With 2 pints and half bottle of wine in him Colin felt pretty comfortable and promised himself he would open another bottle when the domestics were done which he did whilst thinking about the day so far. His final job was to dust and as always dusted Freddy,s photo. He did that and put the photo on the coffee table, went to the kitchen and opened a bottle of red wine. He picked up the photo and talked to Freddy. He told him everything about Garry since he first came across him at the station.
"So Freddy my man this is the evidence so far.
Garry came and saw me a couple of Wednesdays ago and we just chatted and last Wednesday because I did,nt go in for lunch, he waited for about 4 hours in the pub last Wednesday in CASE I came in.
Today he turns up so he will meet me instead of having to wait another week. He wants to come to the gym where he is bound to see me in the shower.
He wants to read the book. He is very relaxed and it,s obvious he likes me and my company".
Colin was looking at Freddy as though waiting for some reaction.
"Right, now the rest of the evidence. I have enjoyed his company, i,m glad he waited last week, i,m glad he turned up today and i,m looking forward to next week and have to admit I hope to see him in the shower.
Remember thats were we first met"! He continued to stare at Freddy and at last added, "and i,m bloody horny and if he made a move on me I don,t think I could or would stop him".
I,m going to have to ring Peter and John later, he thought, kissed Freddy,s photo put it back, then went to run a bath.
He got in it and began a long soak.
He,s 18 years younger than me for christsake, but then there,s 15 years between Simon and Steven and they don,t have a problem. They are so happy together, but the big difference is that they are in love and i,m not in love with this guy am I.
I fell in love with Freddy the moment we shagged one another! Nothing could be quicker than that!
I,m horny and this guy is good looking and wants to be with me.
He is about as homophobic as my left bollock and I KNOW he is thinking about me right now.
Garry was thinking about Colin as he soaked in the bath.
He is 18 years older than me, but I know some straight couples who have a big age difference and don,t have a problem.
I know he likes my company. I certainly like being with him.
I have never been in love so I don,t know what it feels like, but I really do fancy him.
So does this all mean i,m fucking GAY? I don,t know what to do about it except have sex with a guy and see if I like it.
Then, I would be shit scared of going to a sauna like he did. I mean what would happen if I went to one and a guy I did,nt fancy come on to me.
One thing i,m sure if Colin did come on to me I could not and would not stop him.
The homophobia thing is a cover. I think they call it denial? I just can,t wait to see him naked, i,m bloody sure he has got a great body and....
.....oh fuck i,m coming". With that he shot 5 massive loads over himself.
Colin on the other hand was taking his time with his masterbating. He never hurried anything in the sex department much to Freddy,s delight. They would spend ages making love and that was what it was, love.
If I had sex with Garry thats all it would be , sex nothing more. It would be just like the sauna up to the last time he used them until he met Freddy.
His mind went back and remembered a few encounters and those that he remembered most. They were the nice guys and the sex was so much better that way.
One was Thomas. Thomas had, like Colin, arrived at the same time and were in the changing rooms. Both nodded to each other and at the same time liked the look of what they saw. Colin tall and well defined, Thomas slightly shorter and slim, almost skinny. He looked to be in his twentys and nervous. It,s his first time in here , Colin thought. Colin was already changed with his towel wrapped round him. Thomas was down to his underpants and whipped them off and tried to get the towel round as quickly as possible, but not before Colin caught sight of his cock. It was about 5 inches and on top a lovely cluster of pubic hair. Colin, ever the one to advertise in those days, took off his towel in the pretence of adjusting it to give the lad a look at what he had, 6.5 of straight uncut cock.
Guys would always shower before going going to cruise and Colin made sure he was in front of the lad to show him the way. Thomas fallowed him in. There was just the two of them and without any delay Colin said hello.
"Hi, your first time in here then"?
"Is it that obvious"? Thomas asked.
"Don,t worry we all have a first time, would you like a coffee"?
Thomas smiled with a hint of relief Colin thought. They sat down in the cafe area and Colin introduced himself. "I,m Thomas". They shook hands.
Colin offered to show him around and Thomas followed him on the guided tour of the place. As they went around Thomas became more relaxed and when Colin asked him if he would like to got to a room, he agreed.
Colin locked the door went to Thomas and kissed him and took both his and Thomas,s towels off.
"You don,t hang around do you", he said.
"To be honest you are a lovely looking guy and I wanted to be with you as soon as I saw you, hope thats ok"?
"Thats why i,m here Colin, it,s my first time and i,m not very experienced and I thought coming here will help me".
"Well, i,m here to have fun and I hope we can have some".
They laid on the mattress and kissed again. Colin began to stroke Thomas.s body and eventually found his stiff cock and began to fondle him. Thomas followed suit. Colin began to kiss and lick all over Thomas and finally took him into his mouth and wanked him at the same time. Thomas just laid back satisfied that this really was his first proper time with a man. He loved all that Colin was doing to him and when they were into a 69 he sucked Colin which also gave him a wonderful feeling that at last he was able to be himself, not a quickie in a mates bedroom.
Thomas nearly shot off when Colin gave his anus a rimming. "Oh yes... thats bloody great"!
He had never had a man inside him and when Colin asked he just nodded and although it hurt he was in his own world as Colin sunk into him and begun to gently fuck.
At last the pain went and Thomas was getting into the swing of things and pulled Colin to his mouth. "This is fucking awesome Colin". He began to wank himself and before he realised it he was getting near his eruption. Colin tried to catch up, but Thomas was hell bent on finishing himself off.
"Oh Christ here I cum....and with that he shot out 4 or 5 globs of cum all over his chest. Colin released himself over Thomas moments later and he lowered himself onto Thomas and kissed him.
They chatted for a while and then went to the showers again. Although Colin wanted to go off hunting, Thomas stayed with him. They went walkabouts and then back for another coffee. Thomas was enjoying himself and Colin thought he was baby sitting, but he liked the guy and it was obvious he felt safe with him. Colin reached under Thomas,s towel and played with him.
"Would you like to back upstairs"?
"Yes please"!
He never saw Thomas again and often wondered what happened to him.
Colin came back to the present.
Christsake i,m horny, I now know I want sex again, it,s been over 2 years, he is in denial, i,m guessing of course, but i,m as sure as I can be that he wants man sex and if he does not have it with me, then almost certanly with someone eles, most probably another Army guy.
God i,m coming....It matched the one that Garry had just shot. Oh yes, not had one like that in years.
Colin,s bath was getting cold and he got out, toweled dry and went back to his wine.
Garry had already got out of his bath, went and laid on his bed and thumped off another one.
I really need to read Colin,s book, but to read it I have to get an invite back after the gym.
"Hi Peter".
"Hello Colin how,s you"? Half hour later Colin finished telling Peter all about the day.
After Colin had finished Peter replied.
"Colin you know I only give an opinion, make a suggestion and hardly ever give advise don,t you"?
"Yes Peter your famous for it".
"Ok, i,m going to break my own rule because I think you are ready for advise".
"Colin what ever happens from now on you will NEVER stop loving Freddy, but my freind you could live another 40 plus years and all you do know for certain is that Freddy has gone, but you cannot live the rest of your life in his memory".
"I,m sure he would want you to find another freind, lover even partner. Well, you told me he said before he died that he wanted you to find love and be happy".
"Look Colin, we are not talking about anything more than just a possible sexual thing between you and Garry. In other words dear freind you would both be doing each a huge favour, you getting your much neglected rocks off and Garry finding out what he really is".
"As you say he will have to do it sometime, why not next Wednesday after gym with you"?
"Garry has to experience gay sex, you have to start a new life and if you think that will be disloyal to Freddy, forget it, thats exactly what he would want".
Peter was quite right of course and Colin had already thought like that, it was just that he felt as guilty as hell.
In bed later Colin could not get to sleep. All he could think about was what Peter had said and he already knew. The time had come for him to get on with life. Freddy was dead, he needed to get a life and once again meet other men and begin to enjoy a mans company.
It seems that Garry needs to explore his sexuallity and will soon find out, so why not indeed just throw caution to the wind and invite him back here on Wednesday. Yes I will, I think.
Then it hit him and he sat up staring at the wall.
He got out of bed, went to the kitchen. There was at least two glasses of wine left and poured one out. In the lounge he sat in his chair and looked across at Freddy,s photo.
Colin said to Freddy, "This has got nothing to do with Garry or any other guy, it could be any Tom, Dick or Harry for all I care.
No it,s all got to do with ME. Freddy, i,m shit scared I will fall in love again and if I did and the same happened to "whoever" and left me like you did...I could not coup Freddy, I just could not coup".
He slugged the last of the wine down and got the remainder in the bottle and sat down again deep in thought. At last he looked up and back at Freddy and smiled at him.
"I,m ok now love. I,m going to be in control and if sex happens with Garry or anyone eles, thats all it will be. I need a man for sex and thats what i,m going to get. If it,s not Garry then it will be someone eles when I go back to the saunas". A few more sluggs and he went back to bed and within seconds he was fast asleep.
Garry on the other hand was far from asleep. He laid on his bed his right hand stroking his cock and once again could feel the excitment of the approaching orgasam. He was imagining what Colin must look like naked next to him and Colin blowing him. I bet it,s better than whatshername gave me. Come on Colin, dont stop. Oh fuck, here it comes...."YES come on you babies, wwaaah"!!!!!
Just two blobs this time. Garry got his breath back and almost absentmindedly wiped off the cum.
Christ thats 5 times now. If I don,t stop my cock will fall off and I don,t fancy becoming a lesbian.
Five wanks and all with Colin in mind.
Exhausted, he fell asleep.
In the morning both Colin and Garry got up and, for quite different reasons, were more than happy.
Each were busy in their work, Colin finishing off the Camberley order and Garry attending his Paramedic course which he needed to complete with good grades for when he came out of the Army.
Before they knew it Tuesday had arrived and, not for the first time, thought about tomorrow. Colin had worked out a lot more during the week. He had every intention of looking his best for Garry to see. He had been shopping at Sainsburys for food and also stopped at the chemists.
Garry had gone out and bought new swimming trunks, light blue and the thinnest material possible and a size too small.
He saw Colin driving up and got in next to him.
They chatted about the week and all that they did and that they were looking forward to the gym.
"I would like to buy the lunch later Colin" He said.
"Actually I went shopping yesterday and wonder if you would like to come back to my place and eat, if you want to of course"?
You bet your sweet life I do, he could of said, instead, "Oh right, that would be cool".
Colin smiled to himself and said. "Last time you were in this car you were quite an angry man Garry, remember"?
"Not any more, believe me". And Garry smiled to himself as well.