Author's note: Hi, the chapter fifteen is already here. Finally it wasn't late at all. As always (and forever!) thanks to everyone who read my story and another thank to all people who send me mail in addition! I LOVE YOU ALL!!! ;D
You know that thing: I don't know any of the BSB, Backstreet Band, Firm... and I don't know their sexuality and yadi yadi yada.... Don't read if you aren't older enough to, and if you don't like homosexual stories... are you lost or silly?
I know that I like many stories but I can't help it! Anyway, I advise you these ones: "Nick and Brian", by JC Vascardi "Open Arms", by Carter "Because I love you", by Lucas Thompson "The Body Switch with Nick Carter" by Sher "The Project" by Adam "Any Path", and all the sequels, and "Interludes" by Dara Lynn "Star Crossed", "Sucks to Be You" and "I Need You Tonight" by Jo Beth Hill "It's Gonna Be Me" by Jamie "Say my Name" by Jo Beth Hill and Colleen "Heaven in yours eyes" by Beck "Chances are" by Red "Josh and Just" by AJ Shukla "Just One Call" by Sarah "Tearing Up My Ass" by Rick Chasez "Kevin and Dustin" by Nick Moore "Little White Lies" by Elly Iles "Calming Waters" by NCfan "Devotion" by Angel1313 "The Real Nick" by Kevin Michael "God Must Have Spent" by AJ B. "Secrets", "Hands Of Time", "The Call" and "The Shadow's Riddle" by Kit "Shape Of My Heart" by MJ "Loneliness Knows Me By Name" by Cody "Before The Storm" by Gking and "Blood Angel" by Nathan Wolf
You can also check out my other stories "Together Again" (I don't know when it will be back, sorry), "Porcelain" and the second part "Send Me An Angel", "The Snow Will Be There", "Whispering Wind" and "Happy Birthday!"
Remember that English isn't my first language! So sorry for the errors that I may did!
Fate Will Gather Us Together Chapter Fifteen By Sophie V. (wind_phoenix@hotmail.com, wind_angel@myplace.com)
"So when we must start?" said Brian
"Now. He asked to find some information about Jeff... if he's still registered as deceased." Said Nick as he wrote on his computer. "I only hope that we can access to some sites without getting in trouble."
"Don't worry, some of them are opened to public." Said Brian.
"I hope we'll find something quickly." Said Nick as he waited for a site for being download. "Gene is really anxious."
"Yeah, I understand that." Said Brian "To find out that the one you loved is still alive when you thought he was dead... It's a big shock."
"Yeah... Brian?"
"Yes?"
"If one day, I disappear and then someone tell you that I'm dead, you won't believe him, huh?" said Nick, slowly, as Brian looked at him in shock.
"Wh... Why are you talking like that?"
"It's just... I don't know, I feel like one day something will tear us apart..." he said, sadly. Brian stood from his chair, pulled him in his arms and kissed him slowly on the lips.
"Nick, even when we'll die, because it will happen one day, we'll never be separate." He said, "'Cause you'll still be here, in my heart. And I'll still be in your heart."
"Yeah, you're right, I shouldn't think like that." Said Nick "It's just that Gene lost Jeff and I don't this to happen to us."
"It will never happen, baby. I promise, we'll be together forever." Said Brian as they restarted to kiss. They kissed for a few minutes until they both broke it.
"We should find Jeff." Said Nick as Brian nodded. Nick sat in front of his computer and Brian beside him. The site was download. It was a site about files on people in America.
"So let's see if we find him..." said Nick as he tape the name 'Jeff David Dawner' on the name line. He clicked on 'confirm' and waited.
"What if they said that he's dead two years ago?" asked Nick
"Well... that would mean that Jeff hadn't say that he was alive yet... or that his files hadn't been change yet... or that the person who wrote the letter was a liar." Said Brian.
"I won't like the last option." Said Nick.
"Yeah, me too."
They waited for a few minutes and then a message confirmed that they have access to his file.
"Okay, let's see..." said Nick as the Jeff's file appeared on the screen. The picture of Jeff was in color so they could have a good look of his face. He had bright blue eyes, short dark hair, a perfect clear creamy skin, a pair of soft pink lips and a nose which wasn't big but wasn't small neither. They could say that he was very beautiful.
"Whoa..." said Nick "I understand why Gene said that he's beautiful..."
"Yeah, sure..." said Brian, nodding "What they said about him?"
"Oh, yeah, let's see that..." said Nick as they looked at the screen:
NAME: Jeff David Dawner DATE OF BIRTH: February 23rd 1977 STATUS: Deceased
"Dead? But Gene said that it was him who write the letter." Nick said.
"Yeah, that's strange..." said Brian. "Try another site."
"Okay..."
"Gene, you know that it isn't working." Said Mark as he exited a hotel with Fred, Denis and Gene.
"There's another one not far from it." Said Gene, not listening to him.
"Gene, this is the fourth hotel that we tried." Said Denis "Why don't you wait until tonight?"
"I can't wait all that time." He said as they walked in the street toward another hotel. "I want to find him... now."
"I still think that it's stupid." Said Fred. Gene stopped and turned toward them.
"Look, if you don't want to help me, then leave, I'll do it..."
"No, Gene, we really want to help you." Said Denis sincerely. "But you have to understand that it's not the best way to find him. And he said he'll be at the concert, tonight."
"Denis is right." Said mark "You'll never find him this way."
"Mark..." he started to say but Mark continued.
"I don't want you to be tired or sick because of it. I really understand that you want to find him but please... wait until tonight. If we still don't find him, we'll try tomorrow again."
"You think?" he said, hesitant.
"Yes, Gene. After the concert, your brother and the others will have to go backstage for the fans. We'll go too and try to find him. But you won't cause the fans, even with you hair dyed, will think that you're Nick. You'll wait somewhere."
"Okay..." sighed Gene, "You'll search him tonight. We can go back to the hotel."
The others all cheered and walked back at the hotel.
"He's really Nick's twin, uh?" Fred whispered to Mark, giggling.
"Yeah... as stubborn as Nick." Whispered Mark as they continued to walk.
Brian was sitting at Nick's place, in front of his computer, while Nick rested on their bed. They had spent two hours searching information on Jeff. They hadn't found something interesting yet. Finally, he had gone to a national site, which was updated everyday. So, there will have more chances.
"Boring..." he sighed. He waited and finally wrote Jeff's full name on the search line. He waited for a few seconds and finally, he could read the information on him. Then, he saw something intriguing.
"I think we got something..." he whispered. He turned toward the bed and was about to call Nick when he saw him sleeping peacefully. He just smiled, stood up, sat beside him and slowly stroked his cheek.
"Nick... wake up..." he said softly.
"Hmmmmmm..." Nick moaned in his sleep. Then, he grabbed Brian and pulled him on top of him. Brian hadn't time to react as Nick started to kiss him.
"There you're awake." Said Brian as he broke the kiss.
"No, I'm not." He said as he restarted to kiss him. Then, after a minute or so, he broke it and looked up at him tenderly. "I am, now... Good morning."
"Good afternoon, it's almost 5." Said Brian, smiling.
"Oh, really?" said Nick as he yawned. "I didn't remember."
"But you remember what we were supposed to do."
Nick smiled up at him when he remembered.
"Oh shit, I forgot." He said, "Did you find something?"
"I think that yes, come on." Said Brian as he pulled him up. Nick groaned and fell back on the bed.
"Shit... I'm tired..." he said as he ran his hands in his hairs.
"Liar..." said Brian, smiling "I just guess what you want."
Then, Brian took him in his arms and carried him toward the desk. He sat and pulled Nick between his legs. Nick just smiled and lay against him.
"You did." He said smiling. They kissed briefly and both looked at the computer screen.
"So what it was?" he asked.
"Look." Said Brian as he pointed a text under an old photo of Jeff.
"Jeff David Dawner was reported disappeared after a boat accident in 1998. But a few days ago, his family, who reside in Salt Lake City, declared that their eldest son was back. His father, James Dawner, said that due to amnesia, he didn't remember anything except his long friend Gene Mark Wiser who was at this accident two years ago. Some ADN test had been made and had confirmed that the young man was Jeff Dawner. During the time he as considered as dead, he lived under another name. We don't have more details about it." Read Nick.
"So, he's really alive." Said Brian "Now, we can try to find the phone number of this family so that Gene can call them and knows more about it!"
"You're so smart!" said Nick happily "Gene will be truly happy!"
"I hope so." Said Brian, sighing "He said to me, once, that Jeff's family had left the city where they lived after the accident, two years ago. Then, they didn't keep contact."
"He said it to me, too... That means that they won't recognize him?"
"No, coz Jeff remembers him, so he must have talked about him at his family." Said Brian as he turned off the computer.
"Okay..." sighed nick as he stood up. He pulled Brian against him and kissed him on the head.
"What is it, Nick?" asked Brian, worried.
"I just feel empty without you near me..." said Nick. "And I can feel what Gene feels, actually... fear of being empty, lonely..."
"I'm here Nick and I'm sure that Gene won't be lonely anymore." Said Brian as he hugged him "Jeff is alive and has promised to be here."
"I can't wait to see him." Said Nick, smiling "He's cute."
"Oh, should I be jealous?" asked Brian, as he pulled away.
"Gene and I have similar tastes." Said Nick "So I understand why he said that Jeff is gorgeous."
"I see..." said Brian, smiling "So, I'm not gorgeous."
Nick just smiled and hugged him tightly.
"Of course you are! You're not only gorgeous, you're also the most beautiful creature in this world." He said as he kissed him.
"Guess I can take that as a compliment, my creature." Said Brian between soft kisses.
"Don't tell me you have only make out!" said a voice.
They turned toward the door and saw Mark standing there, arms crossed.
"Actually, I'd love this show if there wasn't something else more important that you were supposed to do." said Mark as he and Gene entered.
"We did find something." said Brian "Jeff is really alive. We found which said that he was back."
"Something?" said Mark.
"It said that he had contacted his family and so they know that he's alive. Yet, it doesn't say what happened during these two years."
"I see..." said Gene.
"Do you have the phone number of his family?" said Nick "So you can know more about it."
"No, but I think my mother does." said Gene as he sat on the bed and took the phone "I hope I'll know more about it."
"There's something that I don't understand." said Mark.
"What?" said Nick
"Jeff knows that Gene is here... But how? How he knows that he plays for your group?"
"I have no idea."
"Perhaps..." said Brian "Perhaps that he contacted Gene's family... So, now, he knows."
"Yeah, perhaps."
"Mom?"
They turned toward Gene who was talking to his mother.
"Gene?" said the woman "How are you darling?"
"I don't know yet... mom, something is really important. I need the Dawner's phone number." There was a silence.
"Honey... you know that Jeff..."
"Yes, I had a letter from him this morning." said Gene "Mom, did you tell him that I was there, with the group?"
"Gene..." she sighed "He... contacted us two days ago and asked us some news from him. We hardly believe it was him, but some details showed that it was him."
"And..."
"Well, your sister gave him all the dates of each concert in America of the Backstreet Boys so if he missed you here, at Ford Lauderdale, he'd see you at the other cities... So, it's better if I don't give you the number."
"Mom..." said Gene, as he started to cry, "I need him..."
"Oh, sweetie don't cry." she said, feeling sorry "I'm sure you'll find him. He didn't tell you to meet him somewhere?"
"Yeah, but..." he sniffled "I... I'm afraid to miss him."
"You won't, I'm sure you won't." she said, "Have faith."
"Mom... we'll need to talk later about... my brother Nick."
"Yeah, I know... I'm sorry but I couldn't tell you before, we made a promise, your mother and I."
"But to me, you ARE my mother." he said, sighing.
"Lets' not talk about it now, okay?" she said, "Call me when you'll find Jeff."
"I will, thanks mom. I love you."
"Love you too, honey." she said as the both hang up. Gene sighed deeply and looked up at the three questioning faces.
"So?" they all said.
"Tonight is the night." he just said.
The concert went well, despite the others' fears. They were sure that because Jeff was supposed to be here tonight, Gene would not being able to play correctly. But everything went well. Yet, they saw that Gene hadn't smile during the concert. They could tell that he was worried.
"Brian?"
"Ya, Nick?"
"You remember EXCATLY Jeff's description, uh?"
"Of course." said Brian as he put his arm around his waist "This is the third time you ask me that!"
"Sorry..." sighed Nick "But I'm worried."
"I understand, Nicky..." he said, "It's your brother's love, after all."
Nick nodded and pulled Brian in a very passionate kiss. Brian was glad that the door of the room wasn't opened because he could hear fans coming.
"We have to go, Nick." he said, a little out of breath, as he broke the kiss.
"I know." said Nick, smiling "It's just that I won't be able to do that for a moment."
They both kissed lightly on the lips and exited the loge, ready for the fans who were waiting in backstage.
The guys were signing autographs while looking at the people backstage to see if they didn't see Jeff. Mark, Denis and Fred were looking at the different halls. Nick was actually the one who was the most asked by the fans, but he didn't really care. He was mostly looking for Jeff.
"I promise you, Gene, You and Jeff will be together tonight." he thought. Gene was waiting near the scene, feeling nervous. He knew that if Jeff saw Mark, he'd ask where he was. He closed his eyes and sighed. Well, he hoped Jeff would.
Ten minutes passed and still no sign of Jeff. Nick was starting to feel more nervous. For him, each minute counted. He shot a glance to Brian, who caught it. He just shook his head sadly. Nick nodded too and continued to sign.
"Where could he be?" Brian thought, sighing. He continued and looked at the backstage when someone caught his eyes. This person was looking at Nick and looked like Jeff. Same height, same hair...
"Maybe it's him..." he thought as he walked toward him. He stood beside him and asked: "Sir, are you Jeff Dawner?"
The man turned and looked at him. Brian was now sure it was Jeff. He had also bright blue eyes, exactly like in the picture. This cute guy could only be him.
"Yes... are you a friend of Gene?" he said.
"Yes, thanks god we found you! Please follow me." he said as he guided him toward the backstage halls. He looked at Nick, who looked at him curiously. Brian nodded many times, pointing at Jeff. Nick didn't wait any longer, finished to sign an autograph for a young girl and ran toward them.
"Oh my god, I'm so happy to see you. I'm Nick, Gene's brother." said Nick as he guided Jeff.
"Gene's brother... but... oh my god, you're exactly like him!" Jeff said, shocked.
"It's a long story, he'll explain later!" said Nick. They walked in on of the hall, stopped at one of the rooms and let him entered.
"Stay here, we're gonna search him, okay?" said Nick. Jeff nodded and Nick closed the door. With Brian, he walked toward the scene. Actually, because of the people who were living, it took them ten minutes to reach the scene.
"Where's he?" he asked.
"There, Nick!" said Brian, as he pointed at Gene who was speaking to Al, one of the Firm.
"Gene!" screamed Nick as he ran toward them "He's here!"
"WHAT?!" screamed Gene as he turned toward him. "You're sure?!"
"Yes, come on!" said Nick as he grabbed his arms and quickly walked toward the backstage with him and Brian.
"Wait, Nick!" said Al "I have to talk to him!"
"Not for the moment!" said Nick as he continued, not even looking at him. Al looked at them for a moment and finally walked away.
"God, I hope this isn't a dream..." said Gene, very nervous.
"No, it's real." said Nick "He's here, really here!"
They walked in front of the door where was Jeff. Nick looked at Gene for a moment and finally opened the door. Gene entered in the room and looked at Nick, frowning.
"Where is he?"
"Uh?" said Nick, surprised "But he's here!"
He entered too and didn't see Jeff. Confused, he exited the room with Gene and tried the room beside it. Still nobody. They tried all the rooms in the backstage but Jeff was nowhere insight.
"I couldn't have dreamt!" said, Nick, angry "Brian found him, we guided him in this room and he's not here!"
"What's that about, guys?" asked a voice. They turned and saw Sam, one member of the security, walking toward them.
"There's nobody, here." said Brian.
"Of course, the fans are all outside, now." Sam said "It's the same for this psycho."
"Which psycho?"
"There was a guy in this room." he said, pointing to the room where was Jeff "He said he was here to meet someone but I didn't believe him and told him to exit because it was forbidden to be here. He insisted to stay so I forced him to go."
"You what?" asked Nick in a small voice.
"He insisted so I made him go away and told him not to come again." said Sam, smiling "You know, there's some psychos who would do anything to hurt you. But don't worry, with what I said to him, I think he won't ever come."
"YOU WHAT?!" screamed Nick angrily "DO YOU HAVE AN IDEA OF WHAT YOU DID?!"
The other guys from the group came toward them, wondering why Nick was screaming like that. They saw a furious Nick, a shocked Brian, and a nearly crying Gene.
"THE GUY YOU MADE GO WAS SO IMPORTANT AND BECAUSE OF YOU, YOU BIG FAT SHIT, HE WON'T EVER COME!!!!" screamed Nick. Sam was very shocked by what Nick said.
"Nick, what happened?" asked Kevin. Nick looked at him, still angry.
"THIS FAT ASSHOLE HAD MADE JEFF LEAVE!!!" he yelled "WE HAD FINALLY FOUND HIM AND HE MADE HIM LEAVE!!!"
With that, he turned toward Sam, grabbed his head and abruptly made him bent as he kicked him really hard between the legs. Sam fell on the ground in pain, and Nick walked away with Gene, his arms around him, who was now crying. No one moved because of the shock when Al and Peter walked toward them.
"What happened?" asked Peter. Brian sighed and while AJ and Howie helped Sam, he told them what happened.
Mark slowly rocked Gene in his arms, as the young man cried. Fred, Denis and him came back at the hotel with him and Nick.
"It really sucks..." said Fred, sitting next to them.
"Yeah..." said Mark "Luck isn't by our side."
"Why?" said Nick, very sad "Why?"
Denis was about to say something when Nick walked toward the door and left while slamming the door. They feel in a silence. They all looked at Gene and saw that he had finally fallen asleep.
"Poor kid." said Mark, sighing "He really has a hard time."
"Yeah... but why him? What did he do?" said Denis
"Maybe it's... fate." said Fred. They said nothing and just watched Gene sleeping, dried tears on his face.
As Brian opened the door of his room, he heard someone sobbing. He entered and saw Nick lying on his stomach on the bed, crying.
"Nick!" said Brian as he sat beside him. He took him in his arms and let him cry.
"This is my fault... my fault..." sobbed Nick.
"Your fault?!"
"If I had just said to Jeff to follow me 'til we joined Gene on scene, Gene would be with him, now." said Nick as he continued to cry "This is my fault, Brian... my fault..."
"Oh, Nick..." said Brian as he hugged him tightly and rocked him back and forth "Baby, this isn't your fault at all, you shouldn't say that..."
"How do you know that this isn't my fault?" said Nick, still crying "I cause so much pain to everyone."
"Nick you never caused pain to everyone." said Brian "Each time you think you had caused pain, you just had put the way the things must go on..."
"NO!" said Nick as he pulled away "Because of me, Jeff had left and Gene will probably never see him again!"
"Nick, this isn't your fault..." said Brian, trying to calm him "It just happened without your fault... and if Jeff and Gene loves each other, then nothing will prevent them to be together."
"Really?" whispered Nick, sniffling.
"Yes, really..." said Brian as he kissed him softly on the lips "I know it took time for us to be together but we are, now... and it will be the same for them."
"I hope..." said Nick "I won't ever forgive myself if Jeff never shows up again..."
"We have another day before we left." said Brian "We'll search him."
Nick nodded and lay in Brian's arms. A few minutes later, they both stripped down their boxers and went in bed.
"Brian?" asked Nick as they cuddled.
"Mmm?"
"Why are you so good with me?"
"Because I love you, Nick." said Brian, smiling "I don't ever want you to feel bad."
"But... please, be frank with me about my mistakes." said Nick "I don't want you to always be on my side if you're not agree with me."
"Don't worry, Nicky... And believe me, what happened isn't your fault."
They both smiled and kissed as they cuddled.
"Thank you so much Brian... I love you."
"I love you too, Nicky..." said Brian. He fell asleep a few moments later, while Nick is still awake, wondering what he'd do tomorrow.
"What if he don't ever show up?" he thought. He looked at Brian, who slept peacefully in his arms, and hugged him closer.
"I'll be with you, Gene, I promise." he whispered as he closed his eyes. He finally fell asleep a few minutes later.
**************************************************************************** To be continued! No luck for Gene... As always... feedbacks are welcome! :) E-mail: wind_phoenix@hotmail.com OR wind_angel@myplace.com (write FWGUT or the entire title, as you wish) See ya! :) Sophie V.