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now to the story....
Finding Myself
life has its ups and its downs, the good the bad and all the in betweens of life in highschool at home and as a teenager all mixed into one, this is my story that im going to tell you.
It was another boring day in my life, here I am Victor Polisantos a transfer student from honolulu hawaii entering Angula Creek High School in a city called Elk Grove. When my mom told me of the place where my aunt was residing i was like what? literaly i had to say what because i have never heard of such a place. My mother and i have come to an agreement back when i was in hawaii that i would finsih my highschool years in california because she was in the process of going through a divorce with her soon to be ex-husband Darren Amstel, here was a guy who i didnt like from the very beginning he was an intellegent man, the smartest person i probably known but his dick has a mind of its own if you know what i mean, thank god he's going to be out of my life now. So here i am my first official day at Angula Creek god what a drag this is going to be. Oh before i forget let me tell you a bit more about myself, im 16 now, a junior, i got dark brown eyes and i guess you can say im an okay looking guy, im not really into dating because i know in the end it will lead to heart break and i cant deal with the stress and emotions that come with it at this age HELL NO!..boy thats about to change real soon, i guess if you were to label me on what i wear i guess you can say im a bit of punk with a hint of hip hop..if that even makes any sense to you people out there, anyways i love basket ball its what ive known and what i grew up around all my life my favorite player, Celtic's shooter Larry Bird!!!! Oh i almost forgot i have a Ford Focus that i got for my 16th birthday present from my moms, its my BABY, midnight blue with custom interior, 10 disc cd changer, anyways on with the story.
As i was driving to school i pulled out my schedule to read that i got: Mythology 1st period, You and Law 2nd period, Health 3rd period, lunch then World Geography 4th period, as i was looking at my schedule this dumb ass kid almost gets hit because he wasnt looking on where he was going, so i had to fucking brake hella fucking fast or he would have been pancaked, i stopped and watched the kid not even notice that he almost got hit, like he was totaly cought up in his own thoughts, so i did what i had to do i got out of my car and headed for the kid:
-"hey bro!"..nothing...."BRO!" -"huh?.." as the kid came back from outerspace i got a better look at him, he had the! most gorgeous eyes i have ever seen..Gorgeous?..what the fuck am i thinking this is a dude, man but he also had a killer smile but yet he looked younger than me id say in the 10th grade. -i gave a nervous giggle.." ummm are you okay?..because you almost got ran over just a minute ago" -"oh my bad, im sorry im having an off day thats all, sorry about that bro."he gave a small smile -"hey its no problem man just take it easy okay?"..as i checked my watch it was 730 i had 10 minutes to get to class or be late on my first day, that aint gonna happen. -"oh shit 730, hey bro gotta go almost late for school, take care aight?"..i hurried my ass to my car and left!
Marco's point of view:
"What the hell did just happened last night"..here i am walking to school very slowly re-imagining the events that occured last night:
LAST NIGHT:
-"mom" -"yes marco?"..my mom said -"ummm, can we talk?. its rather urgent, i need to tell you something very important." -"what is it sweety?" -i gulped real hard and said the words i thought i would never say." im gay"..complete dead silence in the whole house, you can literaly drop a coin and hear it echo, i was hella scared -"....." -"mom say something, be mad,sad do something this silence is killing me!."..i pleaded -"i..i..i would have never thought that you were gay Marco, sweety are you sure?" -"yes im posotive that im gay." -sigh" you know i love you sweety right? and no matter what your still my son and i wont judge you its just a shock to me that you would be..i mean i had no idea" -giggling" i didnt either till i found out i just wasnt attracted to girls like i thought i would be." -"well were gonna go talk some more about this issue were not done, but go to sleep its 1230am you got scool tomorrow." -"alright mom" i walked up to her knelt down and kissed her goodnight" i love you" -"i love you too swe...."
i got interrupted by a loud voice that i never heard before. -"BRO" -"huh?" -"ummm are you okay?..because you almost got ran over just a minute ago" i was so confused not only because of the things the guy was saying but, i got transfixed onto his face, he had to most angelic face i have ever seen, and he isnt that big niether bigger and taller but not big i said what i could say -"oh my bad, im sorry im having an off day thats all, sorry about that bro" -"hey its no problem man just take it easy okay?" i couldnt say anything i was just staring at him this whole time, i saw him look at his watch -"oh shit 730, hey bro gotta go almost late for school, take care aight?" and just like he appeared he disappeared, "will a gorgeous guy like him ever even consider going out with a guy like me?"..i thought, let me give you a better understanding, im 14 a freshmen, im salvadorian, hazel eyes and i stand oh about 5'6,5'7..oh and i have a crush on a stranger. his words were creeping back into my head.."730"..i almost forgot school! i totaly forgot about that i was so cought up with things i didnt even notice, so i ran all the way to school, i thought "god im so gonna get it from mom when she hears i got a tardy on my first day.", but that wasnt on mind while i was running the whole time i was thinking wether i would ever see him again...well no time for day dreaming gotta get to class.
God 2 more classes then i can go home and relax thank god!, man my day so far has been a drag, i met this kid in my mythology class Mark hes a kick ass dude, white prolly 6 feet tall and cute, we got the talking and got into trouble because we werent paying attention to what we were doing in class, we had to make a banner for our class, mark and i didnt see where we were going and we walked right over the banner with mud tracks all over it, we got lectured but we laughed it off, im gonna really like hanging with mark he invited me to hang with him at lunch today so i said yeah i mean i got noone else to hang with so i said yeah. So here i am in the begining of my 3rd period class, i met my teacher Mr.Peski, god what a flamer, you can clearly tell that hes gay with the lisp going on and the hand gestures, also by his movement..but hes a cool teacher we had assigend seats so thats gonna be a drag i couldnt sit away from everyone else, luckly i got a seat in the back all by myself except the guy sitting next to me on my right, good enough i suppose. Mr P had us give him our information to put into his data base when all of a sudden the classroom door opens up and who do i see? none other than the dude i almost hit, i was staring at him the whole time as he walked to the teacher, they had a discussion that i couldnt hear but teach pointed him to the seat next to me and all of a sudden i got hella nervous, i dont know why but i am for some reason, every time i see him i act different, i got back to my work before he saw me look at him. I thought i was safe from the mystery boy when all of a sudden i hear a soft voice talking to me:
-"hey bro, member me?" -clearly i remembered him but i tried to act non scholant about it." hehe yeah i remember you, but i didnt get your name..mines Victor but you can call me Vic." -"sup vic names marco..and you can call me marco.."he gave a small laugh that i had to laugh to, man he had a beautiful laugh. -"hey bro hope you dont mind me asking but are you okay?. i mean when i talked to you earlier you seemed pre-occupied to even notice me yelling to get your attention." -"oh sorry about that." -"dont worry bout it bro,so wanna tell me wassup? i may talk a bit but i listen well to bro." -i can tell he was debating to tell me or not, i was hopeing he would." ummm its kind of a touchy subject but i dont wanna talke about it, sorry vic." -" hey no need for apologies, but just remember that i can always listen wheneveryou need to talk." -"thanks bro." -"no prollem lil man." i gave a small laugh -"hey! thats mean." i thught he was serious but i saw his smile creeping in at the corner of his mouth. so for the rest of the time me and marco were talking our heads off to one another like we were buds to begin with it was cool , i got to know him alot better with the amount of time given to us, he was a freshmen and it was only he and his mom, i told him that it was just me and my mom and sister for now with the divorce and things, he understood, as class was nearing to end marco turned to me and ask -"hey vic wanna eat with me today with my friends?" how could i not say no, but then i remembered that i already told mark id eat with him so that totaly burst my bubble not being able to hang with marco longer. -"sorry bud but im suppose to eat with my other friend i met today, i wish i could but i promised him id eat with him." i thought i saw him frown a bit when i finished my sentence and it just broke my heart to see him like that. so i had to make it up to him anyway i could. -"say what are you doing after school today?" i knew he was thinking a bit, hopefully hes free. -"umm nothing actualy why?" -"well do you wanna hang out after school today? i got nothing to do and i like hanging with you so what do you say?" -"yeah sure but let me call my mom to see if its okay first." -sure no problem." the bell rang telling us that class was over and i didnt want to keep mark waiting so i thought of the best way for marco to get hold of me -"hey marc i gotta go bud, heres my number(8083845555), call me and tell me if its a go with your moms." -"aight thanks vic imma call you later then." -"aight little man." and i headed to the cafeteria to meet up with mark
------------------------------------ Marcos point of view
man i love highschool soooo many guys to check out but also i got most of my friends from middle school to chill with nothing gets better than this, but for some reason i cant get that dude i bumped into out of my mind, what is it about him? cant ponder on that any longer i gotta get to health class. god couldnt they have given us a map to show us where the fuck our classes are?..seriously this is ridiculous, after 5 minutes or so looking for my class i found it in the back lot of the school behind my 1st period class in L building, Mr Peski is his name. so i headed in and i immedietly went to my teacher and explained what happened: -"im sorry sir,i got lost on my way here." -"thats no problem,and your name is" -"oh sorry its marco sir" i saw him scanning his piece of paper for a bit before he talked -"okay marco you sit at the far right corner next to victor" and as i saw him point i followed with my eyes on who im sitting with, and low behold its that cute dude i bumped into, my heart was skipping another beat as i began to walk closer and closer to him, what was i suppose to say? was i to say anything at all?, man i just wanna die, but thats impossible, guess gotta make do with what i got.: --"hey bro, member me?" -" hehe yeah i remember you, but i didnt get your name..mines Victor but you can call me Vic."..victor, cool name, -"sup vic names marco..and you can call me marco.."..god i sounded stupid but he laughed at that not to bad, i was just totaly mesmarized at his smile, it was one of those commercials with the toothpaste stuff and it shows off their awesome smile, he had one of those, out of nowhere he catches me off guard -"hey bro hope you dont mind me asking but are you okay?. i mean when i talked to you earlier you seemed pre-occupied to even notice me yelling to get your attention." man i would so have loved to say" yeah everythings fine im gay, my mom knows, i cant stop thinking about you." but i couldnt just yet, i dont know if i ever could tell him so i had to let him down easy -"oh sorry about that." -"dont worry bout it bro,so wanna tell me wassup? i may talk a bit but i listen well to bro." could i really tell him? i wouldnt wanna mess up a good thing so imma go slow on this one -"ummm its kind of a touchy subject but i dont wanna talke about it, sorry vic." whew, got out of that pickle rather easily -" hey no need for apologies, but just remember that i can always listen wheneveryou need to talk." wow not only cute but this guy is sincere man now i really cant mess this up he could be a real good friend, man that totaly blows! -"thanks bro." -"no prollem lil man." "lil man?" im not that short am i?, hes clearly taller than me but not by much, i guess hes comfortable enough with me to call me that,now imma mess with him -"hey! thats mean."..i gave a bit of a frown in there to have that dramatic look, god im such a dork, i had to stop a bit to look at him to see that he was a bit concerned that he hurt my feelings, now i feel bad, so i just put up a smile to let him know that its all good fun. so for the rest of the class period me and vic totaly connected with one another, it was like weve known each other forever, no awkward moments what so ever and i liked that, i found out as well that his moms divorced too, hes a junior transfering from hawaii so that was cool, but i wanted to ask why leave such a nice place,better ask him about it later. i was having so much fun i didnt even know that class was almost over, i wanted to ask vic to eat with me so i can get to know him better: -"hey vic wanna eat with me today with my friends?" please let him say yes,PLEASE! -"sorry bud but im suppose to eat with my other friend i met today, i wish i could but i promised him id eat with him." awww just my luck, it would have been so cool to have eaten with him. but he totaly cought me off guard with what he said next. -"say what are you doing after school today?" i was speechless, here i am with an oppurtunity of a lifetime and all i could say was nothing, speechless, nada..i had to say something, but i also had to ask my mom too..shit im in a pickle -"umm nothing actualy why?" -"well do you wanna hang out after school today? i got nothing to do and i like hanging with you so what do you say?" HELL YES I WOULD!!! but damn you mother!!! -"yeah sure but let me call my mom to see if its okay first." and the bell rang telling us that it was lunch. -"hey marc i gotta go bud, heres my number(8083845555), call me and tell me if its a go with your moms." cool i got a number..hehe im such a dork -"aight thanks vic imma call you later then." -"aight little man." "little man" again i so totaly gotta come up with something soon. and just like that he left. i did too and right when i got outside i pulled my cell out of my backpack and called mother: -"hi sweety, whats up?" -"hey mom, would it be okay for me to hang with my friend from class afterschool?" -"i dont know sweety, do i know him?" -" no i doubt it hes new he transfered from hawaii, he asked if i wanted to chill with him since he has nothing better to do." -"well its okay."..YESSS.."with one condition."..SHIT!.." you guys gotta drop by the house first so i can meet him, thats the deal." sigh"okay mom" -"okay i gotta go sweety bye." -"bye" and i hung up, god why do moms want to torchure their kids sooooo much, oh well at least me and vic get to hang out, and i soooo totaly cant wait!
Man where the fuck is the cafeteria? im never gonna find mark at this rate...umphf " oh shit my bad man, i didnt see you there." -"damn vic whats the hurry?"..it was Mark thanks the lord! now i dont have to look for him -"hehe my bad bro i was in a hurry to find you i didnt see you there, this place is humongous! -"haha yeah it can be overwhelming but stick with me and youll be fine" -"i might just take your word on that bro." when me and mark got to the lunch line he asked me -"yo friday my boy bubba's got a house party wanna come?" shit hell yeah i wanna come! "yeah man thanks, what time?" -"around 7ish meet me up at my house and we'll go together." -"aight sounds like a plan." hmmm i wonder if id be able to bring a friend?.."yo mark you think it be alright if i brought a friend?" -" yeah no prob bro." -"aight cool" as we were sitting down Mark introduced me to his friends, this kid named nacho..lol what an odd name, hes a skater, brown eyes and hair, got a kid name robert, hes a hottie hazel eyes with a nice built, and christina, punk rock chiq that has style youd never see people wear but yet it suits her. -"yo guys this is vic, vic this is nacho robert and christina." boy was i nervous"sup" the boy nacho nodded to me to say sup and robert extended his hand "sup vic" we shook hands and all of a sudden i felt a shock in my hands and i pulled away quickly. -"shit!..haha, you felt that?" -"haha yeah man we got a connection already haha"..and he winked, i was blown away by his smile thats for sure and whats with the wink? oh well prolly just playing around half way through lunch i got a phone call -"yo" -"umm is this vic?" -" marco?..hey bud whats up?" -"hey, umm so yeah id be able to chill with you bro..." -" why do i hear a but in this?"..i gave a small laugh -"hehe sorry but my moms wants us to drop by the house first, she wants to meet my new friend"..shit meet his mom already we havent even kissed yet..lol -"yeah thats no problem man." -"really? youd wanna actualy meet my mom?..hehe your a brave guy" -"haha am i suppose to be afraid?" -"not really." -"aight its settled then, so how bout we meet at the school parking lot, go to your house chill a bit, then grab some early dinner sounds like a plan?" -"hell yeah!..if your buying haha" -"yeah im buying" -"cool aight see you then vic" -"aight bye"..and i hung up....wait..did i just plan to have dinner with marco?. -"so who was that your boyfriend? haha" robert asked jokingly, an everyone went hysterical -"shut up man, that was a friend of mine." and i punched him on the shoulder playfully -"ow! " and he was rubbing his arm on where i punched him -"awww did wobby get a boo boo?" and i placed my hand on his arms and started rubbing for him, then everyone went hystrical on that one. -"kiss it and it will prolly feel better." and then he pouted, he looked soo cute,then he winked again and laughed, and so did everyone else -"shut up" then i shoved him playfully -"aww come on i know you wanna..haha" man the guys practicaly wet their pants we were so funny, god imma love hanging with these guys, then everything went back to normal we finished our food and we walked around school just hanging out, but at times id take a quik glance at robert and i see him staring at me, i smiled at him and i see him turn beet red and turn away, that boys sooo cute when hes blushing, when the bell rang i started heading to my class after i said bye to everyone, after a bit i heard my name being called -"vic, hey vic." i turned around and it was robert"hey wobby..haha" i just had to laugh at that -"shut up, hey i was wondering, umm do you got aim?" -"yeah why wassup" -"well just wanted to know if i could have it" -"yeah no problemo bro..its vpotal" -"aight cool man thanks" -"no problem man" -"aight then imma see you at lunch tomorrow?"..it seemed as if he was asking if i was gonna eat with them -"yeah of course i get to pick on you more..haha" -"ahhh shut up!" then he punched me -"ow!" -"haha, later!" then he ran off man if i can be good friends with these kids school aint gonna be half bad.
Man thank the lord world geography was done, that Mr Kishniff is so boring, all we did was work and hes hella strict, fucking white bitch!..lol..now on my way to my baby. on my way their my phone rang"hello?" -"yo vic where are you?" it was marco and he was right in front of me so i wanted to scare him -"right behind you" and i was like directly behind him too and when he turned around -"AAHHH, fucking vic that aint funny bro, haha" -"haha my bad buddy just playing with you" -"hehe i know you scared the shit out of me" haha mission accomplished -"aight so where do you live bro?" -"umm well its kinda far from here, we gotta take the etran to franklin high, i live at moon lily court." no FUCKING way! this kid lives in the street over what a fucking coinsedence -"are you serious?!" -" yeah is that a problem?" -"haha no not at all i live on wild orchid way bro, were practly neighbors, haha what a small world we live in huh?" -"wow thats hella cool we can chill all the time then" -"yups exactly" -aight so lets get going etrans almost here" -"you sure you wanna take the bus? why not we take my car bro, haha" -"wait you got a car? " -"haha yeah didnt you see me drive off this morning?" -"hehe no not really i was still preoccupied, my bad" -"haha no problem man lets go its over here" so we headed to my car and when we got there -"holly shit! this is your car?" -"haha yeah man it is " -"lucky ass mother fucker" i opened my car but marco was still staring at it, so i had to interupt him"hehe you can stare all you want at it bro later, get in already." so we hopped in the car i started my engine" aight seatbelts" and marco did just that i was to occupied with the road so i asked marco to turn on the cd player for me"press play on the stereo bro" -"aight" when he did Outcast :so fresh and so clean song blasted through my car -"holly shit this is my favorite song man" -"haha mine too bro" and we sung alone to it, horribly might i add "aint no body dope as me im just so fresh and..so fresh and so clean clean" and when the song ended we arrived at marcos house right on time man i was hella nervous but i guess i had to meet her sometime right? -"readt to go in vic" -"yeah imma fallow your lead bro" so we hopped out of the car and we headed into marcos house -"mom!...MOM!!" -"in the kitchen sweety." so we walked over to her and he introduced me"mom this is vic, vic this is my mom, Ms Cesci" -"nice to meet you mam,boy my voice was stuttering like a mofo. -"nice to meet you too vic,but call me Darla Ms Cesci makes me feel old, haha" we all had a laugh at that because she was right, she didnt seem old at all, prolly 30-35 the most clearly a young mother -"aight mom me and vic are heading to my room, oh and me and him are gonna go get dinner later so dont make me dinner tonight." -"okay sweety, you two run along now." and run along we did they had a beautiful victorian house wtih wooden floors, the works, and in Marcos room was a contrast to everything else in the house, he had posters covering all of his walls with artist, from panic at the disco to eminem, to busta rhymes, to sliplknot, this boy was well rounded with music, he had an Alienwear computer, that shit comes at around 3 grand easy, lucky bitch, and he had both xbox and ps2, haha i had an xbox360..hehe -"nice room you got here bro, awesome layout, i especially like the panic at the disco poster, their a good band" -"you heard of them" -"haha yeah, i heard them from myspece.com, kick ass group." -"hell yeah they are, so what do you wanna do?" -"hmm i see you got an xbox there wanna play halo2?" -"yeah let me kill you in halo2 bro, haha" -"getting cocky arent we?" -"nah just confident." so we set up the game and for 2 grueling hours we played halo, i won 7-0 god i murdered the poor little guy -"how the fuck did you learn how to play like that?, you killed me..badly" -"haha my sister works at microsoftsoft she gave me the pre-release of halo2 about 6 months before it came out so you can say i had a bit of a headstart haha" -"lucky!" -"haha i know." as i checked my watch it was nearing 5o clock -"yo im getting hungry man ready to go?" -"yeah man im starving too lets go dog." so we headed out and hopped into my car, but i saw marco bring a cd with him so i had to ask -"whats in the cd?" -"oh its a mix i made, got hella nice tunes wanna listen" -"sure" and he popped it in, he turned to track 9 and it was my favorite song, it was john legend" i will stay with you" god i promised to myself the person i was going to marry, this will be our song: JOHN LEGEND:
weve been together for a while now were growing stronger every day now, it feels so good there is no doubt, i will stay with you as each morning brings us sunrise, and the flowers bloom in spring time on my loving you canr rely, will stay with you i will stay with you through the ups and the downs i will stay with you when noone is around......
-"this is john legend, i will stay with you isnt it marco?" -"yeah man you know him?" -"yeah i love his melodies and his voice, i want this to be my wedding song, with this lyrics i know this was my song." -"wow same with me i want this to be my wedding song, i know i seem kinda young but i want to be in a lasting relationship, you know?" i turned to him and i gave him my warmest smiles i could muster and siad" yeah i understand completly bro" and we drove off, it was silent for a while but its was a comfortable silence, nothing awkward about it, we listend to more songs by john legend and chris brown, for a young dude chris brown has got skillz.we were driving for a bit now and it was fun i liked it -"so where do you want to eat marco?,we got the dollar menu at mcdonalds we got del taco, theirs costco pizza come bro what you hungry for?"..haha i had to laugh at that -"haha what ever you want bro, i dont really care the companys good so it dont matter to me." he was right the company was good and god knows i dont want it to end just yet, in my mind i know im starting to fall for marco, but is this possible, to have a change of heart all of a sudden ? heres a boy i just met yet, it feels so right, and what about our age difference? im practicaly 3 years older than him, and i dont even know if hes gay, at all, fuck why is being a teenager so hard? man i better not mess this up i cant afford to lose him as a friend if i ever decide to tell him. -"yeah the company is good man." and i turned to him and smiled."aight its settled, were gonna go eat at applebees" -"wait thats a bit expensive, id settle for burgers bro." -"dont worry about it man, trust me okay?" -"aight"..10 minutes later we arrived at applebees and the waiter who was a good looking guy seated us" just you two gentlemen?" -"yeah just us two sir." so we sat down, after a couple of minutes at looking at the menu i knew what i wanted, im settling for the 3 course menu with the spinach dip steak and shrimp. -"so what you having bud? -"im thinking about the riblets." -"go for it." the waiter came by again to take down our order and left us -" vic ive been meaning to ask, why leave hawaii? i mean its paradise what more could you want?" i guess it best to tell him now -"i had to find myself,at times in my life id be wit friends and wonder is this all that life is? so i had to find out myself and it brought me here, also i needed a new scenery ou know?" -" yeah i get what your saying, finding yourself is the hardest thing to do, if you dont know who or what you are then its gonna be a hardlife to live, to me ive found myself already, i know it sounds crazy cuz im young but i did, i couldnt be more happy, and my mom too, when i told her she was surprised but she was happy, thats all that mattered to her, and thats all that should matter to you too, for you to be happy." man this kid is so insightful at a young age, no wonder m falling for him every minute that passes by." are you sure that your only 14? you seem older and less immature than the other kids?" -"hehe thanksi think, but i had to grow up a bit faster than i would have liked,but i dont regret any of it." by then the food came by and it smelled great, and it tasted great too, words were said less often for us to savor our food, but at times id glance at marco to catch him watching him, id just smile, heres a kid with a good head on his shoulders and here i am confused with my life, and who i am yet with him, everything feels soooo right. when dinner was finished, the waiter came by for our dessert, i got my rasberry cheesecake while marco settled for a shake. when the waiter came by we had a bit of a 1on1 chat -"you and your boyfriend are real cute. wow i wish"haha no were not, were just friends, i wish though ." -"oh wow well hope all works out for you." -"same here." and he left right after -"what was all that laughing about? it was about me huh?" -"haha dont worry about it buddy." and he left it at that, but i know it was eating at him hardsigh guess imma tell him when i drop him off home.. after the dessert i paid the 45$ check and we headed home, this time we barely talked, i wonder if hes still wondering what me and the waitre was talking about.god i hate to end the day like this -" he said we looked like a cute couple." -"what?" -"haha the dude said we looked like a good couple." i wished we were together."whats so funny?" marco seemed uptight like he was offended with me laughing at the thought.things are coming a bit more clear for me now, but i just cant rely on instincts alone i have to know for sure though. -"im sorry" -"for what?" -"for what ever i did to make you mad at me, i really had a good time marco, and i didnt want it to end with you being mad at me." -"dont worry about it okay, i guess im just over reacting when it seemed like you were poking fun at the thought of people being gay, i know someone very close to me thats gay, and its real hard."..he started to tear up a bit, man my heart is breaking for him i hate seeing him like this, i placed my hand at his chin to turn him to me and wiped the tears away from his face"i am sooooo sorry for acting the way i did, i didnt consider your feelings and i feel real bad about it, but as long as im here you got me to turn to, i will always listen to you, i will never judge you and i wll never overreact okay?..thats what i can offer you bro and i hope you dont shy away from me with that small stupid comment i made earlier." he was stuttering a bit and i couldnt blame him."i..its...its o..okay..th..thanks ..vi.vic" -"hey theres no need for thanks, lets not dwell on the past now, lets just forget it and look ahead...so were good?" he smiled that smile that i loved"yeah were good..old man gramps!" by then we arrived at his drive way."oh hell no!! " then i got him in a nuggie and i said"say your sorry" -"NEVER..ow..haha" -"haha suit your self" i continued for a bit longet and then i stopped..panting"aight you gotta go before i kill you man." -"what if i dont want you to go yet man, ive never had a friend here before and it seems like im just getting to know you, its only 800pm do you want to go walking around? theres a park where we can chill.?" like what he said i dont want to leave yet i really want to get to know him" yeah lets go walking" so we got out of the car and started to walk opposite of the house towards the prk, and im familiar with the park, thats where i contemplate about my life soooo many times. The streets were dark except for the stars above us and the street lights. -"i wonder what heaven will be like." marco said -"well were still young marco there is soooo much we havent done and things we want to do, that its not worth looking to far ahead in our lives, lets just work on whats in fron of us now." -"yeah"..and we arrived at the park there was this small hill where i always sit at, its behind the bushes where i doubt people go to, but its my place and i wanted to share that with marco so i took his hand and i made him fallow me" where we going?" -"to my spot" after a couple of trees and bushes we arrived at this gorgeous place where theres a small lake where the moon richochets off the lake its just BEAUTIFUL, i heard marco gasp -"wow, i havent seen this place before, this is sooo cool" -"yeah it is i found this when i first arrived here, its my place to think and to just get away from everything in the world where everything is just right." at this point we were still holding hands, god i didnt want to let go at all it just felt so right, but i didnt want marco to feel awkward so i started to pull away gently then i heard him say" stay like this for a bit more, just keep holding my hand vic"..man i was surprised when he said that and thank the lord that he said it too"okay" then he continued to speak: -"i like this, just you and me, hanging out, i had a real good time with you today vic, god i didnt want it to end." then he let go and turned to face him with tears in his face"im gay vic, and i really like you, but i know it cant happen at all but i just wanted to feel this before you walk out of my life like everyother person thats walked out on me when ive told them about me." god the pain this boy is in, and to think that i was gonna leave him? no i would never in my life leave this wonderful boy. then i see him walking away from me so i ran and took hold of his arm and turned him around"hey where you going?"... -"i thought you were sick of me and who i am, i know most people are." i took my hand once again and wiped the tear away from his beautiful face, even when hes crying hes beautiful -"what did i tell you when we were in the car marco?" -"that you will never judge me, and wont over react" -"exactly so why would i think different of you because your gay?, god theres tooo many ignorant bigot people out in the world as it is, and i dont want you to think that all people are like your friends that turn their backs on you because thats not true, you got me, and theres my friends who you will meet tomorrow, your gonna eat lunch with me tomorrow okay?" -"but i like you, i cant stand being with you when i really want to be WITH you, i just cant stand that vic." -"your so dense sometimes, what am i doing now? holding your hands right? who in there right mind thats straight would continue to hold you?" -"i dont know?..a real caring friend?" he put up a bit of a smile -"no a guy who is head over heels for this wonderful, yet stubborn kid i met today, i like you too vic, when we talked in 3rd period, im never that so open to anyone in a short period of time, yet with you i can be, and i really want to be with you" -"really?" -"haha, yes i really do...marco Cesci would you do me the honor of being my first boyfriend?...PLEASE!!!.."..lol im a kid at heart what can i say? -"of course!" and then he hugged me, god i dont ever want this to end, marco backed out of the hug and we held each other face to face, forhead to forhead," vic?..umm can i kiss you?" -" do you really have to ask?"..then i leaned in and our lips met, i held his embrace tighter and i started to suck on his bottom lip then thats as far as i wanted to go for now so i eased off a bit." wow, whered you learn to kiss marco?" -" i dont know, to be honest ive never ad a boyfriend or a grilfriend before so i cant really say i practiced." -"you tasted like chocolate milk shake,yum..haha" he laughed a bit"dork" but i had to know if his mom knew about it because i didnt want marco to be in trouble.."does your mom know your gay marco?" -"yeah..she was cool with it, thats what i told you about earlier with her being okay with it, when i was getting my cd we had a bit of a talk." at this point we were sitting on top of a picnic table near by, holding his hands rubbing his plam with my thumb gently."really?..about what?" -"umm you?" -"me?...what did you say?" -"well she said your a very cute boy,i said eh hes alright." i mocked saddness"thats mean." -" im just kidding your beautiful" and he raised my hands and kissed it -"what else?" -"well she said that if i were to have a boyfriend that it should be with a guy like you, but i told her that its no likely that your gay, boy was i wrong..haha" -"yes you were, and what can i say moms like me." and i gave him one of my most cheesiest smiles -"so what now vic?" -"well tomorrow im gonna pick you up for school, 3rd period were gonna go to lunch together and your gonna meet my friend, but we gotta keep our relationship underwraps for now, because i dont know if theyre gonna be okay with it, then after school you can ride home with me too if you want." -"all sounds good to me, say what time is it" i went and fished out my cell and it was 1030om"aight lil man we gotta go its 1030 and you gotta sleep to grow big and strong..haha" -"shut up vic!" -"just kidding" and i leaned in to kiss him again, god he tastes so good,i dont think i can ever get tired of kissing him.when we arrived at the street way he started to pull away but i refused to let go" whats wrong why you letting go?" -" well i thought that you wouldnt want to" -"dont worry about that im fine about it" and we arrived at his door and i kissed him goodbye" see you in the morning around 710okay?" -"yeah thats fine, goodnight" -"good night marco" and i left to go to my house, man what a day! made new friends met my first boyfirend man, i love cali!
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as we say in hawaii..much mahalo till next time