Disclaimer! This has no reflection on Nysnc or true in any way.. its FICTION!! Full Circle-Chapter 2 By Mel 2001
The next day it was easier. Now that some things were out in the open, most of the tension between bandmates had disappeared.
But there were a few problems. Justin had a hard time keeping Chris' secret. He was beginning to regret ever having told Chris he would keep it.
He knew that Chris should get some help, but he had promised. It would be a very hard promise to keep.
Chris tried to keep his hands from shaking. It was hard to concentrate on singing and deal with his withdrawal at the same time.
By the time they took a break, a sweat had broken out over his face, and he had to practically run to the bathroom to make it on time, before he threw up breakfast.
Justin was not far behind, the only one who knew what was truly happening with his friend. Justin held him while Chris cried. It was a while before the shakes passed, and Chris regained some color back into his face. Justin didn't know if he would be enough.
Lance knew he would have to tell Jc sooner or later. He just didn't know if he could handle it. How do you tell your friend that you love him? He shuddered with repressed longing as he remembered the scene in the bathroom after Joey had left. Jc had just stared at him a while before pulling him into a bone crushing hug. Not a word was spoken, but the tension had eased somewhat. If only he could convince himself that JC wouldn't hate him. JC, on the other hand was hoping that Lance would tell him what was bothering him. Athough the two friends had made up, Jc sensed that Lance was keeping something very important from him. JC still thought it was because he announced he was gay. Nothing could have been further than the truth.Somehow he wasn't surprised to see his friend when he opened the door. Their relationship was deepening and it scared him, but thrilled him all at the same time. He was very much afraid he was falling for his friend. "I knew you would be here."
"I couldn't help myself."
The two lovers stared at eachother for a full minute before he walked in and locked the door behind him. "Now what? Are we lovers, are we friends?"
The blue eyes that met his brown ones were thoughtful. "I don't know. I know that I want you, more than I have wanted anyone in a long time."
He felt his heart beat faster at his friends words. He couldn't help his bodies reaction to those intimate words. His cock immediatly started to thicken, and throb. His lover sat down on the couch next to him and rested a hand on his knee.
"What do you want?" The answer was easy.
"I want you." ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Joey could see something was seriously wrong with Chris. He didn't know what and Chris was not telling but he knew that sooner or later it would have to be dealt with. The other thing that was bothering him was Lance and JC.
He knew that Lance was gay, and desperately in love with JC. He could also see that JC was madly in love with Lance. But he couldn't say anything. One Lance would kill him.
Two, JC would kill him. Joey couldn't risk it. The next day was more of the same. Long glances, and the undercurrent was once again growing underneath all the recording. More and more Chris was getting sick, more and more Lance would give lovesick glances to Jc. Something had to give, and soon. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
"Chris is doing coke." Silence. He looked at his lover's face, comprehension dawning. "I couldn't hide it from you any longer."
"You have been trying to hide it from everyone."
"I promised."
"We need to tell the others, you know that."
He paled. He didn't want to break Chris' trust, but he knew that now that the cat was out of the bag that there was no turning back from the choice he had just made.
"I know that."