This is a gay love story. The names of the characters are fictional and do not represent anyone the author knows.
Warning: It contains lots of explicit m/m sex and s&m action plus lots of love!
Finding Ryan by Adam Stewart
The weeks leading up to the Civil Partnership seemed to fly by. Jason was busy doing business deals and Ryan was busy with book-keeping work for the shop and the café so that they could both be away for four weeks holiday.
Jason had asked Uncle David to be his witness and Ryan had asked Daryl to be his. Alex, Roland and David travelled down the day before the ceremony and stayed at the hotel where it was to be held. Jason had also booked other rooms for guests who wanted to stay rather than go home that evening. The ceremony was to take place at 3 p.m. with a meal afterwards, and music and dancing after that for those who wanted to stay. Jason realised it was going to be a late night so had booked another room for him and Ryan to stay in that night although he hoped they'd be able to slip away before they got too plastered so he could make love to his new husband!
The day arrived and Jason and Ryan got themselves ready. They'd both bought new suits for the event although it was not that formal.
"You look gorgeous" Jason exclaimed when Ryan stood in front of him to show off how he looked, "I could ravish you right here and now".
Ryan giggled and gave Jason a kiss, "Don't get me going otherwise I'll get a hard-on".
"Mm, well that would give everyone something interesting to look at" Jason giggled as he placed a hand into Ryan's crotch.
They set off and drove to the hotel to meet Alex who was acting as the co-ordinator for everything.
"Wow, you two look gorgeous" Alex exclaimed as he gave each of them a hug and a kiss, "Don't they look gorgeous Dad" he said as Uncle David kissed and hugged them.
"Yes, very fuckable the pair of them" David replied grinning.
"Dad, do you mind!" Alex exclaimed with mock horror.
As usual Roland was much more sedate and hugged and kissed them saying "You both look very nice".
The formal ceremony all went off without any hitches and Jason and Ryan said the words to each other they'd agreed on as they gave each other their ring. The Registrar finally pronounced them Civil Partners and they kissed with great applause from the audience.
Champagne was then served and all the guests came up and congratulated the happy pair and admired the rings. Ryan loved his so much that he proudly showed it off at every opportunity.
The meal then took place and Alex gave a speech which had everyone in fits of laughter as he talked about his time with Jason at school and their holidays at the house in Oxford. Then Jason said a few words thanking everyone for coming and making the day so special for him and Ryan. He then turned to Ryan and said "I fell in love with this man the moment I met him; he's a very special guy and has made me the happiest man in the world." He then bent down and kissed Ryan who by now had tears of emotion running down his face.
Once the meal was finally over and the cake had been cut, Jason and Ryan slipped away to their room to change and have a short rest.
"Come here my gorgeous teddy bear" Jason said as he pulled a half naked Ryan into his arms, "I love you so much and I want to feel you inside me".
Ryan just giggled and stripped off the rest of his clothes and jumped onto the large bed. Jason did the same and they were soon having passionate sex. When Jason felt Ryan's hot organ inside of him he pulled his head down so he could kiss him.
"Mm, I so love the feel of your cock inside me"
Ryan fucked and fucked until he was leaving his love seed inside of Jason. They then collapsed onto the bed and held each other tight.
"I'll show you how much I love you later" Jason grinned, "but we'd better get dressed and go and join the party".
Two days later they were flying off to Miami. Jason hoped that he'd spend most of the flight sleeping since he was never keen on long flights. Having Ryan with him made a difference so the time seemed to go by quickly. They got their connecting flight to Key West and were soon at the gay hotel where they were going to spend the next two weeks. The hotel had a clothes optional policy and most guys walked around naked so it suited both of them down to the ground. The weather was beautiful so they spent many hours sunbathing and swimming naked in the pool. In the evening they'd go out for a meal and then return to the hotel and soak in the large hot tub where other guys gathered each night. Often they'd have another swim in the pool and enjoy the company of other naked gays.
The two weeks flew by and it was soon time to go to Miami Beach. They were staying in another gay hotel and had a beautiful room overlooking the bay. They spent another two weeks enjoying sun, sea and sex with the occasional forays to nearby towns using the car Jason had hired.
Sadly their honeymoon was soon over and they were back in London. Both had lots of work to catch up on and it was soon December. Then came the day which changed their lives forever.
Jason had gone off to a business meeting that morning and Ryan decided he'd go into the West End and do some Christmas shopping. He wanted to find something special for Jason and had one or two ideas.
Whilst he was looking in a shop window, he heard the sound of gunfire and screams nearby. It was not until he collapsed on the ground that he realised he'd been hit. He blacked out and was not aware of anything else.
Jason was just leaving his business meeting to go back home when he had a call from the police.
"Are you Jason Palmer?" the guy asked having identified himself as a policeman.
"And are you the partner of Ryan Turner?" the guy continued.
Jason's heart stopped for a moment trying to think what could have possibly happened. Finally Jason confirmed that he was and the guy said there'd been a random shooting and Ryan had been hit by a bullet. He was now in hospital.
From that moment onwards Jason operated on auto pilot. Somehow he got to the hospital where Ryan had been taken, found where to go and spoke to a nurse. She told him that Ryan was undergoing surgery and would be in the operating theatre for some time to come. She led him along to a waiting area and gave him a cup of tea.
"The doctor will see you as soon as they have some news Mr Palmer"
Jason sat down with his head in his hands and cried. He couldn't believe what was happening. It was clear from the few words the nurse had told him that Ryan's injuries were serious. He suddenly started thinking what life would be without him and he told himself that life would not be worth living.
"He's my life and soul" he said out loud to himself not realising that another young guy was in the waiting room with him.
"Was he caught up in the shooting?" the guy said quietly.
Jason looked up and acknowledged his presence.
"Yes, do you know what happened?"
The guy then explained that some guy had gone mad with a gun and shot at random before killing himself. Two people had been shot dead and two injured.
"My girlfriend and I assume your friend" the guy said.
"I'm sorry" Jason said, "Do you know how badly injured she is?"
"She's in the operating theatre now to remove the bullet. I imagine the same is happening to your friend."
Jason just sat their stunned. He couldn't believe what was happening. His mind went back to how they'd parted that morning before he went to his meeting. He remembered hugging and kissing Ryan as they always did when parting and saying 'I love you' so at least Ryan knew that.
"Was your friend someone special?"
"Ryan's my partner" Jason replied.
"Julie and I are engaged to be married in January" the guy then said mournfully.
"We tied the knot three months ago" Jason replied and then added "I'm Jason".
"Michael"
The pair then waited for news in silence. It was almost three hours later that a nurse came in to ask each of them to go with her. Michael was shown into one room and Jason into another.
"We have removed the bullet but he is in a very weak state" the doctor was saying, "because he lost a lot of blood and until he comes to we can't identify what other injury the bullet has done".
"He's going to be okay is he?" Jason asked with tears running down his face.
"He's young and appears to be in good health otherwise, so he should pull through but it could be a long process. He was very lucky; the bullet went in through his back and lodged very close to his heart so there could be complications. Time will tell whether any nerve damage has been done. I want to be honest with you Mr Palmer so I'm telling you all I know at present but hopefully he'll be okay."
"Thanks; can I see him?"
The doctor said Jason could see Ryan but he was heavily sedated so would not know he was there. The nurse led him to a small room where Ryan was lying in bed. He sat down beside him and took hold of his hand.
"I'll leave you alone" the nurse said quietly "but if you need anything just ring the bell".
Jason looked at Ryan's limp body. Even with tubes in his arm and a mask over his face he looked beautiful. Jason bent over and kissed his forehead.
"Hi Ryan, I'm here; love you" Jason said quietly hoping that something would register.
Jason stayed beside Ryan's bedside for the next twenty four hours. The nurses were brilliant and brought him cups of tea and even sandwiches every so often. He just couldn't leave Ryan for a moment. He managed to call Alex and tell him what had happened and he said he'd seen it on the news. He then called Daryl since he knew Ryan was close to him.
"At present it's a waiting game to see how he is when he finally comes to" Jason told both of them and said that for the moment the hospital would only allow Jason to be present.
Finally Jason was conscious of a hand squeezing his. He'd held Ryan's hand almost all the time he was there even when he'd dozed off in the chair. Jason immediately looked up and saw the gorgeous blue eyes looking at him. Even in his current state he looked gorgeous and tears welled up in Jason's eyes.
"Hello my love; how you feeling?" Jason said as he kissed Ryan carefully on the top of his head.
Ryan just grinned inside the face mask but said nothing. All he wanted was to see Jason beside him. Nothing else mattered now.
Jason rang the bell to call the nurse and within seconds she came in.
"I'll get the doctor" she said once she'd seen Ryan was awake.
The doctor arrived and took off the oxygen mask. He checked various vital signs and seemed happy with things.
"He needs lots of rest now" the doctor said quietly to Jason out of earshot of Ryan, "we won't be able to tell what other damage if any has been done until he can be examined more fully. It's a waiting game I'm afraid so be patient and keep his spirits up."
Jason nodded and went back to Ryan.
"I don't know; can't leave you for five minutes without you getting into trouble" Jason said smiling and holding Ryan's hand. It made Ryan smile and he mouthed 'love you'.
"Love you too" Jason replied, "Thought I'd lost you".
Ryan just smiled. He was too weak to reply but just squeezed his mate's hand.
The hours and days went by and slowly Ryan improved so that the doctors could undertake a further examination.
"I'm afraid Ryan may have slight paralysis" the doctor was telling Jason after they'd completed their tests, "but time will tell how serious it is and may be with physiotherapy he will be okay in the longer term".
"When can I take him home?" Jason asked hoping it would be soon. Apart from quickly going home to have a shower and change his clothes he'd spent every hour beside Ryan. Daryl came one day to see him and Alex said he'd come down to London but Jason said not to for the moment.
"I may need to bring him to the Oxford house to recuperate" Jason explained to Alex, "He's going to need twenty four hour care and I may need your help".
Alex told him that he and Roland would be happy to help out in any way they could so agreed to wait for Jason to say when Ryan could be moved.
Gradually the weeks passed and Ryan was able to sit up in bed looking chirpier but he'd seemed to have aged ten years since the shooting. No longer did he have his vibrant youthfulness even though he looked his twenty years.
"You should go home and get some rest" Ryan told him one day.
"I don't want to leave you my love" Jason said but in reality he was feeling like shit and needed a good night's sleep.
"You look like shit" Ryan grinned.
"Thanks; love you too" Jason quipped back thankful that his love was at last smiling.
They'd not talked about what happened that dreadful day. Jason didn't want to bring it all back and in any event Ryan had hardly known what had happened. Jason had seen the news stories and felt sad about the people who'd lost their lives. He had managed to see Michael again and was pleased that his girlfriend had pulled through okay.
Jason went home and slept in his own bed for the first time for weeks. He so missed Ryan and cried and cried but eventually he was overtaken with tiredness and went to sleep. In the morning he was up and back at the hospital to sit by Ryan.
Finally after two months, Ryan was considered well enough to leave hospital although the doctors wanted to see him regularly for a while. They had discussed whether to go back to the London apartment or the Oxford house and Ryan had said he'd like to be away from London for a while. The bullet had in fact hit one of his nerves and it had caused partial paralysis. As such he couldn't walk very well so needed a wheelchair. Jason had purchased one that could be folded up and transported in the car. He'd also got Alex to arrange for a vertical wheelchair lift to be installed in the house so that Ryan could get upstairs without being carried. Jason knew that Ryan would not want to be dependent on others all the time so it was well worth the expense even though hopefully Ryan would eventually be able to walk normally again. Somehow though, he knew in the bottom of his heart that he may not be able to and that their lives would change forever.
In the week leading up to his release from hospital, several friends came to see Ryan. Jason told all of them they were welcome to come to Oxford in due course to visit but expected he and Ryan would be there for some long while yet.
Finally the day came for Ryan to make the trip to Oxford. He thanked all the nurses and Jason had organised boxes of chocolates for all of them. He also arranged for a large donation to be given to the hospital towards some new equipment they needed.
"It's been a pleasure looking after you Ryan" the nurse in charge said as Jason wheeled Ryan out of the room, "Now you look after yourself won't you" she added.
Ryan just grinned and took hold of Jason's hand, "I've got my love to help me do that" he said as they finally left.
Ryan spent the next few months resting and going back and forth to the hospital in London for checks. He enjoyed the open air and being able to wheel himself into the garden. Jason would often wheel him down to the lakeside and they would lay in the sunshine watching the birds skim over the water. The one thing they both missed was sex. The doctors had told them to take things easy for a while and in any event it was the last thing either of them really wanted to do for the moment. Even so, Jason did note that on some mornings Ryan woke with his morning wood and smiled to himself. He had to use the five fingered widow to relieve himself but one morning Ryan took hold of Jason's erection.
"Mm, now I think that needs attention" Ryan giggled.
Jason grinned back and moved his hand down to feel Ryan's hard organ.
"I'm glad to see this is still in working order" Jason giggled as he moved down between Ryan's legs and took it into his mouth. It wasn't long before Ryan was shooting his load!
"I so long for your cock to be inside me" Ryan wailed as he took hold of Jason's erection.
"Next time we see the doctor we'll ask if normal service can be resumed" Jason giggled, "but for now perhaps you'd just like to suck me off".
Ryan nodded and Jason helped him sit on the side of the bed so that Jason could stand in front of him. Having offered his cock, Ryan took hold it and sucked him dry.
"Oh god that feels so good" Jason exclaimed and in due course he too was shooting his load into Ryan's mouth.
"Yes, I don't see why you can't resume your normal sex life" the doctor said grinning, "just don't' do anything too rigorous".
On their way home Ryan told Jason what he wanted him to do to him when they got home.
"I'm not sure the doctor would approve" Jason laughed.
When they got back to Oxford and had reported to Alex and Roland on the visit, they both went upstairs. Jason helped Ryan strip off and they were soon naked on the bed. Ryan's operation scar had healed well although it was still visible and he was no longer in pain but his legs were not working fully as yet despite all the exercises he did everyday.
"At least in bed I can move around" Ryan said as he knelt between Jason's legs and sucked his cock. He then told Jason to lift his legs up high so he could lick his arse and his balls. He savoured the whole process and took his time. By the time he'd finished, Jason was dying to feel Ryan's cock inside him. Finally, having fingered him, Ryan slipped his hard cock inside.
"Oh fuck, that feels so good" Jason yelled, "welcome home my love!"
They made love for well over an hour and enjoyed every second. When they finally went downstairs, Alex and Roland grinned at them.
"I take it that went well then" Alex said grinning.
"Yep, it went fucking well" Ryan replied.
Jason hadn't done any more business deals since the shooting and Ryan of course had not done any more work on the books for the shop or the café. Jason had found another book-keeper to do the work and after a long talk with Ryan they both agreed they would continue living at the Oxford house. Alex and Roland asked Jason if he still wanted them to stay but he told them of course they must, it was their home now and there was plenty of room for all of them.
Jason had plenty of money to live on, so neither he nor Ryan needed to work. Instead they enjoyed the quiet country life. Ryan's twenty-first birthday had come and gone without much celebration but they were happy together and that was all that mattered. They eventually sold the London apartment and made the Oxford house their home.
"Finding you Ryan really was the best thing to have happened to me" Jason said one day as the pair of them lazed naked beside the lake having just had passionate sex.
"And for me" Ryan said as he kissed the man he loved more than anything else in the world.
****** Other stories by Adam Stewart: Moving Forward Love at Last Gary's Story
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