This story is fiction. It doesn't represent the sexuality of any member of N'Sync. Please don't read if gay sex offends you. Otherwise, go ahead and read it. I hope you enjoy it as much as I write it.
Chapter 2: All For Love
I was mesmerized by what I am looking at, my head slowly moved toward his cock. Inches by inches, I was getting close to my target. Inches by inches, I was getting closer to the object of my passion, the object that soon would take my virginity, and join us together as one. As I got close enough, I could see a pearly white drop of precum on the head of his cock. I stuck out my tongue to taste his seed, his cream, his nectar. It tasted so sweet. No liquid on earth that could come close to the taste of his invigorating juice of love. My lips soon came in contact with the gorgeous purple mushroom head. I kissed it, my lips opened slowly, and I slid them around the head of his cock. I applied suction and sucked up the head slowly, and then back down sliding my lips over it again and again, loving the feel of it in my mouth. It tasted so good. The texture, the softness of his cock tasted incredible in my mouth. I could hear soft moans escaped from JC's mouth as he put his hands on my head and thrust up his hips at the same time slowly to force my head down further on his cock. I held on to his manly thighs as my head bobbed up and down on his cock faster and faster. Within minutes, JC's breathings were getting heavier and heavier. I could feel his balls constricted and his cock expanded in my mouth. He tried to pull his cock out of my mouth because he didn't want to cum in mouth, but I resisted him. I sucked harder and harder on his cock while my hands began to explore every muscle on his body. My fingers sank deep into his ass cheeks to pull him deeper into me. I could feel the head of his cock rubbing against the back of my throat. I could feel his whole body convulsed, his ass cheeks squeezed tightly together, and every muscle in his body contracted. Then he shot, and shot and shot in my mouth. I tried to take all of his cum but there was too much, and I couldn't take all of it. But I still didn't want let go of his cock as I milked it to the last drop. Finally, JC has to stop me and pull me into a tight embrace as his body flopped down on the bed. "WOW! Are you sure this is your first time baby? You suck better Monica Lewinsky" he joked. "Who says anything about you being my first? I had my practice with many before you. Let's see Tom, Dick, Harry oh and someone names Billy too I think" I finished all the name as I tried my best not too laugh, especially after the name Billy. I was never good at holding my laugh because I joined him the minute he burst out laughing. "Oh I love you so much TT! You always bring out the best of me. Ok! How about I return the favor now?" he whispered in a low seductive voice into my ears as his hands moved slowly down the buttons of my jeans. He lay me on my back as he gently lay on top of me making sure that he didn't put all his weight on me. God! I love him so much. I couldn't remember when my T-shirt was taken off and I didn't really care as I enjoyed the feeling I got from his small kisses on my body. First he kissed my heart, then his kisses were going down further and further until he stopped at my belly button. He stuck his tongue in it, and swirled around. My head quickly perched up as a moan involuntary escaped my mouth. A shiver ran through my whole body, and he could feel it because he looked up and smiled. I could see a pair of beautiful eyes full with love and passion staring at me. They were so beautiful, so exquisite, and they were sparkling and intensifying by the golden light radiated by the candles. "Do you like it?" his voice was so low, it was almost inaudible. He didn't wait for my answer as he continued his kisses further down while his hands pulled my jeans completely off. I could feel his nose buried into my basked and he breathed in heavily. My pulse quickened. He took in as much of my basket in his mouth as he could. The feel of the dry cotton, his lips and tongue on my cock made me burn with sexual energy and desire. I was now more eager for him to satisfy me than I've ever been in my wildest dreams. After a minute of working his lips and tongue on my brief, he pulled it off to free my cock from its restraint and confinement. The next thing I knew was I experienced the most incredible feeling in the world as my cock was enveloped by his lips. In quick move, he took me all the way down. His mouth was so hot it gave me an incredible sensation. As if it was not enough for him to drive me crazy with the pleasure he has on my cock, his hands moved up to my chest. He began to massage my chest, he rubbed them, squeezed them, and once in a while he pinched my nipples tightly. Time seemed stopped flying, the world seemed stopped moving. I couldn't think of anything but the feeling of his mouth on my dick, and his assaults on my body. I began to shoot and shoot and shoot. I have never cum so much in my life. He took it all without spilling a drop. He then moved up and kissed me passionately. We kissed and kissed and kissed while he was caressing me with his gently strokes. He caressed my cheeks, my neck sending multiple shivers through out my whole body. I could feel his hardening member rubbing against my thigh as we intimately showed our love to each other through the kisses. I spread my legs wider so he could situate himself between me. I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him closer and higher. I could feel the head of his raging hard-on rubbing against my hole. He understood my intention perfectly as he reached over my head and grabbed a bottle of lube. He took some lube from the bottle and smeared it on his cock. When he finished, he looked up and saw me looking at him. He smiled and asked "Are you sure you're ready for this baby?" I nodded, and at the same time my legs pulled him closer to signify that I'm ready. He positioned himself between my legs, and pushed the head of his cock against my hole. I gasped in pain as it went in. The pain was too much for me, but I didn't want him to stop as I tried not to show it but I didn't succeed. He tried to pull out but I stopped him. "Give me a minute to get used to it" I spoke confidently. He nodded as he took hold of my hands. He brought them to his lips and kissed them. He looked straight into my eyes and said "I love you." Then he bent down and kissed me. There was no lust, no lasciviousness or desire in the kiss. It was purely a tender loving kiss. There was no rush in our kissing. At that moment, we were connected together, we became one. Our hearts joined at the same beat. I know sex is great, sex is excellent. But love, love is grand, love is magnificent, and I believed that there's nothing could compare to the love we have for each other at that moment. The pain was still there, but it was going away quickly as my ass adjusted to the size of his cock inside me. I squeezed his hand gently and nodded my head slightly to tell him that I'm ready again. He understood it as he pushed himself more into me. I could still the pain tremendously but I also began to feel something else too. The pain was quickly replaced by a feeling that I couldn't describe it, a feeling that I want him to stay like that inside of me forever. We were making love for hours, and I meant it when I said for hours. He was so gentle to me, and yet rough in a way. He always made sure that I was ok, and through out the whole love making, he never took his eyes off my eyes. Once in a while he would bend down and give me kisses all over my lips, my eyes, my nose and my forehead as he took long and slow strokes in and out of me. Once in a while, he would take a quick jab and plunged deep into me and send me to heaven. At the same time, he was singing along with the music that he had programmed it to repeat for all the time we made love. And can you guess the song he has picked out? If not, I give you a hint. It's the most beautiful song I've ever heard. The meaning and the lyrics are excellent, and I believed everyone has heard that song at least ten times. Every time when it came to the part "When I look into your eyes, I know that it's true. God must have spent a little more time on you", he sang along with the music and looked deep into my eyes. Everything, everything was transmitted through his eyes, love, caring, passion, tenderness. I loved every second we spent making love to each other. I loved the way he made love to me, I loved his techniques, the combination of long, gentle strokes and quick rough thrusts. Every time when he was close, every time when he was about to reach climax he would stop, and we would kiss, we would fondle, we would cuddle and caress each other until he calmed down, and ready for another round. I was in heaven, he brought me to the limit of ecstasy. He gave me the experience, the pleasure I've never experienced before. But the thing I love the most was the total love, attention and devotion that he gave me during our lovemaking. He showed them all through his beautiful blue eyes. I was mesmerized by them. I felt like I was lost in an ocean when I looked at his eyes, yet I felt so safe, so secure and warm. I loved it when he took out his time to give me kisses between his thrusts, hugging me in his long strong arms. I couldn't remember how many times JC stopped to recuperate, but by the time he decided to let it go, he kept cumming and cumming. When he finished, his whole body crashed on top of me. He fell so exhausted from all sexual activities that he fell sleep immediately. His long, muscular arms wrapped tightly around my chest, and he whispered "I love you baby" before he hit the dreamland. I felt so happy so content as I lay there snuggling in his arms, stoking them tenderly, soon I joined him in the dreamland. We both were woke up by the sound of the telephone ringing later. Neither one of us wanted to pick it up, but he gave up in the end because whoever called was very persistent. "Hellooo! Who's this?" he seemed a little annoyed. I turned around, and pressed my face in his chest, rubbing my cheeks lightly against his skin as I wrapped my arms around his waist. The friction caused by the soft layer of hair on his chest and my skin was incredible. The feeling was extremely better when he began to run his fingers through my hair and massage my head. I sighed happily, I guess I got myself a perfect man. His body is flawless from head to toe, and his strength and stamina in bed are incredible. The way he shows his love and care for me is extraordinary. "9:30 tonight? Why didn't you guys call me and tell me earlier?" he sounded angry. I couldn't hear who on the other side but I had a pretty idea who it was. "Ok! Ok! I'll be there and pick you up. And Justin, next time call sooner Ok?" he paused for a few seconds and listened "Ok! I'll see you later" "Baby we have to get up. I have to pick up the guys at the airport. Do you want to go with me?" "Sure! I would love to but we have to get a shower, and get something to eat first. I'm starving" "Off course! We still have plenty of time. After we take a shower, we can stop by your house and ask Kenny and Amy if they want to have dinner with us" I agreed with him but I didn't want to get up. I didn't want to get out of the bed because I was so comfortable. He must have sensed this because he got up and walked to the bathroom. I sulked when he got up. "Ok! You can stay here a little longer while I'll go, and take a shower first. Unless you want to take a shower with me" he said looking over his shoulder with a gorgeous smile on his face. My head quickly raised up because he caught my attention with the last sentence. Off course I want to be in the same shower with him. Who would be so stupid to refuse such an attempting offer? I quickly got up and got out of the bed. The minute I stood up and walked away, I cried out in pain and fell down on the bed. "Ouch!" I shouted out. "What's happened? What's happened?" he quickly ran in and sat down next to me "What's wrong baby?" "It's all your fault. That's what's wrong" I said punching him in the arm. "What did I do?" he asked confusingly. I pulled him closer and whispered into his ear what's happened. After hearing what I said, he got the biggest grin on his face while saying "I'm sorry baby, I didn't know that it would hurt you that much." By the look on his face I could tell he wasn't sorry but proud of what he did if you know what I meant. "You should have known when you stick that monster inside of me. I won't be able to use it for a long time." "It's not that big, isn't it?" he asked, still with that stupid grin on his face. "Well! I'm glad that it can get any bigger because if it does you will split me into halves." He laughed satisfied with my answer. I tell ya it's all the ego thing. "What are you laughing at? And how am I gonna be able to walk to the bathroom?" "Hmmm! That's can be arranged my love. You don't have to worry my dear" he got up and made a bow gesture before swiping me up to carry me to the bathroom. "You are so stupid something JC" I laughed. "Yeah! But you still love me" I didn't say anything because I was distracted by what's in front of me. Right in front of my eyes was the sight of a beautiful erected quarter size nipple. I couldn't help it but moved in closer and licked it. "Hmmm! You better stop it or I'm gonna drop you down here and have hot passionate sex with you right away" he spoke trying to control his moan. "I'm sorry I couldn't help it. It's not my fault that you're too irresistible, you know" I giggled. I couldn't tell how long we were in the shower but we took forever to clean each other up. I couldn't keep my hands off his gorgeous body. I explored every bit of muscle on his body. There wasn't a single place on his body that I missed. He just stood there looking at me smiling while I kissed his body, caressing and cleaning it. "You know at this rate we'll never have enough time for dinner and pick the guys up. How about we finish this up? I promise you next time when we're in a shower I'll let you take as long as you like"
When we finished, he immediately picked me up and carried me into the bedroom. I felt so happy that I just wanted to shout out to the whole world that I found the perfect man. He treats me like a fragile egg. He treats me like I'm his universe, and I enjoyed every second of it. Fifteen minutes later we arrived at my house. We didn't go out for dinner because Amy was cooking for dinner, and Kenny was helping her. Luckily we arrived just in time to eat.
"Well! Well! Well! Look who's here Amy. It's about time you come back. I was about to send a search party for you. So how was your day with Prince Charming here?" Kenny asked with a big smile on his face.
"Oh! It's ok! We didn't do anything special" I lied while walking towards them. I had to turn away and avoided Kenny's stare because sometimes he can read me like a book.
"Oh My God! Look at him Amy. Oh My God! He's walking funny. Tom you're such a liar, and you said you didn't do anything special" he dropped whatever he was doing and ran up to me. He looked at me up and down like he's inspecting me.
My face turned ten shades of red. I felt like all the blood run up to my head. As if it was not enough humiliation for me, JC butted in "That would be my fault. I made him walk that way, but isn't he cute when he walks like that?" He giggled. Somehow I had a feeling that he seemed to enjoyed it by the way he said it.
Lucky for me, I still have Amy, she always comes to my rescue. But then again I took back what I just said as I heard what she said "Stop it you two! You're making him blush. So how was your first time Mister?"
At that time, I wished there was a hole so I could hide in it. I guess I should make some new friends and get rid of these two. They don't seem to do anything besides making fun of me.
"Yeah! Yeah! Go ahead and make fun of me for all you want. And you JC, go ahead and join them. But from now on, don't come to me to take care of that thing for you" I said pointing at his crotch. I pretended I was mad and stomped out of the kitchen. I took a quick glance at them I saw that they were looking at each other nervously. I walked into the living room and sat down on the couch. Soon three of them entered, and sat down next to me.
"We're sorry Tom. We were just kidding" Kenny apologized.
"Yeah baby! I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you mad" JC said looking down on the floor, and Amy was nodding her head.
"Yeah! Yeah! Yeah! You had your fun, so just leave me alone ok?" I tried not to laugh when I looked at their faces. I tried to look away. I must have given it away when I smiled because Amy picked that up.
"I know that face. He's not mad at us, he's playing with us guys" she said while moving closer to look at me.
I couldn't help it but burst out laughing.
"See! See! I told you"
Then three of them jumped on me, and attacked me. I was rolling, kicking and begging them to stop.
"You should have seen your faces. You look like you're about to piss in your pants" I laughed when they stopped tickling me.
"Don't laugh to soon. Wait! I'll get you" Amy warned me while Kenny nodded his head agreeing with her.
JC didn't say anything, he just smiled. He seemed relieved that I wasn't mad. For the next hour, we spent time together eating and joking.
"Oh Tom, guess who we saw today at the mall?" Kenny asked.
"Who?" I asked curiously.
"Ray, we met him at the mall today. He told us that he decides to take his summer break in Hawaii. We gave him our address, and he said he'll come and visit us tomorrow."
"Really? I can't wait to see him" I said excitedly. Ray is a really good friend of us. We haven't seen him since high school graduation.
We finished dinner, and JC and I left the house at 9 o'clock to go to the airport. JC had rent a limo so it could fit everybody in it. When we got to the airport, we only have to wait for a little before they came out.
"Hey guys, how are you doing?" JC gave everybody a hug. Then he turned to me and introduced "Everybody, this is Tom. I met him two weeks ago. He's here on vacation with his friends, and they're home right now. Tom, these are Joey, Chris Justin and Lance"
I took turn to shake hands with each of them. They all seemed really nice and friendly. But when I shook hands with Lance, I didn't know why but I was trembling slightly when I looked at his eyes. I don't know but I could sense that somehow he knew something about me. Somehow he could look deep into me and know my secret that nobody but Amy and Kenny know I believe. Somehow he could penetrate the barrier, the wall I have created for myself to hide behind it all my life. I quickly averted my eyes to avoid his stare. Later on when I took a peek at him, out of the corner of my eyes, I saw he was looking at JC. His eye browns came close together to give an indication that he was thinking. I knew right then that Lance was suspecting something. I was so worried because even though JC didn't say anything about telling the guys but I know that he doesn't want to tell them. I was dropped off at my house, and we agreed to get together at my house tomorrow for lunch before we decide to do anything. That night I couldn't sleep as I tossed and turned the whole night.
The next day, everybody came over around 11 o'clock. I wanted to kiss JC so bad but I couldn't do it in front of everybody, and I knew that JC felt the same thing. Many times we had to run into the kitchen or the bathroom to steal a few quick kiss. We were eating and having a lot of fun. The rest of the guys from N'Sync were pretty cool, and I felt a little bit more comfortable around Lance. I noticed that Amy and Chris hit off really well. By their body languages, I'm pretty sure there was some chemistry between them. Suddenly the bell rang, Kenny and I quickly got on our feet and ran towards the door.
"It must be Ray" we both spoke at the same time.
Kenny opened the door, and when he saw Ray was outside he said "Hello Raymond! How have you been buddy?" he stopped suddenly as he looked at the person behind Ray "What are you doing here?" he nervously asked.
"Hey Kenny, I met Ethan yesterday so I brought him here to meet you guys" Ray walked forward to greet us.
When Ray moved forward, I was able to look at the person behind him. The second I saw that person, my knee went weak. I almost fell to the ground. My heart almost stopped beating. I began to hyperventilate, as I clutched on to Kenny for support as my body slowly crumbled on the floor. Kenny quickly caught me. By now Amy and JC were walking toward the door.
"Is it Ray guys?" she asked, she immediately ran towards us as she saw that Kenny was kneeing on the floor holding me. JC followed her shortly.
"What the hell are you doing here?" she screamed at the top of her lungs.
"I brought him here to see you guys Amy" Ray spoke nervously "What's wrong?"
"I'm sorry I couldn't tell you right now but could you take him away? We don't want to see him" Amy spoke.
"Ok! I'll see you later! I'm sorry Amy" Ray turned around and walked away with Ethan.
"What's wrong with him Kenny? What's happened to him? Baby, are you all right?" JC asked frantically.
I couldn't hear anything JC said as I was holding on to Kenny tightly, and my body began to shake. By now, everybody else was rushing to the door to see what happened.
"Baby please answer me" JC was crying as he was holding my face in his hands.
"What's happened JC? What the hell are you doing? Why are you calling him baby?" Joey screamed.
JC was too worried about me he forgot all about Joey, Chris, Lance and Justin "Eh guys, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. Tom is my boyfriend" JC nervous said as four pairs of eyed were looking at him.
"What? Are you fucking crazy or something? you will ruin our career" Joey shouted.
"Shut up Joey! Look guys! I don't think it's a good idea that we argue here. I think we should go home and talk" Lance stepped in and took control of everything.
JC almost protested but Amy stopped him "Go JC. Don't worry about Tom. We'll take care of him"
The guys left to go back to their place while Kenny and I were still on the floor. I gradually pulled myself together "I should have left here the first time I saw him" I spoke for the first time. Amy stepped forward and hugged us.
"Don't worry Tom. We are here with you. He can not do anything to you" she assured me.
"Where is JC?" I looked around looking for JC.
"He went home with everybody else. He was so worried about you, he slipped and they found about you two" Amy told me.
"I have to go and see him. I want to be there with him when he tells the guys" I quickly got up.
"Let me go with you" Kenny said.
"No, no, I'm ok. Don't worry about me. I'll see you later" I said walking towards the door.
When I got to JC's house, and walked to the door I found that the door was open. I walked in and didn't see anybody. I heard some voices in the kitchen so I walked to kitchen. I stopped in the middle of the way as I heard Justin's voice
"I couldn't believe that you are gay JC. The whole time I was so scared to tell you. I love you JC. I've been in love with you for a long time, but I'm too scared to tell you"
When I moved forwards I saw Justin leaned forwards and kissed JC, and soon they were engaged into the kissed. I quickly turned around and walked out of the house. How could this happen to me? So many things have happened in a short period of time. I just found someone who I love deeply, only to realize that I was about to lose him to another person, and the nightmare from my past, the nightmare that I have escaped three years ago came back to me. When I got home, luckily Amy and Kenny were in their room. I closed the door slowly so that it doesn't make any noise. The last thing I wanted right now was to talk to somebody. I just wanted to be alone. I stepped into my room, closed the door and took out a piece of paper to write to JC.
"To JC, the man I love with all my heart I guess when you read this letter I'll be gone. Even though that we only know each other for a short period of time, it seems like I have known you forever. You show me the most beautiful thing in the world. You give me the chance to experience what's it like to be in love. You show me the beauty of love that I thought never exist. I love every second that I spent with you. If I have to start all over again knowing that I'll lose you, I still won't hesitate to choose to be with you. I would give up everything just to be with you, just to look at your face, to feel your arms around me when we wake up in the morning. I guess I should have stayed and fought with Justin heh? But I couldn't. I couldn't because I am just a coward. I'm afraid that I will lose the battle. I don't want to stand the pain of losing you. So I guess the best way for me is t chicken out, to run away from the most beautiful thing happened to me. I know it doesn't make sense but I believe that I get more for running away than staying. If I stay t fight and lose, then I'll lose everything. But if I run away, even though I can't be with you, I'm still happy. I'm still happy because in my mind I believe that you still love me and remember me. I guess I'm just a fool living in denial. But that's good enough for me, knowing that you love me, knowing that I occupy a space in your heart. I wish that you and Justin will be happy together.
Love Always, TT"
I was crying the whole time I was writing. The letter was stained from the tears but I didn't care. I put it in an envelope. Then I got up and put all my close in my bags. I called the taxi and the airport to book a ticket to fly back to Orlando. I left the letter on my bed with a note attached to it "I'm sorry guys! I don't want to leave you guys. We suppose to come to Hawaii to have fun together, but so much have happened and I need to get away from here. I'll see you guys back home, and please give this letter to JC for me. I love you guys." When I got back to Orlando, I didn't go home. I went to my uncle's cabin. Every time I have something on my mind, I always come here. For the next three days, I stayed there by myself. I didn't do anything beside crying and thinking about JC. I wished that I hadn't left. I wished that I had stayed, but I believed that I made the right choice. The next morning I decided to go home. When I got home, my parents were working. So nobody was home but me. I felt so lonely. I wished that Kenny and Amy were here so bad so I could talk to them. I needed to talk to somebody so bad. When I got in my room, I didn't ever bother to take out the clothes from the bags as my body flopped down on my bed. I felt so exhausted, I've never been this tired in my entire life. I was lying there for about five minutes when the phone rang. I didn't want to pick up the phone but I decided it against it. "Hello!" I spoke. "Tom! Where have you been? I've been looking all over for you. I was so worried about you. I called so many times and your parents told me that you haven't got home yet. Where have you been the last few days?" Amy was bombarded me with questions. "I went to my uncle's cabin" I told her shortly. I was too tired to talk. "Oh! I should have known. We thought that you're still here. Tom you have to go back here. JC is in the hospital" "What's happened to him? What's happened Amy? Why is he in the hospital" I quickly asked. "Don't worry Tom. He's ok right now. After you left, he was so sad that he didn't want to do anything. He didn't sleep, he didn't eat so he passed out from exhaustion this morning. They keep him in the hospital for a couple days. He needs to see you Tom, he will not get better if he doesn't see you" "I will be there Amy, where is he staying? Oh and Amy please don't tell anybody that I'll come. I only want to see JC" When I got all the information I needed from Amy, I quickly called the airport. I was glad that I didn't unpack my bags. When I walked into the room, it was poorly lit. All the curtains were pulled down. JC was lying on the bed, his eyes were closed and his chest rose up and down slowly. I stood there motionless for fifteen minutes, looking at the man I love so much, the man who I would give my life to in a heart beat. Tears began to roll down my face. The whole time, JC stirred restlessly and mumbled something I couldn't figure out, but he never woke up. I didn't know when and how but I found myself standing beside his bed. I was looking at him. He looked so cute even in the hospital gown. As I recalled, he always looks cute and gorgeous to me no matter what he wears and where he is. His face was angelic. I stood there absorbing the image of his face in my head, observing every little features on his face. The image that has been popping up in my mind every time I closed my eyes for the whole time we were separated. Every night I saw him in my dream, he was standing smiling at me and I ran up to him to hug him. Only to find out I woke up soaked with sweats as the image of him slowly disappeared. I slowly sat down on a chair next to his bed, reached out my hand to take his hand. I leaned forwards and kissed it slightly as if I'm afraid that if I wake him up, he would evaporate into thin air like he did so many times in my dreams. I looked up at his face again, I could never get enough of him, his strong jawline, his beautiful eyes even when they were closed, his long eye lashes, his big nose (have you noticed that his nose is kinda of big, but it's so cute though) but the things I love the most about his face are his lips. His lips are pink and slightly pouted in his sleep. I must have kissed those lips a thousand time and never get enough of them (Ahhh! I wish this is not a fiction L.) They are so soft, moist and have a sweet taste of strawberry. Every time he kisses me, every time I feel those lips on me, I could feel the shiver, the tingling feeling run all over my body. The first time I kissed him I thought it must be from the chapstick or the yogurt he ate, but I found out later that it's his natural flavor. Ahhh! Those loving sweet lips!!! I could go on for pages just describing them (Yeah right! Then you guys would track me down and kill me J) I couldn't help it but leaned forwards and kissed his lips, stuck out my tongue and savored the sweet strawberry taste. I whispered softly "I love you, I love you so much JC". When I pulled back I saw JC slowly opened his eyes, looking at my face which was still wet from al the tears. He then closed his eyes again. At that moment, that flick of a second, I felt like somebody just ripped out my heart and stomped on it. The pain was so much that I could feel it aching in my chest. He didn't even want to look at me. I guess I must have hurt him really bad that he didn't even want to look at me. I was startled when I heard what he said. His voice was so low, it was almost inaudible. His eyes were closed the whole time he whispered "Oh1 it's just another dream. TT, where are you? I miss you so much, please come back to me baby. I promise you that I will never hurt you. Please come back to me, I can't go on without you." I couldn't stand it anymore, I couldn't hold it any longer as I burst out crying laying my head on his chest. I cried my heart out, pouring out everything that has been bottle up inside of me. I was stuttering through out my cry "I...amback JC, I'mback. I don't want to leave you. I'll never leave you again. I can't live without you either JC. Even if I can, I don't want to." He sighed and said "Thanks God! It's not a dream. Thank you God! Baby you're back at my side again." He ran his fingers through my hair and rubbed my back slowly "It's ok baby! It's ok! Everything will be fine." He assured me while he kept on comforting me. I gradually stopped crying but I still kept my head on his chest, breathing in the strong scent of his body, feeling the heat emancipating from his chest. "Do you know much I miss you?" he asked "Do you know how much it hurts to see the person you love so much, the person who you would give your life to walk out and give up on you?" I gasped as I realized what I did and started to cry uncontrollably again. JC slowly moved to his left a little bit and pulled my on the bed with him, he pulled me into a hug that almost suffocated me "Don't cry my love! Don't cry babe! I didn't tell you this to blame you or hurt you or make you cry" JC said as he lifted my face and kissed my forehead "I just want you to know that it's not the way you solve problems. I know that you didn't want to hurt me, that's why you left. But do you realize that it hurts me even more? I can't go on a single moment without you telling me you love me, without looking in your eyes and see that love. TT, if you ever plan to leave me again, please kill me before you leave because it will be less painful that way. I don't want to endure that pain again." He stopped for a little bit, I could feel the pain in his voice when he told me this, he raised his hand to wipe the tears away from his face, then he continued "Baby, please promise me you never leave again no matter what. Please promise me you always stay with me and work things out" he pleaded. I couldn't ever speak even if I wanted to say so much. I was too choked up to speak. How could I be so lucky to end up with such a wonderful person like him? It took me a while to pulled myself together. I looked up to him and held his face in my hands. I gazed into his beautiful eyes and said "I promise you if you promise me something too."
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