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Chapter 6
You ever have the feeling that burning this mother down seems like a great idea? Seeing her all over him I over come with this intense feeling that he was going to... contract crabs or worse, actually like her. (Sluts...)
I hurried to me next class and sat down quickly, wanting nothing more then to be done with this horrible day. And then of course he came in, and sat down next to me and was his wonderful self.
"Let me explain", he said before even putting his book bag down.
"You don't have anything to explain, I don't own you. And besides having a girlfriend like Amy could be fun. People love living life on the edge and nothing is scarier then her", I said rather bitterly, and regretted it almost immediately.
"But I do, I want you to know that I... well I like you", he said rather shyly against my bitter words.
"I think you are swell too, maybe when you get the crabs I can administer the special shampoo". I did not know why I was so angry, but the thought of anyone, especially her, touching Evan just pissed me off.
"No you dork, I really like you. Like I want to pay to take you to a movie. Today after school. And about Amy, she kinda just claimed me and I did not know what to say. But she is not all that bad, once you get to know her", he said giggling and turning extremely red.
"Movie-said-you", damn my inability to speak around him.
"Yes a movie, you know, over priced everything, sticky floors and that same person that sits in front of you every time that could not have a bigger head if their father was an elephant," he laughed out loud this time and people started to look over at us.
"Please I am that person with the big head, and I would love too. But don't think that I am easy though. For a movie I kiss, for popcorn... you are going to have to find out", and I giggled seductively. (Or what I thought was seductively, but apparently it was just with a hack. Sexy and I get along about as well as sluts and I get along)
The bell rang and for the rest of the period Evan and I laughed and joked the whole time. It was a perfect moment, not filled with worries about later. The questions that plague my day, those questions without answers, they melted away in his sweet voice and musical laughter. I was content to sit and listen. I knew what I had been missing in life. And that was Evan.
The period ended much quicker then I would have liked and I went on to my fifth and final one for the day. I was so happy I almost forgot where I was, that was until I heard "Fag boy", and reality came crashing down around me again. I hurried along head down but smiling to the last hour and a half before I could be with Evan.
I walked in the door and to my surprise and relief Kenny was sitting in sit in the back row. He looked up and waved me over.
"Dude what's up?", he asked before I had sat down.
"Evan is not who I thought he was, he is wonderful", I said in a dreamy voice.
"You're in love, aren't you", Kenny stated rather than asked.
Love, no it could not be, I did not believe in love, did I. Love is something from the movies, not real today. Love is something binding between two people, deeper than either of them can explain. And more powerful then anyone realizes. Love is a dream, but I am not a dreamer. At least not before I met Evan, as I thought all this Evan's face kept popping into my head. I was in love, and I knew that with love comes pain, and I was afraid.
"I take it by your silence that you are. Be careful dude, I don't want you getting hurt", said Kenny in his most sincere and caring voice.
"Oh come on you make it sound like I am going to come out to the entire school. Wait I already did that", I said with a laugh. Kenny was not laughing so I added, "Thanks for caring Kenny, but if this is love I don't have a choice but to see it through until the end. And then I eat the pain away.
"Alright well you know I am here if you need me", and with that he turned his attention to the teacher who had apparently been talking for a while now.
The period went fast and with a quick goodbye to Kenny I headed off to where I knew Evans car was parked. As I neared the car I saw Evan already sitting in the car, but he was not alone. Amy was in the passenger's seat and she was all over Evan.
"Am I interrupting something?", I asked with more bravery then I usually had.
"Yes you are, as a matter of fact", said Amy with a lot of venom behind the words.
I just smiled and replied, "That was more then a one word come back, do you need a nap after that one".
Evan snorted trying to cover the laugh and then turned to Amy and said, "I am taking Jacob home, so you might need to get out".
She looked like she might explode. "What do you mean you are giving him a ride, you know who he is don't you".
"Evan looked at me and smiled, "Yes he is my friend. And that's all I need to know", I was so touched I almost missed the expression on Amy's face. Almost. (She looked like a combination of smelling something bad and biting into a lemon.
Amy regained control quickly and even smiled. "Of course baby, you can be HIS friend, as long as you are MY boyfriend". And then she reached over, turned his face toward her and laid a big wet one on him.
I almost reached over and punched her like she was a man, and if Evan had not pushed her off I might have. "Well that was... disturbing does not quiet cover it", I said with a shiver.
"Yah well bye Amy", was Evan's startled response.
Amy slowly got out of the car, blew Evan one last kiss, gave me a look that would have dropped the toughest lesbian and walked away. I stood there for a moment unsure what to do, get in the car or get Evan some medical help.
"That was nasty", said Evan as he started spitting outside his window. "Can we go now or do you want her to come back?".
"Of course we can go, if you are still feeling up to it. You are not looking so good", I said with a giggle.
"Oh ha ha, that is not the worst of it, earlier today she kissed me and I found her gum in my mouth. I almost threw up in her face".
I climbed into the passenger sit and Evan looked at me in that special way. We pulled out of the parking lot and his hand found its way into my lap again. It was warm and I was in heaven. I did love him, and I was more afraid of that than of coming out. A date with the boy of my dreams and all I can think about is, my fear. I am an idiot.