Ok, so chapter 8 didn't quite pan out...haha sorry, I felt like quoting the Little Rascals...here you go.
I was crying, and running, my mind was somewhere else, and I couldn't tell you where. I was here...but I wasn't here here. I needed somewhere to go, I wanted somewhere to go...so why did I end up in my room?
"Jay....get up....run somewhere...leave...go!" I keep saying to myself in my head. I callapsed on the floor...and saw black.
"Jay....Jay....are you ok?" I heard someone ask as they shook me.
"Erik?" I said as I tried to see who was talking to me.
"Yea...it's me, what happened?" he asked in a concerned voice.
"mmm...I don't know...I can't remember." I said as he helped me to my feet and put me onto my bed. He went to my bathroom, and got a wet washcloth and put it on my head.
"You, don't got to do this." I said to him " I did just spaz on you." I said.
"Yea...I know...but there's this stupid thing called love that has me hooked on you...now shut up and go to sleep." He said with a smile.
"Only if you lay down with me." I said with a grin.
He climbed into bed with me, and was hesatant to wrap his arms around me. So instead I put my arms around him, and smelled his beautiful scent, and was instanly asleep.
"Erik, babe wake up" I said as I shook him awake. He slowly raised up and wiped his tears of sleep. I smiled at his cuteness and kissesd him.
"So I can touch you now?" He said half jokingly, and half seriously.
" I don't know...I don't even know what's wrong with me" I said as I turned from him.
"You were just raped...by your own step-dad that's what's wrong with you." He said. I could tell he was getting mad, so I wanted to quickly change the subject.
"So...how much trouble are we going to get in for ditching school?" I asked him.
"Haha...considering I haven't been here that long, and already ditching...the parents are not going to be to happy" He said with a grin as he took his shirt off and layed down and montied me to join him. "Yea, I don't think mine are going to care so much, they don't really notice me." I said.
"Yea?" He asked
"Yea, I'm invisible...to them anyway." I said as I layed on his chest and started to hear his heart beat.
"Want to move?" he asked with a smirk...
"If only I could" I said as I sighed and closed my eyes to stop the tears.
"Jay?"
"Jay what's wrong...stop crying." Erik said, trying to comfort me.
"No, Erik...I'm fine." I said as I wiped my tears away.
"You know what?" I said.
"What?" he asked back
"Let's do it....let's leave." I said, as I got up.
"Jay...I was kidding, that was a joke." He said. I sighed again...
"God damnit...Erik.. I know it is...I just...grr...I want to leave...just get up and leave." I yelled to no one in general.
" I know you do, I really do, but running away doesn't solve anything." He said, as he came up behind me and kissed my neck.
"Why is life...just...I mean...I told him no...I told him I loved him...and he still did it, now I'm used goods...my virginty is gone...what do I have to give now?" I asked Erik, in a fit of sobs.
" I don't know Jay, but you're not used goods" He said
"Yes I am Erik, who wants me?" I said. He turned me around so I was facing him.
" I want you, look at me!, this is the face of someone who wants you, you're not used goods, you're my boy, and you always will be do you understand?" He said.
" Yea...sure" I said as I broke from his grasps and sat on my bed. Just then I heard the door open and slam.
"Where's my bitch at? I needs some pussy." I heard my step dad said...
"Better yet, where's that pussy, do give me some of that ass of his?" He spat again. My body froze, as he walked into my room with his dick out...I saw black...again.
so I realized on chapter 8 that I didn't put a feedback log...sorry here it is
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Thank you
~Jay