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He's all I need. Lonely Lance. We admitted it. Waking up with a vengeance. My surprise romance. Lance's Love Magic can be real. Brian's seven seas of loneliness. Truth of a guardian angel.
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Don't' Want You Back-Part 9
Mother May I
By Grayson S Vellar
Last time:
"I still have not heard from my mother since I told her about me back in December. I really wish she would accept me, but with my family, one never knows where you stand. After my dad passed away she pretty much closed herself off to the outside influences of the world and became a different person than I had ever known. There is so much going on in their lives now it seems pointless to think of her and this distance she has placed between us but," Kevin's eyes filled with tears and it was all I could do to pull him to me.
"Kevin you need to call her and tell her how this makes you feel," I knew it sounded simplistic but there was only one way to make all of this better. He looked up at me in an instant and smiled. I felt suddenly that I had created a monster of sorts and knew he was going to do just that.
Kevin let me go and raced to the front door. As he threw it opened, I caught up to him only to feel fear and regret for urging him to call her. 'What if I'm wrong I thought as he made his way through the house.
Part 9
He stood silent looking out across the front lawn. There in the driveway stood my Explorer above all things in the line of sight. He took a deep breath and faced me as my heart raced. Here was my moment of truth, here was our destiny.
"I love you," Kevin said taking in another sharp breath before continuing. "I have put off calling my mother for quite some time now. I just have never figured out how to tell here what I feel. If I tell her the truth I loss her. Before you came into my life there was never going to be anything to fill that gap," Kevin said stepping back into the entryway facing me with tears streaming down his face.
"I never meant to push for you to call here Kevin. I was just trying to help," I said looking down at the tiles in the floor.
"I know you would never ask me to make a decision on this. Frankly, no one can ask me to make that decision. It is mine to make when I choose. I want you to know something though." Kevin said placing his fingers under my chin and pulling my gaze to his. "I love you and when I am ready to tell anyone else you are going to be there. You are going to be the one I ask to support me through all of this," Kevin said leaning in and kissing me on the lips. "I love you." Kevin said before he began to lead us through the house to the staircase.
"Michael I know you have been through this house of mine. But, there is still one place you have not seen," Kevin said walking backward leading me up the stairs. As we reached the top landing. I knew the one place we had not ventured was his domain, I was anticipating this world of his. He began to lead me into his office, his personal space. This was his domicile. This was his safe haven. Often times in this room of cherry wood and plaster he hid away from the guys, his family and time itself.
"Normally the only reason I would have not let you into this part of my world is because it has become my second skin, I work here, I think here, I just hid here. But, from now on there is one who I want to be with me here and anywhere else I am," Kevin said pausing at the doorway. I was without words as he stood facing me we had come a long way in the past two days and it appeared this relationship finally meant something more than just healing previous wounds.
"Kevin I don't know what to say," I quietly replied while staring at Brian.
"Don't say anything just come inside with me I have something I need to finish," Kevin said taking me in by the hand.
Soon enough, he was completing his task. With phone in hand he began to dial his all too familiar home number, which he had grown accustomed to over the years. Ann answered on the second ring.
"Hello," Anne answered.
"Mom is that you," Kevin asked knowing it was the whole time.
"Yes, it's me Kevin so you have made you decision I see. Or rather hear since Howie is crying like a spoiled child," Anne said in a venomous tone of voice.
"Actually mom I have made my decision and I must say Michael would never asked me to choose," Kevin paused to see me look up at him at the mention of my name. "I choose Michael, I choose, Howie, Brian, Aunt Jackie, and the rest of the guys. I choose the family I have made for myself," Kevin heard a gasp on the other end of the phone as it went dead.
Kevin had finally done it. He had made his decision to live his life. He was both relieved and heart broken. But, at the same time, he now had me. Everything made sense to him when he took the time to remember he had me. I let out a heavy sigh as he saw the two of us staring at one another out of the corner of my eye in the mirror. It was something that I had been wishing for a few days ago. But with everything running the rocky course it had, there had been no time to smell the roses and look at the surroundings.
We began with a kiss. It was to be our very own long lingering kiss. We would be able to look at one another and give this kiss without touching lips without saying words. My mind thought of our past our future our lives so far and I realized it was right. After all the thinking and worrying and self-referencing to matters of the heart. This was the man this is what I want. This is the time to take my heart and give it unto him.
As we broke apart, there was a silence between us. We never broke eye contact as we gravitated out of the office and towards the bedroom. I pulled Kevin along towards the bed as he wondered if it was the right time for this to happen. I squashed any questions in his mind as he placed his index finger under my chin pulling my face up to meet his gaze.
"I love you, I trust you, I want you here and now," I said, continuing towards the bed.
"I love you even still, I love you even more," Kevin said.
"I've loved you all along hoping for this to happen. I have loved you from afar waiting 'till you would let me be here in your heart," I said lying back onto the bed pulling Kevin down on top of me. Slowly and gently, we removed one another's clothes.
We lay kissing embracing for what seemed like hours. Just the two of us, no schedule, no time to watch, and no prying eyes. The only sound we each heard was the sound of the others beating heart. Nothing to be broken nothing to be mended. Just the two of us, taking the time to make ourselves completely into one with passion from our hearts.
I rolled over with Kevin in my arms not releasing him until we were completely flipped over. He was now in control he was on top. As he drew his legs wide up into a squatting position sitting on my stomach, a look of confusion passed though my eyes. He immediately shushed me with fingers to lips trying to show me it was okay. I immediately kissed Kevin's lips showing him that it was all right if he was ready to give this to me. Kevin and I had never discussed it before but he wanted to give of himself to me.
As the kiss of lips and tongue ended Kevin began to kiss his way down my body all the while trying to relax all of his own muscles. He knew he could make it easier for both of us just by being prepared. He kissed down my stomach and stopped just above my patch of curly pubic hair. As he looked up to me, he saw the happiness and contentment he loved to see in me eyes. We had now as our time and placce, we were living it, and we knew each other well enough to know this was our time. Kevin loved me; I felt it so deep within. He felt it himself he wanted this, it wasn't just me he wanted to please; it was for himself as well. We were always the ones giving to another, it was time for us, and it was time for now.
Kevin point of view.
Back to my task at hand I slowly kissed lower smelling Michael's hair feeling its tickles around my chin and cheeks. I felt like I could not get enough of this man as I memorized every detail of the feeling. The hairs wafted around my nose as I continued down to my erotic prize. Michael's shaft was long and tall as I kept my eyes closed feeling my way along with my mouth rubbing gently along his shaft. The head felt full and ripe as my lips grazed it. Michael let out a small sigh of anticipation as I ran my tongue gently around the glandular pleasure.
With my eyes still closed, I ran his tongue around the head teasing him mercilessly. Michael thrust up into my mouth I knew he felt as if he was going to explode immediately. In all of Michael's life, I was sure he had never felt such intense sensations. His whole body quivered as my tongue made contact against the underside of the shaft and head.
Michael's point of view.
Instinctively I reached out to Kevin running my hands across his shoulders and trailing down onto the sides of Kevin's head. My fingers brushed through his short curly hair.
"That feels so good Kevin. Where did you." I had no time to finish my question as Kevin swallowed me to the hilt. All 7 and a half inches now resided deep in Kevin's mouth and throat.
"Forge... I asked... ooh Kevin's that feels sooooo." I was immediately without the feeling as Kevin began to slide up my body kissing me longingly. I tried to roll us over on the beds to return the sensation to Kevin but was stopped by his resistance.
Kevin's point of view. "Oh no you don't I'm not done yet." I said, while grinding my cock on top of Michael. I wanted this. I wanted it more than any thing in my life. My hand slipped back behind me and Michael felt me grab hold of wet hard cock, he took a deep breath in.
The tightness that surrounded Michael shocked him as I gently began to slide over his rod. Michael's face turned to one of bliss as the sensation engulfed his entire body. Never before had either of us felt such things. Never before had I been so consumed by the feeling another could give me.
His long cock was now buried hard into my ass as I felt my body exploding from the inside out. My cock stood rock solid as he rubbed gently against my prostate. I felt each breath he took as his cock swelled to its fullest pleasurable width. I felt my body relaxing as I began to rock harder along the shaft of the man I loved.
"Michael you feel so good inside of me," I said looking down as Michael realizing he had tears in his eyes.
Michael's point of view..
"It could never be like this with anyone else Kevin. You make me so. " I started to say until Kevin lifted himself completely up and slid back down again. I took in a sharp breath of air as he continued his torrent of motion sending tendrils of pleasure throughout me body. Kevin's head was thrown back as his own hardness began to expand to its limits. I reached out and grabbing hold running my fingers along the edges of the monstrous head.
"Ooh God Michael. That feels so awesome!" Kevin shouted.
"Slow down Kevin I want this to last," I breathed out as he collapsed on top of me. It had only been five minutes at the most but to us, it seemed like forever. The bliss was too much to contend with for time to matter. The emotion was more than either of us had felt in our life times so far. I looked into Kevin's eyes for a moment and we kissed until he was no longer impaled by me.
I rolled the two of us over now with myself on top. Kevin smiled back at me as I kissed his tender lips and rolled us back over with him now back on top. Our eyes met again as I began to lift my own legs vying for the attention they so wanted. To be lifted into the air as my lover plunged deep into his soul was my only desire. Kevin took his time and recognized the desire. Kevin kissed each calve that rested on his shoulders. His unsure, untrained ideas were coming into focus. He had dreamed of such desires he had wanted such equal gifts.
Kevin's point of view..
I began to slide inside, feeling the warmth. My lover's eyes spoke thousands of emotions as mine did the same. We had now become one not only in heart but also in soul. We lay mingling together in a mix of emotions and lust. I sunk deeper into the bliss as my entire shaft sank completely inside. I could feel it completely within as the warmth surrounded my cock and filled my heart with small beats of passion. As I began to withdraw, Michael's breath was stolen away. I plunged in and retreated repeatedly as I felt his heat rising from within.
Michael's point of view..
"Oh God Kevin that's it!... That's the spot... Harder! Please baby!" I was shouting, at the top of his lungs, as Kevin's dick drilled it's way inside of me.
"I love you so much Kevin. No one has ever made me feel this way before.." I said as he wildly looked at me and raised my legs higher into the air.
We had been facing each other now for 10 minutes. I was no virgin. He had been with several guys before. But, the emotions and passion had never made us so openly submit to the love we felt.
"Michael I'm going to cum.." Kevin said as he lowered my legs leaning in for one last kiss. He lifted himself up as I wrapped my legs around his waist. I felt him slid in farther this time as he slammed down inside of me one last time. His cock hit rock bottom sending me into my own torrent of cum as my assumed to be dead cock burst with pleasure along with his. I loved the feeling I never wanted it to end as I held my legs tight around Kevin holding him inside of me. We lay there for another 30 minutes in the euphoria. We had made the moment our own.
"We need to get ready or we will be late to dinner," Kevin said secretly grinning to himself knowing dinner was only half of what we would be doing this evening. I knew had set up everything for us and Howie knew what was about to happen. But in me heart, I hoped even still that it would be just a quiet evening of romance.
"Is it that time already?" I asked looking over at the clock. "Oh my God it's already 6:30 and we haven't even started getting ready," Kevin said letting go of me and heading into the adjoining bathroom.
"We still have enough time the clock in here is set fifteen minutes ahead isn't it," I said turning on the lights taking one last look at the bed we had just lain in.
Kevin soon was in and out of the shower as I joined him. He rushed through washing up as I took my time. He smiled at me and kissed me gently as he exited the shower. I tried to stop his rush and pull him back inside the shower with me. But it was too late Kevin had already gone into the room with the bed that we shared and no doubt in my mind he was tearing through the closet looking for clothes to wear.
To my surprise when I entered the bedroom there was no such act taking place. Instead, I found Kevin laying back on the bed holding a small silver wrapped box in his hands with his eyes closed tightly. I had no idea what was about to happen. What I did know was a present when I saw one.
"Kevin, are you all right?" I asked sliding up next to him on the bed.
"Better than I ever thought in this life that I would be," Kevin said gently handing me the box.
"Latter baby we really need to get ready and besides I have to give you a present too," I said teasing him handing the box back.
"Come on Michael you have given me so much already. Besides, I want you to wear this tonight," Kevin said opening the box and showing me a Sterling Silver bracelet.
"It's beautiful," I whispered. "But you still can't see your present until after dinner," I said, knowing the present was in my duffel bag in the corner.
"Then so be it, but your still going to wear it aren't you," Kevin asked trying to place it around my right wrist.
"Of course I will," I said getting up from the bed and standing looking down at him as he closed the clasp.
I looked down at the bracelet on my wrist and was in complete awe of the small silver herringbone chain. My eyes filled with tears as my mind turned the event over and over in my head.
Across Town at Jerry's loft...
"Brian going out tonight would be the most wonderful thing you could offer me. But, I must remind you of who we are," Jerry said thinking of the press that would be hovering around the two.
"Jerry there is no need to worry tonight. It has all been taken care of. I won't let them degrade us. We just started here but I know what I, correct that we feel. I won't let them make a mockery of this," Brian said kissing Jerry and his hands that had been wrapped together for the last fifteen minutes.
"I still can't believe a dream can be so real," Jerry said thinking back to the dream again.
"If I had not followed my dreams I would have never been here in the first place," Brian said thinking about how he had dreamed of loving and being loved.
"My dream of us was not all that pleasant Brian," Jerry said looking off into space as he recaptured the feels of the last week. "It was as if I was showing myself I would never be able to fully tell you and show you how I feel for you," Jerry said turning to face Brian on the leather couch.
"You might not, I might not. There may be times when we are so far apart we will have to wait to tell each other how we truly feel. But, if we are adults and we act as such then we will always believe in what is right. I believe I deserve love just as you do. I believe I can give you the love you want and I know you want to show me the same respect. In time we will be able, to show each other what we mean to one another. The only thing I ask is that your patient," Brian said looking at the coffee table in front of him. He was still not sure this was the man for him to be with. But, this was a good start for them to be honest to be secure in where they were headed.
"Brian I have not been with guys for a few months and then they realize it is not right. Rowan was my greatest love and he left me when he realized he was not gay at all. Family upbringing wouldn't allow him to love me the way I needed to be loved. Now look, don't think I am just going to up and leave you. I would never do that we have come this far and this is right I can feel it," Jerry said drifting off in thought. He remembered Rowan he remembered how he felt to love a man and never feel the love returned. He thought he was doing something wrong for all the time they were together.
"I love you," Jerry said to Rowan the night before he left him for good.
"I know you do Jerry, and I wish I could tell you the same thing. It is not that I don't want to," Rowan paused wiping the tears from his eyes as he continued. "My family would never understand. I know what I feel for you feels right. But, I also know it's wrong. I don't want you to hurt Jerry. I would never want to hurt you. I just know that we can never really be together all the time like we both want. It is a sin it is against everything my family wants for me. My mother has me set up to go out with girl still. I'm 26 years old and she wants to set me up. She wants grand children for Christ sakes," Rowan said crying into Jerry chest.
Brian watched as Jerry sat in silent thought. It was apparent to Brian, that Rowan meant a lot to him. It was so apparent that Brian was no longer sure this was the right place to be. If Jerry loved the man Rowan so much still what would become of them if he could not let him in, and get past the past.
"Brian one day we are going to say the words I love you and I just hope you mean them as I do. They have become hard for me to say and mean. I say them to you in my dreams but you were right earlier when you asked me to give you time. How can either of us love one another without knowing who we truly are?" Jerry asked more to himself than Brian.
"Well, for now let's just play it by ear. I think we both need time to get to know each other. I think going to this dinner tonight will be the best thing for us," Brian said standing up facing the direction of the door.
"I'm going to go home and change. I will be back here in thirty minutes to pick you up Jerr," Brian said turning around to find himself facing Jerry with tears in his eyes.
"So, have I scared you away from loving and believing in me," Jerry asked.
Brian stepped forwards and placed his arms around Jerry. The two held onto one another realizing that in time the complete aspects of love would come to them. Maybe not now but eventually, they would have to the opportunities to be together.
"You know Brian we are about the same size you could always just borrow clothes from me and we could leave from here," Jerry said not letting go.
"Okay lets get upstairs and get it over with," Brian said half-joking.
"Wait what do you mean by that?" Jerry asked.
"You seeing me without my clothes on of course," Brian said leading the way to what he thought should be the bedroom.
As Brian entered the small dance room, his eyes lit up seeing the mirrors surrounding the room. He had been in full sized studio's before, but never in someone's home. On the wall hung a picture of Jerry and just bellow it was a picture of a man. He was about twenty years old in the picture and his hair was slicked back as he looked slightly above the camera. The black and white photo mesmerized Brian as Jerry immediately took charge of the situation.
"That is Rowan, Brian," Jerry said pointing at the photo and pausing. "He used to live here practically. We would train new dancers for the studio here. Both us used to train dancers here. I just never come in here anymore. It is too hard there are a lot of memories in this room," Jerry said turning around to leave.
"Where is he now," Brian asked.
"That's the funny thing, he's a teacher of dance just across town in a rival studio. He contacts me every once in a while to talk about business; or so he says. I just don't return the calls. He knows I'm still here. He is still hiding who he is. I'm not!" Jerry said turning out to the hallway.
Brian could tell this was the person Jerry was supposed to be with. He reminded himself suddenly of a time when he was in love. He was young. It was high school. His mother recognized it. She made them stop being friends, brother, and confidants. It all hurt so badly now it was like it was yesterday all over again. Jackie would learn someday to love her son again. Over the past few years with Lee Anne's help he had managed to convince her he was still her son and she could love him again as she had.
"Brian are you coming? We need to get dressed," Jerry shouted from across the hallway.
"Yeah be right there," Brian said taking one last look at the photos and realizing what he had to do for Jerry. He had to make it all right.
To be continued...
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Comments 1-10 from last time went well. If y'all want to send in your own top ten let me know.
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Kevin got some this installment!
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Anne Poor Anne! 3. Kevin's a top! No wait a Bottom, Then again? ... 4. How many boy band members can you fit in an Explorer? (*anyone have the
answer.) 5. Jerry has a room full of mirrors. (kinky?) 6. Oh God! Kevin and Michael look out for everyone else all the time which one
of them is in charge? 7. No! Nick is too busy playing video game to get some. 8. A Bracelet! What, no ring? (AJ say laughing looking at Kevin) 9. Okay let me get this straight: Brian is with a choreographer and I am a
lesbian he uses as a cover... (Lee Anne asks) 10. Lee Ann is coming soon! (Brian says: I don't care where she cums as long as
She cleans it up!
My personal favorite of course is # 5... Look over there I can see you ass. Over there I can see your side and If I look at the right angle over there I can see your...
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