit the floor. The asshole started yelling at the jailer that Gramps was escaping, the jailer told him to calm down their were no charges against him.
Gramps knew that was the end of him and Mary Beth, because her parents had a restraining order put against him when they got back to Texas.
Paul's dad let Gramps ride back to Texas with them. They stopped at a service station not far from where Gramp's car quit running. Gramps gave them the keys told them they could do with it whatever they wanted, they said they would take care of it and thanked him.
It was a long ride back to Texas, Gramp's mind was really confused now, what in the world was he going to do now.
In the next chapter Gramps tries to find a life, you have heard the saying "get a life" well Gramps sure needed one.
Thanks for all the interest and emails. Gramps told me we are getting to a place in his story where we may have to change names of people. He knows a lot of people around the country and he would never want to expose himself to them.
I am going to start putting some comments from emails I receive as I complete a chapter. It is not my intention to embarrass or expose anyone. It will be only the message in the email. If anyone sending me an email don't want me to do that please indicate that in the email. JJ --------- Yes please, I want to hear the rest of the story. It brought a combination of joy and sadness to me. Please continue......ok? Take care and be blessed! ----------- Hey, I read your story and thought about my life through my high school years. (Especially the Junior and Senior years.) I was attending an all boys school and lived in a dorm. I have a crush on one of the guys in my class. It was futile as far as sex was concerned. I later fell in love with my wife to be. I still have feelings for guys, but am also happily married (Confusing? Yes!) but it is true. I would probaly have made the beds bi person out there, but I did not. I can still fantasize when I jack off, but I can also say that my wife and I had sex very often and I was very happy with that, too. Oh well, I am now 64 years old and have a large family (7 kids and 18 grandkids). ------------ That was a very moving story... The first is always the hardest to finish! But in my experience there are better people that come after that!
You say it is a true story, then I feel for you ------------ Well as long as it helped you then there is no harm esp if your granps is cool with it. ------------ How old are you outa interest? Your story reminded me not so much of my first love, but life in general being young and not being able to be out about my sexuality. And the Pressures and the loneliness of being a teen coping with life and other everyday things (exams, parents, family, friends and the secret relationships) ------------- Heya:
Just wanted to let you know how much I am enjoying your story. I am happy that I, if only a little, helped to inspire you to write.
Would you like to post your stories in .txt files in the Guest Author section of the Yahoo Group? Let me know and I will set it up for you.
Keep Writing! ------------ My first love lasted two fantastic years and we ended it on distance as he moved nearly 3000 miles for work reasons. We still are good friends but had all the worries of parents finding out and how others would react to us being gay. We both lived in a very close knit rural village at the time so made it difficult in many ways.
however being gay affected my family in a different way and I'm sure was a contributary factor to my parents separating. When my father found out and reacted with violent and explosive results towards me. Which physically and mentally affected me and in the same way towards my mother.
Me and mum and my brother moved out and I have had tremendous support from both of them although my mum is comfortable gay lifestyles in general she has never quite accepted me as being gay. So I'm not normally quizzed over my relationships or my lifestyle.
I don't know if you can see the simularities that I have mentioned here some differ in mayn ways but understand that age is not easy in anyway shape or form.