I have learnt two rules by now from my stupidity. I skipped writing about a few times we were together...
We were having a drink with his best friend and they were talking a lot about what had happened to Don not minding I was sitting there. My mind started to get jealous and afraid and disappointed. I could not help myself so I just stood up and left not looking back, turning off my phone and never wanted to go back or to see him again.
I constructed a picture in my mind of what I have to do and that I was right doing it.
When I was at home he rang the door-bell, but I did not answer. I replied to his message that I do not want to see him again and that what we had was all in this life time.
"You seem not to understand something. It won't be so easy. You are a slave by your own choice and I have accepted you like this, so you have no choice. We will discuss this. Your behaviour is very Stupid. You will pay for it! I can wait for you at your work and beat you up, so you better do as I tell you. You have no choice. I give you a day off so you settle your mind and then I expect you to respond to me and tell me what the hell happened in your mind? We were just talking! Did it bother you what we talked about?"
Reading his message filled me with fear. I knew he could find me going to work or me leaving home and do to me what he decides. He started to blackmail me and I was completely aware of it.
He has many friends who can help him and are willing to do for him what he asks. His intelligence is superior and can easily submit normal brains to his needs.
I was fighting for my freedom. I knew if I complied to his message he would overpower me and I was aware of the consequences. My mind raced in fear and submission. I am a free man and do what I want but now I got myself in a situation where my choice is suppressed by fear and dominance I receive from Don.
I decided that the best thing for me is to ignore him and let time return my freedom. The plan was easy and I would not have to do anything.
When I connected to internet I received his message:
"Hey. What was wrong yesterday? Maybe it bothered you when we talked about the police? If it was anything else, please tell me. You know that if you ignore me you only make things worse? I will not let you go so easily! Although you are my SLAVE you mean a lot to me and I will not let you go and I don't want to let you go! Tell me what bothered you and when you have time so we can discuss it. And PLEASE reply!
Ignoring me is not good for you, you know that, don't you? If you ignore me I will be bad, ok? I will find you... so you better reply... answer to me when you get online!"
"I don't want you to change anything.."
"I don't want to loose you. Was it my friend that bothered you?"
"I don't want to see you again"
"You still have my things I want you to return to me!"
He had given me some clothes he stopped wearing. I was so excited when he gave them to me. I enjoy so much wearing worn out clothes and now I had the clothes from him! I wore them a lot and took special care of them, not wearing them at home, just in public so they stay well for a long time.
When he gave me the clothes we were sitting in a pub. He took out one by one having me check them. One was a dark violet shiny shirt for parties. He had me put it on and then buttoned it up and took a few pics with his mobile phone. I was embarrassed and he enjoyed it and told me to leave it on. It was summer and I had nothing to put over it when I went home by bus. I live in capitol and there are always many people on bus stations and on the busses but it tried not to think just do as told.
"I am not strong enough to know you. I apologize. I tried but it is not working. I will do what you want, as always then we part."
"Did it bother you I went for a drink with my friend. Didn't I give you enough attention?"
I was loosing my freedom in this chat. I knew it and the fact that he blackmailed me was strong in my subconscious. He was winning the talk and made me submissive.
He started asking me about the things he gave me to wear and a bag I used daily. Maybe it was his plan but his intelligence was stronger than mine here. He triggered my sexual desires while talking about problems and made me humble and thankful.
"I am horny. I want to have sex now!"
"Call somebody?"
"Can not... am at home and here is no one close. I wanna sex you!"
He got me now...
"Do not leave ever again like this!"
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