Disclaimer: This story is fiction and does not represent the real people that might be mentioned here. If you are under 18 or if it is illegal to read this in the country where you live, the city where you are, etc. then don't. Again, this is just some fantasy I concocted in my head so don't get insulted. Also, the songs I use in my story are from the Backstreet Boys.
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Chapter 9: Don't Wanna Lose Written by: "Bear"
Nick was tossing and turning on his bed. Thoughts kept flying through his mind and it kept him from getting a good night sleep. In flashes he would remember small segments of conversations he's had over the past months. It kept bothering him while his mind aimlessly wandered.
`Are you still in love with Brian?' AJ questioned.
`Tell me what's wrong Nick.' Howie asked.
`How are you doing kid?' Fatima said.
`Are you still in love with Brian?'
`Nick, talk to me...tell daddy what's wrong?' Kevin inquired
`You can always talk to me Nick." Said Lance
`Deal.' As a picture of him and Justin came into his mind.
`Are you still in love with Brian?'
`Promise?...I promise sweetie.' Fatima answered.
`Nick this isn't over...we'll talk later.' Howie spoke
`Deal.'
`Are you still in love with Brian.'
Then all of a sudden came darkness in Nick's mind. He was sitting on something that was moving. It was black outside with only the moon to provide light. The moving scenery was daunting yet mystical. Then a whisper started from the horizon. It was barely audible at first but then grew. It grew strength and then became a deafening roar. `Are you...are you...love...in...Brian...?' All around him from all corners came this voice and Nick tried to answer to make it stop. He covered his ears and tried to shout but nothing came out.
Nick tried to shut out the world..to shut out the voice. Finally, with a feeling of safety he stopped hearing the voices. Nick slowly opened his eyes and it wasn't dark anymore. His surroundings were white and were almost in a glow. He took a look around but saw nothing but light. His eyes slowly captured a figure. Nick's eyes adjusted and saw Justin appearing before him all wearing white pants, shirt, and jacket. He was almost angelic as he camouflaged to the background. Nick asked, "Justin, where am I? What am I doing here?"
Justin didn't anwer but just stood where he was staring at Nick. Nick was about to ask him a question again but Justin's mouth started to move. In a strange voice that echoed all around Justin said, "you...Brian...are...you...love...you...Brian...are" Justin didn't stop but kept repeating it over and over again. Nick tried to say something but found that he couldn't speak once more. He tried to yell to make him stop but couldn't. Then, it change again and he was back at the dark place but this time Justin was with him still repeating the same question again and again. Nick started to scream to make it all stop but it kept changing from dark to light and the question still lingering. Nick fell on his knees begging for it to stop but instead Justin slowly started to disappear and go away from him. Nick quickly got up and ran after Justin but it seemed the more he ran the farther Justin was away from him.
Nick jolted upright from his bed. He was perspiring furiously and his bed was all wet. His mind was racing and his heartbeat a mile a minute. He quickly got out of bed, ran out of his room, and started banging on the door right across from him. "Justin...Justin...Justin..." The door slowly opened to still half-sleep Justin wearing only boxers. Nick quickly grabbed Justin and gave him the tightest hug he could. "I was so scared. I thought...I thought...Oh God...I was so scared."
Justin now fully awake and fully aware of what was happening suddenly felt fear for Nick. "Nick are you okay? What happened?" Justin said returning Nick's hug.
"Oh Justin. I was so scared. I dreamed...I dreamed...oh God...I was so scared Justin."
"It's okay Nick. It's okay, it was only a dream."
"It was so scary...I was so scared...I love you so much, Justin...I love you so..."
Nick quickly tightened up as he heard the words he said. A different kind of fear came into his heart as what might Justin's reaction be to his words. He became taut and stressed within Justin's arms as Nick waited for Justin's answer.
Justin continued to hug Nick and pat his back for comfort. Justin slowly coed Nick to console him. "It's okay Nick. It's okay. It was just a dream. I love you too...you big baby." Justin giggled.
Nick slowly relaxed within Justin's arms and pulled away a bit. He wiped his tears off with the back of his hands and looked at Justin. "I'm sorry Justin. It's late...I shouldn't have waken you up."
Justin took a hold of Nick's shoulders and looked at him. "Nick, it's okay. You needed me. Now will you tell me about this dream that scared the hell out of you."
Nick took his eyes away from Justin and started to stare at the floor. "It's kind of stupid. It's not really that important."
"Nick, if it scared enough to wake up in the middle of the night and get you to cry then it is important."
"I...I don't know. I can't talk about it right now."
Justin sighed and pulled Nick back into a hug. "Okay but if when you're ready to talk about it then tell me."
Nick lavished being in Justin's arm and relaxed into it. "Thanks Justin."
"No prob...what's best friends for right?"
"Right."