Eternally Yours (3)
By ACE274
Chapter 3
"What is going on?"
This story is not real ... however, the characters are.
Some of the names have been changed ... others have not.
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"Hey," Jacob responded. I was so tired, but for him I would stay up as late as he wanted. "So what's up lover?" I asked him. "Nothin much, just laying her--alone!" he replied. Hmmmm...What did he mean by 'Alone'? Maybe he meant that his brother and sister weren't home? Yeah, that had to be it...what else could it mean? We talked about an hour before he said that he was sleepy and needed to get some shuteye. I was still wondering what he meant when he said 'alone'. I decided I was worrying too much and pulled the covers up to my chin. Sleep wasn't very easy to come by that night.
The next morning I woke up and went into the bathroom to shower. Thursday, thursdays are okay...I basically only like them because Friday is the next day. 'Does that even make sense?' I thought to myself as I dried myself off. I quickly got ready for school, grabbed my backpack saying "Bye, Love ya!" as I shot out the door. Could it be? I was actually once again happy to get to school? Nah, that seems way too far out. Something was bugging me I realized as I walked to school. What was it? I couldn't really tell except that something in the back of my head was trying to come into memory. Hmmmm....
I got to school early once again, but did not feel like sitting alone. So I set out to find Mandy. I knew Jacob wouldn't dare be at school THIS early, and plus I wanted to talk to Mandy. I knew she had a lot of questions that she just couldn't ask in front of Jacob, so this would give us the perfect time to talk. "Fag!" Jordan Utner called out as I walked by. It was so nice to see that even in our age people STILL haven't matured. I regarded him with my middle finger and continued scanning for Mandy. Mandy wasn't anywhere in sight! That was odd.. She was usually already at school before the birds wake up! Okay, well, maybe not that early, but she was indeed there early most of the time. I continued walking to the back of the building..perhaps she was waiting there. I figured that with all this walking I might lose 5 pounds! I turned the corner and stopped in my tracks. There, next to the backdoor was Jacob with that blonde girl.. Were they kissing?! I moved back and peered at them. They WERE kissing! At that moment my heart felt like it was kicked out of my throat. The pain of heart-break..Boy don't I know that ALL too well? I began to feel light-headed, so I leaned back against the wall. Millions of things were flashing through my head so quickly I couldn't see straight. I felt like I might even pass out. Maybe it was the fact that I hadn't eaten breakfast? The sight of the blonde girl shook violently in my head. Soon an image of Jacob and that girl was shaking violently in my head. I couldn't take anymore. I turned around, punched the wall and run. I didn't know what I was running for, or where I was running to..All I knew was that I had to get away..
I ended up running to the woods about half a mile from the school and sat there. I could not cry. My face was twisted with rage and anger. 'So this is why he has been acting a bit strange lately! I knew something was up with that girl since the first time I saw her talking to him!' I thought. My thoughts didn't even sound like they were mine. 'ALONE!' something in my head screamed. "Alone." I said aloud. "I'll bet he was alone!' I ranted. I looked down at my watch when it started beeping..telling me that I have 15 minutes to get to school before the bell rings. I had to decide whether skipping the day and losing a crapload of points in my classes just so I wouldn't have to see him was worth it, or if I would go to school and just let him have it.
I ended up at school about 4 minutes before the bell rang. Mandy was at the front and called out to me when she saw me. I stopped--not wanting to talk to anyone. Not knowing IF I could talk to someone, or if I would just break down. Reluctantly, she came running down the steps and asked me what was wrong when she saw the anger in my eyes. "Jacob was kissing some blonde bitch!" I hissed. "Oh my god-" she started. The bell interrupted her, and I walked up the steps, and into the hallway to my first class. I was dragging my feet the whole way. Not to the point where I looked like a drunken student, but just enough to let out a vibe that I didn't care about the surrounding crowd at the moment. I walked into first period and took my seat in the back. "Welcome Mr. Heartwell, You're here early." my teacher regarded me. Even though I could hardly stand her through the first few days, I started to smile. I wasn't sure if I had a smile, or an insane freaky grin because of everything that was rushing through my head. She laughed and told me she was glad to see me on time.
I was the only student in the room for about 2 minutes, and started on the new assignment as the others began to arrive. About 20 minutes after I arrived and began working, I was finished with my work. I was too mad to doodle, and too many people were working to chance a conversation with anyone. So I picked up my book and began reading.
Second period came quickly, and I was in no hurry to get there. It seemed strange that when I arrived, I had brought my gym clothes with me. I had been walking around zombified ever since the bell rang to release us to second period. When I arrived, Jacob was there and began walking over to me with a smile on his face. "Hey, you-" he began. I interrupted him immediatly. "So, you dating this girl who's lips were pressed against yours this morning?" I snapped. His smile faded immediatly, and a frown became the design of his face. "Jason, what are you talking about?" he asked. When he asked that one question, I was sure steam must have shot out of my ears. "Don't play fucking innocent with me, I may have been stupid enough to trust you in the first place, but don't you even act like Mr. Innocent!" I roared. He stepped back, and I was beginning to feel a sting of pain all over. I hated talking to him this way, why did he have to go and do such a thing?! "Jason, it was nothing." he tried to explain. A single tear trailed down the left side of my face. "H-how can you say that? I trusted you! What the hell, I thought you were gay!" I whispered. "I am, I am! It's just...she is an old friend of mine, from way back before I knew who and what I was.. She wanted a kiss, and so I figured a fake one never hurt anyone..and.......and.." he explained. "How come the kiss lasted so long?!" I asked, still with a face full of anger. "Because, she kept trying to kiss me, and I didn't want to be the one who broke the kiss.." he replied. "Well gee, I guess then I was the one who was wrong.. I should have known all this! How stupid of me!" I began sarcastically. "Jason, common! You know-" he started again. "NO! All I know right now is that the person I loved most in the world was kissing someone else. Someone else!" I whispered a bit louder. I turned to walk away. He reached out to grab me, but got shocked instead. Not picking up my feet may have just paid off. I walked back over to the rest of the class as they headed into the locker-room.
Jacob never did come into the locker-room with the rest of the class, and even through all my anger, I still worried about him. Where was he? Where had he gone? He hadn't done something stupid had he? The rest of the class was playing Basketball..a sport I had no interest in at all. Jacob was pretty good at basketball though.. I couldn't take it! Jacob kept popping into my head every time I tried to think about something else. I decided to ask the coach if I could slip out to go get a drink of water. He agreed and told me to 'hurry back'....whatever that means. I walked down the large and lonely hallways till I got to the boys bathroom. It seemed deserted.. I stepped out and began to walk away when I heard a snap from inside the bathroom. Someone WAS in there! I waited for a second to see if I could maybe hear and identify a voice. But there was none. It was very much quiet..but I could hear someone pacing or walking around inside. I opened the door a crack and took a peak inside. I saw Jacob, but he didn't look at all like the Jacob I remember. His face was red, his hair was messed up, and he was crying very softly. Instantly every bit of anger dropped out of my mind. "Shit, I so messed up! What the hell was I thinking?!" he began, pacing back and forth. "I can't even stand the thought of her anymore! I wish Jason would understand!" he went on. My eyes welled up, and I opened the door and went in. Jacob initially jumped back, and began wiping his eyes and face with his shirt sleeve. I walked up to him, kissed him on the neck and threw both of us into a hug. My heart felt so restored..so safe..so peaceful, so calm. I could feel Jacob's warm hands and body pushing against me, and all I wanted to do was to wipe this whole morning clean and start it over without that blonde girl. Without the pain that was endured. I could feel his tears dripping from his chin and onto my back. "I am so, so, so sorry!" I cried. "No, I'm sorry! I shouldn't have kissed her. This is all my fault." he cried too. "I-" I started, stopping at the sound of a fierce buzzing and flashing lights. I looked over to the wall to discover that the fire alarm was going off. "Crap," I said. "Firedrill," he replied. I kissed him on the lips before we set out into the hallway with the rest of the people that were fleeing the building. We were almost crumpled to death trying to get out.. Everyone was in such a rush! I looked down and realized that Jacob and I were still holding hands. He looked down too, and we dropped our hands in unison.
Later that day; after school, I went home and thought. I thought hard about all that had happened today. Could I trust Jacob? Did he really care about me as much as I did for him? I didn't know..but for now, I decided to trust him again. I walked over to the phone and called Mandy.
"Hello?" Mandy said tiredly..
"Hey, how are you doing?" i asked.
"Fine...uhmm, how about you? You were pretty upset today at school after that whole Jacob thing... I thought you might strangle him or something.."
"No, I'm fine.. We talked, and appearently he just wanted to make sure people did not form any thoughts that he is gay, and that he really does care about me. I thought it was bullcrap at first, but then i walked into the bathroom when he didn't show up in GYM, and he was in there crying his eyes out. We talked and stuff, and 'made up' just before the Fire Drill." I told her excitedly.
"Really? Hmmm.....are you sure you can trust him? What about that girl, what's he gonna do about her?"
"I dont know, but I think we're going to be closer together now. I don't know why, but i just feel it.."
"I don't know .. Are you sure?" she asked in a odd tone.
"Yes..I think so, why?" 'What did she mean by that?' I thought.
"I don't know..nothing i guess--i just don't want to see you sad. Okay?"
"Awww, you really do care about me!" I said laughing.
"Shut-up!" she snapped back jokingly. "MMmhey, I got to go .. My mom needs the phone." Mandy said at last.
"Okay, bye!!" I said as i hung up the phone.
I thought a bit more, and lit a candle that Jacob had given me one christmas. It was purple (the bestest color in the world!) and it smelled so great! I turned on the Stero and laughed to myself. 'It's been a long day, and tomorrow is going to be a good one!' I thought to myself as I turned on the T.V. and grabbed a bag of Chips. I walked back to the T.V. and sat down, watching the news.
I went to bed early that night. I was tired from all the events that had happened that day..
I woke up feeling refreshed and oddly cheerful. I got showered, dressed and headed out for school. 'Breakfast? No!' I thought as I was on my way. I didn't particularly like eating in the mornings for some odd reason. I listened to the radio as I drove to the school, laughing at one of the commercials. My laughing quickly stopped when someone used the term "gay" on the radio as an insult. Why do people do that? It's SOO repugnant!
I parked and headed up the way to the school. Mandy was right around the corner waiting for me, and began gabbing away as soon as she saw me. I smiled and walked on, half-way listening to what she was talking about. 'Why am I so cheerful?' I asked myself in thought. As soon as me and Mandy made it inside the school building, I saw Jacob and he came right over to me and Mandy, Mandy still gabbing away. What happened next nearly blew me away.
SMOOCH right on the lips in front of everyone in the hallway. I looked up dizzily to see if it was really Jacob who had kissed me in front of EVERYONE. Sure enough, it was. I looked around shocked. Nobody really acted as if they had noticed. Mandy stopped dead in her tracks with her mouth wide open. "Gotta get to class now, babe." Jacob replied and turned to head off to class. I sat there, still in shock with the same expression as Mandy. I turned finally to Mandy, and we headed off to class together.
I thought for a second .. He DID love me!
So sorry that this story was delayed.. Depression took its toll this summer, and I haven't really felt like working on the story. I'm feeling better now, and I will continue this story! School starts again this week, so chapter 4 might be a little while. Keep checking for it, tho!
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