Disclaimer: I don't know BSB or anyone connected to them in anyway. I don't know their sexual preferences, this is just a story. I made it all up in my own little twisted world. Well, it's not that twisted but that's not the point.
Warning: I don't know where this is going, or what will happen. I've had this story on my mind for the past couple of months. There may be sex, but if there is it won't be in the first chapter. So if that's what you're looking for you might want to look in another place. Now I'm going to try and not use any super natural beings. I may fail but hell trust me when I say I can't help it.
Authors Note: Well I'm back and on my BSB kick, and I've left for other bands alone. Now that most likely won't last for long so don't get your hopes up. If you have time and like this story check out some of my other stories. I'll leave a small list at the end of this chapter. I don't have an editor anymore, so most likely there will be a few mistakes. I would also like to add that if you have the time to please e-mail me. I love feed back and in some ways it helps get the next chapter out. Ok I'm going to explain my symbols and my way of writing. I write in the first person point of view, so to tell the story better I switch characters. I use these *** to do that and I also use those symbols to start off the chapter. I will put the name of the characters name in between the symbols when I start a chapter. When I change the character in the middle of the chapter or any part of the chapter the name will be at the end of the symbols. As of right now those are the only symbols I use. If I add more symbols I will explain, now on with the story I hope you enjoy it.
Nick
I gave my Mom the note and walked into the bathroom, I so didn't want to see this. There weren't any sounds for a little while so I walked back out into the room. I watched as my Mom read the note over and over again. She had tears falling down her face like an endless waterfall. She looked up at me and shook her head like she didn't understand. "Why Nick, why did you hurt him like that, he never did anything to you?" I couldn't answer her, because now I knew without a shadow of doubt that Brian was right. I had pushed him away because I was afraid I would lose the attention that I always got. The dumbest part was that was the reason I had hired him to begin with, now it was proven that I was an idiot. I hadn't only hurt my Mom, and Brian, but now I had also managed to hurt my brother. My twin, someone who should mean the world to me because of the blood we shared. He had even said I was the closest thing he would ever have to a twin. Only he hadn't known just how right he really was, he was my twin. I had to fix this, I had to go find him and help him anyway I could. Then I could work on getting everyone else to forgive me. "Mom, tell the guys I went after Ash, I'll be back with him in a day or two." She looked up and nodded but her eyes looked so distant I wondered if she had heard me.
I was in a limo before I had even called the air port to book a flight back to Richmond, Virginia where I had found him. I knew I wouldn't really have all that much trouble, I had fame on my side. That plus a purpose that meant more to me now than anything ever had in my past. The air port was really busy and I used every bit of pull that I had to get my flight. It wasn't anywhere near as easy I had thought it was going to be, and I owed a few people favors. I had still managed to get first class, and I was on the plane an hour later. I fell asleep shortly after the plane had taken off, an old habit so to speak. I was awoken right before the plane started it's decent into Richmond. After the plane landed I got off and went straight out to find a cab. I gave Jade's address to him and off I went to find Ash. After forty-five minutes of going around the city, we finally reached Jade's house, it wasn't what I had expected. This girl was far from what I had thought, she was rich, big time rich. I got out of the cab and checked the address a few times before paying the cabbie. I walked up to the front door and knocked softly it was answered seconds later. "Well, I didn't think I would see you, it's such a surprise." Jade wasn't smiling in fact I think she was about to slam the door in my face. "Before you do that please give me a chance to explain."
"You have ten minutes after that if I'm not satisfied I'm going to kick your ass right back out this door." I walked in and took a seat on the couch and started taking deep breaths. "I don't really know where to start so I'm just going to talk until my times up. When I first met Ash I thought oh my God he could be my twin. So I was like this could really help me out, and I could walk around without fear. So that started up and at first it was great, but then I started fearing something else. I didn't know then that it was happening, but someone pointed it out. Ash was taking all my attention away from me without trying. He had Brian chasing after him full speed, on top of that he had Kevin and the others wrapped around his finger. Then my Mom gets this feather up her ass and fly's out to meet him. Before she even left her house I knew something was going on that would change everything. So my Mom talks to him and I come to find that he may be my brother." I looked at Jade's reaction, her face had gotten three shades whiter and her jaw dropped open. "So after that I'm faced with the possibility that I'm no longer the best son. I get jealous, and don't even realize that's it's happening, since I've never felt it before. I talked the other guys into not talking to Ash for some lame test that really wasn't a test."
"Well, my Mom asked me to get some kind of DNA sample from Ash, so I got a cotton swap and got some of his spit. I put it in a glass jar and sent it to my mother, she had some test run. While all this is going on no one talked to Ash, again it was my idea. The other guys are highly pissed off at me by the way, so if anyone should be hated it should be me. Anyway a little while ago my Mom came back and gave me the results to the test. As it turns out Ash is my brother, now you're most likely wondering how all this happened. Well, when my Mom had us she didn't have the money to support both of us. So she chose to give up Ash, hoping that he would have a better life style. Years down the road she realized the mistake she had made with giving him up. So little by little she started looking without really looking, it's hard to understand. I didn't even know anything about this until a short time ago. What I'm here to do isn't to ask for forgiveness for myself, I don't deserve it. The other guys don't want to lose Ash as a friend, and my Mom really wants to get to know him. I would like another chance at getting know him as well. Now it isn't likely that going to happen anytime soon, but the others deserve a chance." Jade was nodding and I had gone past my ten minutes a little while ago.
"Ash didn't stay here once he got back, he went to see his family. I haven't really spoken with him since then, we got into a small fight. I thought that he shouldn't have given up the job with you. He on the other hand thought it was the best choice since everyone was treating him like shit. I don't really know all that much about his adopted family. From what I've heard there really nice people, but I don't even have an address. Ash has always kept me and everyone else in the dark about them, I don't know why. I use to wonder if they were as nice as he led everyone to believe, I still do. I met Ash in a mall a long time ago, he was crying and highly upset. I tried to just keep on walking and ignore him, only I couldn't. So I talked with him for a while and tried to cheer him up a little. We ended up becoming friends shortly after then, then he asked if I could help him find a job. Since I owned my own business I gave him a job, then I found out he was living on the streets. I made him come and live with me until he got on his feet. So I can't help you find him, unless he decides to drop me a line sometime soon. You're right, you don't deserve another chance. You hurt him, and I won't forgive you for that, not now or ever. Your mother and the others on the other hand shouldn't have let you do what you did."
"They have brains and hearts and should have known something was wrong with what you were doing. So I'm not really for sure if they even deserve another chance, but that isn't my choice. The only reason I'm even thinking about helping you is because it'll give Ash a chance to have a real family. Still I don't know if your family is any better than the one he already has." Jade was looking through a file cabinet, while I just took everything she said in. "This is the number he gave to call in case of an emergency, that was before I found him living on the streets." She picked up the phone and dialed the number, then handed the phone to me. "Lee residents, this is Tom speaking how may I direct this call?" I looked at the phone for a second and thought it was the wrong number. "May I speak with Ash please, it really important?" The was silence from the other end for a moment. "Ash isn't here at the moment, he should be back shortly, may I ask who's calling?" I didn't really know what to say, if I told him who I was then Ash wouldn't call for sure. "Could you please tell him Brian called, and that I'm worried about him." I hung up the phone and looked at Jade who had her eye brow raised. "Since that's the right number I know how to find the address." Jade took the phone out of my hands and started dialing. I just leaned back against the couch and tired to come up with something to say to Ash.
It wasn't really that easy I had been a real jerk, and only now did I really see that. "This is the address, I think you're in for a surprise when you find it. By the way you're on your own from here on out. You can use the phone to call a cab, after that leave because I don't want to see you." Jade left the room tossing the phone to me on the way out, I called a cab. Forty minutes later I was pulling up in front of a huge house, it was bigger than my own home. I paid the cabbie and got out, then slowly walked up to the front gates. I was about to push the button with the gates started opening on their own. "Master Lee, we've been worried about you please do come back in." I almost jumped out of my skin, there was a small speaker near the button. I looked around until I found the camera on the wall that held the gate. I walked in hoping I wouldn't get attacked by some guard dog or something. A young dark haired guy came running up and hugged me like there was no tomorrow. "Ash, man please don't take off like that again, I missed you." I didn't know who the guy was but he seemed to know who Ash was. "Come on Mom is waiting in the living room, she's wants to say she's sorry." I didn't even have time to talk, the guy pulled me up some stairs and then in a door.
The house was huge and there were people running around keeping it clean. "David release that young man, you're far to old to be pulling people around." David looked at me with total confusion the to his Mom. "I'm not Ash, I'm sorry I should have told you before, I'm Nick, his brother." David backed away slowly like he was seeing some kind of ghost. "Is Ash here, I really need to speak with him, it's really important." David's Mom walked over to me and smiled before taking my hand and leading me to a chair. "I do believe you're the one that called a short time ago. Anyway Ash took off about ten minutes ago because I tried to talk him into letting me help him with his fashion career. I don't know if he'll be back, the last time he ran off we didn't hear from him for a year. I'm not surprised that your his brother, I just had to look at you to see it. The only real difference is the way you carry yourself, and you don't have his scar. Does Ash know your his brother, or is that something you came to tell him?" The woman was simply amazing, she had me completely confused. "I'm sorry I should introduce myself, I'm Brenda Lee, Ash's adopted mother." I had pretty much figured that much out, but I was confused on how she had known so much. "I always keep my eye on Ash, even if he doesn't know I'm watching."
"I had a man follow your group and Ash around to make sure he was ok. So I know a lot about you, and what you've been doing to my son." It was the first time I had heard her call Ash her son, I don't know why it stuck out in my mind. "Ash has never really been to good with people giving him the silent treatment. Unless of course he's the one that started it or asked for it. Jeff dear why don't you come in here and meet Nick, he's Ash's twin, the one I was telling you about." A man in his forties walked into the room, he looked like a really powerful business man. "It's nice to meet you Nick, have you spoken with Ash yet?" These people weren't normal, and in some ways they were really cold. "No, I haven't had the chance, your wife was just telling me that he had taken off." Jeff nodded slowly and took a seat beside his wife, they were a good foot apart. "Your mother did a really good job of covering her tracks when she gave Ash up. We couldn't even track her down when Ash started asking about her. Now all that has changed hasn't it, we'll help you find him before he does something stupid." Her voice was so empty, it reminded me of something, I just couldn't put my finger on it. David walked into the room, he looked different from the first time I had met him. "Ash is on the phone, he said he's on his way back, I didn't tell him about Nick. Tom said to keep everything on the down low, Mom what's going on?" The woman simply shook her head and looked back at me.
That was when it hit me the house itself seemed empty even when it was filled with people. I noticed that David had changed into a suit, but his voice wasn't empty like his mothers. "Don't worry about it David, everything will be fine once the day is through." I watched as the life slipped right out of his eyes. "Ok Mom I'll be waiting outside for Ash, if you don't mind." His voice had become more like his mothers with every single word that had left his mouth. "That will be fine David, don't forget to invite him to your eighteenth birthday party." Brenda had something planned, I could tell from the peak in her voice. She wasn't a normal woman, there was something in her eyes that scared me. Jeff was the same way, only he didn't really scare me, it was more of a worry. "Mom, are you in here, David said you had someone waiting to meet me, and if it's another rich boy I'm not interested." Ash walked in, he was wearing a suit just like David had been wearing. He took one look at me and turned right around and walked back out, I jumped up and chased him. "Give me five minutes, please I can explain everything." Ash turned around and looked at me with disgust, and anger. So I started talking, telling him everything I had told Jade, only a little faster. His face didn't change, he just stood there and listened. "This is really low Nick, I didn't think you could strike out at me like this."
"Taking my dreams and hopes twisting them around so you can get a kick. I didn't think anyone could sank so low to attack me on such a basic level. If you were my brother you couldn't have hurt me the way you have." I was confused, I didn't understand why he wouldn't believe me. "Ash, he isn't lying, I've done some checking into it myself. He is your brother, by blood, I thought that's what you wanted." Ash looked over at Brenda, then back to me, he looked so sad. "I need time to think, I've got to get out of here, I just can't take this." Ash took off out the door, David followed him seconds later. I just couldn't move, it wasn't going to be as easy as I thought. I dialed Brian's number on my cell phone and waited. "Brian don't hang up, just hear me out, I've found Ash, and he knows the truth. If you want to see him again you might want to come here and help me get him back. It might help if you bring the rest of the guys, and bring my Mom while your at it. We're going to need all the help we can get if we're going to get him back." Brian agreed and hung up the phone, things were going to get very interesting in a short amount of time. "Calling in the reinforcements, a very wise choice, maybe you should have been the one we received. You would have fit in a lot nicer here, your more like us than Ash."
"I can tell that you have more control over your emotions than Ash. He has always let himself get carried away with his heart. You on the other hand know the true value of control. Ash is a great kid, but he always had a problem with following his heart and not his head." I looked at Brenda and finally understood why Ash had ran out of those doors. "I don't really know what to say to that, but I think I should be going." I bowed slightly and walked out, I don't know why I bowed it just felt like the right thing to do. I called another cab and asked to be taken to a nice hotel. After I got there I rented a floor out and waited for the guys to get here. I didn't know how many hours it would take so I fell to sleep putting my cell phone beside my ear. The phone went off sometime after night fall, it scared the living hell out of me. "We're here, what hotel are you staying and what floor?" I told Brian the information, after that he hung up without saying another word. I guess I was still on everyone's hit list, it didn't bother me too much. The guys didn't take long to get to the hotel, once there I filled them all in. My Mom was sitting at a table by the window in a corner. "I think I should talk with him first, I am his mother, and this is partly my fault." Brian shot up out of his seat and looked directly at me, I should have known this was coming.
"No, it isn't your fault, it's Nick's fault, him and his jealously." I looked away and tossed him my cell phone. "It's my fault I've already said that Brian, but none of you had to go along with it. So before you start placing some blame, why don't you take a real good look in a mirror. Cause you didn't have to follow me, you didn't have stop talking to him. It was my idea, and yeah I was being selfish and jealous, but what were you doing?" Brian had sat back down, he wasn't looking at anyone, I looked to the others waiting for a challenge. "Now if we would could stop fighting long enough to come up with a plan, we might have a chance at getting him back." Everyone nodded and it started, but after my little speech my mind was blank. I didn't really know what to do that's why I had called everyone in. We finally had an idea but it was going to take a little longer to pull it together. It had been my Mom that had finally come up with a good plan. Only it involved bringing my brother and sisters here so Ash could meet them for himself. Something like a family reunion, only it was a last ditch effort to get Ash to come back. Well, not really but it was a sure fire way to get him to at least hear all of us out. "Get on the phone and start calling, everyone should be here by tomorrow if they hit the planes now." I did as my Mom asked and started dialing, the last phone number I dialed was Jade's.
*****Ash
I was far to confused to stop moving or acting out in anger. My mind and heart were torn as I finally accepted the truths I had been told. Nick was the brother I had searched for, and his my mother was mine. Nothing made sense anymore, when everything should be clear. Everything I had ever wanted was now mine to take, only I didn't know if I still wanted it. My own family was cold to the core and held no real life or joy, except for my brother David. Still I knew in time he would be just like his blood mother and father. He would still hold an open mind, but soon his heart would grow cold like everyone else that lived in that house. It was the main reason I had left the place, I had felt so alone. David was the only one I could really talk to in that house hold and most of the time he was in boarding school. I refused to go to boarding school, I wanted to be normal in that aspect. It was also the reason I refused my mothers help with my career, I wanted to make it on my own. I wanted to earn something for myself, not have it given to me on a silver platter. So I left when I was young and tried to make it on my own, and I was doing a pretty good at it too. That was until I had decided to help a guy out at a mall, to only have my life destroyed by his jealously. My own brother, not known then but still he had hurt me far more than any had before. He gotten his friends to turn their backs on me.
I didn't really know why I was letting it affect me the way it was. Brenda had always said I needed more control over my emotions. Now I had to agree with her, had I controlled myself I wouldn't be wondering the streets. So I stopped and turned around to go back and face whatever it was that needed to be faced. Only I found that David had followed me this whole time. He had stayed far enough behind so he wouldn't interrupt my thoughts. "I'm sorry I made you follow me all the way out here." David shook his head and walked up to me. "Don't be, I needed to get out of there anyway, are you doing ok Ash?" I shook my head, I didn't know if I would ever be ok again, not after this. "I just don't know what to do, or even say for that matter, it's all so unreal. I've always thought about this family that I belonged to. Always thought someday I would find them and I would fit in perfectly. It's kind of dumb, but I never thought anyone in the family would try to hurt me. Then I find out that I've found that family, only my brother, who also happens to be my twin hates me." David shook his head and started smiling slowly. "Ash if he hated you then why did he track you down and try to talk you into coming back?" I guess David hadn't really heard everything Nick had said. "He did it because everyone was pissed off at him, not because he cared about me. It was just to save his own ass, and I have to ask myself if he even knows that."
"Ash, I know your upset about all this, but you have to get over it man. You finally have a family that's yours, I know we could never be that for you. I've tried to be your brother, but you can't me in because I'm not. You've never called me bro, or anything that even comes close. You never treated me like a brother, you were more like a really good friend. It doesn't bother me all that much, I knew that you just couldn't let yourself be anything more. Anyway, I've gotten really far off the original topic, their your blood give them another chance. Even if it's the last chance you give them, just try and be happy for once." I had to admit he had a way with words, and they were straight from the heart. "Thanks David, and just so you know, I always thought of you as my little brother. I just didn't want to, I don't know what I was thinking, but I do love you." We hugged and started back toward the house, it was going to be a very long walk. I knew we could have a limo come and pick us up, then again we were a bad part of town. To top that off we both had suits on, I don't know what I was thinking by coming here. "Hey pretty boys, got any money on you?" I stopped and turned around slowly, the had to be close to six five, and had a ton of muscle. "I got a little if you really want it, but you'll have to ask nicely."
The guy started laughing and pulled a gun out, maybe I should start watching my mouth. "Now why would you need a gun, you have a body that could easily crush us. Why don't you put that away, we're not looking for any trouble?" The guy shrugged his shoulder and put the gun away, now I was feeling a little better. I took my wallet out and tossed it to him, David did the same thing. "It's normally not this easy, I guess you boys have brains as well as looks." I didn't like where this was going as he moved toward David and I. "You could say that, thanks for the complement, we'll be going now mister mugger." I turned around and tried to move away only to have his hand clamp down on my shoulder. "Now you don't have to go running off, why don't you come with me real quick." I turned around once again, seeing that David was starting to shake. "I'll go with you, but my brother, he has to get home. My Mom would kill me if he was out past his bed time, him being underage and all." The mugger let David's arm go and got a better grip on mine. "Go on home David, I'll be there as soon as I can get there." He wasn't moving until I shoved him to the ground. "I said get your ass home, now listen to me and get a move on." He nodded slowly and jumped up running, he was out of sight in a short amount of time. "Well, now let's go pretty boy, I got something I want to show you." Now that David was gone I didn't have to worry about pretending to be brave.
"Listen, you really don't want me, and I've already given you my money." The guy smiled and punched me in the gut, I dropped to the ground. "Listen pretty boy, if you do what I say you might be alive by sun rise. If you don't then I don't think you'll be going anywhere but six feet under." I looked up at the guy and nodded, no need to go and get myself killed. He picked me up and walked me into an ally where he took all my clothing off. "Not bad, I really like the look, all innocent and smooth." His hands roamed over my body stopped every so often to squeeze or pull on something. "You know this don't have to be forced, we could both get our rocks off." I just froze, and I didn't trust my voice just yet. "Fine have it your way, turn around and bend over, or drop to your knees." I dropped to my knees, it was then that he dropped his pants and stuck is cock on my face. "Now suck it, and if you try anything I'll blow your fucking brains all over the place." So I started sucking his cock, all the time looking around for something to hit him with. I had a boyfriend that had been into this kind of thing, forced sex and bondage. Needless to say that relationship didn't make it past two months. The guy pulled me off his cock and kissed me hard. "Your really good at that, maybe I should try other areas of your body out." I shook my head and grabbed his ball's as hard as I could.
"One more word out of that mouth of yours and you won't have any balls. If you go for the gun I'll pull and sank my nails in as far as I can." He didn't move either from fear or the pain he was in at the moment. I slowly took the gun he had in a strap and held it up to his head. "I could easily kill you and get off scott free, doesn't that sound like fun?" He was shaking his head, tears were falling down his face like a river. "You should have just let us leave, then you would have had some money and your freedom. I don't care if I have to walk you to a police station without my clothing your going down. If you try to run I'll put a bullet in the back of your head, I may be a rich boy but I got skills." I released his balls and allowed him a minute to regain himself. The gun didn't leave his head for more than a second. "Now move it, or lose it big guy cause trust me I'd rather see you lose it." After leaving the ally I found that David hadn't really gone all that far and he had a cop with him. The cop took over and David held onto me for dear life, he was crying heavily. "Let me get dressed and I'll go with you to the station so I can really press some charges." The cop nodded and put the mugger, would be rapist in the back of his car. David wouldn't let me go until I asked him to so I could get my clothes back on. Once that was done he put his arm around my shoulder and refused to move it.
"I'm ok David, really, don't worry so much man, I'm stronger than I look." He was shaking his head and tightening his grip on my shoulder. "I can't believe you did that, just tell me to leave, you could have been killed." I laughed now that I knew there wasn't any danger. Only David didn't know just how close to tears I was, but I couldn't let him know. "I had to look out for my brother didn't I, it isn't like I could have just let him hurt you." David smiled lightly as I messed his hair up, now was the hard part. "Get on home, I need to go to the police station and settle things there. Ask Mom if she can keep all of this out of the news and all that good stuff." David nodded and called for a limo on his cell phone, I got in the cop car. I was at the police station for the next eight hours, by the time I left I was beyond tired. I went straight to the limo that was waiting and passed out once I was in. I didn't even pay any attention to who else was in the limo, I just went to sleep. I woke up in a bed, but it wasn't my bed it was a bed in some hotel. I was highly confused, and for a very short amount of time I thought I had been kid napped. That was until the door opened and a little kid walked in. I know that I had seen him somewhere before, but I couldn't really place the face. "Hi, I don't really know how to say this but I guess I'm your little brother."
To Be Continued
Other stories that I've written Falling, The Sryin, The Lost, Broken, It's A Wonderful Life, Gemini, Ghost, Where You Are, Libra, Simple Twist Of Fate, Angelic, and The Last Kiss Good Night