Note: This is part story but mostly true. It was related to me by a dear friend in Bosnia. It is his story, as told by me. The names were changed to protect the loved - Steve
Sometimes life gives you a gift. You know it's a gift and you know that it isn't forever. But you can dream.
I was given a gift. A transitory gift. I knew he would go away. But while he was here, he was mine!
I am Miroslav Choldavich. My friends call me Miro. I am a Serbian and I live in Bosnia. As you know we were recently torn by war.
No boring history lesson. But Marshal Brozovich, otherwise known as Tito, freed us from the tyranny of the Muslims years ago. He later became Prime Minister, and then in 1953, President of Yugoslavia. Then when the USSR was broken up, with all the upheaval in the area, the f--king Muslims decided this would be a good time to create chaos again for us. Yugoslavia was torn and Now, though I have never lived anywhere else, I am in Bosnia.
I served in the war. I was eighteen. My people are an honorable people. They don't send mere boys to the front, as other cultures do. I know that there were very young American soldiers,- some as young as 17 -- fighting along side men. I also know that in Indochina children -- 8, 9 -- 16 years old were pressed into service to fight the old men's' war. But my people value their youth, so I and others as young as I, though we were allowed to serve, were kept behind the lines in support occupations. I was a sentry at a secure base near my home in Brcko.
While serving in this position, I met and befriended many service men. Some I have created a bond -- a long time friendship with. Others passed in and out of my life. A few I was very close to. You see, I am gay, and there were a few other gay men from all the other United nations countries. I preferred Russians, because they were the most like me, I suppose. And I had a few romps in the sack with different guys from different places.
After the war, there was a United Nations peacekeeping headquarters in Brcko. I was hired as an attache to a Lieutenant in the U.N. Police force. I liked him and he treated me well. I was sorry to see him leave when he was sent back to his home in Australia. I guess I had a secret crush on him. Before Lieutenant Ardmore left us, he assembled all the people under his command, and introduced Lieutenant Darby. I hailed Lieutenant Darby with everyone else, but not before he caught me staring at him with my mouth wide open. I snapped to attention quickly with my eyes straight ahead. I could feel my face warming as blood filled my cheeks and ears!
Lieutenant Darby addressed us and being a good leader and motivator, he made eye contact with each of us. When he looked at me, it was all I could do to not drop my eyes. They were blinking fast, behind my glasses. He acted like he didn't notice.
"People, I am assigned to you for 1 year." He stated. "I am easy to get along with as long as you do your jobs and don't cause trouble. In a business environment I would insist you call me James, but it seems that's not appropriate here, so you can refer to me as Lieutenant Darby, or just Lieutenant will be fine." He then looked straight at me and there was a hint of a smile -- almost as if he recognized me -- or recognized something about me.
As I was his attache, it was my job to accompanied the Lieutenant most of the time. This was a very pleasant duty when I was attached to Lieutenant Ardmore. I got to eat and sleep in much better conditions than I -- or most of my countrymen were used to. And Lieutenant Ardmore was pretty easygoing. I liked him and he liked me. He had a wife and children back home. I made the mistake of calling him by his first name once -- Percy -- and he let me know that our relationship was strictly professional. But he had a way to make me at ease, so it wasn't ever a problem. He was always friendly, but never personable.
The reason that my mouth dropped as I first viewed Lieutenant Darby was his striking looks. Not only his handsome face and exterior beauty, but his eyes looked honest and pure. When we would travel together -- for the first few months -- I was very uncomfortable, because I was so self-conscious, worrying that he might pick up on my attraction to him!
Lieutenant Darby was tall -- about 183 cm. He must have weighed about 84 kg., but maybe more, because he was mostly muscle! He was a perfect specimen. There were sometimes hours when we were driving that I could study him. I loved driving, but I was not allowed to drive the U.N. cars -- in town. But as soon as we got outside of town, he would pull over and let me drive. I love to drive.
He didn't seem to mind if I slept sometimes during long days in the car. I never really slept. I studied his every move. His hair was cut trim, as all the U.S. G.I.'s. It was thin, but dark, with a few gray -- very few. They would not be seen to someone not looking so close. His complexion was perfect -- not a blemish or a scar on his face. He shaved every morning, but he had the most delicious shadow -- even directly after he shaved. I wondered about the hair on the rest of his body.
I can remember the first time he decided to get more comfortable. It was a long drive back from Sarajevo. We had been attached for four months. It was hot and muggy, even in the air-conditioned car. He removed his tie and opened up his shirt. My heart stopped as I caught a glimpse of his chest hair, straining to be free. I had to concentrate on watching the road.
"Relax, Miroslav," he said, Get comfortable -- It's hot!"
I had on a pullover with no undershirt. Holding the steering wheel with one hand, I lifted my shirt a little with the other to reveal a small bit of my stomach and shrugged. I couldn't take my shirt off -- (could I?)
"That's okay, Miroslav." That was another thing! He always called me Mr. Choldavich before this. I was all of a sudden shy. I was 24 years old at the time. He must have been about 34. I shook my head.
"No -- I'm used to it," I told him. I was flush and sweat was pouring down my face. I suppose HE thought it was the heat causing it.
"If it will make you feel more comfortable, I'll take mine off!" he said as he ordered me to pull off to the side. He removed both his khaki shirt and his undershirt. I was appalled! My stomach did flip-flops and another part of me tried to do a little dance. I shook my head again.
"No thanks!" I said, not wanting him to see my skinny body -- especially as he revealed the most beatuful sight I had ever been this close to.
"Mr. Choldavich, Must I command you to take off your shirt? I don't want to have to carry you from the car when you pass out!" (I'd love him to carry me!)
I shyly removed my shirt and he decided I needed a rest, so he drove. We were back on the road in no time. I again pretended to be asleep as I spied on him. His profile looked Greek! He had a high hairline, with a thin covering of hair on his head. He would never know how sexy this was to me! His nose was as straight as I had ever seen. If he wore glasses, they would never stay up, because there were no bumps to hold them! His nose -- like everything else was perfect. No large pores, as often starts to happen as guys get older.
I couldn't see his eyes directly at the time, but his had long curly eye lashes, and perfectly arched brows. I tried to look closely to see of he trimmed them, but with my eyes pretending to be closed it didn't work. His high cheekbones protruded just a bit, underneath which his cheeks sunk in just a little. His cheeks always had a slightly flushed look, giving him a very youthful appearance.
His lips! Oh, his lips! They were dark red, and full. The bottom lip protruded slightly. I almost fell asleep, focused on his lips and I started drooling! I licked my lips and studied his chin. It was a strong, double chin. It was late afternoon, so the stubble was very apparent by this time. My tongue and throat were working overtime to control all the extra saliva that my mouth was producing.
He had a long neck. Of course it looked even longer with his shirt off. My eyes were just straying down to his deliciously fur-covered chest when he spoke.
"Ah, you're awake!" He said. I felt like a boy with his hand caught in grandmother's cookie jar! I sat up straight and looked straight ahead. "How long have you lived in Brcko, Miroslav?"
"Well - Lieutenant Darby -- actually I've never lived anywhere else."
"Really?" he marveled. "Gosh, the Army took me all over the world! But I am from a little town in Oklahoma, and now my family lives in Texas. Oh, by the way -- when we're not in the company of other U.N. Personnel, please call me James."
"Yes sir, Lieutenant," I blushed deep red! "er -- James." I was sure I wasn't saying it the same way he did. But then he didn't say my name quite as we do either. I took a chance.
"Okay, but you must call me Miro". This was very hard for an American from Oklahoma to pronounce. The "r" is kind of part "RRR" and part "t". He tried it several times and then laughed.
"Meedo?" He said.
I smiled joyously and said, "That's close enough!" We both laughed.
When we came to the outskirts of town, he pulled over and after putting our shirts back on, he drove into town. He didn't take me home, but rather to his place. I froze. After he pulled up to his residence and he got out. He looked around and saw someone watching us. He normally may have grabbed his own bags, but he motioned with his head for me to grab them. I did as I was commanded, and followed him into his residence.
It was cool and dry inside his place. I said, "Oh! This feels so good!"
"Good!" he said. "Have a seat, Meedo!"
"Oh, no sir! I couldn't! I - "
"What -- your mother is expecting you home?" He grinned. "Sit, Mr. Choldavich!"
I was stunned. I sat. I almost mumbled, defensively, "I don't live with my mother."
"Good! Then no one is expecting you?" I nodded. "So -- I am going to have a drink. Can I offer you one too? I don't really like to drink alone." He smiled almost devilishly.
"I -- I -- sure!" I stammered.
He poured us both a drink and then came and sat down -- much closer than I thought he would. I felt the hair in the back of my neck rise as his leg brushed mine. I didn't pull mine away, so he pressed his leg closer, and kept it there. Before I knew what was happening, he had reached out and was touching my arm. Our eyes met and he took my hand. I set the drink down and kissed him. Of course he did not mind! It was not a wet kiss -- no tongue.
"Did you know that I am very attracted to you?" He said after the kiss.
I closed my eyes. Could this really be happening to me? My heart was beating faster than if I just finished a marathon.
"C'mon boy, you're worrying me!" he said. "I just admitted something to you that could get me fired!" I looked up at him and shook my head. He looked almost panicky for a moment, then he said, "What does that mean?" I guess he forgot what he asked me.
"I didn't know, sir." I looked back down at the floor. He sat down on the couch next to me.
"Meedo, I got the impression that you have been watching me. I mean when our eyes meet, there is a special -- something -- that I can't put my finger on, but -- I think -- I think you -- like me. Am I wrong?"
Still looking at the floor, I shook my head no again. I couldn't look up. My eyes were filled with tears. He squatted in front of me and gently touched my chin and raised my face to his. Even through my tears I could see that his were wet as well. I could not speak, so he did again. "Meedo -- I'm a married man. It's hard to be away from home so long. I have tried to keep myself -- true -- to my wife. But -- but -- I've never felt this way about another man -- another PERSON!" My eyes widened in wonder. "That's right, Meedo. Never anyone -- even my wife."
I felt like I was going to pass out. I was shaking, feeling both hot and cold at the same time, and it felt like any moment -- if I didn't wake up -- I would hurl everything that was in my stomach. I closed my eyes. I felt something warm -- something soft -- on my mouth. I opened my eyes and his lips were pressing on my mouth again. His beautiful eyes were hypnotizing me.
I kissed him back. This time, it was as if we both gave our tongues permission to meet! He said, "Man, you know how to communicate without saying anything, don't you?"
"Please, Lieuten -- James -- don't talk too loudly. I don't want to wake up from this dream!"
"It's not a dream, Meedo! I kind of wish it were! I wasn't planning to fall in love with anyone!"
What!!?? HE was falling in love with me!!?? "J -- James -- you can't -- your family!" I said, hoping beyond hope that he would contradict me.
"You're right, Meedo. My family. I have to return to them! It will now be the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life. I can't ask you -- to -- to -- stay with me now. I can see that you probably feel the same. I can't hurt you like that. I mean -- when I am finished with this tour, I have to go home and act like this never happened."
"James," I said slowly and carefully, "I had no idea what love felt like. I have had other -- uh -- friends -- some were soldiers -- that I got attached to. But you are right. I feel the same. I've never felt this way for someone -- as I do about you.'
"Then it's settled -- I'll get the papers together tomorrow for your transfer."
"No, wait!" I said, maybe more forcefully than I had ever said anything in my life. "I'm 24 years old. I'm not a boy -- as you called me earlier. I am responsible for my emotions. Please don't cut me loose, assuming that I can't take it. I want this. I know you have to leave. I know it will be hard for me -- and for you. James -- please -- let me show you how I love you!" I looked all over his face for a sign that he would let me - stay -- with him.
He climbed on top of me, pushing me down on the couch and kissed me again. His groin was grinding gently into mine. I felt hot tears on my cheeks and they weren't mine. I was so carried away in my passion that I don't know when our clothes came off.
"Meedo -- can you -- I mean -- is anyone expecting you -- any time -- tonight?" I shook my head, never taking my eyes from his. "Stay with me tonight, Meedo. I want to be an -- an -- animal tonight. You can leave early in the morning, and then show up at work tomorrow as if this never happened. Give me this one night."
"Does -- does it have to be only one night, J -- James?" I pleaded.
"Can we -- can we take it -- uh -- maybe -- a day at a time -- for now?" He asked, sounding almost desperate.
I nodded. I was afraid to say anything. Afraid that if I did it might break the spell, or wake me from the dream.
We kissed and caressed each other on the couch for hours.
He stood up, took my hand and led me to his bedroom. We lay on the bed and he made love to me. He was very gentle. It didn't hurt very much when he entered my body with his Texas sized tool. He was so sweet and gentle. When he came to his climax, he made me know that at least in that moment, he loved me more than anything in the world. I was in heaven.
He then insisted that I do the same to him. I'm a man. I know that when a guy shoots his wad -- well -- he doesn't feel like doing anything more. So I was impressed that James would be so considerate. I did as he requested, and if he was not in to it, he made a good act. He seemed to like it as much as I did.
As we lay on the bed, looking at the ceiling, "Meedo -- you know that this is just between you and me -- right?"
"Yes -- sir." I said humbly.
"No -- don't call me `sir' here, Meedo. Call me James unless we're working." He paused. "Meedo, I -- uh -- I -- really -- uh -- like you!"
"Yes s - - - I mean thank you -- James."
"Only thank you?" He said. I didn't respond, so he continued. ""Meedo, I just told you that I really like you. Are you gonna just let that go? Keep me hanging? Did you like what we did? Or was it just because I am your boss that - "
"NO!" I exclaimed. I couldn't look into his eyes. "I loved it. You know I like you -- every bit as much as you like me."
"I was surely hoping you did!" He said as he turned toward me and kissed me some more. "We better get some shut-eye." He said. And he turned on his back and held my hand.
I heard his breathing go from rapid to slow to even slower. He started to snore a little. I turned to watch him sleep. The light coming in the window softened his features. He looked like an angel sleeping next to me. I don't know when I fell asleep. It seemed like five minutes later I woke up. What woke me was a kiss on the cheek.
"Time to get up, sleepyhead." He said. Then he rubbed my shoulders and back a little, working his way down to my butt. It felt so good when he kneaded those muscles! "Get up! I have to take you by your place so you can get some fresh clothing on you."
I groggily raised my body out of the bed. He stood there smiling deliciously at me. His eyes were on the erection that spiked out from my body.
I pulled on my wrinkled clothes from yesterday, then he drove me home. I didn't notice until I was in my house that it was still only 6:30 in the morning. I almost shyly waved goodbye and closed the door. I changed clothes and ate some breakfast. When I got to work, our eyes met. Good morning, Mr. Choldavich." He intoned.
"Morning, Lieutenant." I answered. I felt like every eye was on both of us. In truth no one looked, or noticed anything was different. But it was. Everything was different. I found out how much I liked married Yankee guys! We met many times after that -- and each time was sweet -- but somehow the first time is the most magical.
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Bottom line: Love will Rule in the end.