Dear fans or readers of my stories Double Jointed or Pinball Wizard... hell... even The Beauty..
I don't know when I will post next. But it will be delayed. How long? I have no idea. Things are going really bad for me right now, and I'm not sure if they're ever going to get any better. My own best friend, the one I thought I could count on more than anything, told me tonight that he was no longer my friend. He wants nothing to do with me.. I don't.. understand. I dropped out of school, and started an alternative program that will get me out faster. It's like, classes, minus the teachers, so everything is accelerated... but... it's like no one supports me on this.. I've always done everything to make people happy, and it's not good enough.. It's NEVER good enough...
I have to go now, but I just wanted to write and tell you all that it may be long before I post another chapter. But I will. Just... not... now... And I leave you with a poem I wrote last night.. somewhere in my mass confusion fighting with my ex boyfriend... So.. till next time...
---Love,
-Sum<3
sumacumlaude@hotmail.com
~Flow~
What once was beauty and is now pain Causes bursts within my veins Hate and anger spark to splice The peaceful path that flowed so nice
When the morning is finally around Rays of light hit the ground That which doesn't kill will justly stay Creating hurt within the day
And as the pain still lingers Blood does trickle down my fingers As this story not yet done Makes this person a solitary one
In the end when all is dead No feelings of warmth will yet spread Hate will return with vicious flurry Red returns to eyes in such fury
Nothing is as ever was But blood will flow as always does And feeling release may cause this Knowing pure and true eutopian bliss
Copyright 2001 - Sum L.